None of my class people are online.

Lol.

Anyways, it's STAFF DAY today! :D Hahah performances were okay. But the teachers' performance was the best out of all I think :D Chamber performed too but I think I screwed up quite a lot of notes D:

After the celebrations, went out with Jorene. Haha. We had lunchie at the Jappie restaurant at Bedok Interchange. It's my 2nd time in less than a week! Haha (Y) We went Marina Square and Far East Plaza to shop around.

Lol. I spent money again. On 2 dresses and a pair of flats.
Omg. I cannot spend anymore! But I don't even think I'll have time to go shopping anymore. PDub and the period before Promos are very very crucial. I'm gonna have to spend my time more wisely!

Haha I seldom go shopping, but if I do, I always like to shop alone.
But Jorene's the only friend whom I'll shop with :)

But a girls day out is goooood (Y)
As I always say, I need more girly friends.

Sadgirl.com
Happyboy.com
Emogirl.com
Contentedboy.com

Lol. Infuenced by Jorene Tho.

I think a lot of things have changed quite a bit.

Last time, I wouldn't even remove my spectacles, let alone wear contact lenses. My eyes are so small T.T

Anyway, my wish came true.
Today is indeed a better day :)

As days go by..

&the pages keep turning.

Life sucks. As usual.
But anyways, I've got no life. Lol.

PDubbing yesterday was awesomely fun -.- All of us stayed up till 4am to complete WR. Nice. I woke up late today and hence, I was late for school. Nice. I had 3 hours of sleep last night, but I don't feel tired at all. Just a bit restless :/ Like I couldn't concentrate well during lessons or lectures.

I think.. It could be because of my mood swing.
Argh. I think I have mood swings. Every little thing pisses me off. I hate this feeling. I felt kinda stoney at school :/ Even during PDubby.

I'm afraid that our group will be in conflict.
I hate this. Just so afraid.. So so afraid..

Chamber practice was alright. Crap. Still can't play Carmen Suite really well. And tomorrow's the performance. GG. I'm gonna practice a bit later.

Hopefully tomorrow'll be a better day :)

Smile like you never did before.

&the pages keep turning.

Hello! Today's a slacky day for me.
Haven't started doing anything as of now.

Late morning, I left the house for Church. We had rehearsal for the performance that is coming up. And lol, I'm glad that it went all well. I didn't have to play Violin I/II part. I was supposed to play the Melody part which was easy. Thank God. Haha.

But the weird thing was, everyone else was playing keyboard. So I'm the only violinist there. So it's not really a mini orchestra or what. But it sounded like a mini orchestra because technology has made it possible -.- The keyboard can play many instruments right. So our church's pro pianists were there to rehearse also. LOL.

Haha I don't have to be so scared of playing the song with 5flats anymore. Because the melody part isn't difficult even with 5 flats ^.^ Cheers! :D

Rehearsal ended at 2pm for me, so I quickly cabbed down to Tampines Mall for violin lesson since my lesson's at 2.15pm. WTS. Traffic Jam. I got really frustrated luh D: In the end, I was 30minutes late for lesson. And I don't know if Dylan was early just for today, but I met him at Yamaha. Kinda surprised me.

Lol, the last time I saw him at Yamaha was in May.

I have to rush through homework again tomorrow. Sigh.
Life sucks. As usual.

Without you, I still have to breathe.

&the pages keep turning.

I'm just as afraid as you are.
That the same things might happen again.
And things fall apart and come to an end.

Woohoo! Finally the end of the week. I love weekends.
I asked Ah Ting to let me have a 1month plus break so that I can concentrate on promos soon. Haha and she's okay with it I guess. Afterall, I'm just a part-timer. I'm not that useful either, but I'm proud to say that I help to take orders pretty fast. Hahaha.

Lin Wei just learnt to take orders today. Haha she's pretty nervous and her command in English isn't too good either, so.. she had quite a bit of difficulties taking orders when customers get really fussy. It kinda reminded me of my first time. I remembered panicking like mad. Haha. So when we got busier, I was the one taking orders most of the time :D Fun. HAHA.

Anyways, today we had Staff Day rehearsal. Somewhat screwed up. Violin II's condensor was really loud. LOL. And I felt that I played a lot of wrong notes so all must have been heard T.T I need a lot more practice!! Tuesday is D-Day!

Lessons were okay. Today's also Mr Goh's last day with us. I think our class will miss him quite a bit cuz he teach pretty well just that people say he can be quite "naggy" at times. Hahaha. Detailed explanation perhaps. Lol :D

I'm not sure about going back to TK on Teacher's Day.
Kinda lazyy :/

When there is a will, but there is just no way..?

