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Saturday 26 July 2014
@20:50
Recently, I'm really into reading romance books. If you've got any to recommend, please tell me!!
Anyways...
I was really excited blogging about the surprises I had in the past 2 weeks. But argh! Kinda lost the excitement, although I still wanna blog about it. I should have done this earlier D':
On 16th July, Lim Pin and Jasper messaged me to ask me out for dinner. This in itself is a huge surprise for me. It was out of nowhere and very sudden! Jasper told me the reason why and of course, I immediately said yes to both of them. Had a nice chat with both of them, with many emotional turmoils for Lim Pin and I think Jasper is someone who can console very well. Thanks to his aunty-naggy side maybe? Haha! I do admire this about him! But ahem, he dropped hints about celebrating my birthday. *coughs coughs*
Then on 17th July...
WE ARE ONE YEAR OLD! Haha. Who? Ni Yi and meeeee! ^^ Teehee.
And I came home to see a plant-looking-display (?) thingy. Hehe a pleasant surprise from this boi. He just has to up the level of gifts. HAHA! Even when he's in Israel, he sent me stuff to my home :O And all I did was a card and photos inside a envelope for him to open when it's our anniversary.
Came 18th July...
MY MOIST HEAT CLASS ENDED! WOOHOO! And I can't believe I managed to cook a fairly good carrot cake. Of course with a little help from the trainer :x We cooked 10 difficult (to me they were damn difficult) dishes in 4 days! And the 5th day was assessment.
Then at night, met my JC classmates for dinner and then headed over to Joshua's house. My lovely classmates tricked me in a card game. Joshua handed cards to everyone and the person with a red card will have to do stuffs. LOL and I stupidly raised my hand. Apparently everyone had a red card. HAHAHAHA. And yep, I got to paint Han Ren's fingers with the nail polish. And I can't remember if I painted his face as well. And I got to pinch his chubby cheeks damn hard just to make sure that it was him. HAHA! It was fun. Then they asked me to touch this cold metal container and asked me to guess what it is. Guessed that it was a cake and then they sang me a birthday song. Hahahaha.
The sleepover was quite a simple one. Played a drinking game (with plain water) which was freaking hilarious and watched quite a few movies throughout the rest of the night. Really happy to see so many people turning up for this outing. Not as many people stayed overnight, but at least many went for dinner and went to Joshua's house to chit chat/play for a bit before making their move. I miss 24/10 dearly :')
20th July...
Had a nice family dinner at Dian Xiao Er! I love family dinners :) I simply simly simply love big family gatherings. And we celebrated my birthday, in advance cuz my real birthday falls on a weekday where everyone had to work! Seeing how we cousins grow up so fast.... It feels quite unreal. My cousins are 2 years older than me. Just awhile ago, they were all still schooling, and now they're working already and they bought me a nice jewelry from Tiffany & Co with their own pay. And soon it'll be my turn to go into the workforce. How scary..! And now my cousins can give me lots of advice on school and work. So it's nice talking to them also :)
23rd July...
It was a lovely day filled with many surprises :) The day started out not so well though... I was kinda gloomy about the fact that no one asked me out for breakfast or lunch and I suddenly felt like I really have very few close friends D: And so I was working that day. I'm really glad I chose to work rather than rot at home though. Because I have my awesome colleagues there! Haha. So I felt good being at work because the work environment is ever so pleasant.
During the elderly lunch treat, there were volunteers from Emtech that day. My colleague briefed the volunteers on the do's and don'ts in English while I tried my best in Chinese, which obviously sucked lol. And then she introduced herself, she introduced me and said that it was my birthday. Then everyone clapped. LOL! Towards the end of the elderly treat, two volunteers tried to pull me to the front. I was wondering what was going on at first but I eventually figured it out when they fervently tried to make me stay at the front. Then the volunteers and elderly sang me a birthday song :D Hahaha quite a blessing for elderly to celebrate my birthday with me heh!
After that was lunch time, my colleagues gave me chocolates as gifts and they bought me this huge macaroon (acting as a cake). It was really huge. And they made me ate it myself. WTF HAHA SWEET DIE ME. And at around 4 plus, the trainer that I'm currently helping suddenly asked me to enter the meeting room. He said there was something important to discuss and then I just went in without suspecting anything. Lol suddenly more colleagues came in... LOL!! I knew it he was up to no good. Yep, there were three other colleagues who prepared the cake behind the portable white board (not very obvious but I just know they were gonna do something) and then everyone sang birthday song for me. Ahh I feel so touched.
