OHMYTIAN.

KEN LIM'S BABY PICTURE IS LIKE SO CUTE. OMG.
Singapore Idol today was kinda cool :D The females sang very nice songs I thought :D

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I reached my target for this term. 13points.

The target that I set last year was actually 9. But after Prelims, I realised that it was impossible. So I changed it to 13. My combined humanities didn't get A1 D: A bit sad but I'll make sure that Olevels won't be like this. I did badly for SS SBQ D:

Anyways, since I got 13 points, I can reward myself :D
I wanna get a new pencil box. I wonder if it's still there :D

Today, I went Gramercy with Jorene to get exam books. Argh. Then I tried playing the songs just now. Lol, quite difficult :x I can't really play them well :/ I guess I need more practice! And I was thinking if I get 8 points and below for Olevels next year, I'll buy myself a new bow since mine's quite heavy. But when we were at Gramercy, I saw this bow, it costs $120! Even more expensive than my violin uh :x

Oh and today uh, I sneezed like don't know how my times.
I counted. So far 10. Lol. Bad flu. Tsk.

if the sky was green

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Hello!
Yesterday I couldn't post cuz there was something wrong with my lappie.
Anyways, we got back Chemistry and Physics paper yesterday.

OMG. My Physics did better than Chem T.T

It's really sad D:

I know it was expected of me to get B3 for Chemistry, but still, it's kinda disappointing. But I guess Physics cheered me up a little, since it's my first time getting an A2 for big papers :D

Today uh, worse. Got back Geog. My Human Geog is screwed up. LOL!
But EMath was good :D At least I think it's good enough for me :D
History, okay luh, SBQ wasn't well done though.

After school, we had English Mock Exams. *moans*
Felt kinda sleepy. A bit. Lolol. But I liked the passage :D

Anyways, today's a sway day for me.
I dropped my phone in toilet bowl -.-" It's REAL. Lol.
It's spoilt. I tried to save it by using a hair dryer to blow it, but.. to no avail. It was too late. (lol I wrote this line in my English compo just now. Haha) And my phone is less than 4months old!! T.T

Yup, so that's about it!

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I went shopping with Mum, Dad and Mei again today!
We went Bugis! And yay, I bought a pair of jeans :D

Mum's going back tomorrow and I'll be seeing her only in November when she's coming for Mei's operation. Lol anyway, I think she saves up herself but she can really spend money on us :D We just came back from Dinner. Lol we ate like Curry Fish Head. My first time I think. Totally crazy. I'm super full and I just wanna go sleep now. LOLOLOLS.

But unfortunately, I still have some Heymath stuff to complete *moans*

我喜欢有自信的你

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I totally slacked today. Lols

I went shopping with Mum, Dad and Mei. But most of the time, we're looking for my Mum and Mei's stuff. Haha but it sure was nice being able to go out as a family :D I hope we'll be going out again tomorrow cuz my Mum's gonna go back to Indo on Monday morning D:

We only reached home at 3pm. And I had to rush to violin class and I was 25minutes late :/ And I think it must be some kind of retribution, for not practising violin for a long time, cuz I couldn't play the songs properly just now. Lols, then there was this part where we had to play one by one. And once again, my hands and feet shook like mad cuz I was too nervous :/ I could play that song perfectly well at home somemore D: Next year, exams sure die, when I stand in front of the examiner, I'm gonna shiver :/

on top of the world

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I'm quite happy today :D

EMath Paper 1 - Okay D:
English - Expected luh. How well can I do? D:
AMath - A1!!

It's the first time I'm getting A1 for big papers :D I mean AMath.
So I was really happy about it!

After school, Jorene, Yunnie&Me went Orchard. We went Daniel Yam's shop to look at dresses for Prom. And after that, just walked around. Then Yunnie&I went to Bugis. I bought new comics again. Looks nice :D And we went Alumi (or whatever it's called) to see see look look also. Yup, so that's about today.

Then just awhile ago, I received Mr Seah's message and said that I got A2!! I was SHOCKED beyond words. I really really really thout I would fail or at most get a C because I didn't know how to do every question. And in the sms, he even said that I surprised him. Yea, even he doesn't expect that from me. LOLS. But I'm really happy :D

Anyways, I wonder if Awie's feeling okay.
It must be really sad to lose a family member D: I don't even know what to say to him. I wish we were close like we used to be.. And my Mum's gonna fly back to Indo soon to attend it maybe. Life's a sad thing.

osaki ni

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Mmm, we didn't get back any papers today D:
Somehow, I don't really want to get them back.

I know how badly I'm going to do.
And I'm afraid to disappoint the teachers more than myself D:

After school, Jorene&Livia came over to study. Lol, Livia bought 2packets of Tapioca Chips and we ate until.......................... T.T Hahaha and then we all left at about 5pm cuz I got English tuition @ BC. Sigh, today's homework is to do an ARGUMENTATIVE ESSAY T.T

if it matters

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Sigh sigh. We got back English Compre and EMath Paper 1 Lot 1
I did badly for both D: Kinda disappointed. That's all I can say D:

But school today was torturous :/
We did English Compre, SS SBQ, EMath Papers T.T

I'm so not ready for anything right now.
I'm not ready for Os.

