Ohman, blogger's having problems again D:
I have many pictures that I wanna upload! T.T

Today, we went back to EV. Thanks to H1N1 that we actually got to see some of the teachers :D We met Mr Wang(whom we talked most to), Ms Yong, Ms Ernie and Mrs Berger (I hope I spelt her name correctly) And meeting Primary School friends is really AWESOME! I miss Primary School to the max. The people from Primary School and Secondary School are really different. I kinda like Primary School people more D:

Anyways, just now, Lyvia - my "so-called BFF" (although we hate it when people called us BFF. lol) got go also! Haha super long never see her :D We lunched at Macs (I ATE SHAKER FRIES!!) before going EV to visit the teachers. Mr Wang couldn't recognise Wen Jie and Jing Qun. And then he went to test Ms Ernie and Ms Ernie could actually call Jing Qun's name (he must be too notorious last time, that teachers remember. Haha) but she couldn't recognise Wen Jie. OMG! HAHA

Back to TKGS. We had Teachers' Day Celebration. The performances were okay luh. We should try to enjoy it because it's our first and probably gonna be the last concert for this year D: Sigh! Before that, we had ACES Day workout. Lol, but our whole class pon-ed it and stayed in class instead, supposedly to give the teachers a "Surprise". But the morning was kinda screwed up. I didn't bring this didn't bring that. The twin-ing thing with Jorene didn't work out right either (we're imagining different things) Anyways, we also went around giving presents to the teachers. Like Mrs Santa Clause just that it's Teachers' Day and not Christmas. Haha :D

Hope that the teachers liked the present!
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! :D

I'm so writting a diary entry today. I'm bottling up too many things. And I need to pour them all out to you. I can't hate life anymore.

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HELLO :D
On Friday uh, I was studying downstairs with Jorene, Jelene and Jing Qun. Sigh. I only managed to do one Chapter of notes. But anyways I'm finally done with my Human Geog notes :D I took the whole of yesterday to complete it! Yay (:

Yesterday's lesson was alright :D I love classes!
I finally realised that it's quite hard to juggle between studies and music :/ There are people who quitted. 3 so far. One was due to Olevel and the others, I'm not too sure.

I haven't been practising a lot and I feel that I'm getting worse. Mm, and I'm not musical at all :/ Lol, and next week, we're gonna have a mini test. We have to perform 3 songs and one is a duet. I'm dueting with Komala and I think the song sounded quite nice when we practised yesterday :D

have you ever put yourself in others' shoes?

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Woohoo!
There's no school for me today! Cuz I'm not taking any papers.
In the morning, Jorene came over to do TD stuff and then afternoon, we went to Macs to study with Cheryl. I think it's kinda productive :D I manage to complete One and Three Quarters of EMath papers. I have to continue with Geography notes later!!

After that, Cheryl&Me went for English Tuition.
Lololol. Today's lesson, we learnt descriptive stuff. My vocab is really limited :/

I feel I should and must do well for English.
Cuz my parents are paying so much for this tuition.
I can't afford to waste their money away. but my English is really bad D:

SIGH

ignorant, oblivious, anything bad

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Finally, English Oral is over :D
Today, I'm kinda happy. First, I got back my EMath test and I got a result that was totally unexpected :D And also, English Oral is over :D The examiners looked and sounded quite friendly too. But I'm not too sure if I'll do well, cuz some of the things I said were like............... :/ I'll just hope for the best and prepare for the worst. It's about culture and gifts. Yup.

Today's lessons were okay. But I feel drained out.
I'm mentally tired. But I feel that I'm not doing enough, so I don't think I have the right to actually say I'm tired because there are many others who may be more hardworking and tired compared to me.. Sigh.

After Oral, Jorene&Me went PP to get some TD stuff and headed to Bedok Interchange to get some more stuff. And then we went to Sheng Shiong cuz I needed to get something and Jorene saw packets of Hello Panda.

Jorene: It shouldn't be called Hello Panda
Me: Huh?
Jorene: They should call it Bye Panda

Hahahaha, cuz Jorene is trying to save money luh, so she couldn't buy it xD

Anyways, It's been awhile since I last posted.
Kinda busy these days. I'm always downstairs with Jelene, Candice and Genson, studying together. Lol it's like we meet almost everyday. Lol! But it's kinda fun doing work with them :D

Mm.. That's about it luh

I dreamed a dream

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HELLOS.
Today uh, lessons were okay luh.
But it was a bit hard to grasp the concepts for Chemistry :/
Electrolysis is tough, really. Can't get it.

