Today's lessons were Okay :D
Chinese and English (suprisingly) lessons were kinda hilarious xD
For A&EMath, we did a lot of practice questions and I think I liked the lesson too cuz I don't mind doing Maths actually :D

Bus-ed home with Livia. She's really nice to take Bus 31 with me when Bus 10 was just right in front of her :D We talked about a lot things and I enjoy talking about our futures! The future is so near, yet so far! Cuz you don't know what it's gonna be like! 好期待! :D

Anyways, I'm currently listening to Tang Yu Zhe's songs :D Love it loads! I never knew his songs were that nice! I bought his first album quite long time ago and it was like.. So-so? And I stopped listening to his songs but after I realised that he got a 2nd album and I tried listening to it just now, the songs are not bad! :D

because you have never truly turn and listen to me
because your heart is just about you and only you

&the pages keep turning.

Woo! The first day of school!

Lol. The place where Joyce sits, her corner, is like a GAMBLING DEN. For Livia, Joyce, Jing Yi, Hui Qi, Jocelyn and Me to gamble. Lol xD If there was any free time in between periods, our life starts xD Hahaha. Anyways, I keep losing luh. Lol. Lousy me. Haha

And it's clearly known that I just can't shut the hell up. Although my new term resolution is to be quieter, but it seems that, it had failed on the very first day of school.

Today, lessons were kinda disrupted because of announcements, temperature taking session and H1N1 talk. Sigh. This virus is really causing a big woo-ha in Singapore :/

I'm looking forward to bai wan da ge xing later at 7.55pm on Channel U! Must watch! Cuz today, Joe Cheng and Ariel Lin is gonna be on the show! YEA :D

today is a gloomy day
because the skies are grey

&the pages keep turning.

Tomorrow's the start of a new term *moans*

I got even more sick today. Running nose comes in. My cough is quite bad D: Ahyi asked me to see a doctor.. But, it's the first day of school tomorrow. I don't really want to miss it. Maybe Tuesday. Lol xD Anyways, hope I'll get better soon luh :D

A new term, a new beginning,
a new hope, a new faith, a new goal!

For this new term, I have a new calculator, a new handphone (still quite new, it's less than a month old!), a new pair of school shoes! And I changed my blogskin and blog song too! :D A lot of new things huh :D I took quite a bit time to design the picture. Had to find 5 pictures, change colour of those pictures, cut and paste, then put them in a strip. I love it a lot :D Initially, I wanted to use the blue sky, but I ended up changing the colour of the blue sky to green. Lol xD Just for a change once in awhile :D

Okay, some new term resolution

#1. I shall not procrastinate.
#2. I shall do filing every weekend.
#3. I shall be quieter (I wonder if it's really possible. lol)

Yup, so that's about it!
it's a new term! JIAYOU VIVI! :D

always having big dreams,
but the flame to ignite it is too small

&the pages keep turning.

Konbanwa!
I haven't been doing anything for the past few days. I'm wasting my holidays (like the usual) I wish the holidays could be extended. 1 more day to go! Argh. I'm sick. Down with cough and sorethroat. How nice it's H1N1. I've been getting sick a lot this year. I think I'm getting weaker year by year. Haha

Today's class was okay. The guys can play quite well! Compared to me :/ I'm bad with the notes on A string and at home, my hand won't shake when I bow, but during class, my hand always shake. Sigh. I need more practice D: Still got a lot more to improve on!

ii desu

&the pages keep turning.

Haha. I feel like I'm wasting my life away.
I didn't do anything yesterday and today. Just watching anime and more anime. At least I finish most of my homework already.. On Tuesday, Jorene, Joyce, Livia and Me went to Jing Yi's house to study and have fun. BUT, we ended up playing cards/watching Disturbia -.- (oh except Jorene, she did AMath. Lol)

I'm kinda disappointed with myself. Haha cuz I expected myself to do maths papers, really. Lol. But instead, I ended up playing. We also played Pool there :D Super fun! But I suck at it. Haha, can't control my hand very well D:

Sighsigh. I guess I just wanted to enjoy myself for awhile.. When school reopens, there's gonna be a hell load of homework and revision, revision and more revision. I hate life. Too stressful.

When I'm pumped up to do something, I can get really serious. But when I'm lazy, you just can't make me do anything. I'm Queen of Laziness. I wonder if it's a bad or good thing. HAHAHA

asobi masho

&the pages keep turning.

Slept quite late yesterday :/ 12plus. But I woke up like 7plus. I wonder why I'm not feeling tired at all. I was supposed to do Heymath just now. Lol, I ended up playing Viwawa and guess what? I lost all the games. Lol, except once. I think it's fated that I have to do homework if not I'll continue losing :/

Anyways, yesterday was a super good day for me!
Joyce, Jorene, Jocelyn, Jing Yi, Livia, Xin Fang and Me went to da ZOO! :D Thanks Jorene for inviting us with free tickets :D I had loads of fun there and I realised that I like monkeys! Lols. If I was reborn as an animal, I wanna be a monkey :D And I can swing from tree to tree! Lol, and the photos that I took yesterday, most of them were photos of monkey -.- I'm kinda lazy to upload all the photos now, so next post bah!

