Today's a not-so-good day for me D:
It's gonna be long post :/

#1. Chem test uh. SIGH, didn't do well, as expected and Mr Goh was like, Huh, Vivi you can do better. I've been hearing this a lot. My previous test was.. ........ My Chem is deteriorating. Not that I didn't study, but I don't know why.

#2. My Stomach hurts like crap. I didn't skip any meals. In fact, I've been eating regularly these days. Then during Geog IR, I wasn't in the mood to do any of the questions -.-

#3. I LOST MY THUMBRIVE T.T I realised it only when I reached home D: It means money!! Cuz I have to get a new one soon T.T

And I think I've got some emotional/mental/brain disorder.
Tsk. My heart can start racing for no reason. It happened yesterday and today again. I'm not sure what I'm feeling at that moment. There was this excitement? It was just all weird. I should seek a Psychologist. HAHA Since a Psychologist helps you to understand what you're actually thinking about xD

And when I see too many words and keep staring at the teacher who's talking(I mean it's natural for you to look at the teacher when he/she is talking/teaching), I feel giddy. I seriously hate school. And I felt so emo-ish especially during Chinese lesson when I sat beside Bels. LOLS. "Induce" Emo feelings. HAHA

Anyways, at school, we played Bridge also. But today's motive of playing Bridge was a little different. Haha we played because we want to make Jing Yi lose. The bet was like.. If Jing Yi and her partner lose TWICE CONSECUTIVELY, she would have to tie her hair and show us xD But the thing is that, it's SUPER difficult to make Jing Yi lose luh. Because, One, she's Pro in Bridge, Two, you wouldn't want to get scolded(T.T) by her when you are her partner and you play wrongly -.- Worst thing. LOLS.

Rantings:
I realised that I only revolve around school and you. I remembered once my friend scolded me for continuing to revolve around you since like who-knows-when. But somethings are not so easy to let go. When I pondered again, I thought, maybe I stopped revolving around you. You have stopped living in my heart because I realised that I have to move on.

I become emotionless as the days go by,
the days become shorter and shorter in this fast-paced life.

I found no reason to be here because life can't stop, and time would just go on, it wouldn't let me think through all the things of the past. It wouldn't allow me to appreciate those nostalgic moments anymore..

VIVIHATESLIFE.&WANTSTOVANISHRIGHTNOW.

Have you ever thought of those,
Who wants to live desperately?
Fighting for his life,
Fighting for his last breath.
How can I live on?
Who can be the reason,
To drive me again..

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Woo!
Finally Physics Quiz, Chem&AMath CA is over.
And Austrialian Chemistry Quiz is also over.
But I screwed them all up. At first I didn't think AMath would be that bad, but it turns out to be really bad. Careless mistake? Blahblah. And Chemistry Quiz paper was quite difficult :/ But at least, Livia&Me got to miss about 1hour of History IR :D

I'm glad there's no new homework given to us today :D

In class, Livia, Jing Yi and Me keep betting on like test results and stuff.
LOL. I'm beginning to lose MORE Ferrero Rochers -.-

And this morning, when I woke up, I realised that my dad's room door was open. My dad's gone, he must have went taken a flight early in the morning. It's gonna be a month before he'll be back again. Lol, I didn't even know that he was going back today.

Haha and just now, had English Tuition. Lol. Today's class was okay. Practise Oral stuff. Reading, Picture, Convo. And when I reached home, nobody was at home. about 8 plus, Xiaogu, Ahyi and Mei came back. They brought Mei to see a doctor. Mei fell sick D: High fever, but she seems really energetic. Haha and she was still singing Majulah Singapura xD

I wish I would get sick soon too.

learning from the simplest things

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Blogger's posting layout is still kinda weird :/

Lessons were alright and I moved to the front there today. I kinda like it there. Maybe I should sit at the front, then I can be more disciplined to do work :D

Chinese IR was so ohmiGod. Did a Mock Paper *moans*
After that, went Gramercy alone to get books for my class people. Lol Book2 is quite hard to me. I can't sightread Book2 like I can for Book1 anymore D: My sightreading sucks cuz I didn't learn much music :/

There's a few tests coming up this week. Dead. I'm not ready at all.

