Work work work. I think I'm considering going back to Ajisen to work if I can't find work by the end of May. Familiar environment (hopefully still comfortable) and maybe a little more flexible for me.

I doubt I can earn much this holiday. But oh well, I'll just try to save as much.

Yesterday, went to bake at Wenz's house with Carol, Chris and Melissa :) Haha it's fun to bake together! Maybe we might another session like this next week!

Then met up with PNY to go to Marina Barrage to meet Elvis and Vanessa. Hahaha double date with them. Played card games and cchill a a bit there :) Sigh, PNY and Elvis are both so lame together that....... Idk what to say!! Haha leaving Vanessa and me like speechless sometimes.

Anyways, I wish my mum/dad will come soon. When my mum's here, I can hang out with her, I won't be going out much with other people, I don't have to spend money on travelling to far places etc. Sorry friends, I sometimes feel hesitant to go out because I am that poor. Honestly, I'm borrowing money to fund my ez link card now. I feel bad for being hesitant, but I sincerely hope you guys will understand.

Next week will be a good week. Hopefully.

&the pages keep turning.

Almost 2 weeks into the holidays and I haven't found a job. Argh.
Maybe I've been too picky. Idk.
But my schedule is slightly messed up this holiday because of some of the commitments that I have and that's why I find it hard to find jobs that fit into my schedule as well :/ How how.

Last week, a few of us went to KL to visit Ivan. Haha he's really nice to host us (so we save on accommodation expenditure). In total we spent about $160 for 3D2N (or more like 2D2N) and now I'm officially broke. Lol seriously broke.

The trip was quite an epic one with a couple of live-life-on-the-edge moments. Like Ming Tjong missing the bus and hence he had to rush to Tuas by himself. He was late for about 10 minutes but the bus could only wait for 5 minutes. The bus company lady didn't allow us to wait for him to arrive and didn't allow him to board at Tuas initially so we were all quite panicky in the bus. Fortunately, the bus driver allowed him to meet us at Tuas (without the lady knowing lol)

During the trip, when we were coming back to Singapore and on our way to the bus station, we reached just in time, 3pm, to catch the bus. There was traffic jam in KL and instead of taking a usual 30 minutes ride, it took us 1 hour to get to Ivan's house to get our stuff to go to the bus station. Quite a miscalculation. Haha.

And Ming Tjong being Ming Tjong had occasions where he left his wallet in Ivan's house and we had to drive back home etc which shrunk the time we spent out. Haha! And we name such incidents when Ming Tjong is forgetful, "Doing a Ming Tjong" Hahahahhaha. And he got disturbed by us quite a lot when something goes wrong/unexpected during the trip.

Haha it's quite cool hanging with these bunch of people :) I think we learnt more about each other and stuff during this trip too! ^^

Towards the end of the trip, I felt really miserable because I didn't bring enough money to Malaysia and hence my friends had to pay for me some of my meals. Sigh.




Overall, I think it was a fun trip! It's my first trip overseas with so many friends. Last year's Hunan trip was with Jorene and her family, so just one friend in that trip. We went Sunway Lagoon, Batu Caves, shopped a little at Sunway Pyramid and Berjaya Times Square and had lots of good food! Being in KL makes me miss home back in Indonesia a little because I super love my hometown food. Indonesia food FTW!

Anyway, regarding this holidays, I'm not gonna go back Indonesia! Had a somewhat long talk with my mum (6 minutes over the phone with her is seriously damn long for us. Haha) initially the phone call ended up with no conclusion until she called back awhile later and I told her my holiday plans once again and she just said that I don't need to go back. Just let my sis and nanny go back. Which means no more breakfast, lunch and dinner for me at home >.< Argh, where is my meal money gonna come from if I haven't found work. Omgzxasdfzx.

I'll figure it out somehow.

The holidays started out pretty busy for me, going out with PNY a lot, going for interviews, going for KL trip (drained all my money away), going back to school for meetings etc. My ez-link card amount is draining really quickly. I'm seriously too poor. Omgzxasdfzx.

