I'm having mixed feelings now. A2 Chemistry.. But I think what's done can't be undone, I'll just have to work even harder in the holidays to get better results! Even though I reached my targetof B4, but somehow there's a tinge of sadness luh D:

It's alright! Jiayou, Vivi!

Then EMaths :D Quite happy with my results :D

Lol and Livia uh. She's really crazy. Haha her Chemistry got like 87.5!! And somemore orh, this Mid Year paper was quite difficult and she actually got 80+!! Haha her EMaths like.. 90+ She's really awesome luh. How I wish i was like her. So smart :/

After school, did Library Duty. Blahblahblah.
Ohya, met Joce at the Bus Stop after duty and her Chinese IR. Lol we bus-ed to Bedok Interchange together and went to Edo Sushi! I was craving for Sushi (for whatever reasons. lol) and so I got an Onigiri :D

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ONIGIRI :D

Ja, gotta eat dinner le!

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Today uh.. Lol. Nothing much. Really.

I wanted to continue watching My Lucky Star (Part2). I watched 1episode yesterday and it was SUPER sad T.T I think almost every episode drives me to tears D: so in the end, I didn't continue watching in the morning cuz I just didn't feel like watching such a sad part D: SIGH. Why did things turn out this way?!!!

Sometimes, I wished that my life was a drama
But, now I think, it's better to lead a peaceful and simple life

I ended up watching Gintama :D Finally, Megavideo let me watch -.-

Afternoon was Church. Yea, so that's my day..

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I'm in a super bad mood right now D: Cuz of Ahyi and my sis. They really like to create problems. I think I've tolerated so much already and today I just flared. Or maybe I'm just tired cuz I woke up too early today D: SIGH. Hate life.

I was still quite happy this morning.. I woke up at 4plus so that I can send my mum off too the airport. Lol, supposed to be my dad bring her to airport but since I wanted to, he went back to his room to watch Tv. Lols, so it's just my mum and me :D

In the taxi, we talked about Ahyi and blablahblah. Sigh.

Oh and on Wednesday I think, my mum walked me out of the door, and I think she saw my school shoes :/ That filthy school shoes. I was trying really hard to hide it from her. But I think in the end she still saw and today, she ask me to buy new school shoes. I remembered last time she scolded me because of a pair of dirty school shoes :/

At the airport, we went Macs to eat breakfast :D
It's not school holidays now. So I couldn't go out with her in the past few days cuz of school. But at least I get to send her off today :D

Afternoon was violin class. Learnt new stuff. Ms Xiao tried to explain the notes stuff to us but I think she has difficulties. Haha cuz she's not very good in English and our class is multi racial. Lol can see that she tried hard to explain..

OHYA, in the morning, I also finish up My Lucky Star (Part1) I cried like mad T.T the last episode was really sad! But Xin Fang and Joyce said that the whole series is happy ending :D Xin Fang is gonna lend me the 2nd part soon! Yay (:

That's about today. These few days don't really have any pictures :/

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HELLO!
I didn't post the past two days cuz I was busy watching My Lucky Star! Ohmygod, it's really a good show that makes you cry and laugh. Love it! Thanks to Xin Fang for lending it to me :D

Wednesday:
It's just a normal day, with lessons blahblah. Sigh D:

Yesterday:
We checked SS scripts and I'm kinda happy with my results :D Cuz I really didn't expect the marks that I got cuz I thought I wrote wrong points. But I'm glad that it all went well (:

After school, we had Rio Tinto thing. Omg. I thought it was harder than the practise paper the school gave us. And when I did Round1 of the paper, I wasn't really sure of how to do some of questions, and when I "re-do" the paper, ohman, I had to erase about 7answers that I shaded earlier! It's damn bad D: I seriously have English problems, the was this problematic question(for me) which I took super long to figure out the answer cuz aiya, couldn't make sense out of it when I did it the first time. OH but one thing! I'm really glad that I had most of the answers same, with Sherlynn! :D We checked answers together after the teacher asked us to stop writting. Hahaha great minds think alike! :D

But I think even though our answers same, in the middle should be got some of them wrong, cuz after it was over, I was discussing some questions with Livia and Joce. And Livia explained some of the stuff and it made sense luh..

