I'm not supposed to be here now.
But I kinda feel like slacking after dinner :/

I'm pretty busy this week. Probably because I've been slacking WAY TOO MUCH during holidays and didn't complete my tutorials. So yea, now must chiong :/ Like mad. There's Chemistry test coming up, but I haven't studied (Good luck to me) and there's a lot of things due by the end of this week and I haven't done much either. I'm still working, so I find myself trying to squeeze out time to do work.

And you know what? I wasted my yesterday away.
I reached home around 7plus, bathed, and slept right away. I slept at 8pm. But at least I'm more energetic today. Slightly. Today must do work then! To make up for the lost time.

Sigh, I think I reflect quite a lot on what I do everyday. But I don't take actions (or change) for the wrong things I'm doing (such as procrastinating). I love reflecting. Okay, maybe not so much of "love", but I think it's essential. When will I make the change?

What do I exactly want in life?
I've yet to find the answer.

I'm not emo-ing now. Just that.. It sets me thinking when I'll ever wake up.

助けて。なぜ私は前進を停止するのですか？

&the pages keep turning.

I decided to post a bit.

Ahh, school started.
And I'm sick. I want an MC.

To skip school. Duh

The last week of holidays passed very quickly.
Work, homework, slack a bit, work, sleep, eat, sleep, eat.

Then. Wednesday night, something happened to my new lappie again. So on Thursday, I went to Sim Lim Square. 2 times in a week that I returned to the shop where I bought my lappie -.- Then it started pouring as I was going home. I got caught in the rain because of some reasons which I don't know how to explain. You wouldn't want to hear those explainations anyways.

And guess what? I fell sick on Friday. Awesomezt.
Ah Ting let me off slightly earlier. I didn't have to clean up the whole place before leaving. So I went home, bathed, ate panadol, get a cold towel and put them on my forehead and quickly went to sleep. Fever and bad headache. I had no mood because when I'm sick, I get emotionally unstable. When people were shouting in the kitchen, or asked me to do something, I felt so much like crying. I don't like headaches ):

Then my cough continued until now.
I'm really coughing my lungs out. My diaphragm hurts a lot ):
Xiao Gu asked me not to take MC on the first day of school, so I didn't. If I'm still coughing this bad tomorrow, I'll probably take MC for Wednesday..

Hope those who're sick today will get well soon. Plus me too.

A dream. What was I thinking?

&the pages keep turning.

Today is a happy day for me!

Oh.. Other than some mishaps that happened during work today :/ I spilled HOT tea on a customer. The feeling of getting burnt by hot stuff. I get it. It's so pain that I could cry alone in the toilet. But that customer was really nice. She didn't make a fuss about it and she said "it's okay" and smiled at me when I apologised and tried to help her. Ohmy, I'm really a lucky girl. But I guess it's bad luck for that customer at the start of this year :/ I felt so much like crying when I saw how red her arms and thighs were D:

The happy things were what people told me today which made me feel happy for them!

A person once said to me, "I'll wait for miracles to happen." And I just smiled.

I was talking to Wen Xiu few days ago. I realised that I haven't loved someone properly yet. I'm just a materialistic idiot I guess.

If I were to have two person I could marry, [1] one whom I love but may not be capable to support my family or the other, [2] one who loves me and can support my family, I'd marry the one who loves me and can support my family. When was the last time I genuinely loved someone? I wonder..

I guess, I just like the feeling of being loved. I mean, who doesn't? I sometimes wonder how much my parents love me. I know this kind of thing is a petty topic but I still wonder about it. Buying for me things that I want = loving me? But I really have to thank them for everything that I have now. I have been taking things for granted.

I really hope to be closer to my parents this year.
I want something normal. Like what parents and their children will talk about everyday when they see each other. I think it's really warm :) I'm glad my mum's here now! But she's going back tomorrow.. So.. I guess that's the end of it! For now. Until she comes to Singapore again in Feb for CNY!

Sharing thoughts

&the pages keep turning.

Yes, it's a new year. It's 1plus now. I'm still setting up my lappie stuff.

&the pages keep turning.