Haha to prevent myself from getting any poorer, PNY and I go on budget dates. I practically spent nothing :D I feel really happy when I don't spend anything for the week. We went to ACM last Wednesday! Whoa, feel so cultured all of a sudden. Hahahah. I don't think I'm the museum-type of person but I must say it was interesting to look at the artifacts and stuff at the museum!

Last last weekend, we had BSFT I! Wow, the new bunch of recruits are quite a dynamic bunch. They bond among themselves quite well. Haha I'm considered a senior in SF already after these people are recruited :)

&the pages keep turning.

Today's the official check-out day for us.
I'm only at home for a couple of hours but I already miss Angsana! Not that going back there now or tomorrow will allow me to meet friends since almost everyone else checked out too...

I had breakfast and lunch with my level peeps! Haha our last breakfast and lunch together for the Semester. It's always awesome to eat with them :) (Oops, although there was a little dilemma about sitting with Ni Yi and his green house mates or he sit with me and my floormates, well we decided on parting. Haha.) I'll miss them so much over this holiday!!

Can't wait to get a job soon. I really need a lot of money. Haha.

Chings took cab home with me and he helped me carry my stuff home. Ahhh, feel so touched that he helped me even though it was probably because he stays in the east too and wanted to look at my house gym and pool. I had a lot of stuff and he carried most of them for me. Such a great friend! T.T And when he entered my house, just nice xiaogu was at home and surprisingly, she was really welcoming. I always had the impression that she doesn't like to have strangers in the house and hence I actually seldom bring a friend to our home for the fear that she might not like it and scold me. But, she was welcoming and wanted me to offer Chings a drink (unfortunately we didn't have any drinks except plain water :/ Sorry about that)

Yup, thank you Chings!

I took really long to unpack my stuff. But yay, I am done :)
I also feel happy looking at the little/big notes that my beloved friends wrote for me over the semester :) Addition to my emotional bank account!


Anyway, exams ended a week ago for me and I actually don't know what I've been doing for the past week if you ask me. Somehow time passed really fast. Maybe because I was spending time with a certain someone (really?) Haha.

The exams were rather okay. Difficult, but I guess... Still manageable.
I really just hope that I don't get anymore B- or C/C+ :(
My expectations for myself are pretty low... Hmmmm.

I've been really happy recently. Many good things happened and I feel cherished, I feel wanted, I feel like I could open up to someone else, debunking my myth about never being able to move on again. I found someone who's better at me in asking questions. Haha. I know it is still the honeymoon period, but I'm thankful for everything that has happened and thankful that the person might have just appeared at the right time :)

&the pages keep turning.

I think I'm beginning to have expectations.
Those expectations that would make me a little sad and disappointed at times.

But how can I not have expectations? Can someone teach me?

&the pages keep turning.

Yay! My exams are gonna be done in 2 days time :D
Monday 7pm! Looking forward to it so badly! Haha.
But after Tuesday's Cognitive Psy paper (the bane of my life at that point), I felt like..... Exams over lo. Hahahahah. The most intense paper. Zzz.

Had a chat with one of my closer friend last night and this friend shared about some of the problems that have been accumulated for a long period of time and perhaps it has come to a point of... little tolerance left.

Just like how this friend is going through this phase, I had this feeling of little tolerance for a brief period of time. Always wondering that in the long run, I'm not gonna cope with it, but how can I let go? How can I let go of those happy memories? How can I let go of someone I'm so used to having?

No matter how much hurt we feel, what makes us carry on?

The attention that we don't wanna lose? The habit of having the other party there almost there and then whenever you need him/her? None of us seemed to be able to answer this question.

Habits... make us addicted to things which we should allow to go.

Then we talked about God's words about sacrificial love and the other types of love and it made me think of whether there is true love or sacrificial love and perhaps that can only come from God but not from humans like us who have greed, desires, lust, pride.

The conversation that we had just makes me feel that I'm sorry, but please let me be selfish this time.

Please forgive me.

&the pages keep turning.