haiyo.. lessons as usual.. the day started off with science.. then lit then maths then enrichment then legacy and last period was history lorhhs. hmms.. we all know that there was gonna be that IPP thinnggyy todayy.. so everybody was like.. looking forward to it. at 1pm the bell rang. then suddenly a second bell rang at about 1.01pm or smthh.. woahhs. then we at once knew that it was the IPP alarm! we were all like so despo to do this IPP thing.. coz we want skip lessons mahhs. yepps. todayy skipped history!! hip hip hooray!! so happy worhh.. LOLS. when the alarm rang we were all cheering. ms foo.. sort of like 'scolded' us for being so noisy and all those stuff.. after that we took out the IPP kit and sealed all the windows..


it was totally STOOPID lorhhs!! the masking tape not sticky derhh and they expect us to seal the windows until no holes. natvianne and miie had a difficult time sealing the top windows.. woahhs. the tape just couldn't stick to the walls. they kept dropping.. so irritating derhh.. next time the sku should buy a BETTER MASKING TAPE. i don't mind doing the IPP thing many many times.. but.. just need a STICKY masking tape.. shhheesh larhhs. i bet they kept the tape for thousands of years lerr.. that's why not sticky wann.. haiis.. anw the IPP thing was quite an experience bahhs.. never done this in pri sku b4. pri sku was fire alarm not IPP. yupps. totally different. hehe.. our class lack of tape.. we use too much tape until not enough lerr.. teehhheehhee XD XD x) actually should be anough derhh.. i think we probably waste too much. that's why lack lorhhs.. after sku have that discussion thing about the canteen in the AV theatre.. haiis.. they want make the canteen into 4seasons.. then we have to think of names and
whatsoever. until now, still not really settled yet.. we haven't thought of the name of the canteen.


then after that discussion thinggy.. jorene abigail and miie go bedok library lorhhs. woahhs today morning then jorene told miie. at first suppose to go abigail's house. in the end she say her house derhh study room fully booked.. so in the end go library.. weebian and zheng feng also go. since the 2nd floor of the lib no space.. we went up to the 3rd storey, children section. XD then there were 'fisherprice' table [brand name] and heehee.. when we sit on the bench, it will bend a little derhh.. we too heavy for it liaos.. probably bahhs. then abi called it the 'bendable chair' LOLS. we left the library at about 5.40pm. anw.. in between. woahhs. weebian damn freaky lorhhs. he stared at miie in that kind of.. 'smiling but so called angry and dao look' he stared at miie thrice.. totally freaky.. it wasn't scary.. just PLAIN freaky.. LOLS. but he funny larhhs. so corny.. heehee =D wells. abi didn't go to interchange to take bus with us.. she went another direction. from interchange.. i take bus 40 home. since the bus so long then come.. so i waited for 168 with jorene, weebian and zheng feng lorhhs.. they went into the queue. and i just stood outside the queue.. yupps. this part very diff to explain. the convo started like that....


weebian: ehh you didn't say bye to miie?
miie: bye bye
weebian: then you didn't say to him [pointing to zheng feng]
miie: bye bye zheng feng
weebain: ehh you say his name, didn't say my name
miie: fine fine, bye bye weebian

then i turned to jorene

miie: BYE BYE JORENE THO WEI XIN


i purposely say full name derhh larhhs. after he make noise again.. whahahahhah XD XD but he really funny and totally sick lorhhs. make ppls laugh only.. heehee. but he really chao ji lame worhh.. XD XD XD XD x)


yepps had a pretty funny day todayy ((:




happy happy girl
sMiles alwayys =DD
the crazy hyper child ^^

&the pages keep turning.

