"When I see you, I can't help but smile."

:)

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Title: Beware of nice people.

Haha I'm just joking. But really, I witnessed something yesterday which made me think that nice people can be really scary. At Serenity, 2 of my nicest colleagues snapped. The usual smiles they put on their faces, the warm greetings, the friendly conversations we all had, one wouldn't think they would snap, but they did.

But I guess, shit happens all the time.

At least I'm not the receiving end of their snappiness. Haha.

Anyway, whee~! I changed blog song again.
Super obsessed with this song now. Go listen to it!!

Oh ya, about an hour ago, I just came back from meeting Jing. Haha today's just the 2 of us while others are all busy with their own lives. Pepper Lunch dinner again! (It's damn nice, omg) Then headed over to her house and we played guitar/keyboard, sing songs etc.


Hahahah if she was a boy I would have fallen for her.

She plays the guitar so well. I wanna play that well too!
But I lack patience and diligence. HAHA.

Good mornight :)

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我对你有感觉


因为那是我喜欢你的方式。
从来不要求，从来不争取。
那算什么？喜欢吗？爱吗？
或什么都不是？

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There's 2 things I wanna blog about. But I actually forgot the first one..

Second thing, yesterday as I was working at the outside section, I thought it was really nice to see couples sitting by the river (is it a river? Lol) at Habourfront Walk and enjoying night view together. Haha it made me think of wanting a boyfriend. There's no need for conversations and the company is enough. Just enough.

Haha days when I get desperate :P

I just realise, one more month to the end of my office work. Woohoo!

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Yesterday, met up with Wenxiu to accompany her to go back to TJ to collect SGC. Unfortunately, teachers were busy invigilating/went home already so we didn't get to meet any teachers. Well, we had a fruit juice at school. Haha.

Then we went to have Sakae buffet. Something which I have been craving for: SUSHI. Ack, but I realise I eat more of their fried stuff rather than sushi. Haha. Ate until seriously bloated and cannot walk. Omg.

At night, we went to catch The Moth Diaries. It was supposed to be horror. But it wasn't that scary. Some suspense was there, and honestly, I did feel very scared for one scene and I was covering my ears and sometimes my eyes (I'm so easily scared, but can you imagine, I was only scared for one scene, doesn't it make it fail as a horror movie? LOL) Overall I didn't quite like it. The whole movie was quite slow and plot wasn't that intriguing.

It's ironic.

1. I complain when movies are too scary, like Paranormal Activity (I hated it like crazy), but when there's not enough horror, I complain too, like now. Hahahaha.

2. I keep saying that I'm afraid to watch horror, but I'm quite a sadistic person when it comes to bloody (or seem-horror) stuff. So am I really scared of horror? Or I just avoid them? By the way, I LOVE watching bloody anime (I know they're not real humans, but yea, you get my point).

Probably the thing that I don't like about horror is the suspense and sound effect. I don't like anything that shocks me. This reminds me of Paranomal Activity (again) -_- I was practically covering my ears the whole time when it comes to the night scenes. Hate everything about that show to the max.

But still, I am really scared of the dark. I'll imagine like a million and one things in the dark.

Anyway, I kinda want to watch horror. I want some thrill, something that will make me feel like leaving the place but I have no choice but to get through it (like the stupid Paranomal Activity) or maybe something to make me wet my pants. I'm just joking.

Cheers~!

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Title: Kaboomz
I don't know why, but I suddenly got reminded of fireworks.
Fireworks are another magical thing. They make time stop for a moment. Agreed?

Like how we'd drop everything, and just watch it go kaboom! Haha.


My wish one day is to take a good shot of fireworks. I know every day at Sentosa, there'll be firing of fireworks. Maybe, one day, one day..

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I can listen to the guitar part at the start of my blog song like forever.
I should go try to find the guitar score!

Anyway, I'm gonna sign up for the 7 habits camp. And my dad's really caring. LOL he was warning me about falling down etc. Although he says it in that harsh tone, I know he cares la :)

I'm looking forward to camps to get some thrill in ma life and challenging myself.
I hope we'll do lots of height activities. LOL. So that maybe I might just get over the fear of heights.

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Argh, seriously, my bad temper got the better of me and I snapped (quietly, inside lol).
I hate doubts (I know I'm full of it though), I hate false hopes.

