I've been out of work for almost 3 weeks. It's so chill and I. love. it. When will I have this chance to chill and have no plans for the day and just do whatever I want?

I feel like time is passing so quickly though. 3 more weeks and I'm starting at my new work place.

Last Monday I received a call to notify that I've been selected for the Case Manager position at a Home and Thursday I signed my contract. I'm really excited about my new job; next week I'll be going to office for 2 days for work observation before officially starting in mid June. The role of a case worker has always been something that I've been dreaming of and I'm thankful for this opportunity. Thankful that someone saw my strengths, took a leap of faith to hire me, even though I do not have case work background or social work degree. It's been a long struggle for me ever since I graduated with a Psychology degree 2+ years back. I did many internships during my undergraduate years, explored in areas which I thought I might be interested in, joined CCAs and tried some volunteering stints, in hopes of being able to get into the social work profession and/or social service sector. Alas, my juicy resume neither landed me on many interview opportunities nor job offers.

I became demoralised for a long time. And even after finally quitting my job at the pottery studio, I did not have much confidence that I would find a job soon. I was constantly worried about whether I'll be able to get a job and whether I'll have enough money to support myself for school which is starting this August. I mean I did think very hard about what I'd do after I quit and had back up plans. There are many jobs out there and I was prepared not to be picky and just go for any organisation who pays reasonably. But the thought of not having a job there and then still scared me even though I had some "back up plans". Money was a huge concern for me because I honestly don't have that much savings before this year because I spent a lot on travelling last year. And am I actually able to afford not having a job + not spending too much during my unemployed days such that I'll have enough money for school? I planned two trips in May - Penang (just over) and upcoming, Port Dickson. And in July, Khao Yai trip. I actually contemplated on forfeiting the air tickets and cancel the Khao Yai trip. All these were planned all the way back in Jan/Feb before I had thoughts of quitting for real.

Thanks to the call last Monday, all my worries vanished in an instant. I could enjoy my holidays; my new employee is accepting (and actually encouraged me) of my further studies; I need not worry too much about finances anymore.

I know that zw and my mum got my back if I really need help with anything, but they are last resort, really. I wanted to do this myself. I wanted to quit only if I can afford it myself. I wanted to study only if I can afford it myself. If I dared to make these choices, I must be able to bear the consequences myself. That's what I thought.

But anyway, all is well again. I am reminded of what Genson told me before "All things will be made good" - I am thankful, very thankful. I'm excited about my new job and excited about school as well.

I finally feel like I am actually making baby steps towards my career as a social worker.

&the pages keep turning.