I don't know whether to feel happy or sad that this week has passed.
Happy that IT IS over. This whole week has been really hectic for me.
Sad that As are getting closer day by day.

I will seriously sleep early tonight.
Haven't been sleeping early at all this week. I'm dying already. Had been sleeping beyond 12, to about 1am every night because I keep procrastinating and work just gets piled up. 12 plus is counted as super late for me.. Lolol. Just kill me man.

I have to try my best this coming week!
It's the LAST week! ): Gan batte!

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Lol I was watching WGM during my "break" time just now.
Leeteuk and Kang Sora's episodes.
OMG. Leeteuk's gaze is really strong. When he looks at her, it's as if he loves her like crazy, even though that was their first few meetings only. Omg. It's that kind of gaze that seems to look deep into you and know your inside. Omgggg. Super cool la! First time I see this kind of guy! :D

And the 3 episodes were super.. *~* *crunch fingers*
LOL! I just couldn't stop smiling (to myself) Hahahaha.

Today, I stared into blank space quite a lot. While listening to nice songs, I just want to stop whatever I'm doing and enjoy the music!! I'm currently in love with "Don't say goodbye - Davichi" The vocals are really powerful. Awesome ttm.



Okayyyyy, NEED TO GO GP T.T
Annyeong~!

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Lol, I just woke up from a nap.
I still said I wanted to do Math.
I'm not determined enough. My determination got overcome by my tiredness (Do I even have one in the first place? Lol. Good question.) Anyways, recently I slept at 12 plus, ONLY 12PLUS EH.. AND IN THE AFTERNOON I FEEL SUPER TIRED ALREADY!! At this time, the majority of students sleep beyond 12. But for me, I still cannot get used to it if I don't sleep at 10 -_- If my results are like Rachael's, then it's okay for me to sleep as early as her la. LOL.

Then today, went back to school for Physics. My brain almost died -_-

I told Charmain about what my uncle told me on Saturday and she said something real inspiring :) "The more we should try our best! And accept whatever results we get!" So true, even if it isn't good, at least one has tried his/her best and surely God has plans for him/her in the future.

Lol I think I'm turning Christian soon.
After being inspired by what my church friends and the pastor say.

I went for church yesterday and I think as long as I tried hard to understand what the pastor is saying, I realise, I can! Even though my Bahasa Indonesia sucks. Just as long as I try. I can do it! Because at other occasions, I'll stone or read the English bible without even attempting to understand what the pastor is saying and that's why I keep complaining about being unable to understand what he's saying because in the first place, I didn't even try.

If one tries, it cannot be the end. But if one chooses to give up, it is then the end.
Mitzi said this to us:
He who brings us to it,
will bring us through it.

I guess she was referring to problems and obstacles in life!
But it was really nice :)

Anyways, I need to be more confident with myself.
The power of believing can truly make wonders.


I CAN DO IT.

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Early afternoon, Dagu and family had house warming! :) So I was at their place in the afternoon. Then my uncle said something which makes me feel like giving up -_- Oh no. He asked me about my studies and I just shook my head. He said, "Don't need to pressure yourself, what for? You don't have to get all the good results, it's all destined what you do in life." LOL it makes me wanna give up. And I totally believe in what he says, because I have always believed in fate. 100%. Lol see what I can the next 2 weeks!

I believe that whatever I do, even typing this, is destined.
I know it sounds nonsensical, but I believe.

Anyways, today's the first time I made my dad a birthday card :)
Hahaha, I know right, I'm such a 不孝的女儿.

But it was a card that I wrote with all my heart.
While writing it, I couldn't help it but the tears just couldn't stop flowing.
I felt as if I was writing my whole life of "complaints" in a hopeful way. Hoping for better family ties etc. Even now as I write this post, tears just well up in my eyes. Just feel so sad.

But I know I'm the one who's not putting in enough effort to at least try to communicate with my parents. They're my family, I know I know. But I just don't know how.

