how could she?

SHE BETRAYED MY TRUST

lol whatever
it's not something serious anyways

well that's that..

i wasn't supposed to post today

&the pages keep turning.

wenjie
and crap
and his *ahems*

he said
ALOT OF THINGS HAPPEN TO HIM AND HER
HE SAY VERY INTERESTING
I ASK HIM WHAT
HE SAID "ACTUALLY NOTHING"

DIAOS =.="

wenjie's friend also have *ahems*
then got someone tell teacher about the *ahems*
before training,
his friend meet *ahems*
then the teacher saw and said
"I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU TWO TOGETHER AGAIN"

lol the teacher WU LIAO lar

diaos =.="


he said he sits at the corner of the class and he's HAPPY

i was laughing when he said that

very random ehh

i wonder why he said that. STUPID

i also wonder why i laughed too.

he said that priscilla an lian him.

LOL coz she keep smiling at HIM

diaos =.="

and he bad lar

say kang lei speak like china guy
well he is, then he imitate how he speaks
darn funny

long time didn't talk to him
then he now talk CRAP

the whole convo with him was like
LAME
i just kept laughing
whenever i think of kang lei and his china thinggy
i really have MENTAL problems
laugh for no reason
LOL!

anyways this whole post a lot of diaos
whees~ i posted 2 today.
coz there's just something to write
ABOUT WENJIE AND HIS

FUNNY LIFE

lols. quite some time didn't call him liaos lar
since bored that's why call
talked for 54minutes :D
long time didn't talk on the phone for 1hour
he's such a great bestiie.
LOL! (:

same thoughts
same comments
we're lame :D

HE'S A LOSER

I'M A SUCKER

well that's all xD
don't think i will post tomorrow
since i've been posting a lot recently ^^

&the pages keep turning.

yesterday talked to zhengfeng
ahahhs xD he so NICE
accompany me talk crap

jorene and jingqun also
we kept arguing in the convo
good that he PLAYED ALONG
coz very fun to disturb him
the things he say very stupid lar

SORRY IF OFFENDED =X

LOL!

I ALMOST DIED JUST NOW!
no i think i die liaos

ARGH!!

have to write that stupid essay
for that VIP
it's difficult lehs
i wrote practically rubbish
i think out of point lar
chao ji out of point
don't know.
jorene and zhengfeng's wann quite good neh

hate that essay thinggy
problematic
killing me

WELL I'M ALREADY DEAD :D

for the whole afternoon, i spent my time on the essay. i took quite some time to complete it. at first i wrote more than 400words. then i had to keep deleting words. lol but now, after deleting stuff, i left with 397 (: the word limit is 400. yeah. must write between 250 and 400. sianns.

in our class, i wonder who's applying
so far only jorene and me
i'm not really sure with marianne
but i'm quite curious to find out

i told marianne that if i ever get in

I WOULD TREAT HER TO SAKAE SUSHI

seriously..

but well.. i don't think that day will ever come

VIP really too difficult liaos

still have english and maths and GAT test

i sure fail all.

especially ENGLISH. arghh!!

the tests cost 36bucks. LOL

quite ex neh

neverminds. i'll do my best.
that's the most i can do

but i'm quite sure i won't get it
coz I'M STUPID xD

that's the truth
i can't deny that :]

geez. i watched episode 123 today. it's funny. the episode is nice ^^ it's been quite some time since i watch a funny bleach episode. i even favourite it on crunchy :D looking forward to 124 now. should be nice too

i LOVE the new opening.

ALONES BY AQUA TIMES

Oreta awaii tsubasa
Kimi wa sukoshi aosugiru sora ni tsukareta dake sa
Mou dareka no tame ja nakute jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo

Izen to shite shinobiyoru kodoku
Uchigawa ni tomoru rousoku
Nigawau ba ni gouka na chandelier to wa urahara ni

Tarinai kotoba no kubami o nani de umetara ii n’darou
Mou wakaranai ya
Semete yume no naka de jiyuu ni oyogetara anna sora mo iranai no ni
Kinou made no koto o nuritsubusanakute mo, asu ni mukaeru no ni

Oreta awaii tsubasa
Kimi wa sukoshi aosugiru sora ni tsukareta dake sa
Mou dareka no tame ja nakute jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo

and once again. i memorized it :D
wheeeeees~

&the pages keep turning.

back~

nothing to write much today
geeez. now 2 people know
what "h" stands for.
saddist saddist
lol
marianne and zhengfeng
the 2 of them. ONLY
good.
marianne knows coz..
i told her
zhengfeng is the clever one
he guess 1time then he got it liaos
darn.
lol aiya it's nothing interesting
so i don't know why they want to know

i downloaded nero
darn again.
when it was 92%
the internet suddenly disconnected!
ARGHH!!
i took like.. more than 6hours
just for that 92%
WHY MUST INTERNET DISCONNECT???!!
haiis neverminds.
i'll ty my luck again tomorrow
jiayous~

i took 2hours+ to download bleach 123
coz the last time i download wanns
WAS A LIE
haiis just for a 24min video
need to take so long
why is everything so saddistic

hmms at 4plus. went to have pizza at pizza hut. the ice lemon tea was BITTER! well at first. i didn't add the sugar liquid that's why bitter. kinda tasteless lemon tea. my uncle didn't like it. too plain. it wasn't even sour anyways. supposed to be SOUR coz of the LEMON

I LOVE LEMONS!

lol that was random

but i really love them :D

LIME TOO (:

sours stuff tastes cool ^^

we had that hawaiin pizza and pepperoni too. I ATE PEPPERONI PIZZA FOR QUITE A FEW TIMES. but only TODAY, THEN I KNEW IT WAS BEEEF! argh! it tastes so nice! but i never thought it was beef. i don't really eat beef lar.

beef is MEATY

EEEEKS~

hate those meaty stuff

but for this pepperoni pizza. the pepperoni was CRISPY! love it.