I can't hate life&school anymore.

leaving me

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School was pretty okay :D
I kinda looked forward to AMath lesson today :/
I have no idea why though. Maybe I just needed to do something. Haha

I brought an APPLE to school for recess!

Kill 2 birds with a stone orh :D
Firstly, I don't have to wake up early to prepare obento yet I still have food to eat during recess. Secondly, it's HEALTHY! An Apple a day keeps the Doctor away :D

I'm gonna bring Apples to school more often :D

It was because of OBS that I started liking Apples a little more. During OBS, it felt so good eating an apple. You know, after a hot day out, you actually get to eat an apple for lunch/dinner. Haha and Jin Yi was like the Apple Monster :D

After school, we had Chem IR.
I don't think it's very productive :/ But I did my work anyways.

I bus-ed home with Bels when IR ended.
Talked to her quite a bit and it sure feels nice being able to tell someone about what you feel inside sometimes. But I guess I shouldn't be thinking about it too much. Life still has a long, long way to go. We'll encounter more people as we grow up. Rather than worry about all these stuff, it's better I concentrate on other things like School work? I don't know..

I alighted at the bus stop outside of Bedok Interchange cuz take 31 and Zoe&Sharifah was there. LOL. Again, we talked about the weirdest topic. It wasn't exactly weird but I don't know how to describe it. Haha and Zoe even asked me a surprising question. LOL. Like who I'll like if I had no choice but to pick a girl from the class/level. LOL. She's trying to drag me into walking the unstraight route? HAHA! No thankxzxzxzxzxzxzxz. Lol! But I think she's one interesting person. HAHA

the three friends left

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Yesterday, I went for Hillsong Concert with Hildy's Family and Jia Yi :D The songs that they sang were nice. Some of them. Haha :D But a bit loud uh :/



The Pastor who came to talk was Pasor Judah Smith.
He was super funny xD and open. HAHAHA

I met Beverly, Candice and Alster there too! :D

But one thing that I wasn't quite happy was I had to bring my violin along. I went straight to expo after lessons. Then during the concert, my violin case got stepped. The strap got stepped. People walked over my violin. I don't like that. Sigh. But I guess no choice that I had to bring it along.

Haha but Thanks to Hildy's Mum for paying for the tickets :D
And thanks to her parents for driving Jia Yi and Me home :D
Cuz it was late when the concert ended :D

Anyway, lesson yesterday was pretty challenging. Lol we had to play this fast song and it was like too fast for us beginners xD Haha and Ms Xiao could play so well. Lol! We're getting a new book soon! Yay :D

to live for others?

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Okay, the blogger blogging format is real weird :/

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! :D

Today's really an awesome day for me :D

I walked to school with Yunnie from the bus stop and I didn't suspect anything. When I reached school, it feels as if nothing was different cuz anyway, today's just like any other day. A day that will pass after 24hours. Then suddenly, Sherlynn came into the class and switch of the lights. I was going to ask Sherlynn why she switched off the lights when we're all in class. And I was taken by surprise when Jorene and everyone else came with in a Cake! :D

Jorene baked a Cheese Cake! It tasted really great! :D

I seriously didn't suspect anything like this would happen.
I must be easiy cheated by people :/



Haha a hug with Jorene. Somewhat Gay but nice :D HAHAHA

Lessons after that were as per normal :D

After school, we had Napha Test D: *Roars*
My whole body was aching. Plus my stomach.
But I think it was a blessing in disguise for me cuz usually when I have stomach muscle ache, I can't do sit ups, but today, as I was doing sit ups, I didn't feel the aching at all. Really Thank God! And I got my Gold :D



After Napha Test, I treated Joyce, Livia, Joce, Jing Yi, Jorene, Hui Qi and Xin Fang to Haagen Dazs at TM! We ordered Fondue, Banana Split, Tiramisu One Scoop! :D Very long never eat Haagan Dazs le! xD My Dad gave me money the day before.

