"All you have to do is stand in the magic circle and KISS aniki!"
"Do it! KISS each other!"
by Chamo-kun.

lol it was FUNNAYE (:
he says it as though it's that simple xD
whatever it is :D

went to science centre again :D
it was fun TODAY. although we did the same thing, but it was still fun. because it wasn't as boring as it was on tuesday. on tuesday, we did that puzzle cart thing. AND I HATE THAT MOST. dang. and then thaumatrope. i don't know how to spell that thing. but for today, although we did thaumatrope, but we also did TWIRLER! i love THAT :D i made 2 TWIRLERS. yea. in the photo above. LOVE THEM LOADS :D

ohya. was doing that thaumatrope thing.

then there was this little boy. his dad asked him to thank me after i helped him with the stapling and stuff. he walked towards me.

lil boy: THANK YOU
me: okay ^^
lil boy: WHAT'S YOU NAME?
me: =.=" uhhhh........... vivi?"

i wonder why he asked that. lol what a weird boy he is. but very cute ehh :D i think about 3-5 years old maybe?

hmms.. cheryl's sick today, so she didn't do the cip with us. she's gonna lose her 10hours like that. ): and she missed all the fun. well i guess there's another time. hope she gets well soon ^^ anyway THANKS BAI AND SYA, FOR MAKING IT A GOOD TIME FOR ME. sorry bai, for hitting her hard for many times. lol. she was too evil to me xD lol but sorry.

it was THOSE lame COMPASSVALE GUYS. =.=" they're really lame. there was this room where we put our stuff, umm we call it the storage room luh. and we were inside, gonna take the boxes that we were in charge of. you know, we do kiddy stuff there. that was after lunch anyway. i had a bottle of sweets. some blackcurrent thinggy. when i went into that room, i was holding that bottle. and those guys saw it.

"EH GIVE ME SWEETS LEH"

one of them said that.
so i gave luh. and another one came asking me for sweets too. eeks. 3 guys stole 4 of my sweets. one of them took 2. but they're so open. we don't know them and they don't know us either, but they asked us for SWEETS. =.="

after that, we just go disturb them. bai, sya and i was going out of them room after taking all the things we needed. i quickly switched off the lights and closed the door. YOU DON'T KNOW HOW DARK THE ROOM WAS xD it's really dark. and the guys made some "ahh!" sound. well. not technically screaming. but it was just "ah" which meant "screaming" i don't know how to explain. so they had to try to get to the switches in the darkness. AWW. poor them xD but they're sickening really. lol. but it's pretty fun :D

the 2nd time i switched of the lights. they went, "EHH"
lol. and i replied sarcastically.
"I'M SAVING ELECTRICITY"
but they're funny. well kinda

and when we're going home at 5, we suddenly saw them chasing us, then bai, sya and i quickly ran out. and after that, we lost sight of them ^^ YAYS :D

GREAT DAY :D

oh anyway. one of the twirlers i drew and made.
i wrote LOLLI.SHOTA on it
and bai said
"lolli tak ada otak"
DIAO =.="
lolli without brains. and then she said
"YOU TAK ADA OTAK"
YEA :D she's right! i don't have brains xD

long post today. gotta stop. BYES (:

aku mau cinta, tapi itu gak mungkin ):

&the pages keep turning.

"will you marry me?"
quoted by HeR.

HeR? nah. HiM. neh xD

went to do little shopping just now.
spent so much. almost 100bucks. so guilty
i bought quite a lot luh. that's why so expensive
i'm so in love with it. the overall i bought.
that overall really rawks. almost look like a dress
but not exactly a dress. i don't know how to explain

anyway. added new song to the playlist.

Can't help falling in love with you-A*Teens

Do do do do do do do do
do de do (do do)
I just can't help falling in love again

Wise men say only
fools rush in
but I can't help falling in love with you
Shall (Shall) I stay (I stay)
would it be a sin (be a sin)
If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows (Ooh Ooh Ooh)
to the sea
so it goes (Ooh Ooh Ooh)
some things are meant to be
(some things are meant to be)
take (take) my hand (my hand)
take my whole life too (whole life too)
for I can't help falling in love with you

Wise men say only
fools rush in but
I can't (I can't) help falling in love (falling in love)
with you (with you)

Like a river flows (Ooh Ooh Ooh)
to the sea
so it goes (Ooh Ooh Ooh)
some things are meant to be
(some things are meant to be)

take (take) my hand (my hand)
take my whole life too (whole life too)
for I (I) can't help falling in love with you

take (take) my hand (my hand)
take my whole life too (whole life too)
for I (I) can't help falling in love
with you (falling in love with you)
for I (I) can't help falling in love
(love love love)
falling in love with you

Like a river flows
that's the way it goes
I just can't help falling in love with you
(falling in love with you)
Like a river flows (take my hand)
that's the way it goes (my whole life too)
I just can't help falling in love with you
Like a river flows (take my hand)
(I just can't help myself)
that's the way it goes (my whole life too)
X2

it's not uploaded by me this time
because i don't have this song. ):

aku mau cinta, tapi itu gak mungkin ):

&the pages keep turning.

"I have DREAMS of watching the sunset, followed by watching stars and then the sunrise WITH the love of my life"
quoted from HeR blog :D

guess who?
but that was SUWEET (:
shan't say anything again :D

whoots~ saddistic post yesterday. i'm not gonna write some saddist post again. probably not. because everything was sort of written down yesterday. and in my DEAR DIARY TOO. love my diary. my friend forever :D nothing much to write today. i'll keep it short.

and thanks jorene anyway. letter letter ^^

i hope everybody's happy :D it's the holidays. although with lots of homework and stuff. but still, wish you guys out there a HAPPY HOLIDAY (:

last thing.
gah. dumb thing i found
i wrote it. last year xD

haiyo.. shuaiixxx gerr not in lehhs. don't know where he go. whole morning only see him once can. so sad norhh.. heh?! OMG just saw him, he just came out of that door? he look like some leng ku person. so kanglei maybe? hahhahs but i hope he's not like that. i don't know. i'm not sure of his name still. henry? hendry? WHATEVER? i don't know. seriously i don't can. sad norrs. =( WTF? where did he go again? ahh!!! just wanna see him lehhs! MISS him? no lar.. then don't miss him- but where the hell did he go??!!!!

lalala xD sianns sianns sianns- where is he? haiyo.. can he just appear and not keep on disappearing. wanna see him lar.. =X oohh.. i know liaos he go that room. "hide" hehhehs xxxDDD why can't he just come out? stoopid norhh. COME OUR LEHHS!! LOLS. he also in no relationship with miie. so i see him for what nerhh? hahhahhahs so so so very very lame! i like to use the word "so" =D iyayaya!!!!! come out please... it's not like everybody will eay him up or smth! wahh! he come out liaos =)) FINALLY can. ((: just can't help noticing him you know. but i think the next time i come back, i don't think he'll be with us anymore. he keep hiding, don't do as much work as the rest you know.


sheesh lar.. bu i still hope he'll be with us :) too shuaii lerr. today's the second day i'm seeing him. ehhs. after he realise i keep looking at him how? eeyer. don;t think so lar. i hope not so also. hahhahs. he don't have ear piercing. so guaii uhhs. LOLS- he don't look guaii can. xD =X you see the way he dress and all those stuff.. and HIS HAIS. he look like some "pai kia" not exactly pai kia but smth like that. cool cool type. very fashionable you can say :) right??? hahhahs i don't like him. that's 1000000000% sure =) derhh. infinity % sure. sure until cannot be more sure lerrs =D

sassaye. baby. NO. LAR. he isn't lar. just shuaii shuaii shuaii. but horrs i really lame lehhs. keep repeating the same sentence. lame lame lars-

it was bad english all over luh. dang.

anyway guess who he is?
lol no point. you won't know him anyway
but i hope he's still there
he's a very nice person :D
he broke the ice between me and him
lol because at first i don't dare to talk to him luh

that's all for today,
gonna watch pretear now.
so byebye :DD
smooches!

aku mau cinta, tapi itu gak mingkin :(

&the pages keep turning.

