I'm off for a month to Laos, Vietnam and Japan from tomorrow night onwards!
Don't miss me too much.

Ciaos~

&the pages keep turning.

Hi. I've ended exams quite awhile back and I've been spending time with friends, enjoying myself and resting my brain after the exams too. And then off I go to Laos, Vietnam and Japan! It's been a great week and I'm thankful to be able to hang out with many friends an ex-colleagues. I'm really glad that I forged friendships with people whom I used to work with and even though not all of them are my age, somehow we still share common things and we can talk about stuffs. And they didn't forget about me even after I left!! HAHA.

It's been such an eventful week :)

But today, I was exceptionally emotional the whole of today. I feel a little bad for KY & NY today when I was out with them because I didn't feel like talking, I didn't feel like smiling, I didn't feel happy. Emm and NY's gotten a job offer and it's absolutely awesome for them and I know I should be feeling really happy for them, but in turn, I felt upset about my own progress in terms of my job hunting and that I'm not getting job offers/interview opportunities; I felt hopeless, clueless about my future. And I compared myself to them and felt bad about myself. I always preached about not comparing oneself to others because it's just gonna create unhappiness - yes, social comparison is making me unhappy now - but today, I did it, again. Sometimes I do make ridiculous comparisons, for example, during my first month of work when I barely had enough practice, I compared myself to a very experienced colleague who has worked there for years and felt sad that I'm not good- I know it's ridiculous but I still do it? My point is, I tend to compare myself with people who are at different phases in their life and I feel sad about it - and sometimes, that's just a ridiculous comparison. It's as if I'm rushing myself, needing to keep up with others.

Back to the thing about jobs. I know that all I want to do is rest now. So why do I succumb to pressures of applying for jobs from myself and others? Just because others are getting jobs why must I have one soon? Why can't I take my time to explore and look around more... or even rest more? Why must I feel emo about myself when people are getting jobs whereas I'm not? Why compare?

But remember you're on different journeys ^^

I have to thank this girl @gingertreat for reminding me of this. THANK YOU :)
You made me feel better today *much loves*

&the pages keep turning.