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Thursday 29 September 2016
@23:53
Jessie J's voice is so so so amazing! I'm listening to her songs on YouTube now and her voice is soulful and she has a lot of style and power. I HOPE SHE'LL HAVE A CONCERT IN SINGAPORE AND I WANNA GO because she is simply amazing. The acoustic versions of all her songs are so good. Just her voice and the guitar. Omg. Her voice... I can listen to them forever.
&the pages keep turning.
@22:45
Omgzxasdfzx. This is simply amazing.
Jessie J is amazing. And the ice skaters are amazing too.
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@22:32
I'm yours (cover) by Emm & I :) Enjoy!
We tried our best hahahah even though there were a few mistakes here and there, we had so much fun practising and recording the song!
My family also had a birthday gathering to celebrate my dad, uncle and cousin's birthday. There are so many October babies in my family. Haha. And my dad is so shy as usual. He's shy about my family celebrating his birthday for him, he's shy when my uncle gave him angbao, he's shy when asked to make a wish, he's shy when asked to blow the candles. Haha my dad.
&the pages keep turning.
Wednesday 28 September 2016
@07:47
Hello! Yippee I'm done with the paper, the mid term and the homework assignment aka I'm done for this week! Haha.
I'm feeling relaxed now 😊😊
I'm excited about what's to come in the next few days: hanging out with NY 😍 (even though I already see him all the time), dinnering with Wenz, hanging out with Emm - cooking and making song cover(s), family dinner... Actually it's just these two days. HAHA. Thanks to the free day I have tomorrow.
Lovin' ma life before startin' on school work again 😉😉
&the pages keep turning.
Saturday 24 September 2016
@17:44
I am so not serious about completing my assignment.
Kill me.
Kill me.
I am at this point in my life where I am so sick of school, so sick of assignments, so sick of studying. Sometimes I really feel that I don't deserve to go to school? Because putting things into perspective, there are families out there struggling to make ends meet, not being able to send their kids to uni or school even. And here I am whining about.. school. Gah.
Sometimes I don't deserve to be in school.
HALP. I'm having motivation crisis real bad.
On the side note, I think I need a change of blogskin or at least a blogskin that allows for a bigger blogging space. After exams after exams. Too many things I wanna do after exams.
#canitimetraveltothefuture
The Fight Song that keeps me going...
&the pages keep turning.
Tuesday 20 September 2016
@19:51
My weight has been increasing but my height remains the same (or maybe I shrunk idk). Today, I realised why I am (still) unmotivated to lose weight.
I shop for clothes (a lot).
And since I am bigger now, I abandon my old clothes from just 2-3 years ago and simply buy new clothes which are of bigger size.
I'm thinking that if I were to lose weight, I wouldn't be able to wear those pants that I bought!! What a waste will that be?
Sigh. I really need to stop shopping.
Hope that the daily weight chart that I have just started to record is gonna move me.
&the pages keep turning.
Monday 19 September 2016
@00:06
Happy belated mid autumn festival!
I had a blast with NY's friends (okay I consider them my friends too but I just feel more comfortable calling them NY's friends idk why). I had a great time with everyone, chatting about random things, eating mooncakes, drinking green tea (with rose somemore hahaha), trying to light up candles, walking around with lanterns, making the moon with a flashlight and cup because the moon was blocked by the tall Utown Res :<, posing with the lanterns and (make-shift) moon etc.
I have so many things to be thankful for!
Thankful that NY introduced his friends to me (since a long time ago when we were still in CAPT). Thankful that I met such wonderful people. Thankful that everyone made time to come down for this mini celebration even though it's mid sem already and there're deadlines, mid terms etc. coming up for some, if not most of us. And thankful for the cooling and comfortable weather too :)
Now for some throwback moments!
Yesterday NY and I went for the community sports event at National Stadium! ZUMMBAAAAA! HAHA can't believe we actually went for it in the end because I remembered when I told NY about this few weeks ago he was rather reluctant and just said "errrmmmm see first......" hahahah which most of the time ends up being no-go. But yep, we tried to be healthier this week by doing Zumba on Thursday in his home following the zumba videos on YouTube (NY's dad came home; saw that we were doing stretching and all that nonsense - it was so weirdddd), and then attending the sports event on Sunday. Hahahaha exercising twice this week is an achievement *round of applause*
Oh and Thursday I tried to style his hair. HAHAHAHA failed so badly. I tried :>
And and recently we bought some stuff from taobao and tried to sell them on Carousell too, but failed. We tried :>
I also met my favvvsss Nic and SY for dim sum dinner at Swee Choon on Hari Raya! Look at this photo. I think we could have hashtagged the photo with #ipoh #melaka #travelling and it would have been believable? Hahahahha.
That's all folks! For now :)
HAPPY RECESS WEEK AND A HAPPY WORK WEEK!
And to my beloved NY for not working yet, HAPPY HOBO-ING AROUND!
&the pages keep turning.
Monday 12 September 2016
@11:59
Today I don't feel like doing anything - The Lazy Song
Or more accurately, everyday I don't feel like doing anything. Haha.
Okay, but today I gotta.
Spent my morning listening to covers by Hearts & Colors! Go check them out on YouTube. Their covers are awesome. Thanks Emm for introducing them to me and let's do the I'm Yours cover soon :D
&the pages keep turning.
Friday 2 September 2016
@15:23
We live in this world filled with social constructs, rules, norms. Sometimes we might feel caged by all that and we cannot find reasons to break out of it, because "it's how things should be." In turn, we form values and principles to govern ourselves. Of course these are necessary to create a cohesive society, but when taken to the extreme, it creates unnecessary pressure for ourselves - we pressure ourselves to stay true to those values even though they might not be healthy; think in rigid manner and that's where distorted cognition seeps in.
"I cannot make my mother happy, so I am a bad child, I deserve to die."
"I cannot make my mother happy, so I am a bad child, I deserve to die."
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"Our aim was never to mend the relationship. It was to mend you. So that even if the relationship could not be fixed, you would have the courage to go on by yourself. Remember, you can only help your family if you are more mended than they are."
"Past, I was the victim.
Present, I am the warrior.
Future, I am a survivor."
I just finished reading this book, Even in Silence: My Journey of Sexual Abuse and Recovery by Danyya Ateera. It was really a heart-wrenching read and I couldn't help but tear as she recounted on her experiences and reflections. I continue to be inspired by her strength and courage to pull herself through all that she's facing. And my heart goes out to all victims and warriors, be it abuse, mental health issues, physical health issues, relationship issues, that you are not alone in this world; you need not face this alone.
As I read the book, I question myself on my ability to help these people but I still do want to believe that I can; with proper training and guidance and the heart to do it, I can. I want to continue working towards the path of being able to empower others to help themselves.
You need not be defined by your past. You are not who your parents or others tell you you are. You need not be defined by others. You are you.
Live. Live for yourself.
Albeit the lack of warmth from my family and they really probably couldn't care less about what or how I'm doing, if I were to say one thing that I learnt from living away from my parents all these years, I'd say it's the ability to be independent - the ability to think for myself, not needing to look towards my parents for any sort of affirmation, to be who I want to be, to live for myself, not in a selfish manner, but in a way that I am able to self-care and self-manage.
Albeit the lack of warmth from my family and they really probably couldn't care less about what or how I'm doing, if I were to say one thing that I learnt from living away from my parents all these years, I'd say it's the ability to be independent - the ability to think for myself, not needing to look towards my parents for any sort of affirmation, to be who I want to be, to live for myself, not in a selfish manner, but in a way that I am able to self-care and self-manage.
&the pages keep turning.
