THIS IS PISSIFYING!!

i can't stand it anymore.
i can't take it anymore.
i can't make it anymore.

my hopes are dashed.
i'm demoralised.
i feel demoralised.
i am depressed.
i feel pain in my heart.
like a knife piercing through.
she destroyed it all..

I CAN'T STAND THIS!! I WANNA CRY!!
yeahh cry my heart out.

i've had enoughh. i've worked soo hard for it..
how could she do this?!! i wanna cry. seriously.
tears gonna drip from my eyes. i'm tolerating.
but it seems like i can't do it.. i have no power.
i have no strength to do so.. no moood. no nothing.
i feel like giving up. that's all i can think of. GIVE UP
there is no wayy. i don't know what to do. i'm helpless
clueless. pathetic. strengthless. weak. useless..
i don't know.. i really don't. wakaranai

i just want to cry.. that's all i know.. cry. i can't take it
anymore. i wanna faint and land in the hospital and
sleep for 3years. or maybe more. just like haruka..
i don't want my life to be like that. i have no strength to
continue this..

i'm heartbrokened~

no asking.. no consoling.. no comforting. nothing. just leave
this thinggy alone. just nothing alrights. it's tiring and..

I'M TIRED

&the pages keep turning.

well.. you know it's been a long time since i blogged and updated my blog. lols. chaoji busy and lazy. yepps that's all i can say.. many things happened. obviously. it's impossible in one month, for nothing to happen. but i won't say what happen thoughh. long storiiies. ahahahhs xD i'm gonna post a short wann today. coz i'm lazy. mwahhhs =D

i love ryuuki! byakuya also larhhs but then now i like ryuuki more. he's so childish at times and when he acts jealous, it's kawaii nahh! his character makes him look cute. really really cute ^^ just love him. saiunkoku monogatari is such a nice anime. judy's still taking her time to watch it coz her mum.. yeahh her mum sits besides her when she uses the computer. so she can't watch anime when she's around? yeahh i suppose so.. i'm waiting for the 2nd season to come out. it's gonna be aired in april. but that wann most probably not subbed yet. i hope when it's out. someone will quickly sub it! hmms by the time. maybe it's already in july or august or even later. i wonder. i really do.. but i'm still looking forward to it. i also wonder what the ending will be. i want shuurei to like ryuuki. they will be together, won't they? but.. i have a feeling that shuurei would be with seiran. i don't know.

let's talk about something else.. let's see.. crunchyroll!! lol. i'm sick of cr somehow. jiayi knows why.. i just have toooooooooo many messages and guestbook entries to reply. i get about 125 a day.. about there.. and i'm tired of replying them actually. but it's these messages that helped miie gain the points. 2points for every entries and messages sent. that's how i get my 5000++ points. but still.. it's not a fun thing to get many points. ohh wells. maybe you'll feel happy but you really need to sacrifice time and effort if you wanna get that much points. i don't know whether it's worth it. i guess not. you can't do much even if you have so many points.. so what's the point? waste a lot of time on those messages. it drives miie crazy. seriously. i feel like dying.. i wanna cry liaos larhhs T.T neverminds.. i'm going very slow. actually jiayi, judy and i were competing with the points thinggy. but in the end.. all of us got bored of it and we kinda stopped competing.. this points thinggy. doesn't really make sense. so fine. whatever~
my url: http://crunchyroll.com/user/apple237
don't need to go there. nothing much to see anywayys..

hmmms.. what else.. ohh yeahh it's the holidays. gonna end soon. tomorrow is sunday and after that will be sku day. aww so sad. i've been spending this march holidays.. umm you can say wasteful. coz all i did was watch anime and stuff like that. waste time rights. anmd i only started doing homework on yesterday, friday. it's bad. but i'm gonna finish 90% of my homework today. that i can be quite sure. i guess.. xD just need to "build up" my self-discipline huh (: i don't look forward to sku. i wonder who looks forward to it. wahhahhahs :D

ohyar. 30th march going to malaysia. that's a friday. and i'll only reach singapore on monday, 2nd april. i'm soo dead. i have maths test on monday. i hope i can take the test earlier or something. i don't wanna get zero. it affects my whole grade larhhs. i go talk to mdm surayah someday. and ask her about it.. i don't know. i really don't

i just made a new friend. tracy. from 1e1 (: ahhahahahhs xD what a nice girl she is.. okayys that was sooo random. and shirley too. i seriously have no idea who she is. but since she tagged my blog so yeahh make friends. i linked her. but all i know is that. she watches bleach =D yeahh bleach rawkks. somehow. saiunkoku monogatari rawks more! lols. not really. both are equal. bleach=saiunkoku monogatari. both is as good :]

okayys i posted today.. happy now? so many people have been asking miie to update my blog. so now i finally did rights.. and HILDY THNG PLEASE TELL MIIE YOUR USER AND PW then i can help you change the blogskins. I HOPE YOU READ THIS. thank kyu very much. honto ni arigato (:

&the pages keep turning.