I've been watching this drama lately. It says that if one bears grudges, one will live long. Haha, fortunately, I guess I probably won't live that long then. But, there are some things which I just won't forget. And talking to you makes me think of all those things again. Why.

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If there's something I lack,
it's confidence.

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My 950th post! :D

I've just done up another blogskins, a pretty pretty one :)
Really thankful for the basecodes, if not it'll be almost impossible for me to totally design a new one.

Anyways, today I had my lappie fixed at the Fujitsu Premium Care Centre at Funan DigitaLIFE Mall. The place is really cosy! :D And there's coffee machine, biscuits, magazines etc etc there. Lol. And while waiting for my lappie to be repaired, I was walking around and I came across a Maid Cafe. I was super surprised that there's a maid cafe in Singapore!! And the waitresses dress in maid costumes. Cho kawai~! Haha next time must dine there!! :D

Ja mata ashita! ^^

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Today's a really happy day for me :)
Although Physics paper was.. So-so :/
But after that, I went to Dagu's house to collect my letters from the bank since I used to stay with them and I haven't updated my new address with the bank. So grateful that I could meet them. I stayed at their place for about 4 hours! Haha, watching TV together, eating together, chatting together, talking about my plans after JC etc. And Dagu cooked also and there was a lot of food to eat. Then drank chinese tea together after dinner. Hahah. Happy times. Really felt the family feeling :)

Then I realised that I have taken them for granted in the past when I still stayed with them and now that I'm not, I miss them so so so so so so so much. I definitely preferred to stay with them :)

I got prommy dress from my cousin to try out as well! Hehe.
Anyways, I really love meeting them :D Makes me feel really xing fu.

Sing me a ballad,

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Ohman, feeling so sad today.
#1 I have to go back to Indo ): I can't make my KTP here ): ): Lol but I'm trying to drag the day I need to go back. Then I was digging for my "long-lost" passport, and the last time I travelled was in 09 where I went Malaysia and the last I went back to Indo was in 08. Lol it's been 3 years!! Wow. I used to go back every year. Haha.

#2 I can't take up citizenship until I'm 21. WHYYY so strict nowwwww. Uni fees (That's if I can even get into one -_-) will be really expensive.

Ohmannnnnnn. Why like thattttttt.
Tch. ARGHH.

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Charming Junkie!

I remembered myself being super obsessed with this manga. I think it was during Sec 3 or 4. At first I bought 3 books to try. Then I read it, "Wow nice", immediately, the next day, I went to Kinokuniya to buy the next few books until 10. And subsequently, I had to wait for about 3 months for the next few volumes to be out, until the last - 16. Haha the agony of waiting, I still remember. And the book was so nice that I could finish reading each volume within 20 to 30 minutes time. Which is very fast (for me). Lol.

Then just now, I was at the forums, reading some of the comments that people were giving about this manga. Haha I feel so happy that I've got good taste ;D HAHAHAHA. On mangafox, they only uploaded till Volume 14 and people are getting excited about the next chapter, and here I am, who finished reading all 16 volumes and owns all them. Hehe.

LOL seriously, how much money have I spent on manga?!! Now that I think about it, it's really quite a waste of money. But I used to enjoy collecting them!! It's been a long time since I last bought any mangas. Anyways, I read so many mangas (in chinese), how come my chinese sucks? ._.

I wanna eat Jajjangmyeon. Nowwwww.
Okay random.
Ja ne.

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Haha what a slacky day today. As usual.

Anyways, my mum called me earlier on and she asked whether I'm going back to Indo and if I am, I should settle things quickly. I still remembered how she'd force me to go back to Indonesia or do anything in the past. Now, she ASKS. How touching. Then I asked if she wants me back, and she said it's better for me to. Haha, but I'm trying all ways to avoid going home man!! Hope I can make my KTP and then renew passport in Singapore!! PLEASSEEEEEEEEE!!

Going back to Indo is really boring. No friends and no internet. Nothing there!! Oh there's my parents and family though. Lol, but I'm the bad one for not missing them at all. I guess I'm too used to not having parents around. Since I was 5+. Haha more than half of my life has been spent in Singapore and I'm attached to Singapore already.

