Sigh, I'm kinda tired now. Just felt like sleeping.. Zzz.
After school, we had Choir practice and it didn't turn out well. Ms Lim walked out on us and the whole time we did vocal training and only till the end, we combined SYF pieces. Things are not really working out in Choir, unfortunately D: In the middle of practise, Jocelyn and me left to help out in Speech Day. We actually don't need to do much -.- The Band play very nice :D

Cirriculum time wasn't that okay D: Especially AMaths. Jorene tried to teach me Differentiation and somehow I couldn't get it and I was frustrated with myself and the tears just filled my eyes. I really can't stand it D: But this weekend, I'm gonna practise differentiation till I die. I really need to keep up with the class D:

who am i?

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People like Even week Thursdays. Cuz lessons are pretty slack.. But I don't think so yeh D: History is so not slack. Sigh I'm not catching up well. I don't understand a thing about Cold War. And today I was only 50% paying attention in class :x Cuz I was writting some notes thing for Legacy. My History is dooooomed.

After school, I had to do Library Duty. The only thing I did today was to edit on the work that I did on Tuesday and resize and print out the certificate that Sheryl and Me designed. Too relaxed. Haha but I like it this way :D

Anyway, these few days my mood have been quite bad. Maybe sometimes I don't show, but I kinda feel irritated easily (maybe it's cuz of you) Sigh. Hope my mood improves. I don't like to feel irritable and sad all the time D:

TOMORROWWWWWWWW, I wonder what kind of day it'll be.

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Woah, today's one the few days that I actually looked forward to Choir. But unfortunately, Choir practice didn't turn out too well D: LET'S ALL WORK HARD TOGETHER!

I'm sure we can do it!

A lot of people cried and when Choir ended, it was drizzling. The heavens are crying too D:

Anyways, lessons were hard to catch up (Referring to AMaths) Sigh, differentiation is driving me nuts and Ms Lee is going so fast that I just didn't even listen to what she said. I'm so gonna die for AMath, honestly. For HCL, we got back the summary test. Best. Failed -.- Physics test today was okay also. But I minus some marks le. I just wanna pass it.

in hope for a better tomorrow

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Woah, today's such a .. day

Chemistry. Sigh. Topped the class for the /40 test. But anyway, overall, Livia beat me by about 1mark i think. But so what if you top the class for the test? If overall for term1 your chem don't get A1. If you just needed 1/2mark to get that A1 D: Kinda disappointed but I expected this kind of results. Can't be helped. I'm pinning too much hopes in Chemistry maybe.. Maybe I'm just not capable enough.. I'll try harder next time!

SS. Lol. I'm not happy but I'm not too sad either. Didn't reach my target but there's always another time! JIAYOU!

Bel, Jiayou too! ♥

After school, did Library duty again. Lol slack xD Cuz Sheryl and Me only need to design a certificate for sec4 farewell. Lol, I'm like a sec4 and I'm designing my own certificate -.- Kinda weird huh. OHYA, during curriculum time, I didn't feel sleepy but somehow I just felt like switching off and not listen to anything -.-

There's Physics test tomorrow! Let's hope I can pass it D:

the reason to everything

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Sigh.. Nothing much to post about for today D:
We did Differentiation for AMath and I'm not catching up too well. Need more pratise! JIAYOU! We had quiz for Physics too. Screwed D: Cuz I didn't do revision. Geog also.. I kinda gave up for Geog a little D: Vivi, shikari! D: Don't break up into pieces D:

After school, did Library Duty. Sigh, there's duty again tomorrow D: Almost everyday cuz I needa make up for those duties that I missed D: This is what you call play first and SUFFER later. Lol xD I just wish that it's the holidays now T.T

I was watching 12 Kingdom episodes that Livia gave me. Lol I don't quite understand it yet. Maybe I need to watch more episodes. I wanna do Chem homework le! Byebye

the uncommon things we share

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I realised that after CA week, I'm relaxing all day long. I have been completing homework at the very last minute and there's test tomorrow and I haven't started revision D: I'm really not in the mood to do anything. I just wanna rest cuz I'm tired D:

