It's Chinese Paper 2 tomorrow! D:
I'll try my best! BUT, I don't think I'll do well, cuz it's CHINESE. Lols

We had temperature taking today. And it gonna continue this everyday for quite some time I think.. Swine Flu is going around! Kinda dangerous :/ Hope Singapore doesn't get affected by it.. If not it'll be like SARS, quite scary :/

Before class started,

Mrs Lim: Why is your tables and chairs arranged this way?
Zoe: -saying in a boyboy, childish way- don't tell you

Anyway, Geog lesson today was really funny :D I think geog lessons are one of the most enjoyable lesson in the whole cirriculum :D Really love it ^.^

I really like the thought of having a diary! Sometimes, there are things that you can't tell your friends. I really wish to have a best friend as in really really best friend but it's just that I don't feel comfortable telling friends about what I'm thinking about sometimes cuz you don't know what's running in the head when you tell them about your problems.. I guess it's just me being sensitive or whatsoever luh. So I think my diary is like my bestest friend. IRREPLACEABLE BESTFRIEND! :D I wrote a diary entry yesterday that I cried.. Just can't help but feel sad..

I have to go do filing le.. And write geog notes! D:
JIAYOU VIVI! You can do it! (xuele taught me this :D)

it's just that we don't understand each other, just you..

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I love this Mayday song! It's called Ou mai ga (Oh my god) It's super nice! :D Haha

School was so.................................................. today.

I wish I would just die and not go to school.. Exam period is kinda stressful and I don't feel like doing anything at all D: Anyway I think I'm dying soon. Lol cuz like keep coughing and my lungs there really hurts :/

EMaths IR after school was okay. But I only managed to complete 4questions -.- I wasn't focused on doing my work.. There was this fly-thing flying around. Lol and our class was like disturbed by it and people start screaming and closing all the windows and doors. LOLS. And Jorene, Livia, Hui Qi and Me were talking about some funny stuff (The family tree thing) nearing the end of the IR. Lol, but it sure was fun :D

Some rantings:
I feel that I'm a person who knows nothing about the people around me. Everyday, I go to school and talk to people, but in actual fact, I know nothing about them. I don't understand my friends and I feel that I'm not like a friend.. I did quiz before, and it says "Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship" I guess it's like this for friendship too.. I can't tell what's wrong and how friends need my help. I can't console, I can't do anything. It's kinda sad cuz I feel like some person who just fits into any situation and gets through anything..

I'm just a human who's like oblivious to everything? keep running and struggling in search of an answer

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SIGH! My SS and Chinese Paper1 are kinda screwed :/ But I'm glad I studied for SS(although I didn't study it well) I'd be even screwer if I didn't. And my Chinese Compo is even SHORTER than the letter writting :x Anyway, I'd rather study and not do well than not study and not do well :/

If I study, and I don't do well, at least I know I tried my best.. But if I don't study and I don't do well, I'd be feeling guilty for the rest of my exam days!! I guess the learning point is: STUDY PROPERLY AND CONCENTRATE MORE!!

Reflecting is a key to success!! Haha xDI have to go do homework soon! Ja

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I'm watching the Star Awards 2009! It's my first time watching thsi actually cuz the previously year's Star Awards thing was in the December holidays, then I in always in Indo, cannot watch D: Lol somehow I feel that this Star Awards thing very touching yeh! When they win, and go up the stage to say a few words. Lol xD

Today I read SS and Chinese stuff. I feel that I'm even more paranoid over Chinese!! Compared to SS. Anyway, I'm dead for SS Paper tomorrow. SERIOUSLY. Cuz I didn't memorise the PEELS thing properly and I'm really screwed luh!!

I'm feeling really relaxed now.. Probably cuz I've given up. Lol

Church was okay today. But I didn't understand what the pastor said.. Uh, not surprising..
Then Timo never fails to surprise me. He asks about my sister's stuff again. Then he ask,"how come I didn't get?" He was asking about down-syndrom stuff. Ohgosh luh, I count myself lucky that God blessed me with a normal body and he asks me this kind of thing. How would I know? Really.. I didn't like the way he looks at my sister too.. I know he sympathize with her and stuff but I just don't like it.. SIGH!