I'm supposed to be liaising with hotels to do some booking for our AGM Venue, but I feel like I'm not trusted in the information I'm providing. I know where my supervisor is coming from, everything must be in black and white when it comes to office stuff. But seriously............... The emails/info are there, and yet she made me clarify stuff with the hotel manager again and again.

The thing about false hopes is that it sucks. Because right now, we're giving false hopes to hotels which we're not interested in by asking questions and more questions. I mean, seriously............. Plus there are many other companies who are interested in the venue, we should just get over and done with the discussions and give up what's needed to be given up.

Argh, my temper. Omg. I think I'm affecting my supervisor (and vice versa).
She snaps, and I snap, everybody snaps. Working environment becomes worse.

Anyway, earlier on I was reading xiaxue's blog. Slacking away and I wasn't doing anything at work. I love the way she thinks. Hahahaha. It was entertaining and fun to read.

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"Hanasanaide"

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Title: If you're interested...

You can always ask me anything about my blog posts.
I'll always be glad to share stuff. But you know, nobody asks me anything. Even for the "Ask me! Ask me!" part, I didn't get many questions :( Awwww. I was so eager to share with people!

Oh ya.. I just realise there's very few people reading this blog.
HAHAHHA. Okay, that totally explains it. Plus not everyone is really curious or interested in my life. That explains it too!

Anyway today, I had this really awkward feeling.

I went out with my ex-bestie for lunch today.

At the very same time, my mum, dad and sis went for lunch together. It felt awkward because like why am I not spending time with my family and instead, out having lunch with a friend..? My mum coming to Singapore was a surprise to me cuz no one else knows (except for my dad) and I didn't know we would have lunch together today since they didn't mention anything and I already said yes to Jie that we'll have lunch together.

I told Jie about it and he was like "Huh? Why you never go lunch with them?" Haha, he's a super family guy. I feel really weird la. But anyway, made up for it (hopefully), by cancelling my violin lesson today to send my mum off. I cancelled it because I really wanted to spend some time with my mum and family also.


You know, I always think my mum sucks as being a mum and she's not motherly at all, but sometimes, when I see how she looks at my sis and me, her daughters, with those eyes, it's that.. a little caring, a little worried look, which makes me feel.. I don't know. Indescribable feeling. A bit heartwarming? Idk! Haha maybe you don't understand what I'm talking about ._. But nevermind. It's just that indescribable feeling.

Anyway, Jie and I had lunchie at Thai Express. Haha I was craving for other cuisines other than Jap and Western. So yea, Thai it was! I heard lots of complains about his army life. Hahahahaha. I guess that won't end for the next 1 year plus until he ORD. Haha! But I like the fact that he just randomly called me on Saturday afternoon asking me "Eh you free tomorrow or not? Go have lunch." :D I love impromptu meetings. Then we just hang out awhile at TM&T1, some book stores, went Macs to get some Mcbites etc and then head home!


Last night, I was telling this person how I don't ever believe that 2 best friends of the opposite gender can be just friends without having feelings for each other (oh ya, Jie and me are exceptions of course). Unless you have like 100000 best friends (which is not possible) and then it'll be impossible to like all of them romantically la.

Cheers la~!

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All hail to GIFs.
I couldn't stop laughing when I created this. HAHAH.
I hope Cass sees this xD
It got compressed a lot :/ So click on it for better photo quality!

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I had a funny thought today (or maybe yesterday since it's 1plus already). Haha I was thinking of.. Maybe I might just get withdrawal symptoms when I quit my job at Serenity :P You know why?

I won't get to see handsome guys anymore. LOL!!
I'm just joking.

I'm not really keen in looking at handsome guys, really.
I don't have that feeling of "I-would-spazz-over-some-handsome-guy" for a long time already (I must be turning gay, lol). Not that I'll spazz previously, but I'll have that "looking-forward-to-seeing-handsome-guys" feeling.

Eh but at Serenity, really got 2 handsome guys. Hahahaha.
One of them is a gentleman and the other is a bartender (so it's cool when he mixes drinks).

Whoa, seriously, I think I'm turning gay.

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Just a random question, but what kind of music do you like to listen to when you're emo-ing?

For me, I like Rock or anything loud, to shut off my thoughts.

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One of the cheesiest lyrics ever. I just found this song today. But I kinda like the song already, so I've put it as my blog song :) I love the guitar at the start especially!