had quite a lot of fun todayy worhh.. went to jelene's burfday party in aquarius. too bad i not staying there if not i can just go over to her house any time. yupps.. we're neighbours. cool rights. we stay opposite of each other only. if we go backyard, then can say hiies to each other.. so qiao derhh ((: candice, xinmin, gens and i went.. i mean the 6/1 ppls. only few of use. then the others is church and sec sku classmate liaos.. had a lot of barbequed stuff. pretty nice. i long time didn't bbq liaos.. until todayy. heehee XD then in between we go. jelene they all go swim and go playground sit the swing and all those stuff. long time didn't sit on the swing liaos. dagu's house don't have playground derhh.. so yar.. of coz no swing lorhhs. candice and gens couldn't swing very high. so i taught them how to. then b4 that when gens tried on the swing. gues what.. he slip down the seat and fell on the playground floor.. he was like.. "owwww" LOLS. sure it was pain.. can tell. the ground so rough. but after awhile he okayy lerr lorhhs. gens kinda funny todayy.. he's alwayys with his lame talks again. yupps. quite nice larhhs he.. just that stinggy to drusilla worhh. heehee XD XD XD at night.. we bbq and eat all those food.. at 9pm cut the cake.. gens wasn't there.. he go home liaos.. and b4 that.. xiao nan made a hole in gen's ADIDAS shirt. he was damn pissed lorhhs. that' s why at 9pm he zao liaos. kayys lorhhs anything bahhs. but really uhh.. how did xiao nan ever make that whole?? she so strong to tear the shirt worhh.. can go sue the adidas company lerr.. material so lan derhh.. teehhheeehhhhee X) yepps. really had fun todayy. ALOT OF FUN!! ((:




she said something
which i can't understand
can someone please explain?
it's totally weird weird weird weird
[wakaranaii]

&the pages keep turning.

yupps. just changed skins.. hmms.. this skins okayy larhhs.. not very very nice.. but i think it's pretty interesting witht he ENTER words b4 you can get to this page. overall.. ok bahhs ((: i kept that orange skins quite awhile liaos. that's why i change skins. anw, the picture have problem, so yar.. have to change lorhhs. aiya.. very diff to xplain larhhs. but it's smth like that. hmms. EOYs coming lerr. i'm really still slacking. haiis. exams sure die derhh. shhheeeshed. i'm such a pure slacker mann.. gawd* i'm gonna die if i continue being like that.. haiyo.. need to work hard.. real hard.. but i no self-discipline derhh worhh.. alwayys like to listen to music. then cannot sit down for maybe about 1 to 2 hrs to study.. i just can't stay still.. yupps. have to walk around the house, call ppls up chat on msn. haiis.. i'm so hopeless.. i cannot fail my EOYs and english. if not i will be kicked out of the sku lorhhs. i scared.. but even if i scared. seems like i not doing anything about it.. so yar.. sure die derhh. don't know larhhs. anw.. these few dayys i feeling rather confused and troubled bahhs. he* made miie feel this wayy.. hmms.. he so ATT!!!!!! racist somemore.. i hate ppls who are racist. and pian pian ppls like him.. are racist. so sad worhh. if he not racist and so att jiu hao lerr.. but seems like that's not the case. haiis. he's the opposite. i really don't like racist ppls.. can't stand them.. they think their religion is big or what uhh.. no lorhhs. cheh! so arrogant. whatever bahhs. so can't be bothered with them. i don't wanna talk to him.. i don't want.. but he everyday call miie!! ahhh!!! shhheeshhed larhhs. but i don't dare to tell that i don't want him to call miie everyday.. how nerhhs?? things getting more diff to solve yehh.. how lehhs?? i also don't know.. who can help miie tell him nerhh?? maybe jorene.. but don't want larhhs.. don't wanna bai tuo her do things for miie.. hmms. i just don't know lorhhs. ohh wells.. let's hope it will end soon bahhs



weird feelings.
you'll never know it
unless you experienced it
[you won't understand]

&the pages keep turning.

yupps. today as usual. lessons are boring.. but. teehhheeeehhee XD XD XD huang lao shi came into the class only at 12.55pm and the lessons was ending at 1pm. so it's like.. only 5 minutes of class.. woahhs. shiok lorhhs. b4 he came. we were all like talking talking talking. heehee ((: maths uhh.. die liaos.. mdm surayah went thru distributive laws with us todayy.. oohh my.. i really cannot do lorhhs. i really dead larhhs. have to go revise on my chapter 1 of maths liaos.. EOYs coming liaos.. now sku is all about revision revision revision.. and.. still revision.. so sianns derhh. nvms.. exams around the corner.. so have to jiayous lerr worhh.. GAN BATTE!! =D now so sianns. so do quiz lorhhs. zhi jun go tag miie derhh. fine.. just do bahhs. keke*

kinda lame.. but wells.. just do bahhs =)

1. full name: vivi tan

2. name backwards: nat iviv [lol??]