Wish me all the best for tomorrow's papers! But I'm dead

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Oh man.. I'm the screwest. Yesterday, I decided to write a diary entry and I ended up taking more than an hour to write that entry. Lol and I didn't start memorising my SS stuff. Cuz it was time to sleeeeeep. Where did all my discipline go? The exam is gonna be less than 48hours time but I'm not done! T.T

But I started this morning.. So far I'm 2/3 done only T.T Ahyi and Me brought Mei to the airport. And I brought my book along to memorise stuff but it wasn't that productive cuz I'm just not in the mood to study!

When I reached home, it was time for me to get ready for violin class le.. But today's class wasn't too good. Cuz Ms Xiao made us play D-open with G4. It's very very difficult to reach G4 if your pinkie is short T.T I think the guys in the class won't have much problem with it maybe.. Lol, since guys' hands are bigger and longer? I suppose? Girls need more practise before our finger grows longer? Lol, I don't know.. Haha

Just when I thought I improved a little, I dropped back to nothing again D: I'm bad at slurs and accented notes D: It just ends up with a conclusion: My bowing technique suck! T.T I've been training myself to hold the bow properly anyway cuz I realised that I have been holding it the wrong way and I wanna kick the habit.. D:

I'm gonna change blogskins after exams! I'm kinda looking forward to it cuz I found a plainer skin. I just like to see more whites :D Ja, have to continue with SS le!

how much it hurts

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I don't quite like IRs after school D: Especially now that is the Mid Year exams period. Staying back after school everyday is tiring D: History IR today dragged. Lol 45 minutes somemore.. But I guess the teachers are tired also.. So as a student, I guess I can't complain too much cuz they are the ones who put in a lot of effort in conducting IRs after school when they could actually go home.. Sigh D:

Lessons were alright.. Lol I got 6/25 for emaths test! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL, I lost 14marks cuz I didn't draw the curly wurly thing for vectors. Lol and I get zero for those that I should have gotten correct. HAHAHA. Just serves me right. For not paying attention to such small details..

When I reach home, practised violin again. I feel that I improved a little! :D haha, I can play a little faster already (: Yays. Although a little only, but it's still an achievement for me! Haha. I must continue to Jiayous! :D

Later have to start memorising SS stuff le! Ja D:

how much the world revolves,
how much people have changed

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MUST WATCH THIS! IT'S VERY NICE :D
I just love watching Igudeman and Joo's videos :D Uber awesome! :D

Today's lesson were not that intense. SPA, AMaths, SS and English. After school we had SS IR which was a little productive.

Anyway, I feel like I'm kinda hardworking these days. Haha, I've been practising my violin everyday for the past few days (: But unfortunately, I don't seem to get any better? Lol I don't know. I practised using the 2books I have and Suzuki book that I downloaded online! Lol I love TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR (VARIATIONS) It's very fun to play that piece :D

I'm sleepy. I wanna sleep.
But unfortunately again, I have to finish the last bit of my SS notes D:

don't get how your mood changes
and i'm gonna ignore cuz ignorance is bliss

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Argh. Mid Years officially started today D:
English paper wasn't easy D: Topics for Paper 1 was quite difficult. But I wrote Sibling Rivalry. Lol. Then Paper 2. SIGH. Die le. My Summary was totally crap D: For vocab, they came out words like perceived and provocative. After school, we had Physics Extra Class (moans, although in the end, a bit productive I thought)

Mr Seah : Have you perceived the question? Is it provocative?

For the whole lesson, he used the word so many times and we kept laughing. Lol then he said that "he always use chim words" LOL.

More Papers are coming up! STRESSSSSSS

drifting worlds apart

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HELLO! Kinda feeling much better compared to the past few days.
Uh.. Just that my voice is still kind sexy. Lol. Muffled.

