Just reflected on the reason for me feeling down yesterday.
I think I'm just venting my anger over nothing.

A lot of things are gonna happen now.
Life is gonna be more hectic ): Because Ahyi urgently needs to go back to Indonesia because of some personal reasons and there's another aunt coming over to take care of my sister. But unfortunately, she can't speak English, so she won't be able to travel around herself, she won't be able to teach my sister to do homework ): Oh mannnn. And I bet my sis will be damn naughty cuz she doesn't really listen to anybody else except Ahyi cuz she's fierce with her. Lololol.

I seriously need to be a better sister. Lol.
Anyways, let's hope I can survive (maybe these few days to about a week) without Ahyi.
Or.. I hope my dad will come! ):

SIGH TTM.

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What a double-depressing day.
We all got back Physics Paper 3. Yup, totally screwed.
Sigh, why are my results so inconsistent? ): Then managed to check Chem results on the portal as well, and yep, still as usual, horrible. But slight improvement (Don't know how I made it though)

I don't even feel a thing about those horrible results. Numb already.
But what I'm upset/depressed about is my attitude towards studies, life and everything. Why am I so half-assed? Doing things halfway, not continuing, lack of discipline, refusal to change over or heed advices. Why am I so stubborn?

Anyways, what Joshua said was right. The only thing I know how to do is complain and whine. Damned right.

I feel a bit nervous recently.
We start to have homework again, then performance is coming up, yet I'm not practising my violin. And somemore Sunday's rehearsal went badly that I feel so embarrassed when Valens was so good with his piano ): WTF seriously.

Then what makes it double-depressing is what you said to me today.
We were just talking about how bad our results are etc etc.
"But as long as we 对得起自己, then it's okay"
"Then like that I really 对不起自己 cuz I didn't work hard"
"Everybody also didn't put in their best effort, you think you work hard then you'll do better? That's quite "irresponsible""

I felt really sad when you said that because I'm one who believes in hardwork and saying to me is like a big blow to me ): I believe that if I work hard, I'll do well or at least better. I'm quite sure you said it out of impulse, but it just hurts me so much that I feel like crying. Anyways, I don't know why you used the word irresponsible cuz it didn't match the topic.

全部嘘だ

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Hello! We got back some papers today :)
Not sure to feel happy or sad.
I was satisfied with History even through my results dropped. Physics was kinda scary cuz I dropped a lot ): I'm worried about Paper 3 now ): Then Math was.. Satisfying yet disappointing. Satisfying overall, but disappointed with Stats paper. I thought I could do much better for Paper 2 because I love Stats a lot and I think I can do it just fine. But I guess, it's those 1-2m marks per question I lost for the explaination type of questions.. So they add up to be many many many many marks.

Anyway yups, this is not the end.
I'll do well for As. I'll make sure I'll do well.

Sometimes I think it's just my retribution.


I expect too much from myself, yet I don't give the input to deserve what I want.
Serves me right.

We're probably getting back Chem tomorrow and I know it'll definitely be a disaster. Just how bad the disaster will be. I don't deserve to do any better than this seriously.

Lol today I felt really sleepy. I fell asleep while watching One Piece :/ (Or maybe the show is just that boring ._.) I think I'm still not used to sleeping less than 9 hours!! LOL For the past 4 weeks, I've been sleeping a lot since I sleep early every night and wake up at about 8plus. So I took a nap at around 4 plus just now. Feels so much better after sleeping for awhile :)

Anyways, best of luck.
Ciao~

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Lol I'm getting so bored that I needa blog.
I just had a haircut today :D I simply love my short hair :D

Then the guy who helped me wash my hair etc was like "Are you 16?", "I'm 18", "You don't look like, you have a young look"

I've heard this too many times. "Young" is just a better word for "Looks like a kid"
LOL. I always thought I have a lao ah ma face. But seems like I've got a slightly baby face? Same with my sister. She totally doesn't look like an 11 year old kid.

Then Agnes took over. She's really friendly or at least she tries to talk to me and stuff. Hahaha. It's my 2nd time going for a haircut at Hair Secrets and I think Agnes is really good! LOL. Promoting her here. Haha!

