Are there those who do not meet their One or have crossed paths with them but somehow remain single for the rest of their lives? Are there those who are fated to be single?

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Omg. One of the most embarrassing thing happened today.

Only at the end of the tutorial, the sensei took attendance. And guess what. I was in the wrong tutorial class. Hahahaha I was allocated TOMORROW 10-11. But I went for today's instead. Freaking paiseh!! WTS! I was still frantically reading my readings yesterday night, afraid that the teacher might go through something from there. But heng uh, don't have :D HAHA. The tutorial class was an interesting one. Hehe I like how the Jap teacher speaks :D

I wonder if it'll be the same teacher for tomorrow's session.

Psy lecture last night was really interesting! Hope I'll enjoy my lectures more in the future! :)

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Hello wello~
Kinda lazy to blog long stuff all the time.

Tuesday, 21 August
I have been attending GEK1535 lectures alone for the past 2 weeks. I'm like a lone ranger with no friends. Then we had to answer some questions during lectures through sms and everyone else discussed answer while I just had to figure out the answer myself (and I'm not even attentive in lecture at all. Haha I totally GG)


Then at night, met Joshua to go Ikea. Love the stuff at Ikea :) I bought some coloured cups supposedly for my secondary school friends who were supposed to have a sleepover in my room but in the end, it was cancelled. So yep, now the cups are just lying in one corner of my cupboard!

Wednesday, 22 August
Hai, the day which I felt horrible and guilty. But it wasn't totally a bad thing that I felt really guilty. BECAUSE I WAS ATTENTIVE DURING LECTURE. I didn't doze off or want to doze off like the usual. Because my mind was totally filled with guilt which kept me awake throughout the lecture.

But I'll make it up to you! (You know I will!)

In the afternoon, met Jerrie for lunchie and then we headed over to Sim Lim Square to get some of our lappie stuff :D And then we walked around Bugis Street for awhile. Kinda nice to have a shopping friend, even though mostly I like to shop alone. Spent a lot of money again..!! >.<

At night, our happz Angsana Level 17 had steamboat! :D We're such an awesome floor! The food was really good la! Then the guitars came out. Hahahha and some of the guys played the guitar while the rest of us sang to the music :) SPASSSSMMMMMM MAX!!

Thursday, 23 August
After JS1101E lecture, Emm and I had lunchie at Hwang's. Whoa, the last time we actually shared stuff and talked was during Psy camp..! That was really long ago. Then she came over to my room and we talked even more ^^ Really like it when others share stuff with me :)

The whole day I was just busy with lessons and at night was Psy Society Welcome Tea. Lol the food was very good ._. Eh but so awkward to play games >.< Then went back to Angsana and we had a neighbourhood meeting with our resident fellow. Hmm, we're the pioneers :) It's the beginning of a new chapter in our lives in Angsana! ^^

Friday, 24 August
No lesson! Haha I'm so gonna love Fridays :D Settled some last minute tutorial registration in the late morning at the Psy General Office and I really hope to get the tutorial timeslot I want :(

Then met Joshua for lunchie at JCube and then Jerrie came later and we caught Brave (Again, for me). I like the movie. Even though it's my 2nd time watching, I'm still laughing at some of the scenes, loving the story :)

Yup, that's about it for this week.
And now I'm just back at home. Chilling~

Did you notice?

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I think we're like asymptotes.

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Feel kinda emo today and my headache is not helping at all.

Must be the milk tea. Idk.

Elections and campaigning for CSC are coming soon. A bit worried.. I feel like I lack that drive, that passion, that far-sightedness to run for a position in this committee. I don't feel confident at all about my abilities. I know that thinking negatively is not gonna solve anything but I just feel crappy. A lot of enthusiasts in Angsana are running. I'm not the high type, I'm not the happz type, I'm not the charismatic type who can attract people with one speech/video.

I just don't feel confident and like I'm on the losing end after knowing about some people who wanna run for the CSC. I'm like cursing myself before anything starts.

I know I should be more positive right.

Need to feel better about myself.

I can do it.

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Hi, are you insecure?
Because I am.

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Is this God's way of saying no to me?

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Do I love myself enough?

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Hmm, had this super duper long chat with Joshua last night.
And, still, no conclusion.

Oh wait, there was a conclusion, towards the end. I'm so awesome ikr.

Anyway, I'm having stomachache now. Argh, must have eaten too much for dinner last night and I didn't have breakfast this morning either. Not exactly stomachache but I just know my stomach got a lot of air la!! :( :(

I just realise, it's called gastric -_-

Sometimes I'm not really sure of what I'm trying to do. I'm not really sure what I'm looking for. I'm not really sure why I'm doing what I do. I just have this overall really weird feeling.