Oh and my parents also don't allow me to study overseas. I get scared that I can't even get into the universities in Singapore cuz they're too good for me. Anyways I have to start thinking of being a Singapore citizen soon. Hope I can get citizenship without much hassle!! :/

Wishing that everything will end now. Studies, expectations and my life.

Just like the falling leaves,

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Feel so good and 感动 today :)
Met Wenxiu at the airport today to "study" LOL for awhile only.
We ended up at Tampines Mall, catching a movie. HAHA.
Anyways, it was a nice show :) I really liked the ending, where the guy said "If you truly like the girl, you would just feel happy for her" The sad part was how he didn't end up with the girl he liked and she married some other guy. Missed the opportunity? Not meant to be? I guess so.

I understand the feeling of being anonymous. It's THRILLING. Lol!

Mm, I suddenly feel like I'm so old already. Like everyday's passing real quickly. We're gonna have to move on, meet more people, make new friends, get into relationships, get married, have kids etc etc. I don't really want to grow up sometimes. Everything is so uncertain. Sometimes I get scared that I would be alone. Sometimes I get scared that I can't get a secure job. Sometimes I get scared about not meeting expectations. Sometimes I get scared about what's coming next.

J2's coming to an end. I'll miss my friends dearly without a doubt. But, what will I do to have them back and make them part of my life again? Just now Wenxiu and I were discussing on whether I will miss her and keep in contact with her. Then it just made me realise again, I have no initiative. I'm not the sort who will keep in contact with someone or ask a person out. I wait for people to contact me instead. If this is how it's gonna be, I guess I'll just be alone like that.

I don't really want to know..

I'm caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile.

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Just got intro-ed to this song by Jerrie (From Joshua)
Haha. It's really nice! :D
I just realised that I had this song in my lappie since a long time ago,
but I have never listened to it.
I especially like the starting :D

I run to you by Lady Antebellum

I run from pain
I run from prejudice
I run from pessimists
But I run too late
I run my life
Or is it running me
Run from my past
I run too fast
Or too slow it seems
When lies become the truth
That’s when I run to you

Chorus
This world keeps spinning faster
Into a new disaster so I run to you
I run to you baby
And when it all starts coming undone
Baby you’re the only one I run to
I run to you

We run on fumes
Your life and mine
Like the sands of time
Slippin’ right on through
And our love’s the only truth
That’s why I run to you

Inevitable, regrettable lost

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History should be finally history.
But, I'm still thinking about the paper we had on Thursday
):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

Lol, but a sad face emoticon can turn into a happy one.
Argh, feel so frustrated about History!! >:(

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This week has been a demoralising one.
I think only GP was the okay one. Because the standard of the paper was the same as the usual compres we do. Chem, as usual, screwed. This time I chose the wrong question to do. And I couldn't finish the paper ):

The worst was History.
I spotted the wrong topics for essay and I ended up attempting a question which I didn't study for. For SBQ, it was on Cambodia which I have never studied before. (It was exactly like JCT when it came out Nuclear Disarmament, but miraculously I managed to do well) There's so many things about UN to test about! But WHY CAMBODIA. Sigh at myself. Then, History is my 2nd best subject after Math. I was really hoping I could get A. But after yesterday's paper, I think it'll take a miracle for me to get A.

I hope miracles do happen.

Maths was difficult and tedious. Demoralising, yes. But not as bad as History.
I think I got complacent about Stats. During the paper today, I suddenly forgot how to do Stats stuff. And in that panicky state, I just screwed myself up.

I really don't know what kind of results I'll get.
Looking at how I dealt with the papers, I think I'm not even gonna get into Uni at this rate. I don't know. The 2nd worst part is, there's no one to blame. Because it's my fault and my incapabilities. I really don't know man. Just feel so argh inside after all those papers.


Yes, but it comes with hard work.
I think it's a little too late for me huh?

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I'm super obsessed with this song right now!



It's by Mariah Carey originally,
but I really liked this version as well by K.Will and Hyorin :D
Cuz Hyorin's voice is powerful too!

Going KPop
LOL!

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Haha just something random.


My desktop wallpaper currently. I really like this a lot! :D

Anyways, have been thinking about what I want to do in the future.
I seem to have an answer. But I'm still slightly hesitant. Realistically speaking :/
Mm..

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