I HATE STEAKS

THEY SUCK BIG TIME

i hate it when i ate it once. in my whole life

SUPER MEATY

can't stand it

i don't eat chicken wings too. i must be weird. unless i really have to eat them, then i'll eat them. if not i will NOT eat chicken wings. lucky my friend and i share the same thought. she thinks that chicken wings are disgusting too. whheees~

coz

WE LOVE VEGGIIES

mwahahahhas xD

GO VEGGIE PEOPLE

i am borne in this world to EAT VEGGIES coz my name is VEGETABLE FLY FLY

it suits my veggie character afterall :D

even my FATHER thinks i'm a malay. don't eat meat, chicken, pork whatever meat. lol

i know i very contradicting lar.

lol so crappy.

after that it was barbeque

eekks. i don't like it too

SO GAY

not the people gay

but the whole event was just GAY!

lol. i don't really like it

it was held at lorong 40

crap lar. had to pay $10 for it

and uncle, dagu, cousin and me went

and my cousin and me didn't eat anything

the barbeque was at 6+ and we just ate pizza so we were still quite full you know. when my cousin saw all those sausages and chicken wings she was disgusted and she said

"I WANT TO VOMIT"

LOL! cheers to her! i also don't feel like eating at all. so full already. so in the end. waste 20bucks. my cousin 10 i 10. well uncle and dagu ate lar. so they didn't waste money. according to my uncle and dagu, the beehoon was hard. lol like not cooked.

ohh there was this eating apple game. well i went home before the game start so couldn't see. the MALAYS WERE SO ENTHUSIATIC! lol. cool ^^ there were 6 apples which means there will be 6groups. and i think all the 6 participants were malay. ahahahs xD i wonder who will finish up the apple the fastest. there is this string where apples are hung and the participants were not supposed to use their hands to hold the apple. they had to just use their mouth to try to bite it. sounds fun. but i not interested lar.

anyways the whole event was just so boring and near there was a little canal. so just walked around the area and talked on the phone with jorene.

DAGU THOUGHT JORENE WAS A BOY

SHE THINKS I'M TALKING TO MY BOYFRIEND

lol how can i have boyfriend. i so ugly. lol i also not interested. xD

well. i cannot like him anymore anyways. changed him a lot. i cannot make that happen again. it's all my fault i guess. when his character and attitude and stuff changed. so it's impossible for me to like him liaos. i can only be his friend. i don't wanna cause more harm. it's saddistic lar. but i think now he's okays. liaos. not so bad lerrs. we're very normal friends (:

talked to her for about 20minutes. so kinda kill time :D
thanks jorene (:

my uncle saw me using the phone and he asked me whether jorene call me or i call jorene. and i LIED to him and told him that it was jorene who called me. WHHEES~ i so evil. mwahhahs. coz my phone only have 150minutes free outgoing. aiya i seldom call so i'm sure won't over use wanns. but if she call me, even if i talk to 1million hours, it will still be free for me. i have unlimited free incoming for 24hours. YAY!

hmms. sad things kinda happen to jorene nowadays. feel so sad for her. one is h2 then the other one her phone. lost her phone. haiis. she have to terminate the line and it's gonna be VERY expensive. she have to save up so much money. sad lar. can't really do anything for her. hope she'll solve it soon :D at first, at about 3plus when she called me, she was crying. OMG! but the last time i talked to her at 6plus 7, she was cheerful! (: i think she quite okays liaos larh

JIAYOUS JORENE!

hehehehhehhs xD will be there for you (:
lol sounds so corny :D

&the pages keep turning.

marianne and me talked on msn
she's guessing what "h" stands for.
i wonder if she'll guess it.
neverminds. in the end.
she gave up. so i just tell her lorhs. and..
to whoever who wants to continue guessing
please guess. i don't want to tell anybody liaos
well unless you guess it correctly lar
it's lame. so i think those people who
wants to guess.. please re-consider
lol
anyways just one clue
it's a common word.
so you'll never imagine that i'll use
SUCH common words
and it's a living thing anyways

today.. i don't really have anything to post.
neverminds. later i'll think of something.
i'll post again at the later part of the day.

&the pages keep turning.

It was ALL A LIE!
ARGHH!
it's not 2.95MB
well it is. but i found out that
it wasn't 24minutes
it was ONLY few seconds.
less than 20.
woahhhs~
then now have to download it
it's taking 3 hours. GAWD.
save me

today's the last paper anyways
whhees~ everybody's happy
well i suppose. but next week have
one last chinese paper.
then no more tests liaos
i did so badly for my history SBQ test
VERY BADLY
you can't imagine how badly it is

the lessons were okays too
well there was only 4 lesson and recess
then we're released from sku at 12.05pm
as usual.
short sku day (:

the last period was science
omg. the whole topic is like..
so.. i don't know lar
it has something to do with
sexual reproduction.
darn lame can.

GERMAINE IS OBSESSED WITH THE TOPIC

lol

she just kept laughing about it.
yeah

and then there was this time
where teacher ask about the girl

syafina: development of the chest
mrs liew: what development?

LOL?!! it was pervertic lar
anyways why do we have to study this
lol it sounds stupid to me

after sku
went tm to get burfday prez

HILDY FINALLY ADMITTED THAT SHE IS PERVERTED

jorene bought this fishcake thinggy
one long piece
and hildy was thinking of all sorts of stuff
*AHEMS*

yeah i think she had too much of science lesson
talking about that sexual reproduction thinggy

in the middle
cheryl and me bought 2 lollipop
they were star star wanns
quite nice.
sweet.
well they're candy
so of course they're sweet
the taste was not bad (:
and cheryl kept wanting to take photo..
of the lollipop and all of us

in the end we went behind the lift there
i don't know how to explain that place
and we took a photo
but when jorene was shooting,
cheryl suddenly ran out of the pic
so in the end,
cannot see cheryl.

it was quite fun just now

i seldom play games.
as in i don't e-zone and stuff like that
but today hildy and cheryl sponsor
so i went to play with them too :D