For P.E, we did this boxing thing for Aces Day which is coming up real soon.
LOLOLOLOLOL. I don't quite like it, maybe the kicking part only.
Hui Qi and me keep singing the "Nobody, nobody but you" song
Then she said that got this maple friend, he changed it to:

"Anybody, anobody but you"

After school, I went home alone and the books that we had to bring back home were really heavy. Cuz prelims is coming and we can't leave any books in school anymore. Super heavy luh, almost died. Haha.

Sigh, I'm gonna miss Singapore Idol tonight.
Cuz I'll be downstairs studying with Jelene and Gens.
We've been studying together downstairs for the past few days, plus Candice also. Quite productive I guess? Haha about 90& efficieny only, but better than nothing at least :D

the past and the present

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I seriously hate life.
I hate this competitive society.

I had a bad headache in school and until now, it still hurts.
I'm sick and tired of this stupid life. I wish I didn't have to live till tomorrow.

I'm feeling super stressed up. I see people doing a lot of work in school and I feel that I'm not doing enough on my part. I fight for time, but unfortunately, there's only 24hours for everyone.

Nowadays, for whatever reasons, I've been feeling insecure about everything. I feel like I'm falling apart and needed someone to paste me back when it actually happens :/

I need a break,
but I can't just stop now

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HAPPY 64th BIRTHDAY, INDONESIA! :D

I'm kinda happy today :D
Physics just made my day :D
Because, I feel that I've done well. Although most of the people in the class do better than me, but I'm happy because I very long never do well or get 30+ for Physics le :D At least my hardwork paid off :D

Although the one sad thing is that I missed out this 4marks question and is that kind of question which is confirm get de. But it's alright! I must learn from my mistakes and open my eyes bigger!

I was a bit hyper-active in class also and Jorene called me a Drug Addict -.- LOLS cuz I have signs of being a drug addict(Me being hyper-active, can't coordinate my hands, emo etc.) Hahaha I eat Panadol.

Lessons were pretty much quite okay also.
And today's the first day of No IR after a long period of IRs almost everyday :D

Just now, I talked superbly long on the phone with Livia. Lol, I just found an evil friend who's just as evil as me. Hahaha

Sometimes you don't realise the things around you. But everything is changing. People are thinking of different things every moment. And your littlest action counts

trying to fit in,
that's not the way to make friends

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Weekends are gonna be over soon *moans*

I don't know what I should write in this post..

Mmm, it's Indonesia's 64th Birthday tomorrow and today at Church, the pastor talked about that and blahblahblah. And I could understand about 50% of what he's saying :D Yay, maybe my Bahasa Indo improved a little?

Lols, I'm out of words right now..

Jiayou, Vivi

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What a busy weekend D:

Anyways, yesterday at school, we had a few free periods. Teachers are getting sick easily these days :/ And yesterday's IR was also the last :D Finally we get to go home at 1.50pm again! :D

Yesterday night, went to study downstairs with Jelene, Candice and Genson. Lol kinda productive I guess :D And it's great that we're still in contact! Even though we're in different secondary school right now :D

I feel kinda stressed these days. Because of people like Jocelyn&Jing Yi lor. In class, everyday do maths. I feel like I'm not doing enough at all after seeing them do so much. Tsk. I need to buck up!

Just now, Ahyi, Mei and Me went airport. They go watch the planes. Lol while I just sat on the chair and do AMaths. Sigh, sometimes I feel like Ahyi don't think for me. It's my Olevel year and she expects me to go Airport with them everyweek? She keeps saying that I don't make time to go out with my sister. But I actually don't know what I should really feel.. Should I be going out with them often because we're a family? Or should I concentrate on my studies more? I don't know.. Yes, as an older sis, I'm supposed to spend more time with my younger sis and stuff like that but I'm not. And I feel that I'm not a good sister at all.

Today's class was okay :D
We started with the 2nd book already :D
I always look forward to classes, but sadly it's only 1hour per week D:

silence in the evening

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I feel that today's like an English Day -.-
After school, we had English IR and..
After IR, I had English Tuition at BC..
What a great day.

At least for today's Class, our teacher didn't give us homework :D Well, for the first time. Cuz we manage to complete, what was supposed to be homework, in class :D

During English IR, we did Oral and Summary. Lol but for the oral part, Jorene and Me were talking about Life. Hahaha I kinda like that :D Relaxed atmosphere :D I don't like doing serious things :/

Anyways, English Prelims are gonna start next week!
Ohman. Days are getting shorter D:

I wish I could do something more productive :/

glad that you called,
although it wasn't about me

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Life sucks these days.
-JKMNow

Prelims and Os are coming real soon. But I don't have the sense of urgency or anything of that sort. Lol, I don't feel nervous and I'm like totally emotionless now. This is crap. I want some anxiety.

