sighh.. june holidae.. june holidae.. think until sianne liao.. have sooo many projects to do!! reallie killing miie!! have.. geog.. maths.. lit.. higher chinese.. history.. and home econs.. so many rite?? i'm tired.. cant even rest in derr june holi.. sick larhhs.. i feel sick.. think boud all these projects.. i oso have 7choir prac.. and 1of them is from 9.30am to 5am.. 7hrs 30mins.. woahh.. sobbs.. i dun feel lyk goin for those pracs.. but coz of derr choir olympics dhis coming july.. i have to jia you liao!! wishh miie guudd luck.. gonna collapse.. juzz kdn.. lol.. my results.. released liao.. overall quite ok baa.. deteriorate abit.. i mean derr overall %.. its above cohort average.. so not dat bad liao.. aniwae.. guess he doesnt play maple.. coz.. i still owe him smthh.. nvm.. shant elaborate animore.. vehh tired liao.. dats all for todae.. buaiis. ((:

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i became derr chairman.. yeahh.. pretty hapi. but i thot was gonna be jia yi or shafiqahh.. i oso din expect farah to be vice.. but ok lorhhs.. she be vice den vice baa.. i dun care.. hmm.. i wanted to be secretery.. coz not as stressful as chairman.. den all derr secretery nid to do is.. lykk.. during legacy period.. juzz copy some notes down on wad teacher sae lorhhs.. dats all.. not so toughh.. but.. hope dat i'll have a nice experience to rmb baa.. hmm.. xiao jiao is 'retiring' liao.. so sad.. i think she has been er.. a relatively guudd chairman.. ((: xiao jiao jia you!! haha.. she's reallie nice.. derr class.. erm.. quite respect her.. dats a guudd thing.. hhmm.. i dunno wadd to do.. i reallie dun.. i wonder how my life would be nxxt semester.. its not as easy as a non-class com members.. i'm think i'm gonna get hell.. so stressing.. lol.. den i cannot use handphone in class liao.. but.. i can book ppl.. *evil laughhs* no no no.. i not so evil derr larhhs.. i dun lyk booking others.. total lame.. lol.. i muzz be guud ger liao.. veri veri guudd ger.. sianne.. wiish miie bad luck..

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sighh lo.. my heart hurts.. i reallie dunno yy.. not coz of choir.. even tho ms lim(conductress) scolded us.. but.. dats not derr reason y my heart hurts.. i juzz noe nothing.. once again.. it happened again.. i dun feel lyk mentioning.. but he said so himself.. i dunno wadd to do.. or sae.. my mind is blank.. i cant think of any other things.. i'm feeling abit stressed up.. i dunno over wadd.. but something.. i'm tired and sad..


hmm.. i guess i still miss him lots.. no other meaning.. juzz miss lo.. sighh.. gonna have laptop soon.. term 3 baa.. den can play maple.. *smiling* i play maple to kill tym.. sighh.. but i'm so sick of everything now.. dun feel lyk doin other things.. i juz feel lyk.. READING COMICS.. lol.. i'm obsessed over comics.. hehe.. i lyk derr comic entitled --> mi hu gong zhu'' dat book reallie rawks.. boud a gal n boi.. actaully dey were not supposed to be together.. coz of some reason.. but in derr end.. dey got married.. n live hapily ever after lo.. its reallie a nice n sweet story.. should read it..


i'm tired.. i'm sad.. i dun feel guudd.. i dun feel well.. my heartt hursts more than anibody..!!! sobbs

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i'm goin to vic concert hall to watch a performance by my sku's dancers n 'stringers' from string ensemble.. i hope its nice.. my principal sae it was nice.. my teachers oso sae it was nice.. they saw derr rehearsal derr.. sighh.. have to take mrt there.. den have to walk a long way some more.. sianne.. todae have homework to do oso.. science n geog.. den i gonna reach home oni at lyk.. 10 plus lo.. ahh!! gonna miss alittle of da chang jin.. so sad.. den have to rush through my hmwk wen i get back.. sighh.. i wonder wonder wonder.. wen can go play badminton.. haven have a 6one`05 gathering for quite a long tym liao.. derr last tym i met them was.. 8th april.. my guudd fwen derr burfdae.. aniwae.. i dun miis chris liao.. i oso not interested in him liao.. coz of my grandmama.. thhxx to her.. coz she is derr wann i miis most.. luvv most.. not chris.. maybe once.. but not now.. i'm so not interested.. in him.. grandmama.. thhxx loadds kae!! Luvv ya!! ((:

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i still think of her... i reallie do... i feel lyk cryin... i juzz feel lyk cryin kae.. for her... for everybody?? basically for her larhhs... i'm still feelin vehh sad... its too saddening... actually... pretty boring rite?? reading a post which is lyk... almost derr same as derr previous post... but... these are derr oni things i can sae larhhs... i have no mood to think boud ani other thing now... all focusing on her... dats all... sighh...

how nice she could revive(did i use derr correct word??)... but i noe its impossible... coz tym juz goes lyk dat (lyk wadd??) n it has become history... so... i cant turn back derr clock... sighh... sighh... dats all i could sae... sighh... sighh...

i reallie miss her badly!! i miss her more than anibody!! i luv her more than anibody!! even more than chris... sighh... everything juzz doesnt turn out to be derr way i wann... sighh... everything is goin opposite ways... i dunno wads happening?? izzit all boud doom?? DOOM??

everything is DOOM!! i hate everything...!! ok... lets get dhis rite... i dun hate some things but... practically everything... nth is interesting to miie now... nth is fun to miie... nth is... hapi to miie... nth is... clever (clever?? wad clever??) to miie...

in my mind is juz NOTHING!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! i feel lyk screaming all derr wae to hell... *suggested by marianne: scream in yor pillow* maybe dat will help but.. my cuz is alwaes at home... so if scream at home... she'll think dat i'm lunatic... but i'm reallie sooo stressed up by dhis... DOOM thinggy... (wadeva is dat aniwae)

sighh... no more CAs for derr rest of derr term.. i think... so gudd larhhs... can relax a little... a tiny winny bit... i'm reallie in no mood to continue typin... so i'll juzz end off here...

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too bad... she left yesterdae... dhis country... dhis earth... dhis world... dhis universe... dhis milky way... dhis galaxy(is derr milky way n galaxy derr same??)

i cried derr whole niteX wen i heard derr news... its reallie sad sad sad sad sad sad... she cared for miie more than anybody too... she wld buy anitin i wann including necessary...

i cried wen i was about to sleep too... i was realie too tired... i slept after awhile... den dhis morning... was almost late for sku... sighh... sobbss... i juz feel lyk crying my whole life... dhis is derr first tym i cried wen somewann is gone foreva...

i neva cried untill lyk dat b4... even in sku i was crying... den my fwens were all lyk... asking miie if i m okae...

nxt n derr subsequent years' CNY is not gonna be derr same ani more... she's not goin to be there to gimme ang bao ani more... n no more xtra stuffs... maybe she buy my fav food?? SEAWEEDS!!! dats wad she sometyms gimme wen i go to her house -LoL-

aniwae... i'm neva okae lorhhs... but... wen derr lessons of derr dae started... i started to lyk... calm down... n was as normal as eva liao... Science was derr first... no more Mr Heng... now back to Mrs Liew... mr heng dunno posted to wadd sku liao... ok lorhhs... everything is back to normal again...

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Thursday 4 May 2006

@18:56

Life is still boring although its peaceful... no disturbance can actually make life boring... but wait... if there is disturbance... i'll scold... especially wen i'm irritated... fcuk will be what i scold... so vulgar... lol... i'm not so guai wann... dats y scold vulgarities at tyms... ppl out there... let miie tell u dhis... if gals hu scold too much of fcuk... will bcome 38(san ba) so pls dun use too often... i dun use them often... i onli use it wen i m reallie reallie angry... okies... y m i tokin boud dhis?? aiyar... hu cares...

1. Why is life so diff??
2. Can ppl live in peace without feelin bored??
3. Can someone answer miie??
4. Why is maths so tough*referrin to algebra*??
5. Why are ppl bad??
6. Why cant dey be good??
7. Why do ppl act cool but actually not cool (acbc, act cool beh cool) *referrin to jq n some ppl... i shall not mention*??
8. Do angel exist??
9. Do miricales happen??
10. Why cant i juz get over him??

I nid miricales to happen... but once it happens... pigs will start flyin... n derr sky may juz drop at any tym... coz its miricale... miricale doesnt happen ani tym u lyk... it onli happen wen u reallie cant be helped... but i reallie nid miricales to happen... but... it juz dun!! derr actual fact is... he has alwaes been in my heart... my mind... aww... -LoL- but too bad... i'm not intersted in him... but... i m alwaes reminded of him... wad sense is dhis larhhs... he's stays in a far far far away land... (peter pan??) hehe... no larhhs... life is juz soo boring... sku has been quite boring too... so... wadd can i do?? can some wann tell miie??

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