Yesterday, I didn't go to school cuz Doctor gave me MC. So I decided to stay at home to do what I should have completed in the weekends. I slept more than what I should on Saturday and Sunday, that's why there were many things undone. Like Physics homework and SS notes. I'm glad I took the day off! Cuz I completed what I had to :D Not 100% done, but almost there luh

ANYWAY, CHOIR ACHIEVED GOLD WITH HONOURS!
Really felt so happy for them when Xin Yu told me the results yesterday evening! :D But there's a tinge of sadness since I'm not in the SYF Group and somehow, it just feels different, compared to the SYF 2years ago, when I was in D: BUT STILL, I feel SUPER HAPPY FOR THEM! They must have cried so much :D After they worked so hard, they really deserve it :D

School was alright today. I was reading this Cyber Marriage in the newspaper IN section.
Haha they were talking about Maple Story. Lol! I think it's kinda fun? Lol, but a bit waste of money uh. Cuz you pay real cash just to get married in a cyber world -.- then I was reminded of some stuff. natsukashi na, wished that you could have been nicer to me

English IR after school was kinda............... Lol. But it should be productive for those people who did their work. Lol.

It's the start of Mid Years tomorrow! English Paper 1 and 2! GAN BATTE! :D

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Wooo. Getting sick makes me crazy. Lol. Yesterday, when I went for violin class, I wanted to go up the escalator and I walked up the wrong one. The escalator in the picture is not the one that I walked on, I just took another picture and edit. And when I stepped onto the escalator, trying to go up, (while the escalator was going down), it took me one second before I realised that I was on the wrong one -.- I was super paiseh luh, cuz there were people there -.- Class was okay, but I kept coughing in class and I was kinda distracted.. I didn't do productive studying, only did some SS notes. And I slept at 7plus yesterday night cuz my aunt found me sleeping at the dining table. She asked me rest since I was sick and so I did luh.

Today morning, I went to the see a doctor. Natsukashi! :D I went to Dr Tay's which was somewhere at St. Hilda's there. Woah so long never see him (cuz I seldom get sick) and he remembers me. He said that my name very easy to remember :D Hahaha

Doctor: Long time didn't see you, you grow so big already.
Me: Uh, yup.
Doctor: You go to another doctor? Geylang Serai.... (Looking at my address profile I think)
Me: Mmm.
Doctor: There....... have apartments.. (He starts thinking)
Me: I stay at Sims Residences there.
Doctor: Oh.
Me: But now I move back to Bedok here
Doctor: Oh oh..

I told him what was wrong with me and the he checked on me blahblahblah.
Then before I left, he asked,"Anybody call you Vivo Tan?"

Lol, I think the last time I came here, he asked me the same thing too. Lol -.- Lame old guy.
Anyway, it was Ahyi who insisted that I should go see a doctor.. Just now afternoon, I didn't go churchie too.. I stayed at home and watch anime, practise violin and did Chemistry homework.

Anyway, on my way home from Doctor's, I took 291 cuz I was too lazy to wait for 293. Then I passed buildings and more buildings. It just reminded me of how things were last time.. When Lyvia and me walked and crossed the many roads and sneaked up your house. And me, who couldn't faced you, hid behind the pillars while Lyvia did the job. And then Lyvia received your sms and you said something that I never have forgotten but somehow I was untouched by it. It must be because everything was a lie.. Have you said the truth to me, even once? I haven't forgotten how those times felt and that feeling comes back to me once in awhile, making me feel like going back to the past. But I can't.

Lol xD I think I'm gonna sleep soon. Since it's late..