3. meaning of the name: how would i know??

4. nickname: bak kwa [don't know why also] doggy....

5. screenname: err. what's this??

6. burfdayy: 23rd July [keke* best day ever ((:]

7. place of birth: indonesia

8. nationality: indonesian

9. current location: my room lorhhs

10. star sign: LEO [the mighty lion. LOLs]

11. religion: hmms.. not a devotee but buddhist i guess

12. height: 154?? think so bahhs. so short =(

13. weight: 40++ yupps. so fat.. wahh!!

14. shoe size: 5 i think

15. hair colour: brownish black

16. eye colour: dark brown

17. who do you think you look like: i don't think anyone. but ppls say i look like marianne?

18. inniie or outiie: ????

19. leftiie or rightiie: rightiie

20. gay, straight, bi or others: uhh? what's that?

21. bestiie: lyvia and wenjie

22. bestiie you trust most: i trust lyv and jie?

23. fav pals: zhi jun, jorene jiayi, cheryl??? sort of bahhs

24. bestiie of opp gender: wenjie

25. best buddiies: i answered it liaos

26. boyfriend and girlfriend: don't have larhhs

27. crush: nopes. not interested. even have also don't want say lorhhs :P

28. parents: ehh?! this qns also wann ask uhh.. diaos =.="

29. worst enemy: don't really have one at the moment

30. fav online guy: don't think have bahhs

31. fav online girl: hmms.. don't like to chat

32. craziest friend: cheryl and germaine??

33. advice friend: lyv and jie

34. loudest friend: wakarimasen

35. person you cry with: don't have larhhs

36. any sisters: yupps. one.. younger derhh

37. any brothers: nopes

38. any pets: last time have luo han fish. but now in heaven liaos. sobbs :'(

39. any disease: duhh.. no

40. pager: nopes

41. personal phone line: yepps

42. phone: yupp yupp ((:

43. lava lamp: nahhs. don't have

44. pool or hot tube: anything larhhs

45. a car: don't have. so ex

46. your personality: i very nice derhh worhh. keke*

47. driving: still underage.. can't drive but my mum wants miie to learn when i am 18yrs old.. heehee XD XD XD

48. room: yupps.. chao messy

49. what's missing: don't know.. i think have alot lorhhs

50. school: TKgs

51. bed: don't have bed. i sleep on matress. my room too small for bed

52. relationship with my parents: seldom see them. but i think i closer to my mum bahhs

53. believe in yourself: sort of bahhs

54. believe in love at first sight: wakarimasen

55. good listener: yupps. quite good ((:

56. get along well with parents: absolutely YES =DDD

57. save email convo: nopes. save for what??

58. pray: not really. one year few times only.. seldom lorhhs

59. believe in reincarnation: maybe

60. make fun of ppls: hmms sometimes >.<

61. like to talk on the phone: yupps.. i can't live without phone

62. want to get married: don't know larhhs. see first

63. like to drive: underage.. UNDERAGE larhhs

64. motion sickness: not really

65. eat stem of broccoli: yes. i eat the whole thing

66. eat chicken with fork: don't really eat chicken. depends

67. dream in colour: don't know lehhs. i seldom get dreams anywayys

68. type with your fingers on home role: wakaranai

69. sleep with stuff animals: nopes.. but they are somewhere near miie

70. next to you: alot of things. too many to mention liaos

71. on the walls of your room: got one painting and a big big fan

72. on the mousepad: i don't use the mousepad

73. dream car: nahhs. didn't ever thought of that

74. dream date: ?????????????????????

75. dream honeymoon spot: not interested

76. dream husband and wife: ehhs?? maybe jo and bian keke*

77. single most important qns: why are ppls so despo to find stead?? wakaranai lorhhs

78. under your bed: i don't have a bed

79. bedtime: don't know.. everyday diff time derhh

80. bed time of the day: don't know..