Release my soul

Oh, take a look in the mirror you look so sad
It's so cold like that winter market we used to go
I don't cry anymore but I feel so hurt

So I don't need you too close to me
And you don't hear me so you said
I don't know why things have changed since yesterday

This could be love again
All I need is you
Come back, I'm waiting, anytime
The heavy rains come
Still I miss days with you
I can't look into your face
Oh, feeling blue and looking back again
Please come back to me

Oh, take a look in the mirror you look so sad
It's so cold like that winter market we used to go
I don't cry anymore but I feel so hurt

So I don't need you too close to me
And you don't hear me so you said
I don't know why things have changed since yesterday

This could be love again
All I need is you
Come back, I'm waiting, anytime
The heavy rains come
Still I miss days with you
I can't look into your face
Oh Feeling blue and looking back again
Please come back to me

To stay with you, always
You are the world to me, and dreaming on
So you can take my sword, for you
How do you feel, so fine
You are the world to me, and dream on
You stole my heart so long ago
Oh, I release my soul
So you feel my song...

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As I was editing and uploading photos awhile ago, I realise my photos are always too yellow. I'm slacking in being a perfectionist these days. I'm too lazy to edit well, cuz ViewNX sucks since it's slow. Plus GIMP can't read .NEF and I have no other editor. Argh.

ANYWAY, NOBODY ASKED ME ANYTHING.
Please please, ask me ask me!! (about my earlier post. HAHA)
I wanna tell somebody, but nobody's asking me! :(

As I was talking briefly to the person I stalked, I realise how strict I have been with this word "friends". I didn't think that that person is my friend anymore since we're not talking to each other anymore, or we stopped being interested in each other's lives, other than in some rare occasions.

I have many many acquaintances. But tbh, I'm not so sure about friends..

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Title: ASK ME! ASK ME!

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"Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness."

Lol that's crap. True happiness comes from within.

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"If I have to lose one of my senses, which would I choose?"
I do miss someone right now, but no more that lonely-and-wanna-emo or desperate-and-i-need-to-find-people-to-go-out-with-whenever-i'm-free feeling. I don't have that "want" of meeting people. I don't mind having lunches alone (but actually I have lunches with my supervisor these days). Yup, I appreciate every single minute of the time I have for myself.

Oh yea, yesterday I was uber happy at Serenity. I was the beverage runner with Jesse! I love doing jobs related to the bar. HAHA. So yep, the night was great :D

I told some of my colleagues that I'm leaving soon and I too feel a little sad because they have been such awesome colleagues. And I'll miss them calling me "darling" and "sweetheart". HAHAHHAHA. Tbh, I like it a lot :P I like any mushy stuff said without any sense of attachment.

Lol anything with feelings kinda give me goosebumps and creeps. (Sorry that I'm such an awkward person when it comes to the human touch lol) Obviously they have no feelings for me, so it just feels nice ^^

I'm sucha darling. Hehe C:

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I was randomly looking around FB and spotted some pictures that a friend of mine took which appeared on my news feed. Omg. They are good pictures. And they were taken with iPhone.

Thinking about how I own a dslr but I still suck at photography, idk what to say. LOL.

I know both iPhone and dslr can take horrible pictures too.
So it really depends on the photographer eh?

I need more creativity. To learn to look at things at various angles and take pictures with different perspectives. Can someone give me some of your creative juices please? I enjoy looking at well-taken photos (who doesn't right. Haha). I have so many friends who seem to be able to take good shots and photos are appearing on my news feed every now and then! *totally envious* 

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Really? :)

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I haven't really emo-ed for quite awhile.

Relationships are like highlights of your life. Some remain vibrant and prominent for a long time, while some fade quickly without you knowing..

Just something random: Recently, I think short forms are cool. Like "idk", "tbh", "imo". Haha.

Cheers~!

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What is the true meaning of giving?
I think I don't understand, and I doubt I ever will.
Well, unless I attain some sort of enlightenment.

I don't know the true meaning of giving.

Because I'm always expecting something in return when I give, especially in friendships.
And when I don't, I get disappointed.

I actually wanted to sleep really early tonight. Medicine's making me drowsy and I just need a lot more rest. But because of this certain someone, I'm awake. Waiting. I know I probably should be more understanding because he's probably under certain circumstances and that's why things are like that, or it could be, he simply forgot. I don't know, I'm just a tad bit disappointed now.