I think I'm already fortunate, to be born into a proper family, without any money issues to worry about. But if I were to reborn, I think I wouldn't want to be in the same family again. I'd want to be in a family with more love. And I want myself to be more daring and have the initiative to communicate.

I guess, it has already been a long time since I'm in Singapore. And I know my parents aren't those type who show their affection for their children etc. Haha. Oh well.

I can live with what I have at least :D
Afterall, all these are not that important. Since I'm a big girl already. Lol!

My eyes still hurt man.


Hope never disappoints.

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I just got interested in Death Cab For Cutie cuz I just remembered my favourite song which was performed on Monday during Farewell Concert. Haha.

Album theme
In explaining the theme of the album, Ben Gibbard said the following:

I don't think there's necessarily a story, but there's definitely a theme here. One of my favorite kind of dark jokes is, 'How do you make God laugh? You make a plan.' Nobody ever makes a plan that they're gonna go out and get hit by a car. A plan almost always has a happy ending. Essentially, every plan is a tiny prayer to Father Time. I really like the idea of a plan not being seen as having definite outcomes, but more like little wishes.

—Ben Gibbard

And so they named their album "Plans". Hahaha
Lemme just enjoy some music :)

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I neeeeeed to surpress this devil in me. URGENTLY.
Why am I here again! Lolol.

Anyways, I think I seriously rather read GP than do Physics -_-

Kay, I should bathe and then do work manz.

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i want love!
but there's no love!
i want to cry!
but there's no tears in my eye!
i want to die!
but i just keep living. day after day
it's sickening.

I was just a little surpised when I saw this.
What was I feeling then when I wrote this?
It was a 2007 post. Haha. Emo emo.

A meaningless day again.
Why did I make my day like that?

We don't need to rush this,
let's just take it slow. Goodnight.

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I'm still contemplating on about whether to go for History Mock Paper on Friday ):
I have yet to start revising for History. I really don't know how much I can do tonight and tomorrow.. And I'd rather do every other subject than study for History!! :/

I SERIOUSLY NEED MORE PASSION FOR HISTORY. LOL ._.


THOSE WHO HAVE, GIVE SOME TO ME PLEASE!

Today, I didn't feel like doing much because the whole of Aquarius had electricity supply cut off. There were some checks going on. The house was a bit warm cuz there was only a slight breeze outside and we can't use any fans. Then it rained, it solved the warmness, but the house became too dark to do work. Oh well, just my excuses :/

Yesterday, we had GP lesson. We got back our Paper 1. Haha I'm glad that I improved for the short questions part! (Or maybe it's because I marked myself liniently?) Slight improvement. Slight. There's still some hope. Hopefully. Lol.

I've decided to read more for GP for the next 3 weeks.
"Decided" seems like an ambigous word for me. I hope I will really DO it.
Please multiply my time.

Anyways, what a wasted day. As usual.
History. History. History.

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I just pinned up the goal sheet that we all wrote during one of our Civics on my board.
Seems like it's not working.

At church yesterday, it's so seldom that I'm that enthu about singing hymms and listening to the sermon. Lol, but I thought it was a meaningful session! We were talking about gifts aka talents.

God gave everyone gifts - talents.
But if you don't harness them, it'll just make you useless.
#Sotrue.

Then it makes me think:
What are my talents? What can I do well in?
I don't know..

Oh whatever.

I love country songs :D

New blog song again! :)

Today we had our farewell concert. LOL the guitar performance totally melted my heart!! xD When guys can play the guitar/piano is really niiccccccccceeeee. Lemme find someone like that next time, then he can sing for me everyday :P

They announced the NAPFA results as well as I'm really happy that I got a badge for getting full marks! :D I've always wanted this. Always. Really glad that I made it in my last year of doing NAPFA :)

Thank you for pushing through the hard times and overcoming your inner devil.

Now, I wish I'd put that perseverance and determination in my studies.