I'M REALLY SLEEPY RIGHT NOW *YAWNS*

Anyways, Mum&Dad came last night :D

But the first word that came out from you have never changed

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Yesterday at Church, the Theme was about Parents and God.
Because we're celebrating Parents' Day :D

And I really want to share this song with you now (But I can't)
How to say goodbye - Michael W Smith
Cuz I found the video on Youtube, but can't embed it.
But when I was watching the video, I cried cuz it was really touching T.T

How to say Goodbye - Michael W Smith

Tell me when the time we had slipped away
Tomorrow turned to yesterday
And I don't know how
Tell me what can stop this river of tears
It's been building up for years
For this moment now

Here I stand
Arms open wide
I've held ya close
Kept ya safe
Till you could fly

Tell me where the road ahead is gonna bend
And how to harness up the wind
And how to say goodbye

Tell me why
Why does following your dreams
Take you far away from me
And I knew that it would

Tell me how to fill the space you left behind
And how to laugh instead of cry
And how to say goodbye

Here I stand
Arms open wide
I've held ya close
Kept ya safe
Till you could fly

Tell me where the road ahead is gonna bend
And how to harness up the wind
And how to say goodbye.

Yup, so I've put it as my blog song :D

Yesterday, I got duties and I was the kolektan
If you didn't come late.....
After KoRem, Mei had to practise some singing thing with the other kids and Youth Vocal Group. Lol so I was there watching them and Ray played the violin! I wonder why his brother didn't learn. Haha anyways the song they sang was quite nice :D They're performing next week! Tanoshimi da! ^.^

It's already Monday today.. I wonder when you're coming.
All of us have been waiting for you since Saturday. But you didn't appear.
I hope you didn't lie. Cuz I hate false hopes.
I'd rather you dash my hopes

you're sometimes warm, sometimes cold
which one is the real you?

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Today is such a relaxing day (:
I wish everyday was like that!

Today got violin lesson. Sigh, I played like crap :/
When I left the house, it was raining D:

Sora ga naiteru
空が泣いてる

Anyways, I'm all well today :D Not sick anymore :D

I guess I'll just stop here. Ja ne

You knew too many things
And I wish I could eradicate your memories to make you innocent once more

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Finally, Prelims are over :D

But today's MCQs, I screwed Chem MCQ D:
But thank God, Physics was okay (:

I think I should do more practice on Chemistry MCQ. My Chem MCQ is worrying, My Chem MCQ usually do worse than Physics which shouldn't be the case since my Chem is supposed to be much better than Physics. Anyways, I really hope I can pass Physics D: I don't dare to wish for more because I just don't think I can do any better..

Today's also a horrible day for me.
I woke up having throat infection, headache, stomachache.
And when I was doing the papers just now, I felt so uncomfortable *moans*

Now that I'm at home, I actually want to spend my time relaxing today, watch anime blahblahblah. But I guess I should swallow a Panadol and go catch some sleep later. Having slight fever @ 37.9degrees Celsius. Just awhile ago, Ahyi was like scolding me for some lame stuff.

Hello. Can you just leave me alone for today?

I'm feeling horrible already so please stop your nonsense!!

I think I'm having some emotion disorder right now.
I'm sick and tired. I know there are people out there who's way more tired than me, and I may not have the right to say I'm tired, but I really am.

Dad, Mum, please come

If you have ever felt sorry

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LEFT WITH TOMORROW! :D

Today's EMath paper was do-able! Really hope can do well! ^.^
But I guess there's no meaning in doing well for a paper that everyone's scoring in D:

Block periods are gonna start soon! And after 9th October, NO MORE SCHOOOOL! But it means that Os are getting nearer and nearer *moans*

Sigh, later still got English Tuition -.- SIGHSIGH.
I have to go do homework le! Ja ne

the departures never felt sadder anymore

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It's been awhile since I last blogged!!
Haha this week, had a lot of major papers
Had to chiong for the middle leg!! (Last leg is OLevels uh)
But now, we're left with EMath Paper 2 and Physics&Chem MCQ :D

Amath P2: Half Okay
Geography (Physical): Not bad
Chemistry: Okay
History: Half Okay
Physics: DEAD DEAD DEAD

If I were to pass Physics, I think the sky would drop.
I died doing the Physics Paper today. I hope my MCQ will do well!! I really don't want to see myself fail Physics D: MCQ GOGOGO!

Okay, that's an update about Prelims.

Today, I was studying downstairs with Jorene. We did EMath and talked a lot of crap at the same time. Jorene's SUPER LAME!! Lololols

"You felt weak. Your chest felt tight"

WE LAUGHED. HAHAHAHAHA

Have I ever believed you?