I should go to bed.. and stop waiting.

"Please don't make any promises with me, because I'll always believe in you."

What a simpleton I am. Laughable isn't it?

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Haha I think I sick until gundu already.
I just realised one of the medicine that the doctor gave me was for flu. But the receptionist who explained to me what each medicine was for didn't tell me that it was for flu, until I went to check on the internet for "Tab Biogesic" and the description says flu.

I'm really bored now..

I wanna go home man. Another 3 more hours though.

I feel lethargic recently. Might be the muscle ache, might be my medications, might be just the lack of sleep. Feel like escaping to the toilet to sleep now. Haha.

"Every day may not be good... But there is something good in every day."

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Not smooth :(
Ack, but just for fun :D

"I've been dying to ask you, how?"

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Haha I have a bit of muscle ache today. From yesterday's badminton.
Shows how much I don't exercise.

And if I didn't see wrongly, when the doctor checked my blood pressure on Friday, I saw her writing 140. Which is f-ingly high. 120 and above is counted as high already. And me 140?! I hope I saw wrongly. If not I'm really that unhealthy.

The funny thing about yesterday was, people who owned usable rackets didn't bring their racket for badminton. HAHA. But managed to ask those who come later, like Jaime and TY to bring their extras.

Another funny thing. I only realised yesterday that I didn't have flu medicine. I'm sniffing every now and then. I have 5 other kind of medicine, but where's my flu medicine?! Why didn't the doctor prescribe it :( I wanna get well soon..

Work at Serenity was kinda cool last night :) I was the beverage runner with Jesse. Love it cuz time always pass very fast when you do anything associated to the bar. Like even washing the cups there makes time pass really fast and then it's time to go home :)

"Tbh, I missed you."

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Yesterday was a horrible day man..

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Something I really wanna learn:

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I'm so sick of work.
Sick of people with mood swings.
I wanna get out of this job asap. Or like naooo.

Recently, I stop thinking about having no life and being lonely. I wonder why. It's as if I'm contented whenever I am alone. Haha or probably Eat Pray Love is keeping me company me now :D


Just had a 2+ hours lunch with Confetti Lee at MOF and I think I'm gonna miss her when she goes Malaysia for the next 1+ week and then she's gonna be busy when she's back and the next time we'll meet will probably be in July?

July seems so far away, now that I mention it.

28 days to NUS Checkup. 24 days to Photog lesson. 22 days to my second-pay day. 20 days to Psy camp. 17 days to the end of this month. 15 days to my first-pay day. It feels really far away. Haha.

I look forward to school so so so much, but at the same time I don't want holidays to end. But holidays = work and I don't really wanna work. But I can't don't work since I don't have that much spare cash for me to spend all the time. Haha dilemma. Is there such thing as school + holiday? :D

Cheers~!

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Gosh, when one falls ill on one day, suddenly one's body becomes viruses attractor.
Man, I wanna go home. 1 more hour.. Down with a cold, nose is blocked, can't breathe properly, cough, bad sore throat and it seriously hurts :( I haven't been drinking enough water, have I? :(

Today's a day with some disappointment.

Disappointed that I wasn't able to meet Cass and Jerrie for lunch due to certain circumstances.
Disappointed with this certain person because I didn't think jerks existed in my life until I realise, there has always been one lingering in the background. But only until today, it got to me.

I think I have never called anyone a jerk before but I think this time it perfectly fits this certain person. I can't stand guys who two times, I can't stand guys who does/say things that make them look really desperate, I can't stand guys who force their feelings onto the girl they "like" and the more I can't stand those guys who are damn fickle when it comes to feelings and relationships. What the hell seriously. Think you can toy with girls' feelings?

I think it's because it's this certain person and that's why I'm exceptionally disappointed.

Something feels wrong but I don't even know how to express it.

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OMG WTFFFFFFFFFFF.
I AM SO LIGHT NOW.
I AM SHOCKED.

I've never reached/dropped till this weight in my entire life.
It's almost my ideal weight already. Just 1 more kg.

I am happy, sad and a bit scared all at the same time. Happy that I lost weight, sad that my thighs/legs are still big and scared about my health. Mixed feelings :S

But the amount of weight loss is quite scary............................