"If i really don't like any other girl, you have to stay by me forever"
quoted by HiM.

won't elaborate anything about that.

all the lecture's by him again. haiis. poor jomel. but sometimes she may deserve it. that's what i think. although she has a little attitude problem, but i'm sure she knows what she wants and she knows what she's doing. he's doubting her abilities or something? i don't know. maybe he's just concerning. i don't know luh. father and daughter. i have no idea about them.

anyway. went to science centre for CIP. this year..
not as interesting as last year anymore. maybe because we did the same thing as last year. i don't know what it's called. one was some kiddi stuff and the other was IQ games. boring. i remembered how i love this whole CIP thing. but now, i don't think so anymore. i'm getting bored of it. well pretty much. did this with bai, sya, le. ying and hildy was there too. they had this weather study competition. they went there with ms foo. when i was at the booth, i sort of bent down, wanting to take something. and that's when somebody was touching my stick i put on my hair. i tie "buns" and then put a stick in between them. you know. i'll look old and it will be YAYS (: well that's not the reason why my hair is styled that way. but i just like it that way. yah. that way. looks like samurai :D love samurais xD ohya. back to the topic. touching my stick. and when i turned back, it was actually ms foo.

she's such a nice teacher :D
she's really nice with my class :D
her smile is ever so sweet :D
maybe because she used to be our form teacher :D

nothing much to write.
today's gonna be a saddistic post. so don't bother reading them

maybe i should just tell jorene about it.
or maybe not. but i think i should
i feel so guilty and stuff.
for not telling her as many things and she told me

TO JORENE:
that's why i asked you that question just now in the train luh

i know the results in my mind.
the ip results :D but i think, it's okay
it's an experience. although my dream of getting in
didn't come true, but it's a good experience.
i can try better in sec4 :D
O levels :D

why do old people pass away that easily?
why can't i be like them? life is meaningless to me
kinda.

i don't feel like living
in a world without love
i have nothing that i look forward to.
i have nothing to live for.
i have no reason to carry on living.
i have no reason to walk on.
because there's just no light
at the end of the long long path.

i want love!
but there's no love!
i want to cry!
but there's no tears in my eye!
i want to die!
but i just keep living. day after day
it's sickening.

i'm looking forward this time, i mean going back to indonesia. although it will leave jorene to be lonely for a little while, which i'm sorry but i can't do anything about it. i just want to go back. i'm sick and tired of my sickening life in singapore. sadness, sorrows, worries. i don't want any of them. i hope you do understand. you have other friends around you. so without me, it's fine too.

how nice my life is pure bliss
how nice everyone's life is pure bliss
how nice life is a bed of roses
but that's something,
that will never come true

i just want to go back. although this june holiday, i gotta go back and complete my homeworksdo maths, literature and projects. but i think, i don't mind it at all. at least, in indonesia, in my mum's shop, there's company, there's friends. they are all happy people. and with happy people around me. i'm sure it will be quite a paradise. i hope so. i miss HOME

I MISS MY MUM

&the pages keep turning.

"because i love you"
quoted by uncle john

at first, it was bad headache. very bad one. because he shouted at jomel over some stuff that made him really angry. but after that. at home, he, dagu and jomel sat down in the living room and he gave her a little "lecture". no exactly lecture but maybe talking some sense into her. very touching. i was in my room packing my table and stuff. you know luh. i'm a messy girl. always messing my room up. so had to do some cleaning. and i overheard him talking to jomel. nice tone. touching speech. i almost cried. yea. really sad. well the things he said was. sad. sad. sad. tomorrow then continue with others. post too many today

aku mau cinta, tapi itu gak mungkin :(

&the pages keep turning.

"YOROSHI ONI"
quoted by konoka-chan
IT'S short form for
YOROSHIKU ONEGAISHIMASU

ying tagged me. so yea. gonna complete it
although i've done it last year. june. lol

Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. Don't read the questions before you write and tag 5 people to do the survey.

1. Candice
2. Jorene
3. WenJie
4. JianNing
5. YingYing
6. Hildy
7. WeeBian
8. JiaYi
9. Cheryl
10. JingQun
11. XiaoJiao
12.Zhi Jun
13. Jelene
14. Awi
15. Chris
16. Genson
17. Lyvia
18. Shirley
19. ZhengFeng
20. Marianne

1) how did you meet #14?
-family FOREVER :D mwarks! ^^
2) what would you do if you had never met #1?
-lol i'll have one less friend
3) what would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
-both are GIRLS. they're not gonna date with each other
4) would #6 and #17 make a good couple?
-can't be. THEY'RE GIRLS. not les luh
5) describe #3
bestiie :D weird guy xD
6) do you think #8 is attractive?
-lol why not? ^^
7) tell me something about #7
-chubb guy :D
8) do you know anything about #12's family?
-she has 2siblings.
9) what is #8's favourite?
-HISTUGAYA-TAICHO ^^ smooches!
10) what would you do if #11 confesses that he/she likes you?
-eeks. i'm not les. and HER. NO WAY .. .. ..
11) what language does #15 speak?
-english? chinese? i think so. not sure either
12) who is #9 going out with?
-lol. i don't think anyone at the moment. who knows ^^
13) how old is #16 now?
-13 going on 14
14) when is the last time you talked to #13?
-quite some time already. not sure
15) who is #2's favourite singer?
-i'm not sure ehh. seems like there's many
16) would you date #4?
-no luh. she's a GIRL. and i'm a GIRL too. =.="
17) would you date #7?
-err. no? he has his own. you know. you know.. :D
18) is #15 single?
-i.. don't.. know.. ):
19) what is #10's last name?
-Tan? or JingQun? i don't really know what last name is.
different people have different stuff. i don't know
20) would you consider being in a relationship with #19?
-no luhhh. i think he has his own too. =.="
21) what sku did #3 go to?
-AHS.
22) where does #6 live?
-pasir ris
23) what's your favourite thing about #5?
-lol funniness in her :D
24) what do you think of #18?
-actually i know nothing about her.
except that she loves BYAKUYA like me :D
maybe she's a nice girl. hope she is ^^
25) what do #4 and #19 have in common?
-lol that i'm not really sure ehh
26) what special qualities does #17 hold in your life?
-great friend of mine :D

not tagging anybody. it's bothersome
well whoever wants to do it then just do it

aku mau cinta, tapi itu gak mungkin :(

&the pages keep turning.

"Oh yea, our milk festival, ooh!"
quoted by train heartnet

most probably it's him
went to sku just now. for library duty. i'm really tired now. had to do quite a lot of shelving because mrs bagen had to do something with the books on the shelves. so gotta take out the books and shelf them back after she's done whatever with them. supposed to have some other people to come and do this crap too. but in the end, i was the only one who turned up. so had to do quite a lot of work. finally. i'm home! TADAIMA :D
gonna watch negima now. byebye ^^
nagato-sho strawberry comic. love it loads (:

aku mau cinta, tapi itu gak mungkin :(

&the pages keep turning.