THANKS HILDY AND CHERYL

i know i very cheapskate lar. but paiseh lorh

anyways we went to e-zone

yeah. we played that thinggy
it's a 4player thinggy
something like the "big carom" go into the whole
i don't know what it's called.
i stupid mahs.

so we teamed up
cheryl and hildy
jorene and me

in the end jorene and me won
jorene's good lar (:
i just suck at that game
lol

we played twice and both
WE WIN :D

after all those stuff
went library with jorene
i borrow 4books
2 books on japanese stuff
they're cool.
really
i like those jap books
and i also found 1 tony abbott's book
YAY!
i quite sometime didn't read his book liaos
woahs we spent like an hour in the library
coz jorene couldn't find the book she wanted
well jorene left the library without borrowing
any book
she said she had a lot time to waste anyways
yeah so she could hang out in the library for
long time

after we left the library. we went to the CA$H convertor shop. whhees~ it's so coooool ^^ the guitar is VERY CHEAP. there was one which was $45. I WANT IT!! argg! but too bad i don't really know how to play it. so what's the point? waste money only.

today supposed to spend only $20. but in the end i spend about $25. haiis over spend liaos. i'm gonna be broke soon. i still need to buy 3 SD card. which cost $71.70 altogether. one costs $23.90. actually for a 2GB SD card, it's quite cheap already. but well still have to spend so much money on these crap stuff. CRAP STUFF. lol

ohya. after we left the shop, jorene walked me to the interchange. yeah there was this little stall which was selling wood craft. it was freaking NICE!! I LOVE THE THINGS THERE. IT'S FANTASTICAL. i want the one which costs $20+ it's too expensive lar. well neverminds. but it really looks nice! well i'll see how first bahhs (: how nice i could withdraw money from my bank. that would be GREAT. haiiiiis~

jorene wanted me to wait. wait for that idiot. bloody idiot. it really pisses me off. i mean the way he's treating jorene. stupid. he was suppose to be meeting jorene at 6pm but in the end, even till 6.45pm, he wasn't there yet. and in the end. when he called her at about 6.45pm, he was STILL IN SKU. WHAT THE CRAP RIGHT? what is he trying to do man? it's not about the excuses he give now. he told me that the exam was delayed. then he should have told her to go home first instead of making her wait for an hour. that's not what it's supposed to be. darn it lar. in the end jorene got scolded by her mum for coming home late. all his bloody fault. stupid guy. i kinda pity jorene.

sorry if you read this, but you're really VERY MEAN to jorene. such a loser

i want to play maple. i wonder how's helldarklord doing. maybe he stopped playing? i don't know. kinda miss him quite a bit. coz he's always accompanying me in maple. such nice person (:
lol. but if i wanna play, still gotta download them and stuff. so mah fan. can't be bothered actually. really lazy.

well long post. so i'll just end it off here ^^

&the pages keep turning.

well well
had library duty
as usual
coz today's thursday
after shelving
just type something
umm for mrs bagen
then after that can go home liaos
but had a little planning to do
so in the end i only finished
my work at 4pm which was
the time i supposed to end off
she's so nice ^^
she wished me good luck
for science test tomorrow
when i was going home (:

gawd. it's shocking!
downloaded bleach 123
and it was only 2.95MB
but it's the whole 24mins epi
omg. 2.95MB!
i took less than 2 minutes to
download it.
just surprised
as in how the hell did the epi
became THAT small
..
...
....

ohya.
apologise liaos then good bahs
i have no right to be angry at him
yeah seriously coz i'm not gonna
interfere with their relationship
or something. it depends on how
the guy solves the problem with the girl.
and the girl must let way a bit
and understand him i suppose
but what i just feel is that..

umm..
he has to be closer to her
as in he needs to understand
and know what is going on
between the both of them
how their situation gonna improve
how he is going to know more about her

i mean..
i think he doesn't know
what is going on with her
as in.. things that are happening to her
how she feels
and how she thinks

it's important for him to know these stuff

but i doubt it now

i don't know

anyways

just lovee lovee him

just lovee lovee awi

whhheees~

and family and stuffs (:

woahhs really miss him loads :D

how nice

he could stay with me

but my mum lar

and

aiyar. don't know lar

wonder how he's doing.
he's studies are getting better
he more serious in work?
maybe?
funny yeah.
he's not that hardworking sort
but i don't know now.
but really wished he could stay
with me once again
just like in the past

hmms. miss him and them loaddds~

anyways. to..

whoever you think it is:
[hints hints]

better treasure it, if not you'll lose it one day
better understand it, if not it will run away
better know what's going on, if not it turn back

and go the other way.

THE OTHER WAY..
THE OTHER ALTERNATIVE
THE OTHER CHOICE

&the pages keep turning.

happy day (:
happy happy day (:
happy happy happy day (:
well overall

in sku. whheeees~
the lessons were okay
chinese was kinda interesting
lao shi told us the story
and it was quite funny
yeahh

played this game
i'm obsessed with it
crystal is too :D
it's fun alright
really love it
it's something about..
umm 1, 2, 3 and 4
and our names
i don't know how to explain
so i'll just leave it here

lit test was okay too
i sure fail wann
JORENE DON'T GET DEMORALISED BY ME
i'll fail. lol
i wrote rubbish
well that's what i usually
write for
LITERATURE

well of course and
HISTORY
too xD

just don't like these 2

went to study after sku
we reached there first
"EXPO"
funny
ironical
neverminds~
waited for quite awhile
came at about 3.30pm
well we didn't really care
coz they're irresponsible

in the end
had to pon remedial
and it's gonna be our fault
i mean whatever will happen
to the results for the tests
that's gonna be taken

in the middle
we listened to music
and jorene was OBSESSED
with yong qi
by guang liang
LOL!
she kept
CLIMAX-ING
that was stupid
the song quite nice lar
she never get bored of it though
we kept repeating the song
and she kept climax-ing
funny. yeah
FUNNY