Or wait, is it the machine that is faulty? :x

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I needed days like that, ironically.

I always complain about how I feel that I don't have a life since I'm always working and I don't meet friends much. But today, I just feel like having the time all to myself.

And so that's what I planned for myself.

I went for morning English service (for the first time) and it was fantastic because I understood every single word. Hah. I didn't see anyone I know, I shook hands with people I never have, yea, just strangers. Strangers who give the curious look when you carry your violin around, strangers who have no idea who you are but still smile at you, strangers whom you might not even meet again and so it wouldn't have mattered what they think of you.


Past two days had been pretty packed for me. Work + meeting friends! That's why I needed a time out today just for myself to have my sacred quiet time.

Friday the few of us met to go for a book fair at Expo where Cass and Jerrie are working at. I bought quite a few books ._. I abandoned Dale Carniege for Eat Pray Love. Haha. Wonderful story. I like stories about life, about finding yourself, about the pursuit of happiness.

I realise how much I have changed in the genre I like to read. When I was much younger, I love reading Tony Abbott's Secret of Droon series. Fantasy. Then as I grew older, I started reading twisted Greek mythology by Kate McMullan. And then I went on to like stories about reality. I enjoyed reading Sing to the Dawn (Sec 1 Literature book) and I think that's when I started liking "life" stories. And I didn't like reading "A Wrinkle in Time" :/ And yea, until now, I still like reading stories about life.

I haven't read much in my whole life. And so ever since A levels was over I did try to read. I also realise that stories about life make me know more about myself. Some times they give me a sense of assurance and confirmation. Like those books breathed life into me. Amazing.

Yesterday, had vocal group practice early afternoon. Haha sang until my throat was sore. I know it's just me and my wrong singing techniques. But still, I love singing :D

Then met TY to go for PC Fair for a little while before I went to work at Serenity. I was exceptionally tired last night I'm not sure why. I haven't worked at the restaurant since Tuesday but yesterday I was just tired. Could be because I just recovered from my fever? Who knows. I'm down with a flu now. Haha suddenly all the viruses come sticking to me.

I'm sure next week will be a better week.

I started thinking about the kind of soul mate I want in the future. I tend to get very attracted to people who are very different from me, or are total opposite from me. But the talk about "compromising" and "resolving differences" are just sweet talks.

Similar soul mate, please watch me from afar and find me in Year 3 :)


Cheers~!

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There's something something something about yellow umbrellas.
I'm so gonna get one. LOL.

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Yoohoo, almost recovered today. Temperature dropped from 38.6 to like 37.1 already! Just feel a bit light headed now, but fever's probably gone!

I had a weird night. I wore jacket + put the cold towel on my forehead to sleep. Then suddenly, I went mad and took out my jacket and chuck the towel somewhere else like I was throwing a fit. LOL. And I had this dream where time travelled so fast that it was this Sunday evening already. I decided to attend church service in the morning this coming weekend and in the dream I totally missed it and the violin lesson after that and I was just left confused. Lololol.

Then this morning, I woke up feeling like I was having a hangover ._. Still a little warm and some dizziness. Haha what a funny feeling. Tonight, gonna meet some class people to go for book fair and I got scolded by the nanny. For not resting at home when I'm sick. Oops. I'm almost well already, so I really can't stay put at home. It'll make me feel worse. Just hope I don't spread any sickness to my friends since it's just giddiness.

Can headache spread? Lol.

Well, to recover, I think the best way is to stay positive.

I kinda hope to get hospitalised for being sick with high fever or whatnot cuz I don't think I've ever stayed in the hospital before ever since I was discharged after my mum gave birth to me? LOL! Okay, that was a stupid idea. Nobody wants to fall sick right.

Cheers~!

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Damn shagged now.

Running a fever at 38.4 degrees Celsius. Not too bad. But this headache is killing me. I don't know why I suddenly fall sick. I was still fine in the morning, until lunch, I suddenly feel really dizzy. And yea.. Headache = Fever for me. My eyes hurts too. Idk why though..

That was just a retarded pic for fun.

I'm supposed to have night shift today at Serenity but because I'm like that, I took a day off. Anyway hope I'll be good tomorrow. I've got quite a lot of things to settle in the office, plus I took like 1.5 off days this week already. And tomorrow gonna go visit Cass and Jerrie. So I need to be well :(

Lol I know I'm heaty that's why I fall sick. But....... Is it also because I faked my sickness on Monday just to go out with the girls and now it's retribution? Hah.