"demo sa.."

Kenangan Terindah-Samsons

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang
Darimu yang mampu menyanjungku
Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu
Untuk mengenangmu
Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati
Chorus :
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

aku mau cinta. tapi itu gak mungkin :(

2nd song

hao yan lei huai yan lei-xu ruo xuan

gotta write in alphabets. anyway the song's
in chinese. so if i write the lyrics here
it's gonna be in a total mess.

once again. i uploaded these songs
on imeem myself
i really love it loads :D
i don't know about you guys. lol
well that's all ^^ for now. maybe
gonna change song again some time?
well who knows.
by the way. the mv for the chinese song rawks
because there's TANG YUU ZHE xD

&the pages keep turning.

"love at first sight"

blahblah.
went to uncle's house. pray to grandmama. give her offerings. so had to wake up pretty early. 9am. that's early for me. i'm nocturnal xD the morning sun was scorching hot. really. i couldn't open my eyes when i walked. i had to look down to the ground before i could see anything. i didn't watch matantei loki ragnarok and saiyuki yesterday night. i was tired. but i recorded it anyway. maybe i can watch it later :D when nobody's watching the tvee. jorene finally finished reading WEN QUAN XIAO LIAN REN ^^ perverted. i mean the main characters. the pretty girl and that shuai guy. aww. they're hot. although dirty thoughts from both of them, but the book is fantastic. among the 39 comics i have at home. that's the best comic ever! just love it loads. the drawing is nice. the story is excellent! i'm reading a new comic that i bought quite some time ago. i'm going on to the 2nd book. i only started reading just now. so only finished with the first book. NAGATA-CHO STRAWBERRY. great that it's not a girly book. although "strawberry" is part of the title. sounds girly, but it's not. i think it may be as good as wen quan. YAYS (: gonna talk to judy about that comic when she comes back from taiwan. wrote too much today. so byebye

&the pages keep turning.

"i hate long-lasting bubble tea"

luh.
boring day. although i went to bugis today. with jorene. supposedly was jorene, weebian and zf. but in the end. he can only make it in the evening or something. so in the end. the guys didn't come. left jorene and me once again. ate lunch at yoshi. YAYS (: love the food there :D rawks like heaven. well like hell ^^ although a little expensive. but still love it there. drank milk. FINALLY. it's been a few days since i last drank milk. ate corochan too :D and after that we went to the library. omg. jorene took freaking long to choose her books. REALLY LONG. =.=" fickle-minded her. nevermind. we've got quite a lot of time anyway. looked at the comics on the trolley. stupid. shan't elaborate.

"do you need me to help you shelf the books?"

STUPID WOMAN =.="

&the pages keep turning.

"word for word, day for day too"

sad day. got back report books. did very badly. that's for sure. because i'm that type of lazy person. slacker you call. who doesn't work hard very much. so don't expect much from me. and the other sad thing. choir. I'M BACK IN SOP1 AGAIN. and this time, it's FOREVER. i hate this crap. really. sop1 sop1 sop1. arghh! i was very happy when ms lim said last week that we could go back to our old section. yea i was in sop2 in the past. SOP2's still the best! ^^ love you guys there :D but since there's only 3 sec2s in sop1 and 8 in sop2, we had audition today. conducted by shilbe. and shilbe chose ee peng and me to go to sop1. i thought it was gonna be amirah. since her voice is pretty good. but it wasn't that way. sheeshed. why must i go back THERE. i don't know how shilbe pick us anyway. i was so airy when she auditioned me. i had sorethroat. probably because i ate too much chilli luh. i was really airy. i sang loudly. but airy. it's not very good to be airy. in fact, it's bad luh. i was scared when we were auditioned. she made us sing quite high. i could reach them. but there was this part when i suddenly just "voice crack" and screwed that note up. lol. everybody was laughing. xD my leg was shaking and my heart beat so fast that it's scary. gah! i don't care anymore. no choice. sop1 means sop1. darn.

YAY
congrats to marianne :D
she's the QM! JIAYOU

jorene don't be sad kay.

though it's bad
and you are sad
but don't cry
or i'll get mad

FOR YOU :D

&the pages keep turning.

"i curse you"

boring day. seriously. ohya. science experiment thingy was kinda fun ^^ i like scooping up the sand at the garden. lame. nevermind. nothing much to write for today. just boring. sad. chinese teacher's leaving tomorrow. making a card for her :D hope she comes back to teach us again. yays (: tomorrow's last day of sku for this term. not gonna see my friends for about 1month. yays. no tickles from cheryl, hildy, germaine, jian ning and jiayi.

uncle and aunt coming back today. ):

&the pages keep turning.

"injuries will heal, as long as we live
although they might leave scars"

eeeks. lots of photo taking today. i hate taking photos. class and choir. hate them like hell. actually i love hell. nevermind xD choir was pretty slacky today. nothing much to do. other than discussing on that basking thinggy on carnival day. whees~ gonna be singing songs. NOT CHOIR SONGS. but just any songs by any artist. we're divided into small groups. sounds fun to me. singing at the FOYER :D

then we were outside beethovan room. at the circular block. obviously. saw mrs yong and mr see talking. they were at the first floor. in front of the general office door luh. marianne was saying that mr see was flirting xD marianne, elsa and me called out mr see. elsa went "FELIX" and marianne and me, we called out "MR SEE". elsa and marianne called out quite softly. so the teachers couldn't really hear. and the last time i called out. was omg. they actually heard it. mrs yong and mr see turned to our direction. elsa and marianne was hiding. i just stood there like nothing happened. embarassing ehh xD teacher was smiling. at us. lol. it's kinda stupid. nevermind. i wrote too much for today. so shall end of here.

i want milk. chocolate ones ^^

&the pages keep turning.

"If i unzip it, what will you do uhh?"
translated from chinese.

kept laughing today. =.="
i don't know why. probably have some mental problems or something. went to bugis with cheryl to buy that "gems" thinggy for english entrepreneur project. darn. gotta sell those crap stuff on friday. i don't feel like doing it anymore. because for my group, the main one was actually the hair spray. but since we can't have hair spray on friday as it's a normal sku day, so i think it wouldn't be fun at all. we thought the stall was gonna open up on carnival day. but. nope. sad. i want hair spray! nevermind. then. wasted money. 5bucks. darn. on neoprint. =.=" but this time. the neoprint was nice. although only cheryl and me took it. 2 people. quite pathetic. but it's still nice ^^ i ate COROCHAN! love it loadds. cheryl don't like. i gave her a bite of my small piece of corochan. maybe she didn't taste it well? can't be. maybe she don't like yam. i don't know. and she ate TAKO YAKI. corochan was my lunch. (:

after that. went to tm, to meet jorene and yingying. they had cca from 2+ to 4. so couldn't go bugis with cheryl and me. as usual. nothing much in tm and century square. boring place. not exactly. it's just that. nothing there, interest me much. at montip. i saw that star earing. the silver one. it's nice. i want it. i have at home, but it's only one side. i lost the other. hope i'll have money some day to buy it. remember? my pocket's got a hole. ohya. met candice too. lol. she couldn't really recognise me. xD i kept waving and she kept staring until something came into her senses and told her that it was vivi. lol

i saw THAT WITCH SHOE!
omg. i want it!! badly. i wanna buy it before i go back indonesia. i want money! i can't wait for my burfday luh. although jorene wanted to buy it for my burfday. but.. nahhs. july.. =.=" still a long time to go. argh! nevermind i'll check if i have money. mwahhs xD wasting money.

where did all the money go to?
comics. =X

&the pages keep turning.