Today:
AMaths uh.. Didn't expect too much from it.. Cuz it's Mid-Years, big paper.. But I think I'm contented for the time being although a lot of other people are doing better. I think I should practise AMath in exam conditions, then I will be more prepared during Prelims and Os which are even bigger papers.. I really don't wanna screw Prelims and Os up.. Then just now I asked Hui Wen how she do so well. Lol, then she tell me to come late to school. Hahahah I wish that would help me do better xD

English uh. Lol C5 -.- The last time I saw it was last year Term1. A bit disappointed.. But I guess my English.. especially my Grammar, really sucks D: How do I do better for English?

I really want to believe in hard work. Although I may not get what I want now, but hopefully, when Os come, I get paid back.. I'm gonna pray hard!

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Sigh, today's such a depressing day.

#1. For Geography, the top scorer is B4. And it's quite obvious who will be the top I think? I was aiming for a B3, but I guess, it's like not possible. Just hope to pass now D:

#2. Physics. I'm DEPRESSED over my results. C eh!! I'm so angry with myself. A1 you watch out for prelims and Os! SIGHSIGHSIGH. Then just now, when I was looking at the sms, the tears just dropped. I always tell myself that I won't shed a tear over bad results, but this time, I just felt really upset about it. JIAYOU VIVI!

#3. I was thinking about Chemistry earlier on. Died. My L1R5 for this term.. I think it's gonna drop from 10 to 20 *moans*

Yea, that's about the depressing thing.
After school, there was Library Farewell Party for Sec4s. Lol. A normal party I guess (: But wasn't really in the mood cuz blahblahblahblah. Then I had a talk with Prachi. Woah, it's so much different talking to her. Lol

OHYA, my mum just came last night. At first, when my Dad left the house late at night yesterday, I was wondering where he was going. Then this morning, when I was in the toilet, I suddenly heard my Mum's voice! Lol so yesterday night, he must have went to the Airport to pick her up. But I'm so surprised that she came, nobody told me that she would be coming :D Cuz it's not the holiday period now for Indonesia. Haha. I think very weird eh. My Dad came back here few days ago.. Why didn't my Mum&Dad come to Singapore together? Okashi :/

But anyways, I don't quite miss my Mum. I must be really heartless :/ So used to not seeing her. One year twice? Thrice? Lol, I think I'm adapting too well :/

my heart is really dark Lol

That's about today luh D:

reaching out to touch the sky

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Today uh.. SIGH.
So many talks. But there's one good thing of being in an all-girls-school. We had like sexuality talk and then what 98.7FM-kotex-girls talk(?) and then a TJ talk. Sigh. Resuming normal lessons tomorrow D: Actually I'd rather have talks than lessons. Lol lessons = homework -.-

Anyways, we also checked HCL Paper today. I'm quite happy with my results for this term! :D I got B4. Hahahahha B for Bonus! :D But overall for Semester One is still C5 luh. Lols

Yup, so that's about today :D

the one who breaks her promise

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I watched finish Tora Dora in the morning!
It's really awesome! And I can't help but smile when I remembered the 2nd last episode where Ryuuji and Taiga kissed :D If you watch this show, you would have smile too! Cuz the way they kissed were really sweet! >.< Then she would keep saying "One more time"! AHH!

I like the characters :D Recommended anime to watch, definitely!

Anyways, today, nothing much again. Just church and anime xD

忘れかけた恋の傷跡
急に疼きだしたの　キュンと

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Lol.. What to say about today? Uhm, I totally wasted my life away?
For the whole day, I watched Tora Dora! Not bad :D Shi Bei asked me to watch and I don't think I regret it. The storyline is somewhat nice, somewhat heartwarming. About friendship, family and love. It's great :D I left a few episodes, but I think I'll continue them tomorrow.