Hope my porridge cooks quickly..! :(

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I really agree how much little kind words can resonate a lifetime.

Today I visited a cobbler to have my shoe fixed. I realised I didn't have enough cash. Banks were closed and I couldn't use my ATM card. The fixing cost $4 and I only had $3+ with me. I told the uncle I didn't have enough cash and asked him about his opening hours. And he just said nevermind and handed me my shoe and let me pay him $3. The first question he asked when I said I didn't have enough money to pay all $4 was, "Do you have enough money for later?"

I was really touched.

It's just a little incident but I believe that people still can be truly kind without ulterior motives.

That warmed my heart. Haha.

Met Jerrie for lunch the past 2 days. It's great to have lunch with a friend :) Today I took a half-day off in the morning so I met her pretty early and we walked around Bras Basar looking for books and decorative stuffs for our new rooms in uni. Haha looking at books makes me feel like picking up books to read. The smell of new books, the look of new books, the layout of new books etc really entices me to read. But when I reach home uh, I don't feel like reading anymore -_- Only at that moment at a bookstore, everything suddenly looks so attractive. Covers look so nice, titles sound mysterious, like everything is so unknown and it gets me curious.

Oh yes, Jerrie wants to eat Sushi buffet. Someone please. *hint hint*

Anyway yesterday at Serenity, I had this funny conversation aka "confession" by my colleague.
We were just talking about this picture I shared on FB about love.

Colleague: I love you.
Me: Thank you.

*after awhile*

Colleague: Why you didn't give me a reply?
Me: Uh.. Thank you?

*after awhile*

Colleague: Why you still haven't give me a reply?
Me: What am I supposed to say?

*after awhile*

Me: Today is my last day. (lying)
Colleague: Really uh? Will you marry me?
Me immediately: No.

*Colleague made a heart-breaking action*

Hahahahahahah super funny la. I know he was just fooling around but yea, so seldom hear "I love you"s. You know, I really like the people at Serenity. They're peculiar people and that what makes it interesting. And I have a manager who's super open about stuff and talk about those stuff. LOL. Up to your imagination what "those" are.

Then I just thought of how I've never ever said/typed (lol) "I love you" to anyone in a romantic way. I don't believe in saying things I don't mean but I'm sure I have people whom I love. Like my parents, girlfriend, boyfriend? I don't know. I have never even said/typed "I love you" to ______ before.

Hint: Marshmallow

I do wonder if that day will come. HAHA.
Or I'll be forever in my closed up world.

I read those messages again and tears just welled up in my eyes, thinking about how blessed I was to have somebody who once cared and showed me my importance.

Still stuck in that time

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Damn, I seriously have some issues with myself.
I need to get over myself.

I received a crappy message which I refused to reply because I really feel like writing something negative. But I don't want to look bad or petty. And now because I made myself not reply, I'm constantly thinking about it -_-

Sometimes I try too hard to be perfect, I'm always pressurising myself not to have those negative sentiments. I don't know, it makes me feel sick and unnatural. Watching Black Swan reminds me of how I always want to be a saint, to be perfect, but in everyone there's always a dark side. And we often need to let go of the idea of perfectionism and just spread our wings and soar.

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Hello~ I had a great time today.
HAHA. I'm bad. I self-declared off-day today :P

We went back to TJ to collect our SGC. Haha don't feel like looking at mine.
Results sucks like shit! LOL!

We headed over to ECP soon after for Korean BBQ Buffet. I was really touched that the girls were enthusiastic about going for the buffet that I suggested a couple of weeks ago :) The food was awesome. They BBQ-ed the meat for us and we had lots of wrapped meat. Hehe. Quite fun. I love Korean food!


AWESOME BO?

Then at first I told them the wrong bus stop to alight thanks to my brilliant sense of direction :( So in the end we had to cab to the restaurant before the buffet ends.. Feel bad :( But really really touched that they were still enthusiastic about it!

Spammed meat, vegetables, photos etc :D

After that, we just sat at the breakwaters and talked nonsense. HAHAHA.