"Welcome to my silly life."

Did you see that tear?

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Sad :( But this is such an awesome song.

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The same thoughts haunt me over and over again.

How can I be this amber?

Anyway I just reached home and bathed not long ago! It's good to be home and my sister's really cute! She resisted me a little when I hugged her and bugged her if she misses me but after awhile she gave me a hug and kissed me. HAHAHA :D Hugs are so nice! Sometimes just these little little things are enough to make life complete man :D

I like hugs and especially holding hands. Kiss maybe not so. Haha cuz later got saliva how :P But my sister always resist me when I try to hold her hand :( :( Still, I love my sis ttm! :D

Yesterday, Cass and Joshua came over to my room at Angsana! Haha super random visit but I really like showing people my room leh :P I think it smells nice and it's.. quite neat? Haha! Plus I'm proud to show people the cui table that I built ._. Lol we camwhored a lot.

And I realise I sometimes can look quite kawaii leh *thick skin* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. But I wish I didn't have my stupid mole. Hate it ttm! :(

Yesterday night, met T4 people at Timbre! Haha I didn't even drink at all. Woohoo! Wasn't in the mood and I don't have so much cash. Lol. But I was super high from the live band. They were freaking awesome. Love live bands~!

Today, went for class outing. Miss the class a lot! Past two weeks I've been busy with school stuff and it feels like it's been a long time since I last hung out with the class, actually 2 weeks only. We caught Brave at Katong GV. I like the show! It's good for a PG/kids movie. Hahahaha. It was hilarious.

Then watched the guys played pool nearby before taking a bus home with Martin. Haha it feels like we haven't talk for a long long long while.

Set the world on fire

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"I can't be your boyfriend... But that doesn't mean I don't love you."

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You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

Finally I had a lecture today which I didn't think it was that boring.
But I feel kinda dead today probably cuz of the lack of sleep but today's kinda a fun day doing our Fledgling Week activities, celebrating birthdays, branding ourselves, taking lots of photos etc :D

Quarreling with my parents over hostel stay was definitely worth it because I get to meet such awesome bunch of people :)

"If you could wake up in the middle of the night, just thinking of me."

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Hmm, looking at how often I wrote in my diary this year, I realise I've been through quite a bit this year. Those happy and sad times, all recorded, somewhere. Maybe this could be the best year of my life, going through so many kinds of emotions which is why it's the best because I experience all sorts of things :D

I feel really blessed.


My Angsana neighbour, floormates and friends are ever so awesome. I love the fact that we could have impromptu meetings and outings all the time. We could just knock on our neighbours' door, "Hey, you wanna go ____ together?" Hostel living is like the best thing ever :D

Your aspiration, my inspiration

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Lectures officially started on Monday.
They have been boring.. And I could almost fall asleep. Gosh, I need more sleep and I need to get out of the holiday mood..! But Ideas & Exposition class was interesting though! ^^ Love Angsana ttm!

But anyway, as usual, I was distracted by the thoughts in my head.
Hope they go away real soon. I need to be conscientious and attentive in my uni life. Can't afford to screw up uni like I did in JC.

I'm not ready for anything at the moment.
Hope no new problems surface.

A hint to you for you to stop.
A hint to me for me to pull back.

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"Maybe... This isn't a break up. Maybe this is... 2 friends getting back together."

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"the beauty is that the spontaneity and randomness of it all is exactly what makes the friendships that arise even more meaningful."

Just had a fruits party with my floormates in my room. LOL!
I love the table that I built :D Freaking awesome. Please come and visit me one day.

Today has been a damn cui day. Rushing from place to place and feeling sleepy cuz I didn't have any sleep last night. My bio-clock is very screwed up now after all the camps.

I slept through the sermon. I felt really bad because Jorene was the one who invited me to her church and I actually fell asleep :x

A lot of thoughts haunted me today. The warmth, the happiness, the disgust, the guilt.

I'm in perpetual dilemma when it comes to certain issues.

What are you thinking now?
What were you thinking then?

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Giving in to lust. Again. F***.

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Wow, finally have some time to blog! I've been busy the past 2 weeks, meeting up with people, going for camps, making new friends, shopping for stuffs for my room etc etc.

26th July, Thursday
I met up with Jorene! Haha she wanted to celebrate my birthday but I kinda spoilt the surprise because she asked me if I was free on 23rd July and since it's my birthday, if anyone asks me out that day, they surely have an intention to celebrate with me right. Hahahaha. But in the end, she wasn't free on 23rd so 26th it was! We had dinner at Liang Court's Saizeriya. Food is really cheap. Omgzxasdfzx.