Today, we got back our Physics Quiz. What kind of results is that? Sometimes I feel that so what if I study, results just don't show anything. Maybe I'm not putting enough effort? I'm studying the wrong way? I don't know. It's upsetting when you put in effort but you don't get the results in the end.

Anyways, this is not the time to get so upset.
Because I need to buck up. And get motivated.

Mmm, I can't seem to keep up with people.
I told Jorene that, and she said that it's people who can't keep up with me.

Sigh, I don't know what to feel now.

I wish that you could tell me, pat me on the back,
and say that I've worked hard.
But I know that it'll remain as a dream

And just now, my Mum said that she was going to call me awhile later, but after awhile, when she called, I missed her call cuz I didn't hear my phone. Kinda sad.. Even if time were to turn back, nothing would have changed. 11years have past, and nothing has changed. Used to being alone, and now I still am. I just hope that Mei wouldn't grow up to have the feelings that I'm feeling now. Because she has me (:

because it wouldn't make a difference anymore

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HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
ILOVESINGAPORETODAMAXXXXXXX :D

It's my 11th year watching the National Day Parade xD
And it's my 11th year living in Singapore!
Haha I'm living more than half of my life here :D

I'm watching the National Day Parade on TV right now. Sigh, the song this year.. Okay luh, but I love HOME most! :D

Anyways, last night, I went out with Yunnie, to Orchard to watch her friend perform at Heerens (I think). I feel that music is something that we won't get bored of :D They're voices were quite good and they sang really nice songs :D I love watching such performances! ^.^


♥ Singapore!
My home(:

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Woah. Many things were going on these dew days :D

On Wednesday,
After AMath IR, went Bugis with Yunnie. Lol to buy stuff and presents :D
AND I BOUGHT A COMIC. The long-waited Volume 16 of Charming Junkie! ^.^
And that ended the whole series :D

On Thursday,
I don't think there's anything much..
Can't really remember :/
Oh, we had English tuition! And Pooja(4e7) joined our class. Lol, she can really talk and argue. Hahaha no wonder she can get super high for her Oral luh. LOLS.

Yesterday,
We had National Day "Celebrations" at school. Tsk, what kind of celebration is this when the Sec4s can't even watch the concert in the hall. Sec4s had Class Party. Tsk. Cuz of whatever H1N1, we cannot mix around with so many people, the school wants to protect us, because we're Sec4s and we're taking Olevels. What the crapzxzx. Lols, we tried to sneak into the hall quite a few times and we got caught by the teachers in the end. Hahaha

I wore this crappy red top, with white bottoms, tied two, and I looked like some primary school kid. Haha I bet I can sneak into a primary school without getting caught. lols.

We watched Wild Child, eat, drink and played Truth of Dare.
LOLS. I chose Dare when it was my turn and Zoe made me run around the 4th Level and sing the National Anthem loudly at the same time. I totally screamed on top of my lungs and the Anthem that I sang was like totally no tune. HAHAHA. At first I thought mine was quite sucky, but when other people did Dare, I realised that mine wasn't that bad afterall................... Lol!


Dare: Jin Yi had to feed Chips into Sherlynn's mouth xD

Dare: Livia had to sit on Joce's leg. Lolololol. Do this and do that xD

Dare: Sharifah and Audrey had to do bar top dancing. LOLS. And use each other as the pole.


Dare: Bel had to do the marriage thing with Xin Fang and we sang the Dengdengdengdeng song for them. They had to walk down a mini pathway, "exchange rings", hug, kiss blahblah. HAHAHA


After school, Joyce, Xin Fang, Livia, Jing Yi, Hui Qi and Me went Kallang Leisure Park (Or whatever that place is called) to watch Hangover. LOL. My first time watch NC16 movie in the theatres. LOL. And that show is totally OMG. Vulgar. Every sentence got that F word -.- Omg. And sometimes a bit sick. Lol no wonder it's NC. Lols.

Jing Yi and Hui Qi left after movie and the rest of us went Ice Skating! My first time experience! :D And it's been a long time since I last learnt a new skill :D And Yesterday, I learnt how to ice-skate! At first I was super scared, kept holding on to Liv&Joyce, but after awhile, I got a hang of it! But I fell a lot of times :x There's a few scratches on my leg and hands :/ But minor ones, so it's fine. But I really really had fun! :D



ICE-SKATING! ^.^

They were levelling the ice.

Today,
LOLS. I went for Church service. My first time going to my Church on Saturdays. Lol cuz today, they had Amazing Race. And later at night, they'll be having BBQ at Valens house. But can't go, cuz I'll be going out later. But the Amazing Race thing was kinda a challenge. Some of the questions were weird and random.