&the pages keep turning.

The independent woman wouldn't be afraid of loneliness.

I've got a lot more to learn.

&the pages keep turning.

It's early in the morning now!
Hahaha. Today's late Wednesday (Y)
Awesomezt. Eating breakfast ;D

Anyways, I slept at about 9pm last night. I feel so good now, sleeping for about 8hours last night since I only woke up at 5am this morning to get some work done. I had a cup of coffee -.- The 3-in-1 type. I thought it'll taste good. I had no choice because there was no more milo at home. And WTS. It's....... so bitter. I still don't like coffee. The number of times I drank coffee can be counted with my fingers D:

Lol, I think I kinda like Wednesday. Just that there's double GP periods -.- But after that, it'll be civics and contact time (Y) And Chamber after that. We're going to play Carmen Suite for Staff Day!! LOL. It means that I have to practice a lot more. The song is quite fast :/ Craps. I remembered Earl training me like mad last time till I could play. But it was quite long ago. I kinda lost the skills again :/

OH. I went for consultation with Mr Seng yesterday. LOL. I was so afraid that he'd own me and scold me for no content and stuffs like that. So I was reading through lecture notes before the consultation. LOL. But the consultation turns out to be pretty good. He loaned me a book and gave me some hints for the presentation on Thursday. Lol. But still, I'm pretty scared of him :S

Hope it'll be a good day today.
Argh. Have to study for Chemistry SPA later at night D:
Good luck all :/

Something new

&the pages keep turning.

Yesterday night was madness.
We were busy at Ajisen. I'm bored of my job.

Today is gonna be a busy day for me again.
Work later, then PDubby from evening-night.

ARGH. No homework done. I'm screwed.

I realised my Archives column is really long. Haha. Cuz I've been blogging since February 2006. I deleted the Feb ones, so the Archive starts from March 2006. Haha looking back, from my childish language to something less childish (Hopefully. Lol) It has changed drastically. From using Comic Sans (Now I hate Comic Sans) to just Tahoma. Haha. My bloggie has come a long long way! (Y)

Okay. Just something random. Got to go. Ciaos

Awesomezt.

&the pages keep turning.

HELLO.

Good strategy: Don't use the computer too often.

Lols. I've been quite busy the past few days D: This week is not really hectic, but there were a lot of assignments to complete, probably done only now because I didn't in the previous weeks. LOL. We got back our WR yesterday and our group really has a lot of work on D: It's gonna be busy for PDubby again.

Tuesday, we had Elective Programme. 2nd last session! And after that, walked to the MRT with Han Ren, JH, Joshua and Martin. LOL. I, being a glutton, decided to eat Japanese food. There's the new restaurant selling Jappie food at Bedok Interchange and I haven't tried. LOL. So the rest of us agreed to eat too, while JH went back first. Awesomez. Cheap food. Cheap for Jap at least. And it tastes not bad. Edible can already. Then as usual, talk talk talk.

Still coming to the same conclusion: I need more girly friends T.T

Wednesday for Chamber, we were pretty slack. Haha before I went for History remedial, I was practising Church songs. CRAP. First rehearsal is next week and yet, I'm not ready at all. GG. I can't play the song with 5flats!! Dflat major or something. Whatever key that is. Omg. It's totally crazy. Good luck to me.

Anyways, I've been really evil recently. (Lol, maybe not just recently, but always) Disturbing about Martin and Charmain thing. HAHA. I need to get a life seriously. LOL. I hope no more scandals about me are going to arise D:

Life sure sucks D:

Need a straw. Badly.

Yesterday was Cass's birthday! HAHAHA. Awesomez PDubby mate. Cass was so paiseh when Joshua and Zuhair went to "hijack" the mike in the Audi and LT to ask people to sing Cass a birthday song. It's so coool! HAHAHAHAHA :D

But the day started off horribly D: It was pouring. Jorene and me were sort of stranded at the bus stop. We decided to cab to school but it was difficult to get a taxi during rainy periods D: In the end, after about 25minutes, I managed to get a cab and I insisted that the driver go to the opposite bus stop to pick Jorene up. But he refused because he insisted that there was a traffic jam (which I was sure there wasn't) and he had some appointment, so he was also in a rush.