He asked, "Did you buy cake?"
I replied, "Nope"
He said, "Then don't need to buy, you go celebrate yourself"

Yup, and he gave me money. And I decided to treat my friends instead cuz I think it's meaningless to spend a birthday alone.

I miss Uncle John& Dagu's house to the max. Can't miss them anymore. It feels like we're more like a family there. I miss them so much ): The last time I celebrated my birthday with my Dad was when I was P4, when he treated me to KFC :D Hahaha! But the last time I celebrated with you was when I was five. And ever since then, you never remembered this day anymore and once, you even called to ask when it was.

I think, MONEY ISN'T EVERYTHING.

Money can get you many many things. But it won't touch people's lives.

TODAY, I get to enjoy myself it's because of my Friends :D And I really want to thank them for being there for me through thick and thin and celebrating my birthday with me :D I'm really touched! T.T

My eyes hurt like crap now. For crying too much D:
Firstly, I was super touched for what my classmates did for me!
Secondly, my actions and words caused some problems for my friends at school.
Thirdly, I was thinking about some sad stuff.

So it was like 3-in-1. I couldn't help it but when I thought of all these, the tears just wouldn't stop flowing. But I'm glad it's gonna be over in 2hours. Just 2 more hours.

THANK YOU EVERYBODY,
FOR THE BIRTHDAY GREETINGS/WISHES,
FOR THE BIRTHDAY PRESENTS,
FOR THE AWESOME MINI CELEBRATION PUT UP FOR ME,
FOR JUST BEING HERE FOR ME :D

And I received SMSes like from people that I'd never expect to. Like Awie! Haha he smsed from Indonesia somemore :D



And this picture shows my awesomest friends. Plus Hui Qi, Yunnie, Cheryl, Bels, Sherlynn, Zoe, Jia Yi, Jelene and my classmates and everyone else I know! :D Love you guys loads! For making my day :D

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Tsk. I'm feeling bored now.

Just feel like lazing around and read my book. But unfortunately, I can't. Cuz more homework is piling up. Lols.

I think there's still few months to go before I can escape from this harsh reality.

I have been listening to Miho Fukuhama's songs :D Pretty nice. Well, some of them. Especially Himawari :D I realise I have a lot of Himawari songs in my Lappie. By the way, Himawari is SUNFLOWER in Jap :D

not jealousy,
but out of friendship?

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I finished reading Tactics Volume 10!
I read it while I was on the way to Church :D
Wow, super good luh. It's been quite awhile since the last time I read manga :/ Hahaha :D But Book 10 is really interesting. Love it! I wonder when 11's coming out :D I'm looking forward to it! ^.^

Nothing much to blog about actually. Cuz I only did homework and use lappie :/

Sigh, school's starting again tomorrow. And there's IR after school D:

crush. stop. die.

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Thursday, I had English Tuition at BC with Cheryl! At first it was kinda boring. But nearing the end of the lesson, the teacher let us watch Rush Hour. Just a short clip! About 5-10minutes :D Haha that's the only part that I enjoyed xD The white van crashed in blahblahblah. But you know what's our homework? We have to write a summary on what happened after the white van crashed in. LOLS.

It's Saturday today. My always-favourite day :D

#1. There's no school!
#2. There's violin class!
#3. I'm free(except when I have lots fo work to do? :/)

Yup, basically my free day :D Quite.

Class was alright today. We learnt spiccato. Argh. Super difficult. We had to play "Not Quite Nachtmusik, inspired by Mozart" using spiccato. Totally :/ suck at it. Haha. But violin lessons are so enjoyable :D Love it to the MAX!

not my character; kyara janai

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English Oral is over :D
I think my reading and picture part was okay. But Convo. .. .. I'm not too sure about that. Tsk. Just couldn't think of what to talk about. I only took oral at about 4.15pm. So from 2.30 to 4.15pm, while waiting, I finished Chem homework! Mr Goh piled us with more homework today :/ Thank God I finished the homework that he gave last week way before, so I needn't rush through homework.