"when the bee comes, you must rarrr"

it's a boring day. stupid lessons. especially GEOGRAPHY
lol. "cheated" the whole way. for my row, we were using the computer, then when teacher is near us, we quickly switch off the screen thinggy. so that it sort of "black out". you know. teacher was quite angry with the class. for bad attitude in class because we were busy talking and using the computer. that's why. maybe she's gonna report that to mrs liew and mrs capel. dead. but who cares.

at the end of the lesson she said.
"i hope your behaviour improves the next lesson"

LOL. i wonder who listens. i hope someone does ^^

had crap party again.
the chips were NICE ^^

tomorrow gotta do duty again. because i lazy to go on last thursday. so have to make up tomorrow. sad. i want to cry already. i'm lazy. lazy lazy lazy!! arghh! nevermind. just for the 30hours. i'll make sure i get 75% of attendence for library. lol. i didn't do this CIP from the bottom of my heart xD

whatever. getting corny.
what a saddistic day. everything's
saddistic to me.

ME and that GINSENG CHRYSANTHEMUM (:

&the pages keep turning.

"if you're to work for 2 days, i'll date with you"
he said.

darn. whole day couldn't use the computer. only at about 12plus. i think. i used the computer for about 2 minutes. then uncle came back and asked me to switch of that darn computer. crap privacy he wants. FINE. so i couldn't do anything about fps. and help out with jorene's blog and put the black cat and songs into DVD-R for my senior. darn. have so many things to do.

ate that stupid chicken again. hate them. like hell. stupid arnold's chicken. i wonder why uncle, dagu and jomel love going there to EAT. eeeks. they tasted like.. just eeew. nevermind. feel like puking. too full. ate to much. maybe not. DRINK too much. drank bandung and a whole cup of soya bean milk. too much. feel so bad.

bursting

&the pages keep turning.

"move aside, you're blocking the whole world"
funniest sentence ever. you may not know why xD

as long as i don't hear that name, i won't be saddistic. you know.. SADDISTIC. trying to be happy. well i AM happy. went plaza singapura.

I FINALLY KNOW WHAT MONEY IS.
arghh. there's a hole in my pocket.
DEAD. no more money. left 30bucks
it's bad. really! withdraw is the idea.
nothing much to write once again.

nope disillusioned.

&the pages keep turning.

syafina was flying in class

nothing much to write today

when i heard that name. it saddened my whole mood. i hope that i won't hear that name ever again. i wish so. okay. maybe not that bad. but i hope that i could hear that name being called out lesser. i also hope that she won't mention that name too often.

gonna have a class jacket

i wanna write

BAKA-MONO
VEGETABLE FLY FLY
BLACK CAT

as the name at the back

i wonder which one i should use. i wanted to use vegetable fly fly. but it's a little too long. so may have to consider other name. maybe i'll use BAKA-MONO. most probably :D

jiayi should use WHITEY-CHAN
since she loves hitsugaya so much
whitey sounds nice. well wakarimasen
i wonder what she's using anyway.

&the pages keep turning.

i'm glad that i'm
SIMPLE-MINDED
brings more peace

i don't care if you will feel lonely or whatsoever. but what i have decided is not gonna change. i won't talk to you. i won't help you. i won't interfere with you. i won't do anything about you. that's all. it will create less sadness i think. for me. and for you. it's as simple as that. i don't want anybody to feel sad. i don't feel good about it. don't be sad.

everyone else's
happiness
except her.

which is me ^^

&the pages keep turning.

everyone else's happiness

&the pages keep turning.

i am not being saddist here
but this is what i think.
don't comment on it please

life is meaningless. well to me. i want death. where is death? in a car crash? when a pot drops from the top and it lands on my head? i want it. i want death badly. no matter how much i yearn for it, why is it not coming to me? when i'm praying hard for it, and believing that it will be here for me soon.

feel like puking. when i see maggie noodles. i don't want to eat them. i feel like vomitting. they taste too much like heaven. why? i don't want love

i just want death
a beautiful disaster.
for everybody.
when i'm dead :D

&the pages keep turning.

went to sku. SAD. very sad. yesterday was a holiday for tkgians. ALL tkgians. because of awards that tkgs achieved and stuff like that. so it's one day rest. ONE DAY. pathetic. but it's okay. better than nothing you know ^^ i want more holidays. i'm tired. of everything. i don't want sku. i was wishing that i could get sick like some people do. today, 3 people didn't come. marianne, jocelyn and lynn. they're probably sick. i wonder..

thanks marianne, for the concern anyway ^^
i hope she comes to sku tomorrow :D

yesterday. greatest day ever. well kinda (: it was really fun. at the beach. you know. BEACH. my favourite place. forever. how nice my house is at the beach, the sku is near the beach, everything is near the beach. then that would be the most fantastical thing ever in my whole darn life. but it's impossible. houses are expensive. and i'm just not that rich and lucky. i'll work harder ^^

when we reached east coast, we had to walk a long long long distance. it took us about 45 minutes or so to reach safra from the underpass. it was tiring. well i don't do much walking. but it's pretty funny when you think about it. the guys were. quite? quiter than jorene and me at least. at safra, we enjoyed the aircon. it's a nice place. we went to the bowling alley. to bowl. obviously. but the atmosphere wasn't there. it was kinda deserted. nobody's bowling except for us. played 2 games. i really suck at the first game. the first few rounds was ZERO all the way. what crap points is that?!! but the 2nd game was good (: i need warmup. it's good for me. the points i mean. i know A LOT more people can do better than me. WAY LOT. but it's fine for me. good enough :D

after that we walked back again. and it's another.. 45minutes =.="

it was riding of bicycle after lunch. weebian and zhengfeng ate lunch. jingqun, jorene and me didn't. but who cares about myself. the bicycle riding was.. err. fun? i suppose. i left my e-zlink card at the counter of the bowling alley there. so gotta ride my bicycle all the way to safra just for the stupid card. had to cycle real fast. i was tired. my stamina is VERY BAD. and everybody knows that. nevermind. when i reached safra, my head was spinning. ahahhs xD until i felt that i have no more energy left and that i could just faint. but it's alright. since jorene is around at that time. i won't faint with people around me ^^ i took my card from the counter person and we cycled back.

but really sorry. for everything. felt bad about it

sorry jorene for "colliding into" your bicycle. causing your bag to be dirty and hurt your legs.

sorry zhengfeng. accidentally cycled too behind you. that my bicycle wheel and yours just slide past each other. and that caused.. a little.. umm. i don't know how to say. just sorry

sorry jingqun for making your day bad.

sorry weebian for all the trouble!

just sorry to everyone of you who were there yesterday. caused a lot of trouble because i suck at my bicycle riding skills. i seldom cycle, so it never improves. SORRY.

ohya. although weebian's a saddist, he's pretty nice ^^ it's kinda contradicting. but something like that. chubby guy. with chubby cheeeks xD

i had a lot of fun. but guessed that i was too self-centred about that. i don't know. at about 5plus. we sat at the beach. it was a nice breeze and nice environment :D just love it. sitting on the sand, listening to music. very relaxing ^^ and then.. we played truth or dare. i was the first one to be picked. i chose truth first. and weebian asked a stupid question.