I had a great time there! And I took a picture with Carlus(how ever you spell his name) It's a SEAL! Everytime I look at the picture, I always smile! Not that I look nice in the photo or what, but I feel like it takes all my sadness away :D We went to watch Splash Safari, where penguins and Carlus, the seal perform and stuff. I love seeing seals performing! Awesome awesome! Joyce also took one with Carlus :D We got sweet and nice kiss from Carlus on our head xD

Oh we also Obento-ed at da ZOO. Lololol :D

Okay, that's about my day ^.^

You asked me who it was regarding. Although I didn't give you any answer, I was really happy when you asked and was actually concerned. But, when I woke up, it was then I realised that it was only a dream that had never been fulfilled.

&the pages keep turning.

Lol. I'm here early in the morning again :D

Vivi realised that she's a big time idiot.
I think I shouldn't try so hard for friendships anymore cuz whatever I try hard in, they always get screwed up. In the end, I'm the one who gets hurt like an idiot. Yea, like an idiot. I should have heeded Xin Fang's advice earlier on. She asked me to let go of things but I told her that I couldn't do it. And so now, I regretted. I thought that I could muster all my courage and change things, but I guess it's just not possible. When you're not fated to be friends with this person, no matter how hard you tried, it'll never work out huh.

I tried really hard to stay up for another 2 hours last night. I did it :D An achievement. I have never done this, not even New Year's Eve. Lol. But anyways, in the end, I'm still left alone, disappointed. Although many things happened for the past 2 weeks and it made me kinda down, but I haven't been this upset before like now.

I give up. I don't have the perseverance anymore. Although it has only been a day! Lol one day and I give up. What a failure.

Today's gonna be an emo day :D Good for homework :D Ja

&the pages keep turning.

If I keep staying away from everything,
keep supressing my feelings,
keep running away,
I'll suffocate and die.

watashi no kororo wa shinjau yo

&the pages keep turning.

I think I'm contradicting myself.
I shouldn't be blogging so often cuz said I wouldn't be. Argh.

When I woke up, I knew I was expecting something
But I was left alone, disappointed

I just felt like blogging early in the morning. Not in the mood to do anything right now. I had no appettite to eat my breakfast too. But I guess, it's gonna be over soon. Just wait for another 15hours. It'll be over. I wanted to..
Yesterday, went Airport with Ahyi and Mei. Lol, I don't get it why Mei likes it there so much. We watched the planes, had lunch, blahblahblah. Then Ahyi demanded that I go buy Kway Tiao from NTUC at TM cuz before we left the airport, she actually asked me to go to Sheng Shiong to get that Kway Tiao. But hello, I was busy in the morning!

I was super pissed during lunch. Ahyi knew that I had something on at Expo after we left Airport but they ate slowly, and she said she don't know how to go home from the Airport. So I had to wait for them, see them eat their food slowly -.- When we reached Tampines MRT, we quickly parted ways and I ended up taking Cab home and to Expo. Lucky I not late for the YOG thing. I really want to get the YOG application! Argh Crap.

I really hate it when people PURPOSELY CREATE PROBLEMS FOR ME.
I'm trying my best not to create problems for others so I hope that she will stop creating problems for me! I have been letting things go her way. I don't want to quarrel with her and create a big wooha and she'll start scolding me and say I rude and stuff. I didn't even show a black face when she demanded me to go buy the Kway Tiao yesterday. I just listened to radio and tried to calm myself down cuz I was really pissed. Tsk. She could have bought it herself luh. She got so much time in the world while I have something on after that. Tsk.

Then after that, went to Hall2 for the YOG thing. Lol, I was alone there, so I didn't do much, just walk around aimlessly and trying to answer the questions that was in the YOG Passport. There was this phototaking thing and after taking a photo, you can collect the photo and stick it on this big board-like-thing. But in the end, I waited for about 1.5hours till 5pm and I still couldn't find the photo, so I decided to leave and go for City Harvest Church service. Jing Qun's friends were really welcoming and nice :D

I think the whole service was really awesome :D Lots of celebrities came :D And Miss Indonesia is so pretty! :D She's got a nice voice too! Ocean Ou look like he put on some weight. Lols. F.I.R, Jacelyn, Vaness Wu and some others came. Kinda cool :D

The whole thing ended at 8.30pm and once again, I got scolded by Ahyi -.- Cuz I told her it ended at 7.30pm. But nevermind, I'm so used to her scoldings already. Ohya, the service yesterday reminded me of Hillsong Concert that was hosted my New Creation Church. But I didn't cry yesterday. I remembered when I went to the Hillsong one, when the pastor was saying some prayers, I suddenly just teared and the lady beside me hugged me really tightly. Lol, I will never forget that moment. Haha

Ohman. What a long post with all words.