Haha finally I have started to "Not Procrastinate" :D

Before I took a bus home from Bedok Interchange, I went to the Library to return "The Trap by Sarah Wray" It's a good book. I thought so at least. It keeps me in suspense and the way the author describes something can send chills down my spine. And I went to borrow more books. I just had the sudden "craving" for reading books. Lol 3 more! I hope I can read them all :D

Anyways, I've got History SEQ&SEB, EMath worksheet and Legacy stuff to do later! Hope I can do it quick, then I can rest earlier :D

how long has it been?

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It's only Tuesday. Ohman. I want the weekends. It'll probably be a busy weekend again this time anyways. Sigh. Hate school to the max? Or maybe just hate Sec4 life?

We ran 2.4km for P.E today! Woo. I'm so gonna take the timing that I got today. Although dropped by 46seconds(SO MUCH. TSK), compared to last year, but I really don't want to run again next next week. At least it's over now! Left with the 5stations :D I'm glad that the 5stations thing is before my day! :D So I'm still a sweet fifteen :D

Just now we had Chinese IR! :D It was a pretty fun session I thought. Xulaoshi told us lots of funny stuff and we seriously had a good laugh! :D I kinda enjoy it! And furthermore, we were released early too! So, I'm quite happy!

There's English Oral tomorrow. I'm not prepared at all :/

even though we share common likings,
we don't and can't share common thoughts

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Mmm, I don't know what to say right now.
Just not feeling too good cuz I heard too many things today and we got back our Physics test on Electromagnetism. Yea, upsetting and something to reflect on. I should change my study methods. Sometimes I ask myself if it was possible to do better for Physics. Just because I did well once, doesn't mean I will the next time. I'm not sure if I'm that capable. But I guess I can't give up now. It's the crucial period and everybody's working hard. So I should too..

Chem IR after school was alright. But I don't have my TYS yet D:

a promise to make,
a promise you can't break

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Lol, I wrote a To-Do list for this weekend just now.
There are 10assignments that needs to be completed (TYS, Worksheets, Online work etc.) It's totally madness. School's starting to get stressful with all the homework piling up :/ I hate this D: who doesn't?

We did a full paper for English. Comprehension and Summary. Having to stay back at school everyday till 4.30pm is really tiring. Unfortunately, even though we don't like it, it still has to go on because we're SEC4s. ARGH. And the teachers are putting in a lot of effort to make sure that we do well. So must GAN BATTE! And last year, our seniors went through all these IRs and hardwork and they produced like uber awesome results! :D

I bus-ed home with Jia Yi today and at one point of time, she said that by the time Olevel comes, we may have collapsed. Hope this doesn't happen :/

searching for the soul that has been lost

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Today's just another day.. Stressful and horrible.
I have a lot of homework to complete again and I just reached home, bathed and eat. Lol, and why am I still here when I have lots of work to do? Haha, who knows.

History IR killed me. Lol. We did a full paper. Oh but SEQ only need to do one question. But I seriously hate doing History papers. Lololol. Have to THINK, especially SBQ. Before IR, Xin Fang, Livia, Jocelyn, Jing Yi and Me were talking about funny stuff and it made me laughed till my stomach really hurts. I like those times where we could laugh together :D Cuz maybe it's gonna be our last year together and we left like a few months before we graduate D: So must treasure all the happy times we had!

Really hope that all of us can stay friends forever. That'll be great!
But I don't believe in eternity

My whole body is aching so badly now. Cuz we ran 5rounds for PE yesterday *moans*

Just now, had English class at BC! Lol, we have to write a Personal Recount for homework *moans again* HAHAHAHA

Ja, have to go do work now!