I felt really guilty for talking about the driver loudly when I was on the phone with Jorene. I was panicking like mad because Jorene was left at the bus stop and yet the driver didn't want to go to the opposite due to circumstances. I can't explain it in words D: I was just so pissed off after that taxi ride and I started cursing when I got down the taxi outside school D:

Jorene said that she would run across the road and I quickly tried to go back to the bus stop to look for her. LOL, when I was on the way there, Jorene was already opposite school. LOLS! But good that's she's out of the rain already. We were both drenched to the skin when we reached school. I actually had an umbrella, but no time to take out umbrella and stuff, I just wanted to rush to Jorene quickly D:

Then she very sweet lor :D Haha she called me during lunch to tell me to take care and thank me for not abandoning her. I teared when she said that over the phone! I was so touched! T.T

Work on Thursday was horrible. We were not busy at all but I felt like crap because of some girls stuff. Yesterday wasn't too good also D: That should have accounted for my no appetite which was unusual of me. Everything's more or less okay now anyways!

I didn't go for Chemistry mass remedial because I decided to go to Ajisen to do homework. I didn't do much, because I took so long to think through one question D: And I fell asleep while doing Physics D: I was really tired. I think I will want to request Ah Ting to give me a one week break from work soon D: I'm really tired..

And recently, I've started to think too much again.
But still, you'll always be my stepping stone.
You are someone that I must overcome to become a more confident person and not rely on others' compassion to survive. That's life? Perhaps.

Going over you

&the pages keep turning.

Some boring life I have D:

School, Chamber, Work, and occassionally Church.

WOW.

How exciting.

Sunday, I was working earlier shift. Ah Ting let me off at 3pm cuz there were not many customers. We were not busy at all..

Anyways, I found a new Japanese fan! HAHAHA. On Saturday night, when Yu Qing, Ke Han and me were walking to interchange after work, Yu Qing said she was a big fan of Yamapi! HAHAHAHA. YAY. Got new friend who likes Jap stuffie! :D

I went home, completed only a bit of homework cuz I was watching YOG - Swimming and Ai. LOLS. The swimming events were awesomez! Dai Jun look so smart and coool!! :D

Today, Physics A Level SPA! Omg. I thought the whole experiment was weird :/ Craps. Then for PE, we did softball. Hahaha nostalgic. I remember back in TKGS, I was in softball for a day but quit after that. LOL. And the coach said "You don't know how to run is it?" HAHAHA. Cuz I didn't go forward to catch the ball. Lols. But it was fun anyways ^.^

Andandand. I keep wanting to eat nowadays. Argh, I've spent a lot of money on fooooood. And I'm definitely growing in width. Craps.

.. I think I'm crazy.

I'm listening to Christmas songs now. At this time of the year. Maybe I haven't been to the church for such a song time. Haha. But I've been doing this for a few days already. LOL. And the songs are really nice! :D

Not looking back anymore

&the pages keep turning.

Monday was NATIONAL DAY! :D Love Singapore :D

Haha met Livia at Bedok Station platform at 1plus and we headed for Clarke Quey. LOL we walked around Central and ate at Watami. LOL, before that I already ate lunch. But when I reached the restaurant, I ordered food and I end up spending $19+ -.- LOL. Growing fat. But anyways, Livia still spent more than me. $28+. HAHAHAHA. And she was too bloated and couldn't walk properly after that (Y) We were there while waiting for Xin Fang also.

Then we went to Jing Yi's house after that!
LOL play cards(Bridge luh :D), WATCHED NATIONAL DAY PARADE while having dinner and went downstairs to her club house play pool. HAHA we're all so patriotic :D Corrine May is so pretty! ^.^ And "Song for Singapore" rocks :D


Tuesday, chamber outing! LOL supposed to be JTS. But our seniors - Only Earl and Yi Zhe, came that day -.- LOL. More like Junior Treat Self.. We went Sentosa in the afternoon. Hahaha. Played volleyball, some concentration games and went cycling. Hahaha. Felicia couldn't cycle, so she ran! HAHA so coooool! :D She's very fast!

But anyways, the outing was fun! ^.^ Then we met Earl and Yi Zhe before going for dinner at The Asian Kitchen. Chinese Food! The food was pretty good :D LOL. Juniors present that day was : Felicia, Jerald, Ming Xuan, Vanessa, Wu Ji and me. Haha. We had to pay 25 per person for the JTS. Haha Earl and Yi Zhe represented the other seniors xD The rest.. Probably studying or have some other things on lor D:

Wednesday, nothing much?