In the morning, I was reading mangas! Since yesterday night, I've been reading nice mangas :D I like the one called 37 degress celsius boyfriend. 3 chapters only. Quite short. But the story quite cool! :D The love they potray is pure love! Super sweeet :D

pure love and kisses are ever so sweet

Afternoon, had churchie. Lol I didn't understand anything that Ci Yu Yun talked about. Lol my malay is hopeless. omg. Anyway, it rained at Dhoby Ghaut. No umbrella. Ahyi and Mei waited at the church while I went over to Plaza Singapura to get an umbrella. I seriously hate the rain D: Church finished at 4pm usually and we will take a train down to Tampines' Century Square to take a shuttle bus home from there. But today, cuz of the rain and I had to buy umbrella, dragged a bit of time and so we couldn't catch the shuttle bus which arrives at Century Square at around 5.07pm.

When we were at the Dhoby Ghaut station, I asked Ahyi if she wants to alight at Bedok or Tampines. And she said Tampines. Then I told her that it'll be too late to catch the shuttle bus and I asked her where we alighting again(Usually if we know that we'll be missing the shuttle bus, we would have alighted at Bedok) She SCOLDED ME -.- What the hell luh?!! When we reached Tampines, Ahyi asked me to buy dinner and they waited for the Shuttle Bus while I just took 65 home -.- I wanted to treat her to something nice to eat cuz it's her birthday today but she just pisses me off all the time D:

Argh, I gotta do homework le! Byebye D:

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORENE! :D

Today started out bad. I was in a super sad mood cuz of the auditions thing and Xin Yu asked me to meet her in the morning to go to school together and once again she's late. I didn't scold her or anything cuz I'm really tired of everything already and I'm not in the mood. During Choir, we sang the 3songs and just like yesterday, I couldn't sing the low and high notes occasionally cuz my throat haven't recovered yet. There were auditions. For today's, if you fail, means you're really out of SYF le. I really tried my best just now.. But, my voice is really bad. So if I can't make it, there's nothing more I can do.. I'll prepare for the worst and hope for the best then!

Afternoon, I met Xin Yu at Comic Connection. Woah, first time she earlier than me -.- She's super indecisive luh. She kept asking me which stuff she should buy -.- Better still, don't buy. Save money and save time -.-

After that, violin class again! I love classes :D But today uh.. Did finger exercise and we pratised playing open strings again D: Lol, but Ms Xiao helped us to paste the stickers le! Just now I tried playing D, E, F#, G.....etc and I could! :D Yay (: A bit tiring to play the violin D: Lol fingers and neck tired and pain. Haha but I still love it cuz it's fun :D I'm looking forward to next week's! ^.^

I gotta help my dad so some stuff le! Bye :D

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I finally gave out the V-Day gifts! It's feels really nice to give out and receive presents! :D
sometimes i really wish that i was in love
Anyways, today's a fun yet disappointing day for me.

Fun:
We celebrated Jorene's birthday at school. Advanced birthday. Got a cake for her and she received lots of presents. Hope she feels happy :D

Disappointing:
1. I didn't do well for Geog. Maybe I'm expecting too much? I shouldn't make such targets like wanting to get A1 for certain subjects. Cuz ultimately, I don't reach it and I can't do it. I'm scared to set goals D: I'm afraid of disappointment D:

2. I failed Choir auditions again. Teacher haven't announce it yet but I know it. Cuz I saw the list. I don't know what I am supposed to do now. There was this moment where I thought I should just give up cuz no matter how hard I tried, things are the same and I don't make a difference to anything. Even without me, life just goes on and nothing changes. But I happened to have bad sore throat since Wednesday morning and in the afternoon choir practices, I was airy and I sounded really bad. But I didn't tell the teachers about it cuz I thought I should just do the auditions on Wednesday and not wait till Saturday..

If I get a 2nd chance and go for auditions tomorrow, I bet I'd still fail cuz my throat hasn't fully recovered from the bad sore throat which started on Wednesday morning. My throat don't recover that fast, unfortunately. Today, during Choir, I couldn't even sing the low notes, what more the high ones.. I didn't sit down though, cuz everybody's trying their best and I ought to give my best shot also.

I really wonder what I should do..

Life is really a bed of roses. These difficulties I encounter are like testing my level of perseverance.. I hate it so much. I hate my life. I wish something would just go right.. I wanna give up everything. I don't want to study, I don't want to sing, I don't wanna breathe anymore.. Thinking of all these just makes me wanna cry and drop dead.