"what do you think of jingqun. must be positive comments"

=.="

i don't know how to answer that question. really. i don't know his good points. because weebian wanted me to name 5. does he even have loads of good points? i wonder. i seriously don't know. i don't know him very well. i don't know anything about him. i just know nothing lar.

jorene and jinqun was only called upon twice. lucky her xD
zhengfeng i'm not really sure. relatively many
i got called like.. many times. weebian also
okays. stop that truth or dare thing already.

i learnt a new word. ANTAGONIST. zhengfeng's english good lar. so he "explained" to me the meaning of it. i'm really bad at it. the word antagonist was from this website where there wrote some things about byakuya. and i happen to notice this word and not know the meaning. so lame. but well my engish is THAT bad.

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ku sedi lho.
sedi sekali

feeling down. as usual. maybe because of him. i caused a lot of trouble and stuff. made him sad. and i wonder why he's sad. he should be used to it and stuff. but i don't know why he's reaction was that big when i said something about it. i feel so guilty. very guilty about it.

my heart hurts. because of him. why must it be that way? i don't know either. it reminds me of what happened in the past. breaking. apart. forever. and. ever. good. but evil. heated argument. but lyvia was on my side. but it wasn't a good experience. it makes me really guilty. it was partially his fault too. but it was my fault at the same time.

he's feeling sad. just like i am. everything's kinda saddistic. i don't know what to do. to help him and stuff like that. just guilty conscious. i feel very bad about this whole thing. how nice i could do something. but.. i don't know.. i just don't. i'm just hurting him time and time. maybe if i can't stand the pressure in my heart, i'll just cry. i don't know what to do with him. seeing him so hurt and down. i don't know what to do. i hope i'll be fine after some time.

i don't want the cut in my heart
i don't want the wound in my heart
i don't want anything.

i only want death.
and his happiness

&the pages keep turning.

3 posts for today.
hip hip hooray
MY FOOT.

jian ning asked me to watch that video clip on some weird website given by my science teacher. it's on abortion. i wonder if i should watch it today. i will cry. probably. but i think i should. because this way i'll feel death. painful death. death is good for me. well not for the baby. just particularly ME (: nevermind. i'll decide it later.

just cut my finger. too bad it didn't bleed. it should have
AWWWWW

&the pages keep turning.

i'm loving this blogskins ^^
it's a little saddist though.
the heartbroken crap. but i just love it :D maybe because i'm a saddist. i took the whole afternoon to finish up with this skins. the original designer was sugar-starx. credited her anyway. she credited herself. i found it yesterday. but today then i did all the editing. hard work, really. i edited about 80% of this skins. i changed the picture and layout and a lot of things actually. that's why i took a lot of time. changing picture was the tough one. had to explore a bit more on the picture codes then i could do it. i don't know. i just love this ^^ i didn't use photoshop. i just tried to "stick" the 2 pictures together at the top with codes. YAYNESS~ it looks nice to me. i'm just so happy (:

for no reason. ahahahs xD

felt really sick today. maybe because
of yesterday didn't eat well and stuff.
so had bad headache all day but it's okay.
i hope i get sick soon. real soon ^^

&the pages keep turning.

DAGU GAVE ME A BIG HUG :D
BIG BIG HUG
THANKS FOR THAT ^^

LOVE VAMPIRE KNIGHT
YOU CAN'T IMAGINE HOW
SHUAI THE GUY IS
REALLY

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WHY can't i be friends with him?
JUST normal friends.
IS it wrong to make friends?
IS it wrong to be friendly with him?
IS it wrong to talk to someone
WHO used to be an "abandoned"
FRIEND?

IS it wrong?

WHY is the world against me?
WHY must they say that about him and me?
WHY?
IS something wrong?

IS something wrong with me?

SOMEONE ANSWER ME!

THE world is such a saddist

I'M tired of all these nonsense.
ONE day, when i can't stand it
I wouldn't be what i am now
I would turn back to what i used to be
IN the past; a monster
MAYBE

WHAT i am now is only a mask
I'M not like that, so carefree, am i?

I'LL burst like a balloon
I will, i really will

HE has his own
SO do i
WE aren't interfering with each other
YOU know..
LIFE

AM i wearing a mask?
I think i am.

MY post is always different
FROM the mask i wear
THEY'RE totally different, aren't they?
I wonder which is my
TRUE emotions?

THE POST OR THE MASK i wear

I always try to put a smile on my face
BUT is that who i truly am?
I wonder..

I really wonder.
AM I A FAKE?

&the pages keep turning.

interesting day i've got today
well kinda interesting.

in the morning
had to wake up at 9+!!
arghh! so early :(
lol nevermind

today, for the whole day except for dinner. my aunt cooked something. so i have to eat. maybe i should starve myself a little. then i will feel the pain myself. i only fed myself with sweets and a little drink. candy rawks my world. but i felt kinda tired when i went out. no strength because there's no energy produced even though i'm respiring. because. i didn't eat breakfast and lunch. i only ate sweets. and these sweets tasted nice ^^ love them. very small tiny ones. lol. i felt that my legs were energyless and i just felt no strength in my body. but nevermind. my friends are around. i won't show my tiredness ^^ i'll try to be as cheerful as ever :D

i went out with judy. i reached parkway at 10.30. around there. because i need to go to the bank. but i only met her at 11.30am. she was a little late but she told me earlier on already. walked around parkway. to find cake. i bought for her her belated burfday prezzie. actually on 4th may i gave her little keychain which had her name on. but today i bought for her whatever she wanted. the photo frame thing. really cute. it has a fishhiiie shape :D then after that.. just walk and walk. nothing much to see. i'm quite bored of shopping.

OHYAR! have 4th hole already!! YAYNESS~ pierced it at STEGE. smoochiies :D really happy. finally i pierced it. the 3rd hole.. i pierced it last year april. somewhere there. and 4th hole this year may. ahahs xD one year pierce one. hmms maybe this is the last piercing i'm gonna have. not sure. if not one more.. then enough. i don't know. next year then decide ^^

afternoon. was stupid. he asked me out for some stupid reason. anyway i needed to go tampines mall. urgently. so i agreed to go out. had to buy a cake. for my aunt. tomorrow's mother's day ^^ and this is the FIRST time ever that i bought something for my aunt. not really actually. 2nd time. the 1st time was that california roll. that japanese sushi roll. but for tomorrow, i bought her a little cake. ^^ it's about.. umm the diameter of the cake is 5cm i think. pretty small. i walked down the basement. well i took the escalator obviously. walked a whole big round until we reached breadtalk. i saw A CAKE! finally!! i went to parkway and i couldn't find one. and in tampines mall, there's the cake i wanted to buy!! it's white. well beiggy you could say. with rapsberry on top of it. no cream and whatsoever. not so fattening for my aunt ^^

after buying the cake, just walked around to see more cake. LOL! =.=" he said, "why you keep looking at cakes?" that was a stupid question. i thought. why can't i look at cakes? anyway i wanted to see if there were nicer cakes than that beiggy one. he followed me. practically the whole time. right behind me.