81. your worst fear: fail my subs

82. the weather is: cloudy

83. time: 5.05

84. date: 18th september

85. best trick did on someone: trip a boy in my pri sku class

86. theme song: don't know

87. hardest thing about growing up: wakarimasen

88. funniest experience: so many worhh. keke*

89. scariest experience: got cockroach crawling around in the toilet. my gawd lorhhs. i had to go kill it >.<

90. silliest thing you have ever said: many many many.. too many XD XD XD

91. Most desperate and funniest thing u have ever done to an opposite sex: we did nth only talk lorhhs.

92. Scariest thing when you are with your friends: dont' know lehhs

93. worst feeling: get scolded for no reason

94. best feeling in the world: heehee don't feel like metioning.. shyys keke*

95. eekks. don't wanna sabo ppls.. so yar.. i'll just stop here

cheriiie miie
but deep inside is
saddness that no one
will ever understand.. =(

&the pages keep turning.

totally suck.. he totally suck.. i can't stand him at times.. FCUK him larhhs. i so long didn't scold ppls with that word liaos.. i feel so shiiok now.. shhheeesh him lorhhs. don't like him. don't like don't like don't like!!!!! can't stand his qian bian face. feel like slapping him. what a stupid face he's got.. stilll say himself shuaii. bluek. *vomits* i vomit blood infront of him uhh.. lame ass.. he's such a lame ass.. stupid lar.. went to sheng shiong to buy food for tml lorhhs. making popiah tml.. then have to prepare a lot of things. so my auntiie and miie go buy those groceries needed. then he STUPID wann larhhs. only know how to go home. SLEEP EAT TALK SCOLD NAG. FCUK HIM LAR. he ownself don't do anything.. he didn't follow us go buy.. in the end i came back all alone with 2 big bags of things. and weigh at least 10kg.. kayys larhhs. 10kg only.. but i had to carry it with one hand lehhs. my left hand cannot carry heavy stuff.. shhheesh lorhhs. my left hand is hurt.. yar.. so my right hand carry everything. woahhs. when reach home. my hand damn pain larhhs. all red. teeheehee XD XD XD XD XD XD okok.. it's not funny. but i don't care.. pain then pain larhhs. as if my auntiie's family would ever care. so can't be bothered. nvms.. todayy wake up at about 9am. then i go study a bit.. do a bit of geog lorhhs. then suddenly he ask miie go buy breakfast.. beehoon he asked.. i go down. then the beehoon finish liaos.. so cannot buy lorhhs. then he asked miie buy meesiam. luckiiie have.. if not totally waste my time go up and down buy breakfast. but he alwayys ask miie buy at wrong time wann lorhhs. when i busy studying. he purposely ask miie go buy don't know what shiit. then when i free. he also don't care. ppls busy he kajiao.. ppls not busy then he heck care. WTF larhhs. then after eat liaos.. i totally no mood study so go chat with ppls. what i hate about him is.. he alwayys treat ppls like his maid.. i am referring to his family.. i mean.. he treats my auntiie and my cuz and miie like his maid.. he thot he what uhh. king izzit?? cheh! i-diot larhhs. he alwayys ask miie to wash the cups and plates and whatever in the kitchen. hello???!!!! he ownself use he cannot wash himself izzit?? even i also do my own washing. i use the cup or plate. i wash myself. i will never ask my auntiie or anybody help miie wash wann lorhhs. ppls very busy wann lehhs. not everybody like him.. only SLEEP EAT TALK SCOLD NAG. I HOPE HE'LL GROW VERY VERY FAT. get all those illness.. really fcuk him. i cannot stand it. my auntiie uhh.. also cannot stand him lorhhs. but she treats him like he's the king of the house.. yupps. KING of the house.. MY FOOT larhhs. i wanna vomits liaos.. my auntiie will treat him like him coz she don't want to quarell with him. wells. he never helps in the household chores.. we go ntuc buy thing or wherever buy thing.. he usually don't help us carry. everything all my cuz and miie carry.. totally WTF. he's such a lazy pig.. he thot he so big so good so perfect so wan meii.. actually like shiit lorhhs. woahhs. if next time my friend's husband like that.. woahhs. i really pity her.. if it's mine.. woahhs. GO AND DIE liaos.. i mean it's like.. my auntiie my cuz and miie should do some work larhhs. that's obvious... but.. he cannot push EVERYTHING to us what.. he should at least help a bit. but now is A BIT also don't have.. everybody should help one another.. fcuk him.. i just feel like killing myself mann.. so unluckiie to stay in this kind of family.. shhheeeshed =(