I guess I should work harder? Will it even work? But that's the only way.. I'd rather be someone who's strong and face the bad results that I get to improve on them rather than cry and brood over it so much that I start to switch off when people are correcting my mistakes.

SMILE, VIVI! YOU CAN DO IT TOO! :D

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Today's a fun day, I thought :D Although a bit suay also luh. Cuz Ms Lee gave us back our AMath papers and I made stupid mistakes. Kinda feeling so.. indescribable. We also got back English paper. Lol!! Single digit fail yeh! Long time never see it already. If it's normal comprehensions we practise in class, I usually get single digit, no surprise. But for CAs, I will get a border-line pass it or at least near there. But this time, it's CA, which is counted for term1 and I got a single digit.. WOW. Best marks you can ever get -.-

For Chemistry, I a bit disappointed luh. Cuz my A1 confirm no more already D: Sherlynn said that Mr Goh said that either Livia or me get highest. But I know myself best luh, confirm Livia get highest. The top for our class is 31/40 -.- And I need 31/40 to get my A1 but since I'm not the top, I lost the chance of getting A1 -.- Sigh D:

After school was where the fun started! Livia, Jocelyn, Jing Yi and Me went PP to get some stuff and also had lunchie there, while waiting for Jorene to finish her rem.

In the bus, Livia started nodding her head(I forgot what the reason was) and she said she ate yao2 tou2 wan2 (some kind of drug, for those who don't know)

Me: But you're nodding your head. It's not yao2 tou2 wan2.
Livia: Okay luh, then dian3 tou2 wan2.
Me: Where got such thing de? Okay I go be mad scientist and make the dian3 tou2 wan2.
Livia: You don't have to be a MAD scientist cuz you're already mad. You just need to be a scientist.

-.-

Then we came back to school. Livia, Jorene and Me went Bugis to shop for Jorene's birthday present! I like the present I got for her :D I think it's very nice!

Jorene uh, you don't have to worry about the price. Cuz it's the thought that counts and I really don't mind buying you such a birthday present! :D

Livia couldn't decide on what to get for Jorene. We kept asking Jorene what she wanted and she like no answer de lor -.- Haha xD But in the end, we still got buy something for her :D BUT walked around Bugis Juncs for quite a while. Lol cuz this Jorene uh, was being so indecisive on choosing her present! xD Lol!

Feeling a bit tired now. Headache. Sigh D: And I also got muscle ache cuz of PE the other day D: Haven't fully recover yet D: There's Choir again tomorrow! JYJY!

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Lol. Today, we had 3 free periods. Lol Hui Qi, Xin Fang, Joyce and Me used one period to play BINGO. Very fun! :D But I didn't fully utilized the free periods that we had. I could have done Physics or Chemistry homework, but I didn't D: Cuz I was doing something else..

There was Physics Mock SPA. The drawing of graph part was screwed up -.-

After school, we had Choir. It was auditions. Sigh, we sang Itsuki and I screwed it up.. I wonder what the results will be. I really think that I won't get into the SYF group D: Cuz I'm not good enough. I'm bad D: And today morning, when I woke up, I kinda lost my voice and it got worse during Choir cuz have to sing very high parts D:

OHbytheway, I haven't deliver the V-day gifts (what day is it today? -.-)

Also, for the past 2 days, I've been watching Shugo Chara! ILOVEIKUTOTSUKIYOMI! He's CHO KAKOII and so is his seiyuu! But his seiyuu not very popular luh.. He's not like Romi Paku who's super famous for being seiyuus of Hitsugaya, Tao Ren, Edward etc. But he's still cool :D

something to look forward to

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HEEELLLOOOO. I'm feeling kinda guilty now. Cuz I haven't deliver the V-day gifts. It's like belated of the belated V-day already :x Today, for PE, we did netball shooting. Sigh, it started of with running 2 rounds around the school D: I don't like to run -.- Anyway, for the shooting. I can't even shoot any balls into the "net" LOL! I seriously suck at it xD

We had Chinese Summary test. I slept for about 5 minutes after I completed it. I think it's my first time sleeping during lessons, although the teacher is not teaching. I'm really sleepy D: I should go to bed earlier today!