now the main point
THE STORY

characters involved:
h1
friend
h2
h2's company

h2 said that he was free
supposedly according to h1
h1 and friend went to revised their work
when they were there at the place
h2 and company was going to meet them there
the day before [1st day],
h2 and company were darn late
while h1 and friend were early
chao early
and on the day itself [2nd day],
h2 and company were relatively early
but they were being VERY irresponsible
as h2 missed lessons just for this meeting
h2 could have just said earlier that
on the day [2nd day], cannot make it
and should just attend those lessons
darn. it's irresponsible
seriously.
well that's not the main point
h1 and friend and h2 and company
wanna go home liaos
supposedly
h1 was going home with friend at first
but upon hearing that h2 and company
were taking bus,
h1 wanted to take bus with them
instead of taking the mrt with friend
as h1, friend, h2 and company were walking
to the way to the bus
okays. h1 didn't know the way to the bus stop
anywayys
yeah so h1 thought that walking straight with friend
was sort of the correct way.
then
h2 and company just went down the excalator
and left h1
well well

i feel so sad and sorry for h1
sad larhs
h2 is so mean
ohya. on that day before,
h2 lost sku file
woahhs i'm sure it's retribution
i don't think the file was found
was it? whatever. good for h2
if it wasn't found
but if found. then no comments
count him lucky

this whole darn thing is so saddistic
isn't it? don't wanna continue with the story liaos

but h1 was realy pissed with h2
hates h2 maybe
hope in the later part
h1 will cool down
but if it was me
i think i'll also be pissed lor
who wouldn't lar

anyways h2 thinks that it's no big deal
and didn't know that it actually affected h1
somehow. selfish right
darn. darn. darn.

i feel so sad
really..
for h1
very sad

okayys end of story

i doubt anybody understands the story

anywayys

CHEER UP AND COOL DOWN JORENE
I'M SURE IT'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT SOMETIME (:

ohya again
was studying science
just now
more of science

yeah i just love chemical equations

LOVEELOVEE ^^

geez. jorene didn't test me
she promised that she would
lol neverminds

zf looks cool
ahahahs xD
like kl
don't know
a little. lol
COOL AS IN COOL
as a cucumber?
lol diao =.="

jelly as normal lar
normal normal
don't know what to say about pc

i wonder who knows what "h" represents anyways xD

SO EGOISTIC

&the pages keep turning.

today was a hyper day
darn hyper

early in the morning
seniors were screaming about
coz of that GOLD with

HONOURS thinggy (:

wheees~ the sec2s were chao hyper
when we're on the asembly ground
suddenly deborah and elsa ran towards
marianne and hugged her
lol there's some kind of chase

cool ^^
but just now
they didn't announce the result
maybe some other time bahhs
well who knows..

after sku went to study
and pancake, jelly and wind were darn late
jorene almost wanted to kill them
lol
and she kept betting with me
for example
she bet that they would reach at 4.50pm
and if they really reach before that
i must give her a treat
to FOOD (:
but in the end
i didn't lose larhs
it's kinda lame

it was freezing cold there. really
i was shivering till i couldn't concentrate
yeahh so in the end
i only studied for industrial revolution
i'm slow

CHAO SLOW

well well.. tomorrow also gonna study again

IT'S HONEY AND PANCAKE

HONEY~

&the pages keep turning.

I AM HAPPY
THE HAPPIEST
UNTIL I WANNA CRY
OMG!

after all our..
hardwork
hardships
efforts

and the times we had during choir
the happy times
the sad times filled with sorrows and broken hearted-ness
WE FINALLY GOT IT

IT'S GOLD



WITH HONOURS! (:




CHEEEEEEEEEEERS~ TO EVERYBODY IN CHOIR
WE'VE WORKED HARD
WE DID IT
WE DID THE SCHOOL PROUD
WE DID MS LIM PROUD
WE DID MS YIN PROUD
WE DID MRS FOO & MS NG PROUD

WE DID OURSELVES PROUD!!

OMG!!!

I'M JUST SOOOOOOO DARN HAPPY

I'M SURE EVERY CHORISTER IS HAPPY TOOO

SHILBE IS HAPPY
VICTORIA IS HAPPY
JINLI IS HAPPY
BRENDA IS HAPPY
GEN IS HAPPY

WHHHEEEES~ EVERYBODY IS HAPPY!!

ALL THE SENIORS ARE HAPPY

THEY'LL LEAVE THE CHOIR IN HAPPINESS
IN PEACE. LOL

it's not the end of the world anywayys. mann that was retarded
well i'm just too happy till nobody could imagine! :D

WE DID BETTER THAN VS CHOIR AT LEAST!! MWAHAHAHHHS xD

&the pages keep turning.

yay! yesterday choir was great ^^
okayys.. not VERY great but it was
better than usual.

although ms lim scolded us a little,
but we still did try our best to sing
and in the end she left the choir at 5pm
with a little happy happy mood
i suppose (:

it has been a long time since she left
choir in this mood. coz usually,
she'll leave in anger
really happy yesterday
and choir sort of..
umm you could say the time passes
quite quickly for yesterday's practice
lol i wonder :D

sashiburi dana
whhheees~~ just feel good

THANKS TO MS TERRY

for talking to us

encouraging us

having faith in us

spurring us on (:

i'm sure we'll do well on monday

JIAYOUS :DD

but actually the things that ms terry
said to us.. was kinda sad
umm not exactly sad
but it makes me feel sad
till i feel like crying
lol but it's just like that
ohh wells..

hmms i also hope my voice will be okay soon
monday's syf already
i have today and tomorrow to "recuperate"
i finally got back my feelings for choir a little
i felt it was just as nice as the past
i mean syf
i enjoyed my primary sku syf a lot
i hope i'll enjoy this one too (:

was at the hospital
the doctor say i was OK ^^
yay! (: maybe next year
can be discharged liaos :D

today's post is just short short one :D
jiayous everybody :]