Then again, two years fly past so quickly. It feels kinda sad that we're already graduating.
The weird thing was, I didn't cry today. I remembered back in Primary and Secondary school, I cried so much cuz the farewell ceremony was really touching and sad. But.. today, I don't feel that emotional lehh. I really like TJ a lot, but, just didn't have the feeling of wanting to cry.


Haha. We'll all surely meet often and keep in contact anyways :)

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Gosh, today I just heard a few nice songs!
One of them is My Dearest by Supercell. So far there's only the TV Size version. Have to wait till 30th November for their Single to be out!! Aww mannn. I wish it can be out nao.

I watched some touching videos on youtube too and just can't stop crying!
Just like the ones Mr Ang showed us during Math-Civics lesson yesterday named Running. Lol, the song they used (You Raise Me Up) makes it even sadder! Then Wenxiu and me were crying like mad and Rachael couldn't resist in the end. LOL. End up half of the girls were tearing. Plus Emm and Jaime. LOLOLOLOLOL. Sucha tear jerker video!! ):

Ms Wong also gave each of us a pen (Except for Abi, for got 2 for being an awesome Chem rep) LOL! I think I would have to agree with Ms Wong cuz I think he really doesn't complain about whatever jobs he gets.. All those troublesome stuffs :x
Then yesterday was officially the last day of school. Sort of.
But next week and the following week, we still have to come back for some extra lessons ): Sometimes.. What's the point of having study break when we still have to come back?

Okay, I know I shouldn't complain, because the teachers are not.
Let's be appreciative of their efforts and do our best in this last leg.

Gan batte~!

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Woohoo finally GP mock paper is over! :D

Anyways, I think today overall was kinda a good day.
The first 2 periods started off with free periods. Then Wen Xiu, Jia Sheng and me were just talking and talking (instead of seriously reading GP) at the Arts Hub. Hahahaha. What are we doing man. Then Jamie came over during her break and we were talking about our strengths and weaknesses.

Jamie said I just somehow attract people to me.
Lol! Really happy when I heard it cuz I didn't know that about me! :D I don't know if I attract good or bad (ahem ahem) people, but I think it's cool to have a friend say that about me :D *Touched*

It's the 2nd last day of school already.. So fast ne. ):

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The hectic week is over :D I think. Lol
Ahyi came back and my performance was over.
Ahyi coming back is not a good thing for me though, but good for my sister. Sigh. Whenever I see her, it just makes me wanna leave this house even more -_-

Anyways, it's already the official last week of school for us. Really fast huh.
And I think it's really nice of teachers to give us encouragement and little notes to try to motivate us :) Mr Ang gave us a note and stickies!! LOVESTICKIESTTMMMMM! :D Hahahaha. And the note to everyone of us was sweet also! :D

Then on Saturday and Sunday, I had rehearsals and more rehearsals and Sunday, D-DAY, went badly for me. I screwed up a lot of my playing ): I was uber nervous man.. Then after the performance, I had headache, I guess I was just too depressed.. Anyways, it's over.. Just hope I'll improve my violin skills ): And I hope there will be people who would volunteer themselves to play for congregation next time.

Hope this week will be a good one.
Even though there'll be mock papers and stuff, but hope that everyone will treasure the almost-last-time together :D

Ciao~

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Today started off well.
For don't know what reasons, I was in a good mood in the morning :D
Probably cuz I slept well last night even though I only went to bed at 12?
Whatever :D

We got back our GP results today and I'm really happy for improving!
First time ever, me getting over 50. Super duper happy!
At least those consultations Rachael and me have gone to have not been futile :)
Or.. Ms Nor's efforts have not been futile! Hahaha.

During Physics, something interesting happened and it was really sweet of Mrs Toh to give each of us a motivational bookmark. There was a small note she wrote on the bookmarks and she shook everyone's hand. Haha she really never fails to amuse us all! :)

But I still hate Physics. Sorry. Lol.

There's many many mock papers coming up..
Sigh, I think my results will still be the same as ever ):
SAD.

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I want the weekends again.
Why is Friday so far from Monday and Monday is so near from Friday? ):

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