My group mates were Grace(Thank god got her, at first I was the only girl in the group), Ronald, Melvin, Vincent and the last person, I don't know his name :x

(I didn't dare to ask them to take picture together, yep, so only got their backs :x) Anyways, at first, I didn't quite like the idea of going for Church service on Saturday cuz I'm not really close with them. But I think, just now, I kinda have fun :D Our group had to go Esplanade to search for answers. I think the whole event was pretty cool :D

So that's about it :D

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I'm kinda happy and satisfied today :D
Once in awhile, I think I deserve it.

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Lol! Today, I received a belated birthday gift from Li Lin! :D
I was very surprised when she came to me with a present because I'm not very close with her (just that I used to do Librarian Duties with her :D) and yet she gave me a present! Haha and inside the box, she wrote a letter. She wrote really nice stuff :D But from that, I can tell that she doesn't know me at all xD

Because I'm very good at putting on fake mask.
因为我的真心已经被埋到地里下的一千公里
Nobody knows what I'm really like.
I'm just a nobody because I'm not a somebody

Things have started to change, it must be me,
because I'm trying too hard, but nothing is working out.

Anyways, there was this part when I was laughing at what Mdm Azizan had said, and Livia suddenly turned at look at me in the what-are-you-laughing-at-siao-uh kind of look. Haha I told her I was psychotic, crazy, got mental problems because I laugh to myself, talk to myself, do everything myself. Lol! Because I'm just not significant. Haha

And I went home with Marianne after Chinese IR and she was saying that she thinks she is too stressed because there was this time when she laughed herself at things that weren't funny. LOLS.

Mmm, now what I wish is that..
For me to stop letting time control me
Think Vivi, THINK. You need to

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I'm kinda free from homework today :D
Except Geog. But at least it's only a little bit of homework :D

At school, we continued with the Bridge thing. In the morning, Jing Yi and her partner keep winning. But after school, I stopped playing and Livia get good cards. I must be her Jinx. So I shouldn't play so much. Oh and Jing Yi kept losing. Lololols. And she lost 5 times CONSECUTIVELY. Lol, so she had to sort of tie up her hair. Kinda disappointed that I couldn't see it cuz when she was showing Joyce, I only looked from the side and when she was showing Livia, I was packing my bag. So yea. I went to bug her quite awhile but she still wouldn't show me, so I gave up in the end, cuz like no point right?

I shouldn't be so childish.
I shouldn't be forcing people what they don't want to do.
Cuz if I continue this, I'll be the one alone in the end.
When will I grow up?

But I'm still kinda upset. Sigh.
Move on luh

Today, Jorene also came to school with a bandaged hand.
Lol, bitten by Joyce (Kidding) HAHA. Don't know what they doing xD
I think I heard her say a pot dropped on her. Poor thing :/

Haha and after Chem IR, I bus-ed home with Jorene!
It's been like ages since the last time we took bus together :D

I wonder if there's another one out there
to wish that they were stabbed hard and drop dead

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I think this weekend is one of the most balanced weekend :D
I finished all the work that was written on my To-Do List! ^.^ I'm kinda proud of it. Haha and it's balanced because I did my work, but I also rest and enjoyed(After doing work). I watched "Queen of No Marriage"! XiaoGu bought the VCD :D Not bad :D

I lost my appetite these few days and today Ahyi cooked Porridge, which was a good thing cuz I just didn't feel like eating anything heavy.. Anyway, Mei is still recovering, so we're eating more simple food :D

And just now morning, Mei looked really lonely cuz she was playing by herself so to escape from work a bit, I played with her :D LEGO! My favourite :D HAHA. But I think I'm not a good sister. I seldom play with my sis or at least accompany her cuz I'm always doing my own things, school work, using lappie and I didn't really spend much time with her D:

It's school again tomorrow..
I'm a little looking forward to it actually :D

someone ignorant, with no sympathy at all

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Lol, today's a crazy day for me.
I went mad doing EMath. HAHA

Too many EMath homework. I've been doing work since morning till awhile ago and I manage to complete 6/10 assignments that was written on my To-Do List for this weekend. And tomorrow, I'm not going Church, cuz Mei haven't fully recovered, cannot anyhow go out, so I'm sure I'll be able to complete my homework :D

Class was okay. I think I didn't play well. Sometimes I got a bit distracted by I-don't-know-what. Especially that fast song. When I practised just now, I could play it alright, but during lessons, it was totally crap and I'm one of those who play quite loud and it made Komala occasionally turned to look at me because I messed it all up :/ She must have been disturbed by the awful notes that I played. Lols.

I think it was last night. I dreamt that my Dad came back home with my Mum.
I must have been thinking too much again :/

to experience how it feels to die once?

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