That trainer actually got scolded by the GM :/ GM said he showed favouritism. I apologised to the trainer but he was cool about it and just said "f**k it, it's your 21st birthday." Awww... I'm touched, but I really didn't want anybody to get into trouble because of me :/
After work, met Wen Yi and Angsana friends for dinner!! :D
Well, the night before told me "Hehehee we 二人世界" I half believed her and half-know that she would actually ask other people for the dinner but I just played along with her anyway. HAHA! So on 23rd night, I met her at the korean place where we were gonna dine at. Quite lucky that it wasn't crowded that day so I just chose a seat at the front. I honestly didn't know there were seats behind, so I didn't suspect that anyone would be there. I thought my angsana friends will just randomly come from don't know where. And then as we were deciding on our food at the counter, the sales person/waitress said "your friend call you" and lolololol, the angsana people were sitting behind the counter! HAHA.
Received a pretty sunflower from Carol!! ^^ She knows I adoreeeeezxasdf sunflowers :D
A very pleasant surprise to see all of them cuz it's been a while I met these old peeps!! So there was Abigail, Carol, Ivan (even he came!! :D), Keren, Lina, Royston, YY :D Apparently Wen Yi asked the old seventeen peeps but the rest weren't free/overseas ba! But ahhh, I love this bunch of people and that's why my Angsana life was so so so so damn awesome. I miss my Year 1 so so so so much because they made it so so so so homely for me. And I have to thank Wen Yi for being such an amazing neighbour. Without her, CAPT life wouldn't have been so enjoyable and memorable :) Perhaps I gotta thank the management for putting her as my neighbour! Haha!
Then when I got home, guess what I sawwwwww. A freaking huge box. HAHA I opened to see a hugeeee bearieeee that my dearie bought for me! So adorable!! :D :D I was very excited to sleep that night. Haha!
Cute right? :D
Wishing myself a great adulthood ahead :)
&the pages keep turning.
Wednesday 23 July 2014
@08:04
Today's my birthday so I really need to cheer up! And don't let any thing, any thoughts, any actions make me feel any less happy. Cheer up cheer up cheer up!
&the pages keep turning.
Wednesday 16 July 2014
@21:46
I'm only good at crying.
For the past few days, I've been attending Moist Heat class. This cooking class that I'm attending is like an enrichment that the company asked me to go for. So we cooked about 3 dishes every day. First day 1 dish, yesterday, today and tomorrow will be 3. And there's aaaaaaaaaa looooooottttttt of preperation work for every damn dish. No kidding.
Day 1: Chicken Rice
Day 2: Steamed fish, Radish cake, Cantonese congee
Day 3: Braised Duck, Curry chicken, Teochew porridge
Day 4 (Tomorrow): Lo mai kai, Braised chicken, Steamed paiku
It has been very very very tiring for me for the past three days. Even more tiring than my proper internship work. I don't know whether I'm qualified to say I'm tired because I mostly help with the preparation of ingredients and I seldom cook/fry the stuff.
I think I'm just not used to cooking/preparing food... But anyway... I think cooking is really not for me. I'm not used to handling bloody meat or fishes. And the smell... Omg I know I'm like a bimbz :( But I still must say that I can't stand the sight of bloody meat or fishes. And then we have to clean the chicken, duck and fish insides which were........ I didn't clean them, but I stood at the side to watch how the others cleaned the insides. I think I have a very weak heart when it comes to bloody stuff :( I was really grossed out. I was still feeling okay yesterday, but today, I think I was at my peak, I genuinely wanted to vomit at the end of the class. When I smelt meat or fish (before we cleaned up the area, there were still the fishy rotten smell) I felt so nauseated.
I was still okay at the wet market this morning. Only towards the evening, I couldn't stand it anymore...
Couldn't stop crying when class ended today. I felt so frustrated and especially tired today. I really hoped no one seen me crying because I feel embarrassed that I'm crying over a cooking class. Merely a cooking class.