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UHLO :D
I think I'm a good girl today!
Firstly, I was super attentive during lessons (Especially Chinese). But something struck me a moment ago. Err, I thought back about the lesson we had, I don't seem to understand what laoshi was talking about because the chapter that we were going through in class was quite difficult. A bit chim for me xD You know, we know, everybody knows luh, my Chinese is like.. HORRIBLE. Argh. LOL

Secondly, I didn't play card games at school today!
Cuz I was busy clarifying some Physics stuff with Cheryl before lesson started at 7.45am and during recess. So.. no time to play cards (haha let Jocie play once in awhile xD) Thanks Cheryl for helping me! I really don't know a lot of Physics stuff :/ And whatever she said kinda helped me a bit for the quiz we had during Physics lesson! :D Hopefully can do well cuz I revised yesterday! Hope that the efforts won't be wasted :D

EMath IR after school was just doing our school's Sec3 Mid Year Paper! Hmm, so not that stressful I guess.. I also went to the Library just now. I couldn't find the book that I wanted D: The search thing says that it's Not on Loan but when I went to the shelf, it's not there. Sigh D: So instead, I randomly picked a book and I borrowed "The Trap - Sarah Wary" Hope that the book's gonna be interesting! :D Cuz I usually don't read finish what I borrow :/

Alright, that's about it. I have to continue doing homework (Lots of homework today :/) JA NE! :D

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School these few days were Okay :D
Chemistry is getting tougher! Organic Chem is.. really difficult!

I think I have been relaxing too much. Prelims&Os are in few months time.
And I'm still watching too much anime, playing too much of Viwawa..... etc.

I wanna go to the Library. I suddenly feel like reading, hoping that it can keep me away from anime. There are a few books that I wanna borrow! Maybe I should go tomorrow! :D On the way home..

Ja, have to study for a Physics test tomorrow!

Realising how long we haven't talk to each other,
your one reply made me on top of the world.

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I've change blog song (again). Lol twice today. In the morning, I put up Lacie by Yuki Kajiura which is music(without voice) from PANDORA HEARTS. And just now, I just changed it to Falling Slowly by Kris Allen! Ohman. His voice is so.......... WOW :D

Anyways, I didn't do work yesterday and today D:
I watched Pandora Hearts :D Till episode 14 (latest episode) I found a good anime again! Okay luh, not bad only ^.^ But I think I'm relaxing a bit.. too much huh?

I realised that I haven't been observant enough. I'm oblivious to my surroundings. Just caring about myself and it's been a long time since the last time I looked at my sister properly. Even my Dad who comes back to Singapore only once a month notices certain things while I see my sister everyday, I don't notice it. Failure as the older sister

you who chooses to give up the chance

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Today's just like any other days :D
Lessons were kinda relaxed still. Haven't got into the Prelims-Olevel mood.
Oh! We started Organic Chemistry today and I think it's interesting! :D Hmm, I don't have anything much to comment on for other lessons :/

After school, Cheryl and Me headed to Tampines for Language Consultation(I scored 72/80! Lol, for a Primary6-like work) and Tuition at British Council! Today's the first lesson :D And I think the class was quite okay :D Our teacher is an AngMoh guy who can speak Spanish. Hahahaha and surprisingly, Louise signed up for the class too! :D

only dirtying other's hands

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Lol, I woke up with muscle ache today :/
Yesterday luh, for P.E, did running to train for 2.4km. I ran 4 rounds. Haha I can't believe that I manage to complete 4 rounds. Haha :D Ohya, we took height and weight also. Yays! I lost quite a bit of weight! :D Haha I think holidays I emo emo and then went to find Nemo, that's why lost weight uh. LOLS. But sadly, I still look fat even though my weight is like average D:

Today's lessons were okay. We had relief teacher for Physics and she went through the Fleming's left hand rule and all those. Argh. I'm really bad at this electromagnetism chapter :/

My favourite lessons are still A&Emath lessons! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOCIE!

one in a million - fate

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