&the pages keep turning.

today's an okay day. no choir

NO CHOIR! lol

today's lessons were kinda slacky

first was legacy.
had that stupid sex ed
lame. very very very lame.
the teacher was thinking perverted herself
while the rest of us had such INNOCENT minds
for gawd sake larhhs.

second and third was d&t
just had to fix the toy
but anywayys my toy is not done yet
probably next week bahhs.
don't know. see how fast i do.
but next week should be can

fourth was recess. went to jelene's class the whole time
jorene went for softball
then i don't know where the home econs people go
so i just became a loner and wondered around the sku
until..
i saw jelene, xiao nan and yanqi
they were playing this weird thinggy in class
where jelene was supposed to give xiao nan needle
then go "treat" the patient, who is yanqi, "sickness"
it was stupid. lol the 3 of them were like so crazy
it was funny though. i quite some time didn't talk to them anyways

fifth was chinese.
...
i don't like chinese
not coz of the teacher or something
i just don't like the language itself
eeeeeks.
i hate all languages
english, lit, chinese
don't like all of them

sixth period was english
it was supposed to be free period
but in the end we went to the com lab
to finish up our project file
but for my group, it was done
so we could play games in the lab.
whhhheees~ played icy tower
i suck at that. seriously
today i think my highest combo only 11
people get like 20+ 30+
i only 11. diaos =.="
whatever. i'm just bad at it

lastly IT WAS ASSEMBLY
wow! i really loved assembly suprisingly
for today and today ONLY
kinda larhhs
the A capella group was soooo nice!
they sang a few songs.
they sounded really good
AWESOME!
marianne voluntered to go on stage
^^
cool :D but she was singing the lower part
so couldn't hear her much
just a little though (: but good job there! ;)

at 11.05, when i came back to class
i also ki siao
wrote some common jap words on the board
to waste marker? lol
i wrote things like
-wakarimasu
-kawaii
-doshta no
-itadakimasu
-omae wa kirai i desu
and lastly, by judy:
mos burger honti ni oishi desu ne!
lol she has been saying that for the past few days
umm i added "honto ni" myself derhh
the original was
mos burger oishii desu ne
lol lame rights.

hmms.. let's see..
what's there to talk about?
ohyar.

it was darn stupid.
i had this dream last night
well i don't usually have dreams
but for yesterday night
i suddenly have dream..
sadd! i have dreamless nights!
i wanna have dream
umm not scary ones larhs

in the dream..

i was with my uncle
at this boon lay place
don't know where it is
but it's just in boon lay lar
something like shopping centre
but not crowded at all and the place
loooks.. umm not attractive at all?
well i suppose so
then suddenly, i saw him
he was in sku-u
he was following me
i wonder why..
co-incidence that i met him at the mall?
i don't know..
i asked him why he was here
and he didn't really answered my question

wait wait..
lol i forgot what happened after that
went to the ladies or something?
whatever larhhs. but just dreamt of him
for don't know what reason lorhs
geez. i always forget my dream
neverminds~

i guess that's all for today.
stupid yeah..

&the pages keep turning.

cried again. during choir.
broke the promise.
honto ni gomen.
gomenasai~

I HATE CHOIR TO THE CORE
I HAVE NO MORE HEART FOR CHOIR
I'M PISSED WITH EVERYTHING
I DON'T WANNA FIGHT WITH EVERY ONE ELSE
I HATE EVEYTHING THERE
I CAN'T STAND EVERYTHING
JUST EVERYTHING!!

CHOIR HAS BEEN BAD. FEELING DEMORALISED AS USUAL. TODAY WAS SUPPOSED TO BE AN OKAY DAY. VERY OKAY DAY. UNTIL CHOIR, WHEN WE HAD VOCAL TRAINING.

DARN

DARN

DARN

I HATE IT. I COULDN'T SING PROPERLY. SORT OF LOSE MY VOICE QUITE A BIT. SO MANY HIGH NOTES I CAN'T REACH. EVEN THE LOWER ONES.. I CAN'T REACH ALL OF THEM.

KUSO!

DURING THE VOCAL TRAINING, WE HAD TO SING THAT REGINA PART. I TRIED TO SING AS LOUD AS POSSIBLE. EVEN THOUGH IT'S HIGH. I TRIED TO REACH IT AND I WAS FINE. BUT JUST THAT I WAS AIRY. VERY AIRY. JINLI WAS SAYING THAT I WAS AIRY. FINE. BUT BEFORE HAND I ALREADY TOLD SHILBE AND JINLI THAT MY VOICE IS NOT OKAY. AND SHILBE WAS ASKING "WHY?" WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY WHY? DARN. I JUST GOT SICK. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW "WHY"

IT'S PISSING ME OFF. I'D RATHER BE OUT OF SYF NOW. SERIOUSLY. WHEN WE SANG THE JAP SONG, IT'S KINDA HIGH AND THIS TIME I COULDN'T REALLY REACH IT. JINLI WAS SAYING THINGS LIKE..

"WHAT IF YOU'RE SICK ON SYF DAY? THEN YOU DON'T NEED TO SING IS IT? IF YOU DON'T SING NOW? YOU DON'T NEED TO PRACTICE ALREADY UHH? YOU WANT TO BE OUT OF SYF GROUP IS IT?"

IT'S C.R.A.P

SHE THINKS I PURPOSELY MADE MYSELF SICK. SHE THINKS THAT WAY? YEAHH I SUPPPOSE. BUT IT'S NOT TRUE AT ALL! I DIDN'T EAT CHOCOLATES FOR QUITE SOME TIME ALREADY. FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS, I HAD SORE THROAT TOO. WELL SINCE LAST WEEK FRIDAY ACTUALLY. YESTERDAY, MY VOICE WAS ACTUALLY QUITE OKAY. BUT TODAY, I HAVE NO IDEA WHY. I SUDDENLY HAVE SORE THROAT AGAIN.