You know, it's like after school ended, I "know" more people, and I hang out with a different group of people. I'm sure I mentioned before about those that I don't talk to much during school, but now, I talk to them. That's the "know" more people part. And yep, at school, I'm usually with Wenxiu they all. But now, I'm with Emm they all. Things are kinda different now. Well, I'm not exactly part of their clique but yep, it's just different! Haha :D

Tomorrow back to work again. *moans*
But the good thing is, my schedule will be packed again, that's if I have work to do. LOL. I urgently need a soul mate. Please come to meeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Anyway, I don't ever believe in this thing called "no common topic". But I believe in "you're either interested in my life" or "you're not interested in my life". If you get what I mean.. There's so many things one can ask if one is interested in the life of another. Right? :)

Well, cheers~! :D

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Sometimes we forget what we are capable of,
and often we need reminders and assurance.

I think this is one of the most encouraging thing said.
But of course, that depends on how you see it.


Cheers :)

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I'm struggling with myself. WTF?

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You know, I always wonder how come I've been friends with my church people for the past 4 years, but I always can't feel that closeness.. Like there's something missing very obviously. I know it's me who don't open up to them. But I wonder why.

Language barrier?

Then there are those who joined Youth much much later than me but somehow can open up to people and just talk.

They are really nice, awesome, fun, not superficial, sincere people.
But I don't know man. I'm just that awkward.

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I need to find a girlfriend, urgently. Lol

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Thinking back about how I did work on Friday evening, it was meeting friends that became my motivation. At first I wasn't doing anything (other than to feel sleepy) but I realise that time will pass faster when I do some solid work. So yep, and I was typing, doing alignments, making diagrams for the remaining 60 pages of the document -_- And yea, time sure passed fast :)

I don't know. I think it's just now that I feel this way since we are not schooling, I see friends less often and I feel really desperate to be able to meet them again.

In uni, I wanna find a friend who can hang out with me everyday, talk to me everyday :P Until he/she gets bored with me. HAH. I'm so tiresome and demanding hor :D But I really do hope I'll meet someone like that.

I want a soul mate.

Can a female friend be a soul mate by the way? Not in a les way. Haha.

Oh no, I just checked wiki and this is what it says:

A soulmate (or soul mate) is believed by some to be the person with whom one has a feeling of deep or natural affinity, similarity, love, sex, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality, or compatibility.

:( So girl cannot uh....

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Title: DESPERADO.

I like the pace of today :)
With some rush, some slack, some friends, some alone, some happiness, some sadness. Almost perfect.

Got my dslr in the morning and that was a total rush since have to meet class for Seoul Garden after that. I feel super poor now :( But yay! I wanna have more fun with it. Currently I suck though, all the pictures that I took turn out........... -_- Really crisis. Owning a camera without being able to take good pictures.

Surprisingly, I couldn't eat much today! So Seoul Garden buffet wasn't really worth it man :( Then went to Joshua's house! Whoa, his room is really neat. I'm always curious about how guys maintain their room.

Then we sat down to play hearts/bridge. Whoa it's been a long time since I last played that. Haha still haven't rust though :D After 2 rounds, I had to go to work :(

I dreaded the idea of going to work man. But actually, today wasn't too bad. We weren't that busy compared to the other Saturdays.

The fun part was all the birthday celebrations :D We, the staffs, will always sing the song together, play some percussion while our live band plays the song etc etc. Heh :D Almost everyday, there will be a customer who's celebrating his/her birthday there!

Oh at Serenity, I got used to being called 'Darling', 'Sayang', 'Ayang' , 'Dear', etc etc. Hahhahaha. Indonesians/Indians/Westerners are so sweet. My colleagues are super multi-racial. Haha. I used to find that 'Dear' is like super cheesy -_- Actually I still think it is, but workplace is an exception. Lol. But I got called 'Darling' more often.

HAHAHAHA I'M SUCHA DARLING C:

Anyway, I feel very desperate now. I like today because my schedule is packed. It makes me not have much time to stop and think about people. But now that I am alone on the way home from work, I still am desperate. I wanna meet friends in the weekends :(

I wish somebody would ask me out tomorrow.......... PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE? :(

I find that I need new friends. I might just be getting all possessive in my head. I don't know, I probably just need to get busier.

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We feel for every single word said,
Lament at every fact that makes us sad but we still wanna know. Unfortunately, it seems as if only I find that similarity between us and I am just not that special someone.

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I guess that might just be the end to our story :)

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I'm such an inconsistent person.

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