it's pretty weird. right behind?!! he's like.. some stalker or something??!!! maybe he is? lol who knows. he want to walk.. he should walk in front of me, beside me, or if he wants to walk behind, then it shouldn't be directly behind. it was boring. really.. just walked around AIMLESSLY. what the crap is that lar..

whees~ went to comics connection!! woahhs :D there's saber's sword!! it's darn cool ^^ but too bad i won't buy such thing. AND THERE'S OURAN HIGH TOO!! i mean the comic. the first book! it's difficult to find. i went to popular but i just can't find the first book. maybe next time i'll go there to buy. ohya. there's this wallet too!! it's honey's RABBBIT!! i mean the picture on the wallet. I WANT IT!! IT'S CUTE. love honey :D

actually i love kyouya more xD

anyway. i wonder what is going on in his head. i wonder why he suddenly asked me out. he should have asked her. instead of me. he's sad or something? then he need to go out to distress himself a little? i don't know. but he's weird, really.. i wonder what happened between him and her. it seems weirder by the day. who cares about him. he's gonna settle that on his own anyway. i don't help him. he doesn't need my help either and even if needs my help, there's nothing i can do. because he caused the problem himself, so the only way to solve is.. he needs to figure that out himself too.. it's lame. seriously.

weird. lame. stupid. retarded.
an "interesting" day i had (:

hmms you know..
i feel so hopeless
well i AM holepess
useless, pathetic..
i have no goals in life
that's why i can live such a care life
you know.. LIFE?
yea.

i'm not like jorene. who gets tensed up over her goals. i have no emotions or whatsoever about it. just no targets. i really am hopeless. talked to jorene last night for quite awhile. and we were talking about our lifes. how my mood changes and become lonely. things like that. i thought through those things. but i don't really understand them fully. crap goal settings and stuff. jorene said that she wanna revise her history today. by the way, i don't know if she did. but i said

"there's no such word as revise in my personal dictionary"

and she laughed. lol. maybe miracles happen to me all the time. i'm sure she studies harder than me. MAYBE. bit i still get higher marks than her. at times. i wonder why.. LADY LUCK'S on my side? maybe she's going to turn to jorene the next time? well hope so. hope that she would achieve her goals. i can't do it. so i should just give the luck to her. well.. i don't even have a goal.

C
what is it?
nevermind i won't talk about it first

i've been really sort hearted to him
until i feel i still like 1% of him.
but nevermind. that's untrue anyway
because i won't like first love again.
my first love? i don't know..
i haven't seen him for ages.
not that long but quite some time
but why must i be so nice to him?
he doesn't deserve it, does he?

maybe it was my fault about what happened in the long long past. i couldn't control my anger and started screaming at him. how INSENSIBLE. we argued over some stupid crap. it was all my fault; sorry. really. honto ni gomenasai
but if i didn't exist in this world, things would have been much better i guess. it wouldn't have happened.

i shouldn't have lived.
i should have died when i was 1 or 2 years old.
or even when i was less than 1 year old
i can't remember when lar..
why did the doctor save me at that time when
i was going to die?
the doctor should just give up my life
maybe i already died at that time?
maybe i'm just like sakai yuji
who have died long aho just that
there's still a little speck of soul in me?
who knows.
but seriously speaking
the doctor shouldn't have saved me
i cause trouble for everybody.
nothing turns out right with me around

my life is totally wrong.
causing sadness and sorrows everywhere i go
i disappointed my parents,
my family, my everybody.

Chris.
where are you?
i wonder..
really wished you were around
but no more in the world
of my head and heart

-kokoro-
-purusu-

i guess you won't talk to me even
if you and i are around each other.

who are you anyway?
i don't think i know you..
that's what..

it is all about.
you and me
only that.

&the pages keep turning.

hmms let's see.. what happened yesterday? i didn't blog. most probably i'm gonna blog. once in 2 days. probably. i'm not so enthusiastic to blog every single day. oh yesterday. everything was normal. umm not exactly. but nothing is abnormal. nevermind i'm beating around the bush.

*and she runs around the bush*

lol whatever.

oh i know. yesterday. got back history paper. i almost cried. well sort of cried. tears filled my eyes. was being emo. nevermind. i passed!! i actually PASSED!! omg. i thought i was going to fail, really. for this history essay thinggy. was supposed to write 2 alternative factor. but i only wrote one. and so i thought that i would fail. BUT I DIDN'T! i was really happy. but the marks wasn't really good though. 9/13. for given factor, i had good. and for the 1 alternative factor, i also had good. so if i wrote the 3rd alternative factor i think i could get 11/13. nevermind i'll try harder next time. but well just happy that i passed :D

today was kinda slacky too.

in class for english lesson, we didn't do anything except to watch a movie. ROMEO AND JULIET! arghh! it's nice. but keep kissing and kissing. lol. i mean romeo and juliet kiss and kiss lar. but it's nice. although we didn't finish the whole show.. whees~ marianne has that vcd. so maybe next time can go her house watch. lol. MOVIE MARATHON ^^ whatever. leornado, acting as romeo, looks like jesse mccartney!! omg. they look really alike. and their voice too. they are not twins and everybody knows that. but i wonder why they look kinda alike. cool. and the girl, acting as juliet. i don't know her name. she's pretty, really. very very pretty (:

whees~ history lesson today was interesting. we learnt about WORLD WAR II. it's interesting. i love that chapter. but quite difficult maybe? i don't know. but you know.. i don't like history but ONLY this topic is.. the exceptional? well probably. lol. hmm.. should i take history in sec3? umm.. hell no. i don't think so. but i don't know. maybe i should. aiya. that one next time then i decide.

ohhs next was maths. went to com lab. the graph thinggy was lame. i went to play icy tower. :D my highest combo EVER!! 19!! errr.. =.=" you know.. people get like.. more than 50. and here i am. less than 20, i'm this happy already. but i actually don't like icy tower. it reminds me of stupid jumping quests in maple story. darn. i hate them to the core. lol but i don't play maple now, so i don't really care. ^^ i think mdm surayah knew that i was playing. she said that she could keep track of everybody. i think there's something special about the teacher's computer and the teacher's table. they can detect what students are doing. i'm a bad girl. nevermind

science lesson was still as dirty as ever. lol. with crystal's question and stuff. lol. but it was a funny one today. i wonder when we'll go to the next chapter. i wanna study electricity. love them loads :D or i don't mind. chemical equations again ^^

ohya. after sku, choir had this party. it was pretty stupid. to me. because i don't like parties. but i just have to go because i'm a chorister. arghh. karmun was FUNNYY!! she really was. had this
drink.. suan gan drink which karmun said was "intoxicating". and she wanted to puke and all those stuff. she said that alicia and me forced her to drink that drink. lol we didn't. she saw us drinking it and then we said that it was "okay". and when we said okay, she took a cup and poured the drink. and then she drank it and started saying that she wanna puke. lol. victoria drank it too. and made that kinda of face. lol she don't like it too. IS IT THAT BAD?? lol

karmun kept running away from the area where the party was held. lol. she wanna puke. and then brenda and alicia teased her that she had morning sickness and stuff. no way for her. karmun's a good girl. isn't she? ahahahahs xD pregnant woman you call :D anyway i only ate the fruits and drank the drinks available. i didn't even touch the pizzas. i don't like pizza. and i was quite full at that time. so i didn't eat them. ohya. i ate one piece of the polar cake. it was sweet. obviously. it's a cake. swiss roll actually. but i don't know why teacher calls it a cake. well i don't really care. so fine.

