Nights world
Bye world

&the pages keep turning.

I feel really sleepy now..

Today's a rather okay day :)
At least OP presentation for our group has ended for this week.
And today, at least I didn't screw up that much :D Just fluency problems, forming grammatically correct sentences etc. I held the cue hards with the blank side facing me because I wanted to try not relying on the cue cards and yet have something to hold on to in my left hand so that I wouldn't have to do left hand gestures. Hahaha. I'm feeling kinda happy now that I manage to pull through without looking at the script! :D

Practice makes perfect :) I have always believed in hard work.
I rehearsed a lot last night after coming back from Joshua's house and during the free period today. Since things turned out pretty okay, I'm quite motivated to continue working hard for OP! :D

Yesterday was 24th October! 24/10's birthday :D
Present: Abdullah, Cassandra, Dylan, Han Ren, Jasper, Jia Hong, Jerrie, Joshua, Le Jing, Lim Pin, Teck Yan, Rachael, Robert, Shameer, Wen Xiu, Zuhair and me
We went to Joshua's house to have fun. Hahaha band hero, badminton, card games etc. Fun :D It was raining yesterday so I'm glad that we didn't have much outdoor activites planned if not they'll all be ruined by the bad weather. But raining's good. At least it cleared the haze :)

Ever since Sunday, I've been feeling kinda emo because of a dream that I had on Saturday night D: Somehow a lot of feelings are gushing into me. It's overwhelming and too overpowering D: It makes me wonder how much I've actually let go.. Jiayou Vivi. On the way. Why such a dream?

a movie without sound

&the pages keep turning.

Sigh, I'm in a super super sad mood now.
I just screwed up my own part for OP today..
I guess it's because I haven't been rehearsing much recently.
But Mrs Toh said overall effectiveness of the group is good. Yay.

Then when I got home, I got reprimanded for borrowing uniform.
And I flared up. I shouldn't have.. I think it's just me, finding avenues to vent my upsetness? I need to work on this. Seems like I have many many many things to work on.

I'm just taking things for granted maybe.

Cheer up, Vivi.

It's been a long time since I last posted anything.

Last last week Sunday (10th October) was the performance. LOL. I screwed up one of the songs because the musicians and the audiences were not in sync and I ended up not knowing who's tempo to follow. But nonetheless, it was still quite a success :) Another one coming up on the 31st October! :D I must jiayou this time.

15th October, Friday, we had OP rehearsal with Mr Seng. Omg. Got owned pretty badly. I didn't get to present because we didn't have enough time. Sigh, short of one rehearsal and I'm pretty worried about my own part. And seen from today, I didn't do well and I need to rehearse much much much more.

Saturday, after violin lesson, I went to meet Jing Yi, Jocelyn, Livia and Hui Qi, who came much later. Hahaha secondary school friends outing :) Didn't do much, just went Pastamania to have lunch, and we sit around at Starbucks drinking some of their drinks then chit chat. Time passed really fast and it seems like we didn't do much. They went to meet Joyce and watch movie after that but I couldn't join them cuz I had to work that night. So, that's just too bad for me I guess. And Joce passed me the birthday present that they all bought for me.. The present was really really really nice! Loved the things they gave me! :D

Monday, it was 50% off Ala-Carte Monday at Ajisen. So I went with Cass, Jasper, Jerrie, Jingle, Martin to Ajisen. But I felt so bad for leaving them there cuz I had dinner with Primary school mates. It was supposed to be Tuesday.. But some last minute changes D:

Present: Alster, Candice, Danny, Genson, Jelene, Jing Qun, Lyvia, Wen Jie and me. We had dinner at Buddy Hoagies at EHub. The food was really good :D And old scandals never die. They were still disturbing about Jing Qun and me thing. But still, it was fun getting to meet primary up with school friends after about 3 months or so. The last time I met them was on my birthday. Hahahaha. And as usual, talked a lot of crap lo :D

Tuesday was girls' outing at Emm's house! Ahhh, Emm's house is as nice as ever. And very cosy! *Likes* All the girls in our class were present! :D We watched Karate Kid (AWESOME!) and ordered pizza in for dinner. I wonder if there can be more girl's outing man. It's pretty coool :) Like what Emm said, feels like we're back in girls' school again!

Wednesday was Seoul Garden with 24/10! Present: Abdullah, Cass, Dylan, Emmeline, Han Ren, Jaime, Jasper, Jerrie, Joshua, Martin, Teck Yan and me. HAHAHAHA. I just didn't feel very hungry that day and I didn't eat that much. I think my stomach shrunk liao :/ Lols don't know whether good thing or not luh.

Yesterday, we had rehearsal for the upcoming performance. Sigh, the song Michael and me are going to play on the violin isn't very nice.. But okay luh. And I have to solo for one part which is like ._. Omg. And for the umpteen time, but I still have to say this, I have a lot to work on. Techniques and emotions wise. Good luck to me.

That's about the thing that's been happening lately ba!

I've been kinda obsessed with Playful Kiss recently. Hyun Joong so shuai :D HAHAHA. His smile is omg, dazzling. It's such a good drama! :D :D :D

How sweet the sound.

&the pages keep turning.

The same thoughts came back again as I was reading some manga just awhile ago.
Give me a break.