my mind's on fire
it's burning hot
somebody save miie
[you won't understand]

&the pages keep turning.

todayy went to bedok library study there lorhhs. okayys larhhs. jorene weebian zhengfeng enan and miie went to the library. only the five of us. but at about 4pm. wenjie came. but he only came for less than 5 minutes and he zao liaos.. waste time only lorhhs. his sku in tanah merah. then he came to bedok library just to see see touch touch. totally waste time sia.. ohh wells. he want to like that then i also bo bian. jorene and miie ask him to come derhh. but i didn't expect him to stay for less than 5minutes larhhs. that's the point. he didn't study with us. he came with javan. fine lorhhs. he waste his time i also no comments derhh. hmms. good that i quite manage to concentrate on my work. coz there was a table. the last time i went which was on wednesday i couldn't even concentrate at all. coz we had to study and do work on our laps. i really cannot larhhs. so todayy wann was okayys. perfectly fine i guess.. hmms. i never forgot this.. on wednesdayy.. i was like feeling so awkward when i was at the library seeing weebian and zhengfeng. seriously i felt damn awkward.. i never meet them b4 and they all jorene's pri sku classmate.. i couldn't really talk to them properly.. i can't look at them when they talk. need to look aways.. coz i just feel weird.. but.. now.. okayys liaos.. can talk to them normally bahhs. i don't feel so uncomfortable liaos. whahahahahahahaha. i did maths. i brought my maths assessment and got one qns i totally give up liaos.. i don't know how to do at all. i ask jorene. she don't know. ask wenjie also don't know.. then ask weebian he also.. wakaranaii. haiis.. nobody knows how to solve that angle qns.. the diagram is really complicating derhh. diff like hell lorhhs. nvms.. i will figure it out some dayy i guess. don't know lehhs. hope so bahhs. if not i go ask mdm surayah for help. heehee XD she sure know how to do wann larhhs. hehe. i find weebian like liyana jumaen lehhs. in what way nerhhs?? their face all chubby chubby derhh. got baby fats. the cheek like got ball inside their mouth. keekeekeekeekee XD XD XD XD XD but really. they all so cute. whahahahaha.. i'm so hyper and siao todayys. as usual. the happy cheriiie girl ((: hmms.. it's been quite awhile ever since ta shuo love you. but i now like don't really care much. coz i don't like ta.. coz ta yi jiao ta liang chuan and i don't care much about this kind of thinggy.. all those bgr stuff.. i'm not interested. so yar.. don't like ta lorhhs. but i said i accepted ta.. how stupid is that?? i shoudn't have accepted ta.. but i think gonna tell ta soon i cannot. i really really cannot.. i'm still sec1.. i don't care.. i'm a carefree girl.. aren't ii?? heehee ((:




freedom of life
complication in life
not love tied yet XD

&the pages keep turning.