&the pages keep turning.

WOOHOOO! Chemistry SPA is OVER! :D Finally, holiday is gonna start! Actually not really.. Lol Livia and I calculated the number of hours we have to spend to finish up our homework. At least 20hours! Lol I think I'm going crazy. But no choice, Sec4 le D:

After the SPA Paper, Jorene, Sherlynn, Livia and Me went to Vivo to walk walk! We went to DAISO :D I just love it there :D There's so many things to see :D I bought a bento box and an ocha cup! ^.^

Anyways, I've been listening to the radio recently! I'm glad my new handphone has radio :D Symphony 92.4 is a good channel :D They play VERY NICE classical music. Love it!

In the afternoon, went out with Ahyi and Mei to TM NTUC. Lol spent like over $100 on groceries! Hahaha I kinda feel happy today :D I wish everyday could be like that!

When we reached home, I watched the anime episodes that I missed cuz got no laptop for the past week. Sigh. I watch Bleach until I want to sleep T.T But Naruto Shippuuden is getting interesting, cuz Sasuke is appearing! Hahahaha :D

the wings that never soar

&the pages keep turning.

Lol. Once again, I broke a record. I'm in Singapore now, but I haven't been posting for more than a week. Wowowowow. But I don't think I'll blog that much in the next two weeks. Sigh. There's lots of holiday homework to be completed. This ain't a holiday, seriously.

And I need to buck up. Improve. Get back my motivation.

OHYA :D Xin Fang lent me a drama serial :D Fated to Love You! Haha it's a not-bad-drama :D Quite funny. And Ruan Jing Tian is SUPER SHUAI!! OHMAN. I just love seeing his smile!

Anyways, It's finally the end of Holiday Supplementary Classes :D I kinda hate the fact that we had to come to school everyday for 2 weeks D: I wish my life wasn't revolving around school and studies.. Today, we had Olevel Physics SPA Paper.. Hope I didn't make any careless mistake D:

Sometimes I wonder..
Am I really working hard enough? Why am I getting these kind of results? What do you call working hard? There's so many questions to ask but I'm not enlightened at all D: Then again, I wonder why do I have to work so hard? I don't get anything in return, maybe only I feel happy for myself and nothing else. I wish I could be more childish.

We got back report book last week. My results deteriorated compared to last term (obviously) and my L1R5 went up by 3 D: Sigh, what can I do to improve? I want to improve, but how?

These few days, I haven't been eating and sleeping well too. I've been thinking of too many things and I feel like my mind is gonna explode soon. I wish someone could be there. Sec4 life makes me go crazy!!

Tomorrow's Chemistry SPA Paper! Hope that everything will be fine :D

ungranted wishes

&the pages keep turning.

I haven't posted for about a week. Lol. Broke a record. Haha
Anyway I didn't blog cuz I was watching My Lucky Star :D 5STARS!! Recommended!

Not many things happened these few days.. Tuesday, we got back Physics, Geog and History papers. For Physics, I realised that as long as I practised and work smarter, I can do it de! Really happy when I got back the paper and I found out that it was careless mistake :D At least I know that my efforts wasn't wasted ^.^ I'm super happy for History results too :D

Wednesday and Thursday was just a normal school day.. Library Duty blahblah

Friday, we had Choir Farewell Lunch! :D I've got really nice juniors who folded stars for the seniors until they hurt their hand and had to plaster their fingers! Very very touched T.T Zhi Jun and Me then stayed back to watch Choir practice a little while. I missed Choir so much.. Not so much of the practices but the people D:At night, went for VJCO concert. Wow, my first time listening to CO yeh. Awesome. When I stepped into VJ, watched the performance, I feel that I just wanna get in VJ! :D

Saturday morning, I went Bugis with Jorene. Needed to buy some clothes for Church. Afternoon got lesson and there was this part where Ms Xiao was playing part of a song. She played very nice, with vibrato and stuff. Then somebody from the class said, "How long do we still need to play?" Haha, cuz we're like only beginners, and can't play such nice songs. Haha

Yesterday, I did the ushering at Youth :D First time experience. Kinda interesting :D Also, I cooked Soba for dinner :D Love it! :D Today, I went to meet a friend. Wow, I was really shocked. We talked about a lot of things that was really unexpected and somehow saddening..

I thought through a lot of things.. I don't want to be the bad guy but I think I have to be, just for you D: I want to find other solutions. SIGH

i saw her tears,
what has happened to the you that i used to know

&the pages keep turning.