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Yup, my title for this post is 'Happiness with a tinge of sadness' :) It explains my feeling right now.

Well, the happiness probably outweighs most of the sadness.

So, I've got my internship. A very underpaid one. Haha. Nonetheless, I'm thankful for the opportunity. Although I was initially bitching about how they're actually not interested in hiring me because of how they dragged things, change this change that etc. But well, after turning one big big big round, I'm back to the internship that I first applied to. And I really hope that I'll get to learn a lot, help a lot, 付出 a lot, and receive a lot. And of course, rest a lot.

Taking a break from school huh. I'm really looking forward to it very much!

My internship contract is ending on 18 Dec :) Guess what, I am able to go Laos in the year end! Hope that I'll have the money! As I said, I'm underpaid hahaha but hope that I'll be able to save some money! This is what made me super duper happy! Because I was afraid that internship will end late December or even January. and then I wouldn't be able to go Laos to maybe join the Hak 15 peeps. But now I know that I can, as long as I have the money to, so I'm very happy :)

Well, the sad part is that Ni Yi said that he's not LOA-ing anymore. In the first place I was determined to take LOA because of him. I wanted to graduate at the same time as him, I wanted to work 'together' with him (not really in the same office, but work during the same period as him and perhaps see how our interactions will change based on our working schedules). Yup, I just wanted to do it together. But oh well, people have change in their plans. So that's just life.

In a year's time, I'm gonna see all my hons batch mates graduate. And I'll still be in school. They'd be going for their grad trips, finding jobs, and yup, I'll still be stuck in school. Now I'll really be alone. Well, unless Emmeline does LOA too. And I do hope Jac is taking hons. Is she?

And then I'm gonna graduate half a year later than my batch mates. They'd all be working, no time to take leave to go overseas, or more like they can't since they just started working, or one by one they'd start getting enganged maybe. I don't know, but I do know that I'm gonna be alone.

I dreamt of a grad trip with NY, I dreamt of that little insignificant future. I guess I should think of alternatives. Travelling with friends would be fun (if there's anyone who's is graduating at that time) or travelling alone would be cool!

There there, I shan't be sad.

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Woohoo! I survived mid week! Super looking forward to the submission of my last report, which is on Monday! :D And then I'm probably left with a music quizzie and Finals! *excites*

I just concluded a music project/presentation yesterday and I think everyone in the group can pretty much agree that ours sucked the most out of everyone's presentation. We thought another group could have been worse than us, but nope, we were the worst, in fact. The lack of effort in the slides, the lack of effort in communicating with each other, the lack of effort in trying our best basically. And of course I'm at fault as well. Honestly, I want to put in the effort for the project. But seeing how most people were not responsive during discussions or in the WhatsApp chat and then there's some people who just don't care a shit, I decided that I didn't want to step up too much. I dare say that I stepped up sometimes. But yea, just not all the time. And maybe it's partly my fault that I didn't step up enough and hence the group plummeted to the state that we were in.

I guess I just didn't want to be the only person who "cared." Honestly I was rather excited about the project, excited about the places which we could possibly visit to obtain information etc. But yea, seems like no one was with me. And seeing the lack of enthusiasm in people, I had this "give up" feeling to try to influence people to be interested.

It's my first time having group mates like that. I'm not sure if it's because the group is too big - 9 people, or we just have sucky dynamics as a group which made us like that. I don't know.

Our tutor gave us 3 weeks to complete this project. We spent the first week trying to get everybody's contacts. The 2nd week to settle the date for our first meeting and then the 3rd to really meet up. The first meet up that we had was the most most most awkward meeting that I ever had in my entire life (no exaggeration, I think). Period.

Initially, we thought of going to sit in for Orkestra Melayu Singapura's rehearsal, visit exhibitions by the Malay Heritage Centre and attend a wedding. In the end the first two could not be fulfilled as we were not allowed to sit in for their rehearsals and somehow the exhibition was no where to be found. And as for the wedding, I can only smirk.

Nearing the day of the wedding, 4 of us agreed to attend this wedding. On the very day itself, I was alone. I got pangseh-ed basically. I am thankful for going to the wedding alone in fact - because if there was a lot of us, there'll be more stares from the people at the wedding definitely and it might be difficult to ask people questions as we'll be pushing one another to kick start the conversation. However anyway, I was not very satisfied with one of the reasons given for not going to the wedding.

At first Girl A said that she can't make it because she had a practice with her tutor at YST. Okay valid. Then Girl B said (on behalf of her friend, Girl C) that because XX (the girl who found the contact for the wedding) was not going, they don't know how to go to the place, so they just decided not to go, and do other stuffs instead. WOW. That's the most ridiculous reason because I am an Eastie, and I definitely did not know how to go to anywhere in Yew Tee (the wedding was there). BUT BUT BUT, I have something called Google Maps and I have something called the mouth. It's as if they don't have them -_- So ridiculous. They're nice people, I know, but this kind of reason uh.. Really cannot la. Really disappointing because they are tertiary students, and not some elderly or small kid who might not know how to use maps or ask people for directions. Just plain ridiculous.

ANYWAY, the wedding was great! It was my first time going for a Malay wedding! Took some pictures and video-ed down some music that were being played as well! I couldn't talk to the musicians as they were playing non-stop while I was there for that 1 hour or so. But I managed to ask questions to a middle-aged man, I think a relative from the bride's side. He was really friendly! :)

I think this music module allowed me to get out of my comfort zone quite a bit! Like going up to talk to musicians at performances, talking to audiences etc :) It's cool.

That aside, I'm also finally done with Thai Oral today. Jerald and I got a very difficult topic, and I believe that the other topics were also difficult. I don't know. I think I kind of screw it up. I just hope the writing test and listening quiz on Friday will be okay for me!

Today, I completed my portion of the Thai Project Report and surprisingly, I managed to churn out 3 pages worth of Methods and Results from the Thai survey. This report is supposed to be 10-12 pages long which means that each of us will write about 2-3 pages. Intially, we were all afraid that each of us couldn't even reach two pages. But somehow, as we wrote, we did manage to write at least that much! HAHA and by 1.07AM (the time now), we're almost done with our report for submission on Friday! Also somehow everyone all did the report at around the same time - it was not planned at all. Hahahaha.

It's cool :) And also also somehow, our parts are not overlapping each other as well, when I read through the report. I feel quite touched that we're so efficient in writing the report.

Okay, that's all folks!

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Hello everybody! I haven't blogged in a month! Sorry. Or maybe not, since not many people read my blog anyway. HAHAHA. Anyway, usually when I don't blog, it usually means that I'M DOING SUPER DUPER FINE :) And I guess I'm a little busy as well.

It's been a crazy semester for me. With a lot of nonsense CAs and project work. Haha but I think I'm coping very well :) Surprisingly well in fact. If it was my two-sems-ago-self, I am surely crying now. Hahaha. *gives myself a pat on the shoulder* I don't think I could cope with stress well previously. But now, I feel like I'm stronger and I feel a lot in control of my work progress.

I also don't feel the need to be over-worried or stressed about the many things that are coming my way, as long as I feel that I'm in control of my schedule. So, this is my next week's schedule:



Even though it's really a hell lot of things, it'll all be fine.
As long as I don't procrastinate. I will clear the things that I can clear earlier so that next week I don't need to feel so stressed up by the workload! This is what I mean by being in control of my schedule; I know what I need to do at what time - that's all that is important to me I guess.

Hope everyone is coping fine too!

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