SORRY CHOIR PEOPLE. I'M A LET DOWN. SO I SHOULD BE OUT OF SYF GROUP RIGHT? YES. IF I AM NOT IN THE SYF GROUP. THE CHOIR WOULD HAVE SOUNDED NICER. YOU GUYS CAN DO MUCH BETTER WITHOUT ME. YEAHH BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME. I'M USELESS. HAPPY?

I SHOULD JUST BE KICKED OUT OF CHOIR.. JAC QUIT CHOIR. I WONDER WHAT THE REASON IS. THAT TIME, SHE JUST TOLD ME THAT SHE WASN'T INTERESTED IN CHOIR ANYMORE. MAYBE.. DON'T KNOW LARHHS

I'M FEELING DOWN
I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT

I'M AN IDIOT
I'M STUPID. BAKA NEKO

I WAS HAPPY FOR AWHILE AND COZ OF CHOIR. EVERYTHING WAS SHATTERED
MY HAPPINESS. MY HYPERNESS. MY CHEERFULNESS. MY EVERYTHING.
CHOIR STOLE EVERYTHING FROM ME!!

I AM JUST A SCREWER FOR EVERYTHING. i don't know if there's such word as screwer. but well i just meant.. i screw up everything in the world.

I HAVE NO MORE HEART FOR CHOIR ANYMORE. BUT AS LONG AS I AM STILL IN THE SYF GROUP, ALL I CAN SAY IS. I CAN ONLY TRY MY BEST. DON'T HOPE FOR ANYTHING FROM ME. I AM NOTHING

NOTHING AT ALL

-MY EYES JUST HURT-

&the pages keep turning.

whhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees~
feeling kinda happy today. well maybe not happy
but i'm feeling okok today. yeahh hyper-active
as usual. maybe talk a lot of crap and people start
getting irritated by miie. who knows..

now at least not so bad. i mean i blog once in a few days, in the past, it was about 3 to 1month then post once. now improved. lol yeahh "improved" [with inverted commas] neverminds. that's lame. i know.

she came over today (: yay! accompany me study maths. if not i won't have the self-discipline to do my work. i mean, if she didn't come to my house today, i may not even be bothered with doing my homework and stuff like heymath. thanks to her :D hmms maybe i'm more disciplined when there are people around me looking at me study. i wonder..

today i'm feeling happy. guess whhy. lol that's stupid. BECAUSE THERE'S NO CHOIR! no darn choir. no freaking idiotic choir.. i am the happiest in the world mann. umm i guess not, when i'm thinking of choir for tomorrow and stupid audi. i heard that classical told straight to ms ng or ms foo that she doesn't want to be in syf. omg. i really pei fu her lorhhs. daring. VERY daring. chao cool nehh ^^ but how nice i was daring enough to do that too.. i don't mind. but i don't think i will do it thoughh.. have worked hard for so long, then suddenly you just say you wanna be out of syf, then the efforts you have put in is kinda.. go to waste? well i suppose so. but i'm not that good anyways. i have bad sound quality, i can't sing properly, always have throat problem which caused me to get "scolded" by shilbe often. darn. i'm soooo not looking forward to audi tomorrow. i'll be during with rachel. chai. yay! have company once again :D i bet i'll be out of syf immediately after they hear me sing.

the glass will break
hair will stand
everybody will freak out
MAYBE. WHO KNOWS..

i have no confidence in myself anymore. anywayys i was never confident. my uncle always scold me coz i have low self-esteem or something. haiis.. when i am and feel confident, people may think i'm OVER-CONFIDENT. i don't know.. if that's the case, people will say that i'm proud and like to boss to other people about some crap. yeahh crap. well well.. have nothing much to say about it thoughh.

maybe i'm proud?
maybe i'm over-sensitive?
maybe i'm an irritating freako?
maybe i'm such an idiot?
maybe i'm taking things for granted?
maybe i'm complacent?
who knows..

yesterday watched anime till 1am. yeahh inuyasha and samurai 7. it's on arts central from 12mid to 1am. so i really stayed up that late just to watch the episodes. samurai 7 is quite nice actually. not bad. inuyasha is kinda okayys for me still :D love sesshoumaru. i think he wasn't shown yesterday. was he? whatever. but i think today's one should have. hope so. he looks cool ^^ and i watched dnangel when i came home from sku too.coz yesterday no choir, no tuition, basically my only free day. i watched dnangel till episode.. i think 18. somewhere there. and i realised that i like hiwatari-kun. more than dai-chan :DD he's actually not very shuai. but he has that coool look like sesshoumaru, ren and byakuya (:

I WATCH FINISH BUSOU RENKIN!! whhhheees~~~~ such a nice anime! i will never regret watching it. it's soooooooooo darn nice! i have the episodes in my com. i hope i'll download a burner soon so that i could burn them into VCDs. i'll be loking forward to that day :D i like chouno! that pappilon! he calls himself "pappi-yon~~~" he dragged the yon a little. lol he's nice. but a little disgusting. his fashion wise. lol he wears weird clothes. but he's still shuai to me. his eyes are scary.. kowaiiiiiii~ quite scary. he has this butterfly mask too. nice nice nice! (: well overall just love busou renkin (: i don't minda watching it again ^_^

just love crapping here. maybe i should go eat some seafood. sotong especially.. DOTS. =.="

&the pages keep turning.

!!!!!!!!!!
ever since that day i talked to mrs liew
ever since that day i cried enough
ever since that day..
i told myself
i give up
i give it all up already..