Instead of getting a cake, cuz it was late and there wasn't any small cakes available, we had Mazazu Crepe! Damn nice waffles. They should totally have more outlets around Singapore.


Then we walked around Clarke Quay area to take photos :D

It was a really simple night but I enjoyed it! ^^

27th July, Friday
There was post Psy camp gathering. And lol, the venue was at Bukit Batok. Hahahha. Had to travel all the way there. I really need to get used to travelling to the west. Our OGLs were really sweet.. Dolly's birthday was on the 24th and they bought us a slice of cake that night and everyone sang birthday song for us >.< I was really surprised!! Then we played some games, talked a bit before we went home.

This period of time, we were mostly talking about uni graduating requirements, which modules to take etc. Haha can't believe that school is starting soon man.

28th-30th July, Saturday-Monday
ANGSANA EXPOSURE CAMP. It was the mildest camp ever. Hahahahah. But I had quite a lot of fun because my OG is freaking awesome. We all live on the same floor (Guess which floor I am staying :D) and they're friendly, funny, interesting and simply awesome. Can't believe we're all gonna live together for the next 2 years! ^^


On Monday night, met Joshua to have dinner. Whee~ Finally collected free food and voucher from Ichiban. HAHAH. I know I damn auntie la ._.

31st July, Tuesday
My last day of work!! :D And my colleagues were really damn nice >.< The 2 newest staffs who sits in the same office with me actually bought my a slice of cake as a farewell gift and my supervisor treated me to lunch. I always felt like I wanted to leave the company and stop working but on that day, I felt a little sad leaving them! >.<

I think working has been an enriching experience :)

1 August, Wednesday
In the afternoon, went to school for some orientation talks. Lol the Japanese Studies lecturer was really hilarious and passionate. Reminded me of Mr Seng. HAHAHA. At night, I had dinner with my OWeek OG. It was the first time we met each other. It was a pre-camp dinner. Lol from the first time we met, we were already crazy. And yes, after going through OWeek, I confirm that they are really a crazy-high-but-can-be-really-chill bunch of people. Hahahha.

2 August, Thursday
Bidding day. Lol. Stresssss. Hahah. But anyway, glad to have really helpful seniors who helped us with the bidding stuff! Thumbs up to them! :D

3 August, Friday
Ikeaaaaa with my awesome floormates! :D Bought a lot of junks for our rooms. Haha. It's our first outing together and it was an enjoyable night! ^^


4-10 August, Saturday-Friday
OWEEEEEEEEEK WITH CRAZIES. The first day went by really slow :/ But 2nd day, sports day, was uber fun! ^^ Love it! And there was Beach Day on Wednesday. I got dunked like over 20 times -_- Uncountable already. Dunking is like the epitome of Beach Day. I got helicopter-ed, fireman-ed etc. Super fun. Hahaha. Sometimes I voluntarily get dunked also :P

I got sunburnt though :/ Painnnnn.

I'm quite dark now. Haha don't be surprised when you see me. lol.

Anyway, the camps that I went for made me a little more confident about my body. Like how I have never let down my hair when it's this short and how I'm always conscious about my weight. But after Psy camp, I started letting down my disgusting hair. LOL! And after Beach day, I got dunked more cuz I was one of the lighter girls and guys actually said I am so light.

A lot of things surprised me honestly.

Glad that I went for the camps :)

Then there was social night. We went to Club Avatar. Gosh, clubs are not my thing. I wasn't high and I didn't enjoy the dancing. After being in the club for about an hour, pretending to dance, pretending to go high, I walked out of it and saw a few of my OGmates outside, chatting. Haha so yes, htht! ^^ Haha so much better than clubbing please!

But oh yes, please invite me to a club if you know there'll be people making out :P I wanna see.

HAHAHAHHA.

On Thursday afternoon, I went IMM with one of my floormates to get stuffs for our rooms. At first I felt kinda sian that it was just the two of us cuz I wanted to shop together with more of my OGmates :( But I realise that I could talk to him quite well and that was pretty cool cuz he was that serious, serious guy and I didn't think I would be able to talk much with him. Lol. That afternoon was great! It's like we were newly weds, getting stuff for our house, getting opinions about certain items that we wanna purchase etc. HAHAHAHA.

It has been 2 awesome weeks filled with activities. I'm kinda tired but it has been fulfilling :)

I AM ALIVE.

Take me away before I run

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