YO YO YO!! let's play with the yo-yo. ouhh WHATEVER. so lame.. yuppppiiiiies. i'm back to normal. the old and cherriiiiiiie girl again. yar.. i'm alwayys happy now. lalalallala. i go high sia. XD too hyper lerr.. keke LOLS. hmms. today had home economic practical test. okayys larhhs. pretty fun though. i was prett scared at first. but when cooking and preparing the food that time. i felt that it wasn't that scary afterall and it was fun actually. enjoyed it totally ((: my group have.. jorene ying and miie. we three prepared chicken chop, honeydew sago and lastly is the.. err.. ouhh. CHOCOLATE ICE-BLENDED. i love it mann!!! the food all tasted rather nice. not bad at least for the first timer.. hahahahaha. for the chicken chop, only the potato a bit too hard liaos.. but nvms.. ohh wells. really had a great time taking this test. lols. i wonder how much will get for home economics this term. i hope it's not too bad bahhs. hmms.. i want to score well for my EOYs. tescher gave us our progress report todayy. haiiiiis. so bad.. chao horrible.. really seriously. i most of the subject all deteriorate liaos.. although my overall percentage is above average, but i think it is bad.. real BAD. i know i can do better than that. just that coz i slcack so much until i don't pay much attention to studying at home or do revision. that's why like that larhhs. serve miie right lorhhs. but EOYs i'm gonna make sure my every subject improve. if not i am gonna diie... i gotta buck up. really really cannot waste so much time on chatting on the phone, blogging and friendster-ing liaos.. i'm so hopeless. i'm such a SLACKER. damn it.. i don't know how i am gonna score well for my EOYs this time.. wakaranai. how nice i'm not so slack. that will be so good. i'm a lazy pigiiiiie. LAN ZHU. shhhheesh lar.. jiayous to miie and everybody taking the EOYs ((: jiayous. jiayous. jiayous. jiayous. jiayous. jiayous. jiayous. jiayous. jiayous. jiayous. jiayous. jiayous. jiayous =D



alwayys high
alwayys hyper
alwayys cheriiie

&the pages keep turning.

feel sick as usual. yst was sick coz of headache which i had for the whole dayy. yupps. 24hrs i think.. my head was like spinning.. then todayy. bad sore thoat. my thoat feels very pain and sore.. exactly what my feeling is now.. pain and sad.. i wanna cry.. these few dayys are pretty miserable life for miie.. yar.. seriously. things happen when i come back from thailand. some makes miie a bit sadd and yupps. sadd and upset bahhs. really feel like crying. i'm tired. very tired. hmms.. one thing happy you can sayy. my friend stead liaos.. hahas.. good for him and her ((: that's the happy thing.. maths.. got 70.++ can't rmb.. but 70.smth okayy lar.. i know i can do better.. much better. my 1st paper and project totally pulled miie down alot. luckiie my 2nd paper not too bad.. yeahh. so pulled my marks A BIT. wells.. my history almost fail.. shhheeeshed. haiis. no mood todayy.. really really no mood. msn cannot go.. just got some problem with that thinggy.. then i can't chat with my friends this wayy.. but nvms bahhs. really don't feel like talking to anybody.. i just feel down.. very upset. very terrible.. very miserable.. very horrible?? sort of bahhs. my gor got scolded. probably coz of miie. really.. really.. miie i guess.. i don't know.. i miss him a lot.. then is like.. he got scolded coz of miiie.. i feel so dead.. DEAD. i feel bad.. probably coz we talked to much on the phone or smthh. until somewann scolded him.. shoriie jed. i really very shoriiiie.. really really really really really shoriie. sincerely shoriie. i don't know.. wakaranai!!!!!!!!!!! wakaranai wakaranai wakaranai wakaranai. i'm all confused and mixed up.. i really really am.. i'm tired of thinking about all these.. but sad things just keep happening and totally makes ppls like miie very sad and unhappy. i let him down.. i really did. i don't know.. i'm tired. how nice an angel can pop up in front of miie and help miie solve the problem.. hmms.. i think i'm the only wann who can solve the problem. coz i created it.. isn't it?? i am tired.. wakaranai i need a saviour to save miie from all these pain.. somebody special to miie?? i guess so.. but i don't know who is the special person who can help. i don't think this person will ever appear in my life.. i don't know.. just doesn't make sense at all. just tired and i feel like dying and crying.. these few dayys. my posts are like.. all about sad things which happen where i keep saying shoriie and blahhs. i wanna die.. i think making somewann, whom i love, sad, is such a horrible thing.. makes ppls hate miie and all those stuff. yupps. i'm tired.. i need a saviour.. =(



i need him
i'm so misrable
can i ever hear that voice,
ever again??? =(
[you won't understand]