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Lol, I'm feeling so miserable inside now. I feel like my lungs are gonna be coughed out anytime.
I'm really scared that my lungs will be damaged if I coughed too much. I'm under medication but I still cough a lot D:

I didn't participate in the games(frisbee) we played for P.E today. My diaphragm there really hurts cuz I've been coughing too much D: I've been going to school even though I'm sick, so I hope I didn't pass it to anyone :/

My throat is sore too D: And my voice is sexy. HAHAHAHAHA

We got back Physics Test just now. Uh.. my marks was above my target but I'm sure I can do much better than this. Cuz those questions that I got wrong, some of my answers were stupid -.-

What are the currents passing through the wires? (Or kettle or whatever it is)
My answer: Electricity and Heat

Lol. Mr Seah circled it and write a question mark beside it -.-

After school we had Geog IR. Quite slack yeh :D Did 2 questions and watch videos on CAVES :D Uber awesome! Then went PP with Jorene to see see look look some stuff. And that's all!

the useless pride of yours

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HELLOHELLO. I'M WELL. Okay, not really, at least my fever is GONE! My body temperature still warmer than normal, but at least it's not 37.8 and above :D BUT I'm like coughing my lungs out -.- In class keep coughing, I must be really disturbing others D: But I've been eating medicine obediently!

Me getting sick got one advantage!
My tongue is more sensitive to the taste of the food that I eat!
Usually, I can't taste grapes properly. If I eat a grape, I can't tell if it's sour or sweet -.- I still have to ask Ahyi, "Ahyi this grape sweet or sour?" Then she'll tell me -.- But now that I'm sick, I can differentiate them perfectly well! :D Hahahahha

I was kinda sleepy in the morning cuz before I went to school, I ate this cough medicine which will make you drowsy. Lol, then in class, I felt so tired and wanna sleep -.- There was Legacy period just now and we had our project presentation! Our group had some good comments from the teachers! YAY (:

After school, we had Physics IR. Test! It was okay.. Thank God I did notes and revised yesterday. If not I'd probably just die during the test.

Mr Seah went through the solutions and there was this question on how the ammeter, voltmeter and resistor should be arranged to calculate the resistance of the whole circuit.

Somebody(Can't remember who): If this person write "put beside each other" can or not?

Mr Seah: Cannot! If you put in front is also beside, you put behind also beside.

Somebody: Then if "beside in series" can?

Mr Seah: No cannot accept. No in front, behind, beside, hand in hand. All cannot.

Everbody was laughing at the hand in hand thing luh -.-
I can't remember the exact words but it's something like that. Lol.

Yay! It's gonna be Friday tomorrow :D Last school day of the week :D

a dream to hold on to

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Hello! I'm feeling more engergetic today :D Compared to yesterday.. Lol, I watch Shugo Chara for awhile yesterday and my headache was really bad and I couldn't stand it anymore, so I switched off my lappie. I actually didn't feel like watching anime yeh! Super rare. Lololol.

School was okay today.. Just a bit tiring for me cuz I didn't sleep well last night. OHBYTHEWAY, I went to bed at 7.45pm! HAHAHAHAH, that's uber early xD After school, we had AMath IR. I was kinda looking forward to it but in the end, I didn't really concentrate on my work -.-

I realise that if you have headache, you should keep looking at the ceiling or at least look up! Even if you sleep, should face the ceiling and not sleep on your hand. Lols. When I look down, woah, chao pain yeh. But when I look up, the pain goes away! :D
Lol ripples remind me of headache. In Indonesia, when there's advertisement for headaches, then will always have this ripple thing forming above your ear when you have headache. Haha

My fever went down to 38.0 le :D I think the fever will go away by tomorrow :D
Sigh, have to study Physics later.. Cuz there's gonna be a test tomorrow D:

yume no tsumobi

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Oops. The last time I posted is THURSDAY.
Gomen! Homework has been piling up and I'm kinda busy completing them and watching anime too xD I wanna finish Shugo Chara soon, so that I can concentrate on studying for Mid Years!

Anyway, on Friday, went T3 with Jorene and Sherlynn to do AMaths todoy. Since it's a holiday, so we decided to spend the day by doing AMaths. LOL. We did work at a Food Court! Lol, flooded with people yeh. It took us quite awhile to get a seat T.T

Weekends were just as usual.. Violin and church

Oh, but on Saturday, I went to Tampines1 with Xin Yu to see see look look. Too crowded T.T

Then yesterday, nothing much also luh. School, Lesson, IR
Actually today also. Sigh I dread school so much today..