Class was okay also.. I hope that the time that I take everyday to practise violin will make me improve :D I wanna get better! :D Jiayou! (:

lost it

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Lol how long has it been? I didn't post anything since Sunday.. Lolols

Monday - Tuesday:
I did a lot of practise for Physics on Monday but it didn't quite help for the Physics Paper on Tuesday :/ And History was.. A shock to me. I studied Germany only and it didn't come out for SEQ D: I did the question on Russia. I managed to crap something out cuz I read through that chapter previously. Thank God for that..

But I'm really glad that exams are over :D But I'm feeling kinda depressed these days too. I wonder why..? Am I worrying for my results? I don't know what I'm sad about..

Wednesday:
I was out! With Jorene and Sherlynn to bowl at ECP there. Kinda happy with my score! 97 and 122! :D After bowling, we walked all the way from the place to lagoon to eat lunch. Lol.. That long path made me so tired! Haha one hour plus walk yeh! But I guess it's okay once in awhile.. Exercise.. huh. Lols

But being tired makes me emo D:

Thursday:
It was a super fun day I thought :D Late morning till afternoon, cycled at ECP with Cheryl(P), Livia, Jorene and Sherlynn! Cycling is fun! But yea, tiring.. Livia rented a bike and the guy gave her a basket at the front to put her stuff in. It was awesomely funny! xD Then after that, went to eat lunch with Cheryl&Livia at Seoul Garden. LOLOLOLOL. We took don't know how many plates of meat. Omg. I don't think I've eaten this much meat in my whole life before. LOL OSORASHI :/ It's really good to bring Cheryl to eat buffet. Hahahhahaha xD We also went Popular to buy things. There's 25%25%25%25% discount! $_$ At night, went for VJChoir Concert with Zhi Jun, Ying Yun, Alethea, Yan Jie and Jie Ning! :D They really are like ONE CHOIR ONE VOICE! Super good!! :D Yesterday was my first time listening to VJChoir :D Lols, and I met Wei Liang there which was kinda unexpected. But anyways, I really enjoyed their concert :D
Today:
E-learning in the morning was............................................ ... Lols and for the whole of today, I just watch dramas and awhile ago, anime. I finished watching the Jap Hana Kimi! :D Quite nice.. But I still prefer Wu Zun to Oguri Shun. Not that I like Wu Zun but somehow I just prefer his acting in the Taiwan Hana Kimi . Yup, so that's how I wasted my day :D Haha

cause i'm one who is living in the past
and i just can't look what's ahead of me

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It's a super unproductive weekend for me. Sigh D:
But the questions that I did yesterday and this morning made me understand Energy, Work, Power a bit! :D Anyways, I decided to wake up early tomorrow to do Physics. I'm not even half done with Physics and there's still History to study tomorrow D: Sigh!

But it's the last 2 papers! Gan Batte kudasai!

I wanna buy a long cloth, then I can cut out a strip of it and tie it around my forehead to MOTIVATE me to STUDY! Lol, I should go find the cloth sometime!

Happy Mothers' Day! :D
I don't think I'm calling my mum.. I asked Ahyi just now and she said that today's not Indonesia's Mothers' Day. Argh, feel kinda unfilial. But I have never wished her before. Lol, that's EVEN MORE unfilial. Lols. Saying "I Love You" to my mum is so.......... unbelievable. I'm just not close with her at all and it's kinda hard saying all these actually D: Sigh!

I've been listening to Do As Infinity songs! They're QUITE old. Like their albums were released around Year2000 to 2005. But some of their songs are really awesome :D I love Oasis! :D

Ja, gotta continue with Physics!

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I'm super dead for Physics.
I didn't practise much today.. I have been doing things REALLY slowly and I'm not motivated at all. Late morning till 2plus, I was out.. At the airport with Ahyi and Sis. Sigh.

I guess sometimes it's hard being a older sister..
I guess sometimes it's hard being someone who has stayed here for very long..

