I think I didn't really expect myself to take up Hak 14. I remembered when the Wei Liang and Sherman asked me to lead Hak 14, I immediately said no, without any hesitance because of my financial strain. But I guess when there's a will, there's a way :) I'll somehow save enough money for the trip since I already made my mind to do so!


But I'm glad I stood up to the role, together with Nicholas and Siew Yan. We're really excited about the project! And working with this two crazies, I'm sure it'll be a fun experience! ^^ Looking forward to everything!

Ahh at first I thought there was an interview with the Rotaract Club peeps but lucky don't have! Me no like interviews :( And I thought talking to the Hak 13 leaders would be like an interview too, but luckily it's not..!! Instead, we had a long chat with the Hak 13 leaders after the SCAPE sharing and they passed down to u information on how to go about doing the project, what might crop up along the way etc etc. I think the Hak 13 leaders really did a great job and there's so many things/systems that should remain. And my expectation of how organised an OCIP should be is really high now so I'll do my best to maintain that standard in Hak 14 as well!

After that, the three of us had a long long long dinner at Watami at Raffles City. Yay! We're so efficient! :D It's our first meeting we talked about real work and we did manage to churn out quite a few ideas so it was good. And we're excited about implementing them :)

It's really fun to talk to the both of them! They're like so enthusiastic ^^ Seldom see that kind of fire in people these days you know. So happy :)

Oh by the way, I'm kinda obsessed with Let Her Go by Passenger now! #random

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I don't want to forget any moment of this day, so I really want to blog about this!

I like how NY and I spent VDay :) Nothing conventional as a young couple. Neither did I receive any flowers nor did we dress nicely to for an expensive dinner. But yup, what couples do on this day shouldn't be compared because everyone has different love languages and enjoys different things. And VDay could just be every day ^^

We decided to go camping at ECP and I thoroughly enjoyed myself! Even though I was cranky and angsty in the day, but in the evening, something amazing happened. Hahahaha the shuttle bus to Aquarius came. I felt like we were really so lucky and hence my mood picked up since then. Sorry that it was such a trivial reason ._. But I guess little things like this can just make me happy :O

So we reached ECP at about 7.30pm or so. Wasted that we missed sunset. And then pitched our tent, went to rent two overnight bikes and cycled around to find food for dinner! We decided to stop by a claypot rice place! And yay, photo together :)


Then we cycled more, occasionally trying to cycle near each other so that we could hold hands, stopped on the way to rest a bit, enjoy the view and breeze. I love ECP so much! It feels so calming just by being there. Then went back to our tents, parked the bike there, walked on the sand barefooted (the sand is really soft :O) and we sat on the breakwaters, just chatting away.

Lying on each other's laps feels really comfortable, looking at the stars and clouds, trying to figure out the objects that the clouds look like, telling him about the cloud castle that I always see when I was younger, talking about random, serious topics like the universe :O It was very relaxing and I almost fell asleep as he was talking too (sorry dear!)

I felt quite tired at about 3 plus so I requested for him to do me a card magic trick (since he pre-empted that he had a trick under his sleeve! Hehe). This time I got Queen of Hearts. Hahahahah and he says "You are the Queen of my Heart." It was so cheesy that I burst out laughing. Hahah! Ahh but it was so cute of Ni Yi to be able to think of such stuffs. I don't think I can ever be creatively cheesy.


Soon after that, at like 4+am, we were too tired already and KO-ed in the tent (duh it's camping!). SIGH, we missed sunrise the next morning too. Trusted too much on the internet which told us that sunrise was at 7.16am and we only set the alarm at 7am. The sky was already too bright then :(

Slept for awhile before we returned our bikes at about 8am. And after that, we fell back to sleep again. Haha. It started to get really hot cuz the sun was out at full blast by 8plus so I couldn't sleep anymore and went out of the tent to enjoy some breeze.


Such a pretty sight early in the morning and ahhh so cooling and nice! Love the winds there! Wish I could be there forever.

After waking up, washing up and packing up, we headed to Century Square to catch a movie. And lucky! 1-for-1 for Safra card members is still available. So we caught The Awkward Moment at 3pm. Not a really interesting movie :( But well, the company is what matters! Haha. Then we had to part ways already cuz he had friend's house visiting and more work to complete.

Spending too much time with someone really makes one miss that person more when it's finally time to part ways. Like some kind of lovesick, withdrawal symptoms. Maybe it's just a girl thing. Cuz every time we just part ways, and moments later, I would text NY to say that I miss him because I really do, he'd just reply "but we just met." Haha. Must be a girl thing. And then I wonder how much he'd think of me sometimes but at the back of my head, I thought, "He should be doing work, he probably has no time to think of me." As Sherman said, "The brain of a guy ah... Is like waffles. Can only think of one thing at a time. Cannot multi task. Very compartmentalised." Haha whereas for girls, as we're doing work, we can emo and think about someone so much.