SYF is coming. and i'm starting to give up and back out. i don't know what to do now. i don't seem to bother about it anymore. i don't wanna work hard. i don't wanna give it my best shot. i don't wanna fight together with the choir to achieve gold anymore. i don't know if we could get a gold or not. i don't feel like sharing happiness or sorrows at the end of the competition. but i guess i have to. coz i'm still in the competition group. how nice i'm like divya.. cheryl.. danielle.. classical.. selena.. they're not in the competition group. at least if you're not, you won't get soo pressurized with syf. you won't get scolded by ms lim. you won't feel demoralised. you won't feel stressed over choir! isn't it much better?

in the past, it wasn't like that. IT WASN'T. i would cry if i weren't in the competition group. i'll probably cry all day. well.. i just love syf so much. it's not all about the points only. i really enjoy syf so much. i enjoy performing for syf so much. i enjoy singing for choir. i love syf. i love choir. but that was all the past. WAY PAST. now, i'd rather not be in the competition group. i have no mood for this kind of thing anymore. i don't care if i'm in or out. even if i got kicked out of choir. i don't know if i would care or not. but i think i won't.

have been sick nowadays. i mean my throat. my voice. gonna get scolded by shilbe again if i don't get well soon. damn it. my throat is pain and i can't sing properly now. even those notes which are in the middle range. i can't get it there. it seems too high for miie. well i'm at fault anyways. for eating potato chips and not drinking a lot of water after. that's why i got sick. i got scolded coz i haven't been singing. so she gotta pick on miie or something. i don't know. like yesterday, for choir, i sang halfway for the 3songs. and i started sitting down at about 3.30pm. and then i stopped singing. coz i really can't reach the notes in the songs. people are singing sharp and i can't reach that high. even though i'm in sop1, i'm not that capable to produce a good quality sound. i wonder why i got transfered from sop2 to sop1. i really wonder. well.. i'm airy. i'm bad. i'm anything that's not good. that doesn't do good to the choir. i'm a pest in choir. i don't fit to be in sop1. i don't. i miss sop2. really miss there. at least sop2 doesn't sing that high.

from 2.15 to 3pm, we had sectionals. and sop1 was supposed to stay in beethovan room. so the sectional start. and shilbe asked if we wanna have a bit of warm-up first or not. and yang liu said yes. so we had to sing this 3notes. quite high. and i told shilbe that i couldn't sing properly coz of my throat. and she was like.. "excuse. everytime throat got problem!" diaos. it's not like i purposely make my throat like that. it's not that i like it. it's painful. when i swallow my saliva down, i feel the pain there. she thinks i enjoy having sore throat or something. she thinks i'm lying about it? well i said.. i don't care anymore. she can scold miie for all i care. but in the end i still sang. fine.. i don't know what to say about it.

today's practice was a disaster. as usual. ms lim came and she started scolding us. AS USUAL. then after she left. victoria and mrs foo talked to us. and before choir ended, ms ng told the SLs to pick out people to go for audition. but the audition is gonna be conducted on this coming monday during recess. shilbe picked miie and some other people in sop1. only sop1 people got picked out. coz sop2, alto1 and alto2 's SL didn't pick anyone out. yeahh i'm unlucky enough. i'm gonna give it all i've got. but i think i'll be out of syf. who knows :D i've had enough of all this

today's just about choir. so nothing much. byebye :D

&the pages keep turning.

hai! hai! hai!
yooooohoooooooooo~
must be a little more hyper.

so that sadness and sorrow willl go away. geez. i hate this mann. stupid sadness and sorrow. well not really. sadness and sorrow song is nice. from naruto. lol. that was lame. i'm refering to REAL sadness and sorrow in life. yeahh everybody knows that. neverminds. just trying to be stupid here. paisehh. but then it's really true.

when you're hyper,
you're crazy,
you act like you're really insane,
you are high,
it really helps distress yourself.

you won't feel so sad in this way.. coz the hyper-ness will "take over" and "conquer" sadness and sorrow. well. have been talking rubbish. but whatever~ lol school was okayys today. just okay. as usual. lonely? maybe.. screwed up for choir once again. totally screwed up. yesterday, during recess, we had our practice in the foyer and we sang quite nicely. well at least nicer than usual. but today, we had our practice in beethovan room and we're bad. VERY BAD INDEED. ms lim started to say that we're not working hard enough. we're not using our brains. we're not good. we're not putting in effort.

what the hell. i'm sure all of us worked hard. just that it just didn't turn out the way she wanted. i don't know.. i seriously don't know. it just pisses some of us when she said we weren't working hard. we did try our best. although the sound is bad. we still did our best. we're not happy with the sound we produce but we tried hard to change it. but it may not be working for some of us. but that doesn't mean we're not putting in effort. i don't know.. it's 99.99999% that we're gonna get a silver. that's a for sure. i have nothing to say about it. nobody's gonna be happy with the silver but it's just gonna be like that.

let's see.. what happen in sku..
I'M SCARED OF YING YING NOW!
she's SCARY!! LOL!

i'll tell you why. i told jorene and marianne about this already.. so yeahh
ying ying was so nice to miie suddenly! ROFL. usually she's so cold to miie. but today lol.. she's damn nice ^^ i wonder what happened to her mind. lol no offence. but i was kinda suprised. i thought she don't wanna talk to miie or something, since she's always with that look when we talk? i suppose so. xD lol but thanks to her anywayys (:

wait up.. gawd. ying and jorene know what my post is about. i mean the words in malay. she understood them. i wonder how..

i wonder how
i wonder why
yesterday you told miie about the blue blue sky
and all that i can see is just a yellow lemon tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that i can see is just another lemon-tree

mwahahhs xD that was chao lame. neverminds. i wonder who translated it for them.

anywayys today's library duty was okay. teacher was gonna make miie library committee. dots larhhs. am i that good? i mean i was a nominee. but i probably won't be in the committee coz the position will probably be given to sec3. i'm only sec2. how can i be in committee. well well.. that's all for today i guess :D

&the pages keep turning.

everybody is leaving miie
nobody is befriending miie
i'm lonely. very very lonely..

this is not meant to be read. coz it's not in english nor it is in chinese but if you wanna try understanding it, go ahead.