I started to have splitting headache during Chinese or EMath lesson. And awhile later, it was fever T.T For lunch, I brought Nutella bread to school and I didn't have the appettite to eat(although I slowly finished it in the end) During IR, we did CCHS(Main) Mid Year Paper2. I just wanna go home cuz I felt so miserable inside. I felt like I'm radiating heat -.-

But I should try to be cheerful so that the fever will go away faster T.T
I don't want to go to school, and yet, I'm afraid that there's important things that teachers will say and I'm not around. I don't want to miss all these D:

I measured my temperature at 5plus, it was 38.8degrees celsius D: And it raised to 39.1 awhile ago D: Sigh. The last time I got sick and needed to eat Panadol was on 28th December 2007. Lol, I still remember the date, cuz I seldom get sick. Hope I get well soon.. I guess I'll sleep early today and forsake my Anime watching D:

I'm SAD!!

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I don't feel like moving right now. My leg and waist there hurt like hell. MUSCLE ACHE T.T

I'm also having ulcers in my mouth and I can't talk properly T.T I can't pronounce words with s, l, j, g, t and some other letters T.T

School today was alright.. Lessons were a bit dry D:
After school, I did Library Duty and all I had to do is paint some stuff! :D

Anyway, during recess, there was Library Meeting. The new committee has been elected! :D I'm stepping down already :D And I'm sure Hui Qi will be a much better Head than me! Cuz she's responsible and does thing really fast! :D Hope everything will go well for her!

Bus-ed home with Jelene and Germaine! We talked about loads of funny stuff and I had a good laugh :D Belz was asking me to smile more at school! But I'm too tired to smile and moreover, the ulcers in my mouth are killing me T.T

I reached home, bathed and practise violin. Sigh. It was bad..
I thought about my dad and stuff, my hands shook really hard and I couldn't play anything well D: My emotions and fears are affecting me D: Hope everything will be fine soon..

Ja, mata ashita ne ♥

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It's really a tiring day today! My leg and waist aching. Lol, old le

This is gonna be the last Sports Day for Sec4s. Our class didn't win many events but we managed to get 2nd Overall :D OUR MASCOT WON FIRST POSITION! :D Natasha looked really awesome! (Should have taken a picture of the costume)

I ran 4 X 400m for the class. Woah, it's been a long time since the last time I ran that event yeh. In the end, didn't win cuz the competitors from the other classes were uber good! But there's something about running that makes me "loathe" it. I don't really hate it, but I dislike it to a certain extent.

It's like when I ran just now, there's this devil in me that will tell me that "I can't make it", "I can't run anymore", "I'm tired, so I should just stop". And it takes me so much determination and perseverance to overcome it. I don't like this kind of thing.. Running is really about determination and perseverance D:

After the event, woah, my legs were jelly-like and I had this head-splitting-headache. I couldn't walk properly cuz my vision was affected and my legs just turned to jelly LUH!

I met my dad at Bedok Interchange to settle some of my bank stuff and get a atm card. I'm so gonna leave that card at home. Lol, if I bring it out, I think I'm gonna withdraw all the money and leave the account with nothing sooner or later -.-

Then, I went home to bathe and I left the house for Sim Lim. To look for laptops. My laptop spoilt D: I'm currently using my uncle's..

that's about today D: It just passed so quickly. I don't wanna go school tomorrow D:

a day that never ended

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Argh. Now that I'm back here, I kinda feel restless..
I don't wanna go school. I wish I could be there in Genting forever and ever (or maybe not, I'll freeze to death) Okay, I won't really freeze to death. I love the weather there. Uh...... compared to the humid conditions here D:

Makes me sticky.

We played freesbies for PE today! I missed PE lesson last week. So today's PE was kinda strenuous for me since I haven't been exercising (growing fatter day by day, considering the fact that I ate lots of fastfood in Genting)

It's sports day tomorrow! Kinda scared of dragging everyone down D:

Anyways, I really miss Genting a lot! I wanna sit those rides for my whole life.
But life ain't always sweet. OHMANNNNNNNNNNN

We stayed at Resort Hotel. Quite nice :D

ILOVETHRIILLRIDES. You can't miss that if you go to a theme park! :D

Ohbut one sad thing. My favourite ride was closed for the 2days that I stepped into the theme park D: Corckscrew is under "renovation" D: SADSADSAD

But there are many other roller coasters anyway. I like Cyclone too :D

On Saturday&Sunday, went Outdoor Theme Park with cousins.