The last period was SS. We got back our SS paper! I was awesomely happy with my results! Cuz I didn't quite expect that kind of results since I thought that things will turn out like last year where I wrote wrong links and stuff. I'm really happy anyway, cuz I have high hopes for SS and I'm glad that my hopes were not dashed :D BUT. My SBQ no hope already luh D: Inconsistent.

After school, went Parkway with Xin Fang and Joyce to get stuff. I couldn't find the thing that I was searching for D: I'm gonna stop here already.. I'm feeling VERYVERY sleepy right now >.<

i love the pure affection that you are experiencing now

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YESTERDAY, got church! Sigh.. It's one of those days where I wasn't in the mood to listen to anything. And the the guy who did the talking said something disturbing and it totally affected my mood for the whole time at church. BUT the songs that we sang yesterday were really nice :D The Youth Choir also sang ^.^ OHYA, before that, in the morning, I was watching SOUL EATER! Awesome! At least better than Naruto and Bleach, who's having filler episodes. Roars. 

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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

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HEYO! School was just as per normal luh.
PE was fun! Cuz we played badminton :D I hope next week can continue! For Physics, we did a little activity on electrostatic thing. Interesting! Geog and Chem was kinda indescribable. For both periods, there was some sick talk. Lol cuz it's V-Day (EVE) And I got "punished" cuz of that.

Lol! Bel and Zoe started it xD
I'm not gonna mention the word that I asked Bel about. Let's substitute it with "watermelon"
Zoe said some things to Mr Goh and then Mr Goh asked her to stand at the back of the class xD Then I was asking Bel about "watermelon". I kept asking her but Bel didn't reply me. Lol, I asked about 3 times and Mr Goh thought I was emphasizing on the "watermelon" and in the end, he punished me also. Lol, stand at the back of the class.

Joyce was like, "Woah vivi, first time uh"
Before that, Bel also said, " This year you very playful orh"

But I couldn't help but laugh about all these nonsense. It's super funny xD

After school, had Choir. Thank god I memorised White Horses. Um, but sometimes a bit here and there sing wrongly D: NEEDA IMPROVE! And my vocal production still sucks. The louder I sing, the tone gets worse. I'm screwed. It's a high chance I won't get into the SYF group anyway, since I'm all bad and stuff D: I'm already trying my best, but if really I won't make it, then there's just nothing that can be done anymore. I know a lot of people think I suck and don't like me luh, but I won't mind.. Cuz I'm just me and I'm not gonna be affected by the little little discouragements. There's Choir again tomorrow! LJY! :D

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CAsAREOVER.CAsAREOVER.CAsAREOVER! Like Finally!
Lol Yesterday, didn't use my lappie cuz had to rush to complete Geog notes. Yesterday we had EMath and History paper. EMath paper killed me. I died and revived again. History was okay. The question that I predicted came out but I couldn't really remember the points very well. So I don't think I will do well for both papers D:

Today, AMath and Geog. AMath was easy BUTBUTBUT SUPER TEDIOUS. Workings were very long. I didn't have time to finish up 2parts. That's about 3-4marks gone. It's alright.. Geog was okay. If you study, it should be okay. I did study, but a bit last minute, so I can't really tell how I'll do for this test D:

I'm just so relieved that CAs are over.. But there's upcoming CAs in the next few weeks also. But at least it's small tests.. So not so stressful. 

School was kinda funny today xD I think I laughed too much D: A bit siao already. Little things also laugh. I must be too stressed up that I needed a good laugh. Lol xD The thing about LJY was the funniest. I created that like yesterday I think. And it's super useful xD

Lee Jing Yi, Let's JiaYou

Everytime I write LJY! on the board, people will laugh. Lol I wonder what's so funny about LJY that makes us laugh. Maybe it's just plain lame that it makes people laugh -.- Lol and Livia will have that kind of annoyed-at-me-expression while she erases the LJY! on the board xD

yay

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I'm relieved. Finally both Science papers are no more :D

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Lol. I'm at lost of words for Chem paper. 