Thursday. Omg. Chemistry Mock SPA. LOL. Kinda screwed it up a bit :/

Friday. LOL. History test was bad. I'm definitely failing it. I couldn't even complete the essay. Physics test.. More of less okay? Hope to pass D: We had class Chemistry remedial. Felt quite guilty for not doing the worksheet D: Then after that was mass remedial. Okay okay luh. Hahaha. And left school with Han Ren, Jingle and Joshua after that. Awesomez. On the way to the Mrt, we saw some kawaii couple. Haha (Y)

OHHHH. And I saw 26/10 girls outside school with ZOEEEE POH. HAHA. As buff as ever (Y) He/She was being damn gay. Omg. HAHAHA. She gave me a hug and it was so buffy. HAHAHA. It's been a super long time since I last saw her!! So it was pretty cool and all :D

You would have never looked back

&the pages keep turning.

Lol. I can't believe I'm emo-ing on National Day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! (Lol, and Jerrie toooo!)
MELOVESINGAPORE :D

I typed the first "Haha" in many many hours on msn.
I felt so like crap yesterday. But I'm glad I'm feeling all good all over again :D Probably because of the photos that I saw this morning! Make me laugh!! HAHAHA.

LOL. Am I like having some kind of mood swing?
Feeling sad for one moment, and happy for another?

A girls' night out tonight!
I need more girly friends definitely.

Hahaha.

Keeping hopes alive

&the pages keep turning.

Hello. I'm back from a class outing.

Haha to celebrate Jerrie's advanced birthday!
Cool to have birthday same as Singapore :D We had Ben&Jerriey's at about 6plus and went to 313 for dinner after that. We wanted to watch movie, but.. timings were bad and tickets were sold out for Inception, unfortunately.

I was working from 11.30 to 3.30pm today. We weren't too busy today! Cass, JH and TA came to eat at Ajisen. Hahaha. We had PW meeting before that and Ab went home first.. Haha 3 of them shared a bowl of Aso Ramen and 5pieces dumplings. Haha. Spent 11plus for 3 people! LOLOL! :D

I had Cold Tofu and dumplings for my staffie meal and ordered Crab Tsukemen. LOL my 2hours pay T.T HAHA. It tasted alright. Just alright. After that, rushed to meet class people at Somerset. Lol, well, turns out that everyone was late (Just how late) Haha sometimes I hate waiting for people, then it reminds me of holidays. Lol, I was always late for PDubby meeting. Guilty. But at least now I'm not. In fact I'm always early.

OH. And first time that TA is not late for PDubby meeting! Lol! Miracle? Hahaha.

Anyways, I'm not working tomorrow. Lol my double pay is gone. $_$

:/

I realise I fall into traps very easily?
It happened once, and I fell for it the 2nd time.

I wish I didn't know you.
I couldn't stand watching you from afar anymore.

Off.

What's true and what's not?

&the pages keep turning.

Whoa, I slept at 8pm the previous night. Really too tired! D:
I've had about 10hours of sleep but it's never enough!

I was really tired yesterday because we ran 2.4km for PE. YAY. Goldie for Napfa! :D It's the best timing I ever had in my whole life -.- Lols. It was possible only because of my determination since I don't train D: Maybe I should train, then I think I would have ran much faster perhaps? Oh well, I shan't be greedy. I'm contented already. For a non sports person like me, I think my timing is good enough.. :D I'm happy.

Today, NDC! Haha Chamber performed! :D
Lol, but I think we were too soft on stage :/
I think the NDC was quite simple but enjoyable I guess. I like singing National Day song. I love Singaporeeee! :D After that, just watched some of the guys and Jerrie and Cass play soccer while sitting at the Sports Complex there. Then chit chat and disturbed Martin and Jasper. Hahaha. I felt quite evil today. Revenge? Lols.

We headed for TM at about 1pm to have lunchie there. Supposed to dine at Seoul Garden. BUT. Waiting time was too long. So we just went to Pastamania instead. After that, went to walk around at Century Square lo. I had work, so I couldn't join them for movie.

Today's a crappy day. We were very busy at Ajisen D: And my whole body's aching after the 2.4km run the previous day and at Ajisen, have to keep walking around D: Hahaha then I heard some good stuff today :) Felt kinda happy that I improved and grown :D

Suddenly, I realised how much things have changed. From your feelings, to my feelings, to everything and everyone around me. Anyways, I've got much more to learn. I still wanna say one thing to myself, motivate myself: Not to let unhappiness bring me down, not to let emotions waver me, not to let uncaringness affect me cuz ultimately, I just want to be an independent woman, confident and good, not letting myself be a burden to others. I know I can do it.

Needing assurance. Tell me something.

&the pages keep turning.