&the pages keep turning.

ohh wells. just came back from thailand yesterdayy. had an okayy time there.. shop till drop.. yeahh. reached home at 10++pm slept only about 3am. watch inuyasha episode 112 and 113. yepps.. 40minutes for both. but now i feel so tired. wake up chao early todayy coz of my gor. he msged miie i think about 6 to 7 am, so early.. nvms.. quite awake now. high as usual. have to rush thru all my hmwk todayy. maths, science, history, home economics, chinese........ so many.. haiis gonna burn midnight oil maybe.. i don't know. i hope not. haiis. tml have to go sku again. i hate it. i hate sku forever. really forever. hmms.. make her angry again. i betrayed her.. that's what she said. okayys i take her words. but i am a straightforward person. if you say it's a secret i will keep it in mind forever.. but when you don't say anything.. it may be be told to A person. i don't spread things around.. i'm not so wu liaos lkike some ppls.. wells. she didn't say it was a secret. and i don't think it's a top secret or smthh. ohh wells. i think we are too different. she's the totally opposite from miie. i don't know how to connect properly with her.. although i know she's nice.. very very nice indeed. but i think we have too many differences. she told miie smth too late.. toooooo late. it cause her to think i betrayed her.. so shoriie.. she said it at the wrong time. she should have said it earlier.. i don't know what to do with her.. okok. i'll quit assuming. it doesn't work anyhow.. so yar.. i shan't assume anything. this is totally STOOPID. i've got nth to sayy to her.. she and miie.. just.. NO NO mann. too difficult. how my bestiie and miie can be best friends.. coz we share lots of the same thing.. so it's easy so we trust each other anywayy. but his time. she's too different. and i can't change her.. and i also want to be myself. i'm not a puppet who changes everytime. change in personality, character. i don't want to. although i am not perfect. but i just wanna be myself. TRUELY myself.. i don't know what else i can sayy. i'm just in the wrong to assume and to tell ppls what i THINK should be told to the person. things are getting so complicated now.. i don't know. i seriously don't know how to solve this problem. there's no wayy this time. i don't hope she would trust miie. she won't. she probably thinks i'm a hypocrite. yupps. such a f***er she may think. i don't know.. i really really don't.



live a complicated life
things are getting out of hand
[you won't understand]

&the pages keep turning.

todayy went to science centre. watch some magic show thing. totally wacky huh.. heehee XD it was interesting. wells. the speaker is funny and at times rather lame.. make the whole thing pretty nice.. how nice can go again. ((: i really don't mind. hmms.. had an okayy okayy dayy. just normal bahhs. morning talk to bestiie and gor for awhile. then call up jorene after that.. it was done all in the morning. and i talked to jorene for like.. 45 minutes. which is sooooo seldom. wells.. that's not the point.. she was like saying how disgusted she was with my bestiie. coz my bestiie said smth to her. hmms. i guess she doesn't understand my bestiie. not even a bit.. nvms.. first time meet. so don't expect to know each other so fast bahhs. haiis. jorene jorene. i don't know.. i don't know what i can sayy to her.. but i guess she don't need to be so grossed out. i don't think it's very freaky to that extend. nvms.. you won't understand coz you don't know what's going on in my world. with bestiie and jorene.. nvms.. whatever. todayy my gor very nice to miie worhh.. write and flood miie with 79 testii!! amazing lor.. i don't know how he do lar.. but he too much time.. well thanks to him. now have 400 testii liaos.. yay!!! ((: i accept until my hand pain liaos. hehes =D he so nice so nice!! really thank him loads XD wahahahahahahahaha. i got many many testii now.. happy happy girl.. i am a happy girl. alwayys happy??? nahhs. i am not god. nvms just crapping.. XD




i need him
i miss him alot
i am hyper. so very high

&the pages keep turning.