I wished they could have gone themselves, cuz I wanted to do Physics. But since Ahyi promised Mei that we will be going Airport today, last week, we just had to make a trip there..

When we came back, I wasn't using my time very wisely actually :x And Ahyi ask me to bring Mei down for a swim -.- Sometimes I wonder why can't Ahyi bring her down? Before we left the house, she was watching Tv. After swimming, she was STILL watching Tv. Ohmy, not like she's doing anything important, why do I have to sacrifice my study time for her to watch the Tv? I wonder.. But ohfine, just out of luck this time.

I think I gotta do some Physics D: Ja

just when you thought i wasn't there, i was,
always, waiting for you to come to me, but you didn't

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I finally found hope in something! EMaths paper today was okay! :D It was easier than expected and I really really Thank God for that!! I was like praying hard before EMaths and Geog paper today. Lol. Geog was.. Half-screwed. I lost over 10marks already. I'm not habouring any hope for it, but I'll jiayou even more next time! :D

I always believe in hardwork. Working the smart way is the key to success! :D
Since my other subjects are screwed, I was thinking, maybe I should just screw everything up, to make things even. But I guess that's not gonna solve anything.. Gan Batte! 2 more papers to go and we're DONE! :D As Xin Fang said, we both should go to Jing Yi to get some motivation! :D

The sun was scorching hot when I was walking home. Perspired a lot and my eye and head hurts cuz of the extreme heat. Roars. I feel like I'm melting soon -.- What's happening to the world?

I seriously need a TIMEOUT. So I decided to rest and just now afternoon, I watched 4episodes of anime :D and then I went to practise violin. Playing a musical instrument is awesome, cuz you feel so relaxed, not so stressed up and it's kinda fun :D

when I'm around, it's always like that

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Losing my calculator and my formula sheet getting torn is really a bad omen. I screwed up Chemistry&Amath paper today. Especially Chemistry. MrGoh is gonna kill me D:

For AMath, it's not that I don't know how to do, but when I "checked" answers with friends, my answer is totally different from theirs D: Careless? I don't know.. But I'll probably lose a lot of marks. I'm really not confident at all for anything! D:

Okay anyway, the bad omen part was just an excuse. Cuz to do well, it's about hardwork. Maybe I didn't study hard enough. Didn't practise hard enough. Didn't do enough. Aiya, everything not enough luh. It's just my inability..

The rest of the papers on Friday and Tuesday will probably be screwed up as well. I'm just not motivated. I need a TIME OUT! I'm sick and tired of like staring at notes and practising questions everyday.. I want the exams to be over quick!

After school, went to Jorene's house with Joyce to play Wii. Lol at first I was like telling Joyce that I won't get influenced by her and I won't play Wii. But I ended up playing too! Hahahaha quite fun yeh xD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA YI! :D and Xin Yu!

Ja, have to practise emaths le! Gan batte ne!

why?

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Tomorrow's Dooms Day.. Chemistry and AMaths paper is seriously gonna kill me D:
I don't feel that I'm ready.. But if AMaths uh, I don't do well, nevermind, cuz I really really tried my best already and anyway since forever, I don't do well for major papers.

I think somebody is trying to curse me D:
I lost my calculator at school today. And IT'S JUST BEFORE AN AMATH PAPER. I felt super lost and I just couldn't like sit still and worried about my stolen poor cal D: But Xin Fang said she could lend me her extra cal! REALLY THANK HER LOADDDDS!! (You saved my life!)

My pencil is gone too. But that may be my fault :/ But I really want to wish the person who stole my calculator GOOD LUCK!! Hmph. I'm so upset with her D: But I think I shouldn't make a big fuss of it. It solves absolutely nothing D:

It's like last time, when my Chemistry/Physics and Maths notebook was gone.. I really don't get it why people must take my things away?!!

Yesterday, the formula sheet that Hui Qi wrote for me tore also D: I think all these bad things that happen is like a bad omen! D: Leading to: me doing badly for AMaths.. I get that feeling D:

The Cal thing ruined my day D:

Just now, went downstairs to study with Jelene and Jia Hui. Lol, not very productive for me cuz I'm not motivated to do anything at all! T.T

why must you always do it to me?
what have i done wrong?