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Lol. I love Natural Vegetation!
I enjoy studying it. But the other themes uh............ -.-

Yesterday night, was studying with Jelene, Candice, Genson and his friend. They seriously make a good couple. When they bicker, they're super funny! Hahaha xD I had a good laugh and it made my stomache hurt like crap. Lol! :/

Today, I went to Airport with Ahyi and Mei. SIGH.

And I'm really looking forward to this coming Friday! I want Prelims to be over quickly! Haha and Mum's coming to Singapore soon :D Thank God she's coming after Prelims. Maybe I can go out with her! ^.^ Sigh, I have to start paying people lots of money. I wanna work! But.. The days are still long before Olevels are over.

Actually we're only left with 43 days. toki doki.

一分感动，二分触动，三分蠕动，四分跳动，五分浮动，
六分泼动，七分心动，八分震动，九分萌动，十分激动。

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DIED. 2more days and school starts.
AMATHS AND GEOG FIRST! ARGH.
I'm gonna die for both.

Anyways, past few days, I've been studying with people downstairs. Lololol yesterday was the super crowded one. Got Candice, Cheryl, Genson&his friend, Jelene, Jing Qun, Jorene, Lyvia and Me! Hahahaha :D In the morning was super productive for me. But as time goes by............. LOL.

Nothing much luh. Just gonna stop here!

if they were ever true

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Yesterday, I went downstairs to study with Jorene. Quite productive! Cuz I didn't slack :D But I feel that I didn't do much :/

Today uh, I'm still at home right now. I didn't go downstairs to study. Maybe I should. Because my lappie would just tempt me more and make me not do any work :/

Sometimes I wish I was hero. I wish I could do everything. I wish a was a genius. So that I didn't have to study but still be able to do well in my studies. And I can satisfy people and make them happy. I could have played with Mei everyday, bring her down for swimming everyday, bring her to airport everyday, do house work everyday, clean up the house everyday, and at the same time, I'm able to ace in studies.

But I'm not.
And I wish I was.

It's been a long time I cried so much. Crying for being incompetent, uselss and helpless. Then Xiao Gu came to talk to me and she said she was surprised. Sometimes she really gives a lot of advice :D Crying makes you feel so much better. Although it doesn't help you solve anything :/

Seriously.
Life sucks.
JKMNow.
Stop pressurizing me with everything. I tried to balance my studies and family stuff. I tried to do as much as I can, but I'm still unable to do everything and satisfy you.

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I wasted my whole time today. Doing nothing productive :/

In the morning, I was watching some videos on young prodigies. Lol. They're great.

Lol there was class today. And I'm starting to be able to talk to the people in our class without feeling so shy. Haha. And we had mini test. I played like crap -.- I was too nervous and my feet and hands ended up shaking so much that I couldn't play properly. LOLS. I practised so much at home but ended up uh.. LOL.

I played:
#1. Old Castle
- Slower song. Have to hold some notes. Tune is high.
- My hands shook as I was holding some notes, and I couldn't play the high notes properly :/

#2. Patrick's reel
- Fast song.
- My beat was messed up when I was playing some parts :/

#3. Carrion Crow
- Duet with Komala.
- LOLS. Okay. But my hand shook a bit and no dynamics.

SIGHSIGH.
Anyways, yesterday I went to Komala's house to practise violin and the duet song with her to prepare for today's test. And then she played a song on her guitar for me to hear! So nice! And after we finish practising violin, then she showed me some concert videos. Featuring Yanni (a guy who plays violin super well) Woo! That guy was like uber awesome :D I really aspire to be a good violinist one day! ^.^ Haha but I'm not sure if I'm able to financially support myself. Cuz as you get to higher grades, it gets more expensive :/ But I really hope I can anyways :D Xiao Gu said I improved! Haha but I've been learning for quite awhile already.. It'll be REALLY bad if I didn't improve.

And next year, we're taking exams. It's gonna cost about $300.. Lol!

Then today, I started thinking again why I wanted to learn to play violin. Haha! I guess it's because I want to be able to play nice classical music cuz I love classical music! ^.^

And this December holidays, if I don't go back Indo, I'm gonna learn to play the guitar! :D I'm really excited! There's so many things I want to do after Os. So I hope I wouldn't have to go back :D

song of the wind

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I seriously hate prelims.
It drives people nuts.

Have been really busy these days preparing for exams.. So I couldn't find the time to sit down and use my lappie. Anyway, it's not essential. Lol. Not like I'm doing anything productive with my lappie right now. Haha

Social Studies - SCREWED UP.
HCL Paper 1 - Okay luh.
HCL Paper 2 - Died.
EMath Paper 1 - Tough but Okay?
AMath Paper 1 - Okay luh.
Geog Paper 2 - Died.

Yup, so that's about it.
Geog came out a lot of Data Based questions. Where people can all score but I JUST CAN'T. It's my weakest T.T And if come out Data Based uh, actually don't really need to study cuz the answers are there. So whatever I've studied, has gone into the drain. And too bad. And I just feel like crying out loud cuz I'm gonna die for Geog.

Finally holidays are starting! I needa break. But I don't think it'll be one.

thank you for crying out loud

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