aku di sekolah.. kawan ku jarang sama ku bicara. ku ada 2 kawan, dia kek gak suka aku lagi. entah.. kurasa gitu yeah. tapi gak apa.. aku sendirian bisa juga. ku pasti bisa. sendirian saja pun bukan gak baik. cuma.. sepih. karena gak ada orang kawanin. gak ada orang sama kamu bicara, bercanda, ketawah. gak apa lahh. ku bo chap juga dehh.. mama sekarang di singapur. papa, meii sama ahyi di singapur. meii mau cek mata sama cek dia punya IQ juga. kalau IQ nya tinggi, dia pasti bisa sekolah di sini.. :D bagus juga (: meii yang kawanin aku. yay ((: tapi meii kadang menkek kali lho.. xD bilang sekolah. kalau dulu, kawan ku sedang geli in aku. ku gak suka tapi kan lebih enak sama sekarang. sekarang kawan gak geli aku lagi.. gak ganggu ku lagi. sepih. iya.. SEPIH. AKU MAU PULANG!!

anywayys.. i still haven't think of giving anything to bestiie yet. haiis i don't know what he wants. well i asked him what guys like.. and he told miie "girls". that answer was like.. so diao. my gawwwwd. lol. but in the end he wanted her photo. so i gotta ask her permission before i give him her photo. neverminds. it's kinda difficult to understand.

today went out for dinner then we walked pass the red light district. puhhhlease. the guys were all so chiko. damn it. i see until i scared already lorhhs. when you walk there, it's like you have to turn left, turn right, look front, look back. woahhs scary. really look soooooooooo chiko. chao ji funny can. well tomorrow gotta go sku again. i don't like sku. makes miie feel sad. coz of choir and stuff. today my friend cried. omg larhhs.. i see her cry make miie wanna cry even more. hell mann. it's disheartening. everybody feels like crying maybe. i don't know.. hope she gets better tomorrow :D cheer up kido (:

&the pages keep turning.

umm i guess.. i'm okay right now :D i suppose so (:
sorry candice and rachel. didn't wish you guys happy burfday
wells. this year i missed a lot of people's burfday.
although i remembered them. i didn't do it. umm rachel you're different. i really didn't know it was your burfday. paisehh =XX bestiie's burfday is coming by too. i don't know what to do. i mean. i don't know what to say. i don't know what to give. i don't know anything. very long didn't talk to him anywayys. so i don't know how he's doing. same as my other bestiie too.

sashiburi :(

wells.. it's been a long time. really. i haven't been talking on the phone to my friends for quite sometime too. even in tkgs. i don't know. maybe i'm concentrating on some other things and i just have no mood or interest in talking on the phone? i don't know..

it's 6th of april. term2 week 3. good friday.
up till now, i don't know what i have been doing
maybe i've done something bad to somebody?
maybe i've been a nuisance to everybody everywhere?
maybe i'm talking too much?
maybe i'm not fit to be in soprano1?
maybe i shouldn't be here?
maybe i'm feeling sad?
maybe i don't feel like i'm existing?
or maybe i don't even exist?

this makes miie think of Al. but i guess he's much better of a character compared to miie
i don't know. i just saying i don't know. coz i don't know what else i could say. just i don't know..

a love..
a love from? i don't know. maybe only..
from okasan and otosan maybe and meme

well all doesn't matter anymore. i'll live it.
live this life myself. yeahh live life to the fullest
i'll be happy. i'll be contented. i'll be good
maybe..

i'll cope with all these. i'll manage it somehow :D

hmms. good that there's something called anime and manga in this world. i live with that anywayys. it's my life, my soul, my friend, my everything. wells.. i guess so? uhh uhh~

it keeps miie company
it cheers miie up when i'm down
it makes miie happy
it relaxes my mind, my soul, my heart

with that, i'll never feel heartbrokened or sad
i hope so (: too bad it can't talk. it's just like my diary
just that i don't write in them, instead i read and watch what they are trying to tell miie

i may be writing nonsense now..

dakara

don't bother.

that's all i have to say.

don't bother.

ma, aku ke pingin pulang. kadang gak tahan di sini. gak tahan lagi. ku mau pulang se bentar. aku mau kawan!! ku di sekolah, kawan ku pun.. gak apa sama ku ngomong. kurasa, ku berisik. ngomong ku banyak ya? gak tau. ku da malas. ku mau pulang sebentar. kek 2 minggu. capek da. aku mau sama orang di toko ngomong. ku kangen sama kalian!! ku mau kawan!! mama, papa, adek, awi!! kangen sama semua. apin, ahliang gorgor, ayen jiji juga! ku da mau nangis lagi :(

&the pages keep turning.

didn't go for library duty today coz i don't feel really well.. no mood and just felt sick. my eyes were pain coz of all the crying and stuff. anywayys will be going duty twice next week. one on monday and the other on thursday. monday wann is make up for today's duty. as usual depressed larhhs, that's why. i don't wanna elaborate on anything. i think of it, i'll cry. i need to occupy myself with something. then i won't think much.

gotta thank wenqing today. when i was crying, she lent miie the comic book she had. and that comic book sort of cheered miie up. yeahhh. coz i love anime and manga. so that's the only thing which can actually turned miie normal :D thanks for zhi jun too. for being there for miie (: thanks a lot.

i talked to mrs liew today. she told nadiah to ask miie to meet her during recess. coz she saw that i was feeling down i guess. usually i'm not like that, i'm hyper. but this time, not really.. so maybe that's how she noticed. had a nice talk with mrs liew. she comforted miie too. and she said maybe i don't need to take it really seriously. coz it's not my fault that that happened coz i tried my best already. i don't know. maybe she's right. but it just makes miie sad thinking about it. even before i told her wat happened. i started tearing already. wells i got reminded of the sad thing. that's why i teared. neverminds. i guess many sad things to miie nowadays. i don't know. just feeling down. thank you to mrs liew too

i'm really tired already. i promise myself that i will never cry for this ever again. i give up

i'm over-sensitive

i didn't know that i would cry this much. i'm such a CRY BABY

&the pages keep turning.