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Woah, I'm like super busy again today -.- I'm to blame anyway. For Procrastinating. For the whole morning, I did Physics. Afternoon, went Churchie. WOW. Today's the only session that I understood what the pastor was talking about. Well, I understood MOST of them. Not all though. Cuz he spoke english sometimes and he did powerpoint slides which was in ENGLISH too. Lol xD 

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Today's a SUPERDUPER busy day for me! In the morning, had Choir practice. I rushed out of the house and forgot to eat my medicine D: Actually, I wasn't supposed to sing. But it's been a long time since I sang and my friends who are sick, are even singing. So I thought I should just sing too. Practice didn't go too bad.. Lol 2nd row got praised some more. Haha first time. I'm touched T.T That's about today's practice. Just that I didn't really had the mood to do anything

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Today uh.. Okay day bah. Throat got better but still coughing D: GETWELLFASTER! I can't eat junk food and everything D: Since Tuesday morning D: So long le, and I'm taking really long to recover. I had like nose bleed on Tuesday morning and my whole throat was super pain. That was the start of me getting sick D: I kept wanting to get sick. But now that I'm ill, it doesn't feel good at all actually..

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ARGH. Today's an Okay day. Just felt like giving up sometimes. For Chemistry especially.. I like the chapters that we are tested on next week but there's some stuff that's not getting into my head and I feel so hopeless, seriously.. My A1 seems so far away D: Also, I screwed up SS Test. I have a feeling that it'll turn out like last year's FYE paper where I got 6/12 for one of the question D: My A1 seems so far away once again D:

We also got back our Binomial Test paper today. Good marks. But I'm neutral about it cuz I lost that mark due to carelessness. I shouldn't have been so careless.. D:

After school, went Gramercy with Xin Yu to get violin! Yay :D I bought one already and I'm excited about lesson this Saturday! :D Saturday, please come faster! We then took 31 to Tampines Interchange where we parted ways after we alighted. I went Yamaha to register :D I'm done and all ready! ^.^

Actually, Saturday shouldn't come faster. Cuz if Saturday is here, that means the CA week is gonna start D: I'm not prepared for any subject D: HOWHOWHOW?

My sore throat recovered a little. Less running nose and cough. Yay. the medicine that my Dad gave works! But my throat still hurts. Sadly, I can't eat chocolate, chilli stuff, the new year cookies that I have at home D: And this morning, I even ate plain bread. Lol and it didn't taste bad anyway. Haha. I think it'll be the same again for tomorrow.. Lol plainbreadhereicome

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HELLO. I feel dead right now. Cuz I just finished memorising SS stuff and I still tend to forget some lines D: Anyway, I'm sick D: Running nose, Cough, Throat Infection T.T I ate medicine just now. I hope it gets better by tomorrow D: I also didn't sing for choir today. Really cannot make it luh. Lol my leg muscles and bones also hurt cuz of badminton yesterday. Lol too long never exercise le xD OHYA. There was Binomial Test just now D: I lost about 2 marks already D: MsLee's gonna give us back the test tomorrow. I shouldn't have been so careless >.<

Oh anyways, there was auditions yesterday. OHgosh. Worst thing ever. I screwed it up man. Also, Chinese test -.- Don't wanna talk about it. Lol cuz there's nothing much..

That's about it luh. Sad and tiring day..
One happy thing: I'm starting lesson this Saturday! :D

to let others not catch your weaknesses

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Ohgosh. Today's one of my busiest days D: Cuz of Chemistry and Physics homework. Chemistry QA worksheet was really hard (I thought) and I took very long to complete it. Physics homework was just as difficult >.< So I finished up with those worksheets. I did what I can anyways. There's binomial test tomorrow! Jiayou!

Sigh gotta memorise SS stuff le! Byebye D:

please search through deep down in your heart

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HEYO! We got back quite a few test papers and quizzes today. EMath, AMath, Chemistry and Physics. I'm really happy about my AMaths paper and EMath SD test :D

thank you for jiayou-ing all these while (:

But I guess that I gave too much luck for those two tests and I didn't do well for the others. Kinda disappointed with Chem results but I'll do much much better for next week's! JYJY! Physics at least passed but still, I can do better!

After school, Jorene came over to my house downstairs and we did AMath Binomial Revision together! I thought it was productive cuz I did quite a lot of questions :D I practised Binomial from 4plus till 9. I hope it would help in the tests coming up. But I'm still not too sure of some stuff.. D: Kinda worried. That's about it for today!

i saw you desperately fighting for it. 
but i didn't know you were like that,
lacking integrity. the sad reality

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HEYOHEYOHEYO. Today's a pretty normal day for me!

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