#mightbereallytrueomg

Then Wen Yi made this comment yesterday, "Haha so funny. You know when guy jio girl and when get in relationship become girl miss guy more?" Okay I'll rephrase this. Guys think about a girl so much when he's still in pursuit of the girl, but once he succeeded, it becomes the other way around.

#mightbereallytrueomg

Haha. The workings of a guy's and girl's brain is really different. Sometimes I feel a little down, thinking about how I could miss him more than he misses me. Haha. But can't be helped when it's biological differences though! #whatcanido Maybe just try miss him less? Hahahahah.

It's almost our 7th month together. In a day's time. Time passes so slowly! It always feels like we've known each other for a long time idk why. But God made it such a way that we can spend more time together if time passes slowly huh?

We also had a little chat about our relationship and relationships in general on the train while we're on our way to Tampines. Seeing people posting on Instagram about their VDay and conveying things like "I love you" to their other halves makes me think about our relationship. Because we have never really said "I love you" to each other before so I asked him for his reason and he asked for mine. We both agreed that "love" seems too extreme. And he added on that "we haven't even been together for a year. If we're gonna stay together for a really long time and if I say I love you now, then next time I have nothing to say to you already. And the "I love you" loses its meaning if it's said too many times."

I concur.

"And maybe my 'like' is the same as other people's 'love'."

Awwwwww :) Hahahaha.
I still do feel a bit envious of those who receive "I love you"s though. But of course, better not to say it when you don't really mean it in that way. But I guess I'm the kind of girl who needs a lot of reassurance through words and actions, if not my mind would always wander. I'm such a difficult girl to deal with (IKR). Don't know how NY can stand me sometimes! Haha! Oh well. Guess I'd have to deal with this problem of mine somehow.

Anyway, this NY never never never fails to make me laugh with all these tricks under his sleeves. Hahahah. Such a joy being with him and he has brought me so much happiness. Even though he last minute plans stuffs (because he's such a procrastinator) everything always seem to fall together really nicely. Hahahahahha. Until today, I still find it amazing how our relationship is actually his first because he handles the relationship really well! He tries to understand me when I'm unhappy about something and always tries to make me feel better, like hugging me (although my prideful self always won't be satisfied and will continue to sulk).

There's really so many things that I am sorry about. I'm sorry about the way I am - petty and prideful - and all the other fall backs I have and how annoying I can be at times (like singing Frozen songs, but I can't get those songs out of my head :/). I honestly also don't know how he can stand me. Sometimes I do a lot of self-reflection about myself because I think me being petty and prideful is not nice at all and I make an effort to be less petty and less prideful. I'm still working on it but I don't know when I'll ever be "not petty and prideful" though :/ Sigh.

Any any wayz, I'm a very fortunate girl and I thank God and all of physics, biology and chemistry for allowing me to meet such an amazing person. Like maybe some electrical signals only get triggered when I see him which makes me eventually have feelings for him. Haha. I want to treasure this guy because it was such fate to have met him and I like this guy many many! May all happiness, memories and lessons learnt be treasured and any obstacles that has crossed paths with us be handled with care, with understanding and with much thought!

Wooo. I took a few hours to finish blogging this. Too many thoughts. I don't think this is all though. But I guess it's enough for now! :) Cheers~

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Happy F/V Day everyone! (As if anybody reads. If you're reading, you're my everyone :))

I don't know why but I feel exhausted this week. Which made me not have much appetite to enjoy food. You know how I'd usually swoon over food. But this week, I really don't feel anything like that. I don't even feel like eating. Haven't been having proper dinners the past 3 nights. Might be just the lack of sleep.

So I tried to sleep more last night, but nope, 6 - 7 hours is not enough.

Woke up in a really cranky mood this morning. With NY's stupid alarm ringing early in the morning at 7am. And if it was switched off immediately, I wouldn't have been woken up by it. And the fact that I had to get out of the bed to switch it off, it made me feel like crap.

And then NY was being indecisive about going to class or not. I can't stand people being indecisive about stuff early in the morning. And then he couldn't decide if he wanted to eat breakfast with me or not. If don't want, just say don't want uh.

I'm just having DMS - During Menstrual Syndrome - I think.

Or I'm just really tired. Next week's gonna be a hell of a week too.
I should really cheer up. I know shouldn't ruin F/V Day...

Yesterday, I baked with Wen Yi! So thankful we have an oven in our neighbourhood's pantry. Very functional and useful! And thankful that she'd take some of her time off to help me with the baking. She's more pro than me at baking cuz she bakes pretty often! Or at least more often than me. And then at night, I gave some away and went down to the Theme Room for steamboat + louhei.

I think I've had too much steamboat this CNY ._.