Today's a not so good day.
I don't know why I'm always racing to catch my breath.
JKMN.

因为你就是无比的好

&the pages keep turning.

Lol it's really tough now..
Violin lesson I mean D:
Learning exam pieces and they're really difficult to play D: To me at least. And Ms Xiao played soooooo beautifully when she demo-ed for us. Hahahaha. Super awesome :D

I guess no more fun fun songs for the next few months until exams are over :/

MUST GET DISTINCTION AGAIN!! :D JIAYOU!

After that was Churchie rehearsals. D-Day is tomorrow.. And my tempo is slightly screwed up :/ Anyways, Michael made lots of improvement, tune, bowing etc. Hahaha hope it's because of my violin xD But hope it goes well tomorrow :) I had lunchie with Michael after that at some chicken rice stall. Lol, I had chicken rice for the past 2 days. LOL. And I seldom eat chicky rice. LOL, it's was nice anyways.

OH. I had a dream last night.
I seldom dream. But this dream was.. just unexpected.
Hahahaha I'll keep this little secret of what it's about to my soul :)

"Your aunt is okay with it?"

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Mm.. Recently I've had this bad feeling about certain stuff.
Sometimes I wish my sixth sense isn't very accurate.
I hope this time it isn't.. :/
Is it boredom? An excuse? Or I'm thinking too much?
Hope it's the last option.

Tomorrow tomorrow :)

&the pages keep turning.

I'm glad Promos are finally over.
I'm prepared for the worst anyways. Retain.
But still, let's all hope for the best.

I think this will be a long post.
Read at your own discreet(Not sure if I spelt it right:/)

For starters:

When I first watched this, I cried. And everytime I watch this, tears will surely well up in my eyes. It was just so touching. I'm not sure what it was that made me feel so emotional but it touched me so so so much. (Even SIMON said it was good!)

Main course:
Lol. Promos. GG-fied. Needless to explain any further.

Tea Break:
But it's over. Good.
So on Thursday, after Chemistry paper, Wen Xiu and me went to AMK. Lol she wanted me to try KOI, and yep, it's nice :) And we had Pepper Lunch which was awesome. Then we watched movie! Detective Dee! GOOOOOD :D Then after that just walked around a bit and went to the library to borrow books. LOL CHINESE BOOKS. And she recommended me this Japanese author. Yup, so I borrowed one book. Lol hope I'll finish reading it. Hahaha. One of the shop at AMK. Lol.

At night, I went Churchie to have practice with Michael at Eastern Basement. Hahaha I think we clique quite well! :) And Michael brought my violin home since mine have lines and stuff and he needed more help. Lol so.. I'll have to use Cheryl's violin for the next few days. I start to appreciate my violin more recently. Although Cheryl's violin looks so much nicer than mine, but I think I prefer the sound my violin makes. Hahaha. Anyway, the practice was good :) Lol, and I was like teaching him bowing stuff. LOL. I'm lousy myself and I still teach people.. Sometimes I feel so argh :/

Anyways, I want more Indo friends! I hope I'll be good friends with someone from Medan. Then next time when I go back Indonesia, I can go their house. HAHAHA.

Dinner:
Today, I went out with Jorene to shop at Paya Lebar there. Hahaha. Nothing much, just go out, walk walk, shopped and talked :D I also went to the salon just now. ARGH CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP. MY FRINGE LOOKS LIKE CRAP NOW D: I think the guy who cut my hair wasn't in a good mood or something. He *tchtchtch* cut finish liao. In less than 30seconds! D: D: D: AND MY PERFORMANCE IS ON SUNDAY T.T *cries*

And.. I've been getting headaches recently.
I remembered what the doctor said. LOL it was really funny. "It might be because of stress. After exams if you're still getting the headaches, you should come back to see me and maybe I would have to refer you to specialists." OMG LOL I was laughing inside when he told me that. But sigh D: JKMN.

I remembered what Ahyi said to me when I came back home after History/Math paper. I told her that I screwed the papers up, I might retain and I was like emo-ing that day D: Then Ahyi was like "What? You study day and night and still cannot do?" LOL. WTS. Total crap. Study no use? Maybe. Too dumb.

Then met Jelene and Candy when I reached home at 9plus from Church. And I was telling them how screwed up my results were and they at first don't believe. "You everytime say that but in the end still do well" Maybe it's like that in secondary school, but not anymore..

I remembered, to my friends I was kinda irritating. Lol. Because I'll always tell them "No luh, I haven't study yet" I seriously haven't study for the upcoming test. And they will always say "Don't lie lor" And when we got back the test I did pretty well. Lols. Of course I studied but just that when they asked me, I haven't.. But I miss those good results I had D: I'm just not working hard enough now D: I want my old self, my motivation and my determination D: Sigh..

That's about all I guess.

When we're different worlds apart,

&the pages keep turning.

I'm not really sure what's wrong with me either.

&the pages keep turning.

I guess I'll just end up disappointing everyone else. Again.
I need memory.

I'm not really a christian.
But this song really motivates me so much.
Thanks to Jorene who introduced this song to me!

What Faith can do - Kutless

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think its more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can!

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

Doko ikunda?

&the pages keep turning.