did i?? did i just make him sadd?? awww.. i'm totally dead mann.. shhhhhheeeeesh lar.. i am so evil. i alwayys make ppls sad. why am i like that?? i'm so hopeless. i make ppls sad.. i should go hell. i should just die. why?? why?? WHY AM I LIKE THAT???!!!!!!!!! can someone tell miie please.. i am sadd coz he is sad. he sure is heartbroken. feel like i'm stabbing a knife in his heart huh?? i don't know.. but things just don't work out the wayy i want.. i'm totally hopeless, speechless, clueless, helpless.. STUPID. nobody can help miie. wells.. i don't know what to do now. 2 dayys ago, i make my darlins cry.. and now.. i make my gor sadd.. haiis. my life is PATHETIC. i just keep making ppls sadd.. my mind is totally sick. i don't know.. i don't know i don't know!!!!! i guess things will work out soon and he'll learn to give up and all those stuff. maybe bahhs. life is unpredictable. my life is destined to be like that. i'm an evil girl. i'm a bad and mean girl. very very mean in fact. okayys. i think everything quite back to normal. he sayy he not sad.. too high to be sadd.. i don't know.. maybe it's true maybe it's not. i don't know.. but just great to hear that he's fine.. todayy friends all go east coast.. hope they had fun. later gonna call bestiie and jorene to ask about the whole event.. alot of ppls went i guess. from poiching and east view.. i have nth else to write liaos.. that's about it kayys.



i need him
i miss my bestiie
i am hyper

&the pages keep turning.

woahhs. had a phone chatting 'marathon' i talked to my gor until about 4am. from 10pm.. hehes. 5 long hours. talking crap and nonsense and baka stuff lar.. wells. it's really long lorhhs. broke my record mann. 5hours on the phone. no kidding seriously. darlins not angry with miie liaos.. yay!! so now i kinda back to normal bahhs. but really shoriie that i can't make it tml. nvms. that's my life. a 'grounded' life. too bad.. my mood from sad, moody, low become hyper and energetic sehh. heehee XD thanks to my gor. he cheered miie up quite a bit though. and i cannot sleep yst.. too high liaos.. i kept sitting down, can't lie on my bed properly. just not sleepy. but in the end gor press wrong key then phone suddenly put down. if he didn't press wrong key, after we talk until morning, then don't need go sleep and rest liaos. so thanks to him for hanging up ((: he still say don't mine keeping miie company, todayy wake up so early, then sayy tired. lols rite?? okok. nth else to sayy about him lar.. he just very nice lorhhs.. hmms.. yay!! finally got a bestiie i so happy!! XD very very happy worhh. i lurrVe my good friends and bestii forever worhh!! and my gor too ((: yay yay!! i am still so high. so hyper. so energetic! i'm sick in the mind sehh.. i don't know what else can write lehhs. my brain hollow derhh. can't think of anymore things to talk about.. hollow brain alwayys have nth derhh. that's why i so stupid. too stupid. =D nvms.. *SNAP* uhhuh! what was it i was gonna type.. nvms.. forget it.. i can't think anymore, my brains gonna explode and burst liaos.. keekeekeekeekee =.=" so diaos hahas




i need him
i miss him a lot
i miss my bestiie
[you won't understand]

&the pages keep turning.

i am sooo depressed.. really depressed. i made my darlins cryy. shoriie jorene.. i really want to cry liaos.. i don't know what to do.. i'm so shoriie jorene.. i really am kayys. i want to cry.. sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs sobbs shoriiie jorene.. i don't know what to sayy. i seriously don't. hmms.. i wanna die lar.. go hell sia.. i really qian zhou, qian ma, qian da, qian bian lar.. i should do die lar.. deserve to die coz i make jorene sadd. actually sundayy suppose to go east coast. but my dad suddenly sayy he don't let miie go. i told jorene about it, she sadd lorhhs. haiis. she must really hate miie. and hate miie forever mann. i don't know what to sayy. haiiis. such a sadd thing.. i need a comforter.. i wann die lar.. i make somebody cry, i am evil, i am bad. i am a meaniie. so depressed.. so disappointing. i need someone who can lend miie his/her shoulder to cry on. i don't know. i'm all speechless. i am in no mood for anything. just shoriie. just need a shoulder.. =( shoriiiiie



i need him
i miss him a lot
but the gal wann so DAO
[you won't understand]

&the pages keep turning.