When I went down, it was pretty late already cuz I was back in my room before that to write notes and distribute cupcakes and there wasn't much cooked food left. So I didn't eat and we went on to lou hei soon after. It's nice to see how we're a lot more bonded as a neighbourhood now. But unfortunately for me, I didn't form many new close friends.

Well, it has always been my choice to make/break friends. I can't blame anyone for not having many friends. But it's okay. I think I'm satisfied with the number of friends I have now :)

There was also Zumba class which I attended yesterday :) It was pretty enjoyable and chillax I must say. The teacher is quite cheerful and adorable. Haha! Then went to dining hall to catch NY's performance and the other band performances. I wish there were more of these :) So enjoyable to have dinner with people making music ^^

That's it for now. Ciaos~

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23. Every time you wake up next to them and they’re still sleeping, you get this tiny little flutter of “Oooooh,” and want to do something between kissing them and pinching their cheek and squeezing them so hard they pop. But they look so peaceful, so you let them sleep. 

Excerpt from: http://thoughtcatalog.com/sophie-martin/2013/10/23-little-things-that-let-you-know-youre-in-the-right-relationship/

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Ahh, this week I'm just a bit slow and suay.

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Haven't blogged in the month of January.
Paiseh man. I actually wanted to blog about Laos trip but I was too lazy.

#tryingtolooklikelaogirl

Quite a lot of things went on in the past month.

New members in SF! And this bunch seems keen on staying with us. I feel so touched that they are enthusiastic about SF stuff :)


Finished decorating my room and it's super pretty now :) I love it so much!


I also had my first clubbing experience (outside of FASS OWeek event)! It's actually not as bad as I thought. I hated OWeek's because it was squeezy, people were sticky and music were so darn loud, I wasn't high, I wasn't with the people whom I'm most comfortable with.. Hmm. But this time, I went with Hakkies plus Ni Yi (he came much later though but so thankful that he was there!)! I'm really much more comfortable with this bunch of awesome peeps :) And I thought I didn't dare dance, but I actually did. Hahaha I probably have a wild side to me as well. It wasn't that crowded at Butter Factory that night so it wasn't that that that squeezy. Anyway Ni Yi was always behind me so I didn't mind squeezing him. Hahahahha :D Music was bad though. And I wasn't high. So I just forced myself to be high. But still, it was quite a cool experience :)


Anyways, Lessons have been pretty okay. And I'm having fun in CS1010E especially :) Making programmes are challenging and fun! So far it's quite manageable.. But I guess it'll just get harder and I'm gonna gg soon. Hope I'll survive somehow.

Any any ways, it's Day 2 of CNY.

I miss how CNY was when I was still staying at Dagu & Uncle John's place. Maybe I just don't know how to move on. It feels so much more like a chinese new year, more like... family time. My mum just came yesterday but for the whole time, either both my parents are napping or they're off to the casino.

My only reaction is... SERIOUSLY?

My mum comes to Singapore, during CNY, to go casino. Wow. Instead of spending time with her kids, she goes casino. Previously when she had knee injury, it'd be understandable if she didn't want to go out (but she still went ahead with her casino). I just feel disappointed.. Utterly disappointed.

I want to try hard to talk to her, spend time with her, but why isn't she making the effort to engage me? I don't even know what to do. I know I haven't been trying hard enough but I don't even think my mum is trying at all. Does she even bother?

I miss living with Dagu & Uncle John so so so so much. They're more like normal parents, I feel so much closer to them than to my parents and they understand me so much better than my parents. I could even safely tell them about my boyfriend and other school related stuff. Shows how much more comfortable I am with them compared to my parents.

Anyway my cousin is here too. She came with my mum. I'm thinking like "poor her, she has nothing to do here. My parents didn't bring the kids out since they're busy with their casino." Well, we kids and nanny went out to do some shopping today! Hope she didn't feel too bored.

Another reason why it doesn't feel like CNY was also because usually we go to this uncle's house for mee sua for Day 1 etc. And my other relatives will gather there too. But this year, nope. I basically rot at home the whole of yesterday. I always treasured the time we could spend as an extended family because we seldom meet each other, other than major gatherings.

My impression of CNY has always been... Crowded, loud, lots of laughter etc. But this year, or more like ever since I moved back to our own house in Aquarius, CNYs aren't like that anymore.

The redeeming point of this CNY was I followed Dagu to do some visiting at Uncle Richard's place today! There, all of Uncle John's brothers and sisters gathered :) It was really crowded, loud, lots of laughter etc :) And there was lou hei as well and it was nice seeing my cousin's cousins and other aunts and uncles after a long long long long time of not visiting them ever since I stayed at Aquarius.

And yep, get more ang bao. Hehex ^^

Happy CNY everybahdy~! Hope everyone 马上有钱!

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