After that, I went to Century Square and T1 to look for stuffs etc and I met Auntie Ai Choo and Vivian on the way! Haha I was quite happy to see them! It's been a long time since I last saw them cuz I seldom eat Ajisen. LOL! And I also met Auntie Ying Hua also! :D Hahahaha.

I bought ingredients to cook Topokki at some Korean mart and went home to cook it. LOL cooked too much and I couldn't finish :/ Tomorrow then eat again lor.

Mm, my day just ends like that I guess? :)
Hope tomorrow will be a better day ^^

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Just wanted to share this, for fun. I realised I love this blogskin so so so so much. I felt that it was the best picture that I've done up! Glad that I was able to find a suitable picture. Editting was awesome. Love it ttm :D I thought the words and expression of the person could really capture the emotions which I wanted to show in the picture :)

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Finally, prelims are over :)
Time for a break!
Lol actually, I already started my break since last Thursday after History paper ._. I don't deserve any breaks man! LOLOLOL.

Today, we had a class outing.
Badminton and then Johnny English and Abduction(Only TA, TY, WX and me!)
♥ TOTALLY LOVE 24/10 ♥ Oh, and we have some converts like MX and Reynold from 29/10 joining us. HAHA!

It was just a simple outing, but somehow it's always so fun just talking and playing together :) Simply love our awesome class! ^^


And yay! More people learn to play Bridge.
We're BRIDGE OBSESSORS! :D :D
But today I was out of luck. Lost many many games :x

Oh then yesterday, I was looking at picture quotes from livintoinspire.tumblr.com and I saw inspirations for graduation gifts and a new blogskin! :D Hope the doing of the small gift will be a successful one! Don't really have much time also. Mm, A Levels is really that soon ):

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Sometimes forget to see the good in others, to look beyond their imperfections, to compliment them. But anyways I saw something nice today :)


Lol! I should be studying Chem instead!

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Hello!
It's been ages since I last posted!

It's the prelims period now..!!
And what am I doing? HAHAHA.
"Partying" away already. It's like after History paper on Thursday, I totally feel like I'm liberated from prelims already -.- Which in reality is not the case cuz I still have 3 more papers to go. Math paper 2, Physics and Chemistry MCQ.

Anyways, good luck to me, slacker.

I'm into K-Shows now!! Cuz I think quality of Korean actors are quite good when veteran actors and not those idols host or take part in it :D Veteran actors go go go! :D

Ohh, lemme talk about my September holidays!
I had a so-so holiday I guess. On the not-so-good side was cuz we had to study for Prelims and I fell sick, on the good side was cuz my mum came, I met friends whom I hadn't for a long time (Primary and Secondary school friends)

It's nice that we make an effort to meet up even though we're all in different schools now. But I was surprised at the Primary School outing because we all have prelims right after holidays, yet everyone was still willing to come out to eat together and chit chat etc! :D Love them all ♥ We went Sakae Sushi at PP and Genson even brought his girlfriend along to introduce to us. I thought it was really nice cuz you know.. You introduce your other half usually only to your family and good friends. So he treats us like we're his good friends! So touched! T.T Haha! But we were all too shy to talk to her :P

Then my mum came, so I went out quite a lot with family :) Shopping etc. Haha and my mum even asked me if I want to go USA and Jakarta! Hahahaha. But I kinda know she say say only luh. But well, just let me dream about it :D

I also met my secondary school friends and studied at the National Library with them on some 1-3-5s. Haha I really love the 11th floor to the max :D And I do more work at the library compared to when I'm at home -_-

Then on the first Saturday, I fell sick with a bad headache all the way to Friday. The weirdest thing was when I'm doing work, I won't feel much. But when I stop to rest or just look up, OMG, the pain just rushes to my head, seriously killing me from inside. On some days, I even slept at 7plus -_- After dinner immediately sleep. *fat* I tried to eat the headache medicine I got last time and panadols for a few days, but it didn't get better. So I went to see a doctor and 3 days later, I'm alllllll well :D HAHA. Thank God so much that it didn't dragged on till Monday.

Anyways, I guess it's cuz the exam period, I saw quite a few people on Twitter saying they're sick and stuffs too.. Yup, so everybody take care~

Ohh, and I realise that I keep saying that I regret doing this doing that. Sigh, why am I like that :( Then I saw this meaningful quote :)



That's all for today :)
Adieu~

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