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Okay, I'm back temporary << I realised I need to think a bit to figure out the spelling for this word.

I can't surf the net for very long, cuz I needa do AMaths soon D: PRACTISE PRACTISE PRACTISE! When I see Livia working so hard, I always thought.. She REALLY deserves the good results. I wish I could be like her.. D:

On Friday night, I even dreamt that my SSSBQ got 14 D: I felt really sad and then yesterday I recalled and I think I didn't write the correct Link for SEQ. I'm dead for SS luh D: I really put in so much hope and effort for SS but sometimes.. Is it worth it? I need to start working SMART. Sigh..

I was kinda busy in the weekends, doing Geog&Chem notes. I took like 2++ days to finish writing geog notes and that took a hell lot of my time! I get really upset with myself for writing so slow D: Ohmann.. I really need to speed up.

Class on Saturday was kinda funny(some reasons). It was supposed to start at 3pm. And when I was there at 3, there was only Komala and Me. Lol, the others forgot that it started at 3. Anyway, we started first and I got really self-conscious, afraid to play wrongly and stuff cuz it was only the 2 of us who's playing and if you make a mistake, that's it. Lols.

One of the guy in the class: (asking Ms Xiao) How do you do the vibrato? I can only vibrate the violin but the sound don't vibrate.. *Laughs*

Ohgosh, that's the funniest thing ever! Lol. Anyway, it's a normal routine that the teacher helps you tune your violin before we start class. I was a bit scared when she was going to tune mine cuz I dropped my violin (I didn't lie the violin on my shoulder properly) on Friday evening :/ And it went TOTALLY out of tune. Gosh. On Friday, I took almost 10minutes just to tune it back D: *moans* Thank God, I tuned it properly on Friday and so when Ms Xiao tuned for me, she didn't have to turn the knobs :/

Bel didn't come to school today D: Teshura also and I don't know who else from our class. And I heard that 4e1 had 11absentees. LOL. I wonder how many people are gonna absent themselves from school tomorrow. Actually I don't intend to go to school tomorrow. I went to DrTay's just now. BUT, unfortunately, when I went reached the clinic, it's CLOSED. Lols. Waste my time to travel there -.- So no MC, have to go to school luh D:

friends don't need to help you solve problems
but friends are always there, to hear you out

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Yesterday night was a little busy (doing Geog notes T.T) for me, so I didn't post.

我还在寻找一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷替我烦恼为我生气为我闹

thank you

Today, I also continued with my Geog notes. Even though it's a PUBLIC HOLIDAY(yay) and I had the whole of today to write the notes, until now, I'm still NOT DONE. I'm DONE FOR. I haven't do Chemistry and practise AEMaths!

Anyways, HCL Paper2 was tough D: I couldn't really answer the questions. I'll be looking forward to the results. Lol. No hope already. I don't think I'll do well for all the subjects in this term. Just had a feeling D: Cuz I'm not concentrating well and stuff..

Even if I don't do well this term, it's alright..
Cuz there's still a few months to Jiayou! Before D-Day arrives!
Vivi, Gan batte! Kimi nara dekiru sa, kitto daijobu desu yo, shinjiteimasu!

I went TM just now to get some stuff. ARGH. Super crowded T.T

By the way, Popular has 25% discount storewide(for members) from today till 14th May. So you should quickly get what you want now xD Haha. I found my favourite series that I had always wanted to buy! :D Last time primary school zhuanglaoshi asked us to buy the 5th book! Today, I found the 1st book :D
Sigh, my cough isn't getting any better. Hope it's not SWINE FLU! :x But I'm gonna see a doctor, if I'm still coughing and sneezing and my lungs there still hurts, on Monday if I don't get well by then. Hope everything will be fine! Or just let me die.. Ja, gotta sleep le! Oyasumi :D

the first and maybe the last

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