We sat many other rides, but I didn't snap a shot of it.

Anyway, on Sunday, cousin and me had lunch(Cup noodles)at this mini shop. Lol, it's called London Cafe but ironically, it sells cup noodles :D But nevertheless, I love eating cup noodles :D

Then it rained in the afternoon D: We managed to get indoors but still drenched. Went bowling and I'm really happy with my score. Cuz it's been a long time since the last time I reached 100+ -.- (Paiseh, I'm a beginner only)

Ohya!! Yesterday, before we left Genting for Airport, we had lots of time to kill. Cousins and Me went to watch a movie! SHINJUKU INCIDENT. Violent. Bloody. Lols. A lot of fighting. It's an M18 show. Uh.. the guy who sold the ticket at the counter said. But we still watched. Lol. M18 eh! But it doesn't feel like a M18 show, although it's violent. Lols.

Ahyi, Mei and me took AirAsia to KL on Friday and it was definitely a super bad experience for Mei. The plane shook like mad (maybe cuz of the wind, plane is small, get blown easily by the wind currents) and Mei even cried. Ohmygosh luh. But the flight back yesterday was alright :D We took a night flight (which I always thought will cause my ear to hurt but in the end, it didn't hurt. Thank God cuz I can't take it when my ears are feeling painful) I'm back safe and sound anyways (:

UNFORTUNATELY back. Hahahahhaha xD

But I missed my schoolmates though! :D

Anyways, if you like Roller Coasters and Thrill Rides, I can be your bestestfriend!
Cuz it's just my type of thing :D

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Konbanwa!

Today, Mariko-chan taught me a lot of Jap sentences. Uh....... but I forgot so many le -.- I remembered one! Watashi no soba ni konaide means don't come so close to me or something on that line :D Hahahahaha in class I keep pestering her to teach me how to translate some sentences to Jap. Anyway, she really plays along! She'll talk to me in Jap. I can understand BUT I can't answer her T.T I don't know how to form sentences T.T

At school, felt kinda restless during lessons though I tried my best to pay full attention. We also had Fire Drill today. Zoe carried Joyce! Tanoshi ne :D We had to line up in the Field and the Sun was SCORCHING HOT. Lol, some people still carry umrella -.- Lols

After school, went Library to print my air ticket and library handbook stuff. I asked Ms Begam if the handbook looks okay and she say "Not really okay" yeh D: SAD. I took quite awhile to put everything together.. Just felt kinda sad when she said it wasn't okay.. D: Jorene helped me with the printing and we went home together. Sorry Jorene! For making you wait for me again :x

I won't be around from tomorrow till Monday! (In Malaysia) Please miss me! xD

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HELLO!

I have been kinda busy these days. I don't even have time to worry about other stuff but only concentrate on school and library work D: A bit stressed and tired. I've been getting headaches these days too D: Hopefully, I won't be so busy anymore after I'm done with the work that I'm supposed to do..

Yesterday, went Joyce's house to do Legacy Project! Awwww, the video that we made was kinda sad? I think..? (Or was it happy? Uh, can't really tell actually) Lol, don't know how to describe it. INDESCRIBABLE I reached home quite late xD And since there were a lot of things that need to be done, I slept at 11pm! 11 yeh xD I usually go to bed at 10pm. HAHA


Today, we had Chemistry Olevel SPA. I didn't have much problems with the calculation part (Thank God) but I took quite awhile to figure how to do the question though D:

Anyways, I'm not sure if I made mistakes in preparing the experiment that will cause me to minus any marks (hope not).

I just finish Library Stuff! :D Yay (: Finally. Later, I can do other homework! ^.^

believing and achieving

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