:D choir ended at 3pm YAYS ^^

today's a boring day. that's all for now.

&the pages keep turning.

just crap for today. well probably ^^
JUDY CHEATED FOR MY TEST
she's such a meaniie xD
she did my first test
and at first she only had 3 or 4 correct answers. which makes it 30% or 40%. yea then after that i told her one of the questions she answered wrongly and then she re-do the whole thing. and change the answers. so in the end, she scored 60% just like jorene. wahh!

she CHEATER. lol

almost everybody failed my test anyways. 15 people did my test. less than 7 people passed. lol. nevermind. ohyar. she did the 2nd test too. on anime. yea. she did well for that. coz i talk to her about anime. almost like.. everyday? so everyday she listens to me crap. and that's how she managed to answer those questions. some of them are quite tricky too :D

ohhs. in class. got back science paper. and i.. failed. i knew it. i knew it i would fail. but it's darn sickening. the paper wasn't easy though. but i failed. 1.5 more marks for me to pass. crap shit. only one third of my class passed. my teacher was really disappointed in us. i don't know what to say. i guess i haven't been studying hard enough. how the heck do i get to triple sciences class next year. but overall for this term, i almost failed. 50.3 what kind of marks is that right? first time ever that i got so low. hmms.. wakarimasen

the girl. sitting near me. diagonally infront of me. she cried. well sort of cried. i saw her eyes really red. and yea. she must be sad too. because of the marks she get. hope she cheers up. :D can always try better (: she's good lar. she has the potential to score in science. not like me. so crap. you look at my results you can tell that i really suck. but for this whole semester. term1 + term2 i will get 67+ yea somewhere there. i need a little more for A2. arghh!

choir spoilt my whole day, really. wasn't supposed to have choir today. although we were released at 3.20pm, i still hate it becaused it spoilt my day. with judy. supposed to go tm with judy. but stupid choir ruined the whole plan!! judy's gonna be busy next week and stuff. i wonder when we can go. haiis. this is irritating =X

ohya i went to the sku library to borrow 2 books. i don't seem to.. be interested in reading them. just don't have the mood now. i bought the 1st book for a certain comic. so now, i kinda want to read comic. not books. i don't know. but i hope i'll read the books i borrowed. i hope. so.

o.O lastly. it's nicknames time!
he has many many nicknames
well quite a lot. to me xD

1) pancake
2) h2
3) warner bros
4) wanna be
5) worm bug
6) water bomb

i still like worm bug the most. suits him more. ahahhs xD because he's a sadddist. ohyea. jorene was protecting his name!! LOL! you don't know how funny it is. when we were teasing jorene about his name with the nicknames we created, she TRIED TO TICKLE US. well most of the time she wanted to tickle me. because of the worm bug thinggy :D

to whoever you think this is for:
YOU SEE.
JORENE TRIED TO PROTECT
YOU NAME. LOL
BETTER BE GRATEFUL xD
SHOW SOME GRATITUDE
TO HER KAY ^^

&the pages keep turning.

my head hurts
i feel as though
i'm spinning
my heart hurts
it's pain
my stomach hurts
too

i feel sick
i wanna vomit.
blood. how i wish
i don't feel good

what's happening to me?
what's wrong with me?
can't i just die?
...

anyway i manage to get black cat episodes (:
cheers :D

&the pages keep turning.

i hate this, really

my heart is filled with agony
pain, sadness and sorrowness
it feels as if a knife just pierced
through my heart

knife piercing
splattering of blood
a hole in my heart
that can never be repaired

i feel sick
coz of all the gruesome blood
i need you. maybe later
i'll watch you. listen to you
and hope that you'll spur me on

what.. can i do?

&the pages keep turning.

well one of the best book i have read. really. and the thickest book i have ever read. the width of the book. is.. 2cm i think. it's thin to a lot of people. well to me it's an "accomplishment". lol seriously. because i've never done serious reading in my whole life. i seldom read books. i do go to the library to borrow books. but do i ever finish reading them? hell no. lol. i read so slowly that you can never imagine how slow is SLOW. but for this book, it took me hours to read. well i told you i read like a tortoise. but that's not the point though. i read it will all my heart. lol "heart" i could spend hours reading the book. well usually if i'm free. you know.. i'll slack off and watch anime and stuff like that. but i spent the weekend reading the book ^^ and i realised that i was a touching book. really. i was being emo when i read the book. the ending was so sad that i cried. lol. i have never in my life cried over the words i read in A BOOK.

when you read it. maybe you won't be so technical to cry. but literally you would. i mean you will feel sad and stuff. when you read every word calma said at the speech and stuff. and how the ending goes. it's just sad. plain sad. well well

I JUST LOVE KIFFO
and calma :D
great characters in the story
LOVE THEM LIKE HEAVEN

I WANNA CRY!!
HOW COULD THIS BE HAPPENING?!!

all the fma episodes are deleted! WAHHH!! why why why?!!! must they do this?!! i can't take this?! i have another website. but.. fma in that web is licensed. only fma. WHY?!! why do this?!! crap shit. really. i don't know what to do now. sheeshed~ can't help jiayi to put into her thumbdrive anymore. getting all so frustrated now. darn. but.. i'm tired of all these nonsense. i'll try some other web. i gotta get it. really.. nevermind for now.

gonna be happy again. what crap is that? contradicting. unhappy for a little while and happy for another while. you know.. probably you don't. i've got split personality. lol. most likely :D i'm so in love. lovvee love (:

with ahQin's songs. woahhs just feel great listening to his songs. too bad. he's not shuaii. Ian looks more cool than him though. but it doesn't matter to me. ohh well i wanna listen to music. i want music. and i want music :D whees~ these days.. more into chinese and jap songs. english. nahh. i don't really like english anyway.

not gonna post much too for today. so yea

&the pages keep turning.

i'm kinda getting hang with this song :D



http://tipsytink.imeem.com/music/Sy-AiIE0/fan_gu_de_zuo_er/

金黄色麦田

你离开身边

落日的风车

擦拭着我哭泣的双眼

单纯的笑脸

街上面包店

贫穷与残缺

你是心中最深的想念

我唱着爱的歌剧

沿途有邪恶风景

看见梵谷的左耳

永远都相信爱的美丽

我像梵谷流着泪滴

刻划我的爱情

跟着模糊脚印

停到哪里

这是最幸福的悲剧

一路上都相信

就算没有结局

不会放弃

我像梵谷流着泪滴

听着爱的声音

跟着你的脚印

走到哪里

这是世纪末的悲剧

一路上都相信

就算没有结局

不会放弃

it's by ah Qin (:
aka REAL
lovvee lovvee
his songs are nice
love them :D

i uploaded it myself
and put it on imeem
YAYNESS! :]

hmms i wonder why he's got his own album. did he and fellow FIR band go seperate ways? i wonder. Faye doesn't like Real? well Faye likes Ian lar. maybe Real left the band for that reason? i don't think so. i making some fantasy story here. forget it. well maybe he's still in the band. just that now he's got his own album. arghh!! but Ian more cool ne ^^ whees~ i wanna listen to more of his songs.

