I don't need my client to show his thanks or express gratitude towards me. But to put the blame on me for his sufferings, for things that he didn't know about, to tell me how unhappy he was and yet he didn't want to tell me about it because he views me as a 'dead corpse', to tell me that we have no chemistry at all..... what just happened in the last 1+ year we've worked together? I know that he is a ticking time bomb waiting to explode anytime. But to see it exploding a little today just made me sad and disappointed... 

All the effort that I put in for him, to help him adjust better to the home environment, the amount of time I spent planning for sessions, spent thinking about his case, spent having sessions with him, setting up things which I don't even do for other residents to uplift him as best as I can, addressing his concerns as best as I can, offering explanations along the way and being as honest as I can with him... where did all of those go in that moment of anger?

As I spoke with sup on this verbal abuse incident, I noticed myself making occasional bitter laughs. I guess that was my way of coping with my intense emotions, masking the sadness with laughter. 

I was already on verge of tears a number of times previously when working on his case but today... this was it. Now I'm just wondering how do I pick myself up after today? It's been so emotionally draining working with him. 

Is it the problem with me? It probably is. That I don't know how to handle/manage him better.