Lol, sleepy weepy day. Yay, no History test today.
Anyways, I think I didn't write my GP essay too well D: Not well linked to the question I thought D: I'm just glad it's over anyways. Lol. Chamber practice was pretty fun. Lol just that I couldn't really play Sinfonietta. Quite hard for me D: And we had rehearsal in the hall for NDC at about 6pm. Craps, I screwed up William Tell Overture D:

Anyways, I just listened to the pieces I'm going to play for Churchie. Omg. "Come, Thou Fount of Every Blessing" is a very very very nice song. And I'm playing in a churchie orchestra. Woohoo! awesome :D I hope I'll play well D: Rhythm is easy but notes are not D: Sighs. Wish me luck. Yay, tomorrow's following Friday's timetable! But that goes to say that there's 2.4km run tomorrow. Sigh sigh. Wish me luck again! I really need a lot of luck D:

Where I belong.

&the pages keep turning.

I'm stupid in some ways.
I realise I often make decisions that'll make me feel some kind of regret in the near future. When can I grow to be a little wiser?

Today's an okay day. A lot of free periods for me, but I don't think I spent the time wisely. I didn't do much D: As usual, feel very sleepy. For Physics, we were into a new chapter. The lecturer's voice is really low -.- Too low frequency and it's hard to catch what he's saying sometimes. Plus, he talks really fast. Lols.

We had Elective Programme today. Lol, the teacher likes to use Avril and me as examples. Like pregnancy luh, blahblah. LOL. But today's session was a bit dry :/

After that, just waited for Han Ren's PDubby group to be done and we walked to Interchange together. I guess it might feel a little better for me after pouring some things out. But I think I've become more biased now in many ways and I don't like it.

My motto is always, "Do things for yourself, not others."

I must aim to be the full fledge independent woman.
But anyways, some questions/comments made me feel a bit disturbed uh -.-

I just feel a bit weird today D:
Hope tomorrow will be a better day luh :/

I'm annoyed with various stuff now. Probably with myself most D:

Keeping a distance

&the pages keep turning.

I thought it was a pretty good day for me at school today :)
Started off well, ended off well :D

We had no PE today since we finished our 5 stations the previous week and so free period. LOL. Before that was Chinese free period. And lol, we had a great talk with Emm! Very seldom talk to her about these kind of stuffs. So it's all cool :D

Then, during PE, a couple of us went to Sports Complex to run. Haha obviously I won't really run but I ran one round in the end. To make me run is like a wow thing because I don't like running or any sort of sports -.- Oh, maybe I do like some kind of sports. Not running at least.

After that was Chamber practice. Haha I wouldn't even call that a practice. There were only 5 of us, and we were like slacking there. Play the piano and walk around blahblah. Lols, until we decided to play Pirates of Caribbean. And no no, it's not the usual one that we played. We played the score that Yi Yang arranged for our Chamber. Damn awesome! I hope we can play that for National Day! The usual one is pretty boring :/

Haha love Chamber :D

But I played the piece until my finger hurt D: I just cut my nails. Somehow when my nails are short, when I play the violin, it'll hurt D: But it'll heal soon anyways ^.^

Vanessa and me then headed for Esplanade after practice to watch MEP concert. Whoa, it was great! Especially the Saxophone-Piano and Sheng-Dizi performance. I don't like saxophone, but today, when I heard it, omg, mesmerized meeee! GOOOOD! :D Going with Vanessa sure was fun. Haha we just talked about random stuffs from music to relationship stuffs. HAHAHA. She and...... E.... LOL! :D I don't think she'll see this anyways xD Awesome junior and section leader. LOL! I'm looking forward to Wednesday practice anyways! ^.^

the guitar, the violin and..

&the pages keep turning.

Your Call - Secondhand Serenade
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
[X4]
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

PDubby in the morning. Lol. Didn't do much. Except for TA and Ab.
Then JH said, "I suddenly feel very slack"
Lol. He has always been quite slackish for PW.

Churchie in the afternoon. Whoa, it's been a long long long long time since I last went to Church. Busy with PDubby and work D: And next week I won't be able to attend Youth again cuz of work D: Sighs. Not that I understand fully what they're talking about, but I feel kinda guilty for missing it.

I'm going to play violin for Churchie again :D Yay! And I think my techniques have improved tremendously since the last time I played for Church. Thanks to Chamber I guess! ^.^

I'm looking forward to National Day! :D
SLEEEEP-OVERRRR :D

I'm so sleepy. But still got a lot of stuffs to complete. Gan Batte!

&the pages keep turning.