HIS SONGS ARE GREAT :D

i think he's with FIR band for quite sometime already so his songs are a bit like their songs. lol but it's still very nice. no matter what (: i wonder who else listens

P.S if you didn't read my previous post. the answer is still
FATE STAY NIGHT

okays. short post. that's all :D

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went to the coffeeshop. sheng siong there. i don't know how to spell that supermarket's name anyways. i hope i got it right. eeks. just now was really a funny one. well not exactly funny but more of. .. ... ... plain stupid and weird

i wanted to eat something light. because at about 12plus ate bread. yea. we only went out for lunch at 1pm but i was still quite full. i usually go there to eat the wanton noodle. tasty noodles. but for today i ate tahu goreng. i thought tahu goreng's portion wouldn't be as much as the noodiie. so i oreder it and it came with 2 big pieces of tahu.

wahlao. it's worse than wanton noodle
=.="
i was really BLOATED when i finished
THE 2 BIG PIECES OF TAHU.
crap
i'm getting fatter o.O
neverminds i'm ALREADY fat.

uncle john, dagu and jomel all ordered wanton noodle. that means i'm the odd one out. whatever. when i started eating my tahu goreng, uncle john already finish up his noodle. he's fast. too fast. so the adults ordered roti prata while waiting for me. after i finish up my food, they still eating their prata.

AND

there came a cat
i MEOWED at the cat
-meow meow meow-
whatever xD
the cat REPLIED me

i know what the cat said to me
i can listen to animals talk
i can talk to animals
YEAH RIGHT

the cat just meowed back at me
heez :D
so since i'm quite bored
so i kept meowing
and the cat just meow back again
but after some time i stopped
then suddenly..

THE CAT JUMPED ON MY LAP

omg i got a shock of my life, really
LOL first time ever in my 13years on earth
0.O
i'm quite scared of them
but i like them. i don't know
why im scared. maybe coz i don't wanna get hurt
i'm scared that they will bite me
scratch me. and stuff. i'm such a coward.
well.. i don't know

but after it jumped on my lap,
about 1 or 2 seconds later,
it jumped back to the ground again.

THE CAT LOVES ME :D

it's a light brown cat. cute ^^
whatever.

while walking home, after crossing the road, there was this bee. it kinda flew around me? i don't know, it seems like it. FLYING AROUND ME. usually even if there's a bee, i won't do anything. not even making a sound such as screams like SOME people do. i'm scared of them. but i just won't make any noise lar. but today. i went crazy. maybe because of the cat. lol i don't think so.

but i was like..

"MAA-AAAAA"
=.="

it was "MA" alright..
i wonder why.. lol
weird lar. i don't know
what's going on in my brain

anyways. i wanna be a witch
can cast spell. i'm a saddist you see
no larh. joking. i want the witch shoe
and HAT :D i wonder where i could
get them. I WANT (:

WITCH HAT
WITCH HAT
WITCH HAT
=.="

.. the ending for fate stay night was.. sad. really sad. saber went back to her own world and she's not wih shirou anymore. sad. sad. sad. but fate stay night is a fighting show. well kinda. but have this romance thinggy. i mean shirou loves saber. it's like.. the anime is about fighting then suddenly romance stuff cut in. lol. sounds weird to me. but overall the anime's good :D

anyways. the anime quiz. there's one question
"what anime am i watching now?"
something like that.
the answer is still FATE STAY NIGHT
the answer is given to you guys.
so don't get it wrong if you do the quiz
lol

ohyars
TOO WEEBIAN:
i received that email already
so you don't need to"send" it to me
you're such a crappy victorian yea
LOL :D

yayness (: i got that email
coz i sort of re-submitted it
it's not exactly re-submitting
i don't know how to explain
anyways that's for today :D

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i'm sorry everybody. for everything today kinda vented my anger on people. i mean when people ask me about vip, i'll just tell them off. because i'm quite pissed with this whole application thinggy. it's driving me crazy. seriously. zhiqian asked me what ip was and she just kept asking me about it and that made me more pissed. and xiao jiao asked me other stuff about ip. well she's applying too. but when i hear the word ip, it just pisses me off. totally. i don't know. maybe because of that stupid woman. FROM GENERAL OFFICE. STUPID WOMAN.

today then she gave the teacher reference form to mrs liew. i handed in on monday and she told jorene and me that 5working days later we come come collect it probably. and when we went to look for her during recess, she was telling us NEXT WEEK. was supposed to go to vj just now. but coz of the teacher reference thinggy so in the end we're only going next week. probably monday or tuesday. tuesday is the latest we can go. that's the time we set for ourselves. i hope mrs liew get it done soon. darn. this whole thing is really irritating.

SORRY ZHI QIAN AND XIAO JIAO. really didn't mean it. sorry. and hildy and cheryl too

after recess laughed a bit then kinda back to normal already. whoops. i did badly for my higher chinese. i'm dead. 50+ this term. my results drop quite a bit. i mean compare with my last term's result and this wann.. sighs. this term's totally sucked out. i'm dead. really dead. i don't want to get 50+ for anything. but my chinese and history's gonna get it.

i better wait for history rememdial next term. my first ever remedial. i mean in tkgs. shheeeshed~

SORRY JORENE TOO

made you angry?
if i did then sorry
i talked too much in class?
when you're in a bad mood?
i suppose so.
sorry too. really

hmms. she's not in the mood to talk about anything then i was talking crap. so i think she's quite pissed too. yea. sorry. gomenasaii~

at least today can go home at 12.10pm. well sku is released at that time for lower sec. but in the end. dragged time. stayed in sku for about 10minutes. coz cheryl wanted to take photos. it's jiayi's burfday on 6th may. SAME AS BMW. lol. cheryl wanted to take photo of the flying piglet and the flower that we gave to jiayi.

BMW=best mortal whatever :D

i paid the most for the prezzie. ahahahs xD
cheryl, hildy and jorene paid $9.20

whheees~ i paid

$9.25

LOL i know i'm lame. neverminds. such a loser
ahahahhs xD 5cents more. big deal yea. lol

today's zhijun's burfday anyways. didn't wish her just now. i didn't really see her in sku. later bahs. and gotta get her prezzie too :D many people are borne in may. that's what i think. it's finally gonna be saturday and sunday. YAYNESS!

i want to watch anime. was supposed to start watching episode 16 yesterday night. but because of d&t, cannot watch, so today then i can watch it. yayayyayayayy! later later later :D whhheeees~ i wanna finish up FATE STAY NIGHT soon. don't know when. but i think by this weekend should be able to.

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victoria people didn't send me the email for the application form thinggy. die liaos. i think i didn't submit it. sheeshed~ i don't know what to do liaos. how now? whatever. i'll see how tomorrow. this is problematic larhs.

watched american idol
well not exactly i watch
my uncle did. not me
well chris got in.
don't know if i spelled his name
correctly
chris. chris. chris
reminds me of him.
so saddist
i don't think he's there
anymore.
yea there.
THERE
i wonder where he is
he has been a nice company
well that's in the past too :D

WHERE THE HECK
CAN'T SOMEONE
TELL ME??
neverminds. i'm not
really bothered
already.

i wonder where is belinda
and jayme and lewis now
i bet lewis is in one of the
TOP SKUS
lol. he's clever larh
unless he change a lot
then different story
but i can't meet them anymore
i bet they've forgotten me too

my good friend
the friend that i remembered
my rival

these 3 bahs (:

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changed blogskins. it looks wrong anyways. freakingly WRONG. doesn't it? don't think i will change skins for awhile. well who CARES~

&the pages keep turning.

&the pages keep turning.