I kinda regretted going for this class. Cuz class goes on from 9am to 4+pm. I have some stuffs that urgently needs to be done by next week but there's cooking class everyday for the whole of this week, until Friday, which means that I have really very little time to do up what I'm supposed to do. And this task is not simple at all. I'm trying to go to work earlier this week and perhaps come back on Saturday to finish it. I don't know... But going to work earlier means sacrificing some of my sleep :( Sigh. And I really need a lot of sleep. Maybe that's why I'm more easily frustrated these days which led to my crying.
During this class, there's 6 of us, so we were split into two groups of three. So in my team, there's a lady, very experienced in cooking and another guy who's interested in setting up his curry chicken stall. So I did try my best not to burden them (because I have like almost zero experience in cooking) and let them experience the cooking themselves since they signed up for the course to learn, whereas I'm just "forced" to go for the class.
I honestly wanted to learn more about cooking when I agreed to join the class. Because no doubt it's a useful skill to have. I entered the class feeling very excited about the cooking. So I asked quite a lot of questions on why must add this add that, or how I should cut a certain ingredient etc. But it seems like I'm a burden. The lady team mate told my colleague "Why every group must always have at least one person who doesn't do anything." Or something close to that. It's not like I didn't help prepare :( So I just brushed that comment off. And then towards the end of the class, I was sitting down cuz I was tired while she was washing up the equipment that was used. Then she told my colleague (which my colleague conveyed to me soon after), "Why that girl just sit there and don't help." Something close to that. And my colleague told me that she's not very happy and that I should quickly help.
Sigh, so just like that, I'm in her bad books. And a burden to the team cuz "I didn't do the cooking" and "help with washing up." I usually help with the washing up after preparation, but it's only just now that I happen to be sitting down, resting. Maybe I rested too long :/ I was really exhausted at that time though.
I think I didn't expect that we'd do so many dishes (aka do a lot of prep work) in one day. I also didn't expect to cook that many meaty/fishy dishes. I really can't stand the sight of bloody stuff.. So I wasn't mentally prepared for it at all.. The cutting and preparing of ingredients by the other members were faster than me also. I'm the one who's a burden cuz I'm still getting used to holding a knife and cutting up the ingredients slower than the other members (I am improving though). Most of the time I couldn't keep up with the pace of the class.. The cooking demonstration went by really fast as well. So I just felt really overwhelmed by everything.
I feel very frustrated. I want the cooking class to quickly end... I don't want to burden anyone. I hate this. I really do.
&the pages keep turning.
Thursday 10 July 2014
@10:54
&the pages keep turning.
@10:36
THE THREE ODDEST WORDS
When I pronounce the word Future,
the first syllable already belongs to the past.
When I pronounce the word Silence,
I destroy it.
When I pronounce the word Nothing,
I make something no non-being can hold.
- Wislawa Szymborska, The Three Oddest Words
&the pages keep turning.
Tuesday 8 July 2014
@19:21
I wish I was trained in handling kids with special needs.
I do understand that sometimes these kids carry with them some sort of emotional baggages. And it could result in all sorts of behaviors, such as attention seeking, self harm, closing themselves up to others etc.
But sometimes I wonder, what exactly is the best way to handle them? Be stern with them when they make the same mistakes again and again or when they engage in some sort of attention seeking behaviors repeatedly? Or should we continue to speak to them in a soft spoken voice, empathize with them?
I'm starting to doubt the latter, I'm afraid that that could spoil the child and the child may continue to try to gain our attention just because we have always given our attention to him/her (you know, it's like a reward system that reinforces itself. You like attention, hence you seek someone who will give you that attention. And once that person gives you the attention, you'll yearn for more attention because it is rewarding and hence you exhibit more attention seeking behaviors)
I don't know man. But at the same time, if we're stern, what if we hurt the child's feelings/self-esteem? We're accountable to the parents and we're accountable for his/her future growth.
I don't know man. But at the same time, if we're too nice, what if once they step out into the society, nobody treats them that well? Because the child has always been in this protected environment where we are tolerant towards the child's behaviors, he/she is allowed to make mistakes and still get encouragements, and everyone is kind to him/her. But in the real working world, not everybody is that nice and some will not even try to understand his/her emotional baggages or empathize with him/her.
So where should the line be drawn?
&the pages keep turning.
Thursday 3 July 2014
@20:53
Gahh. I wanna blog about gender barrier.
But my English is really no good. So I don't quite know how to express my thoughts.
I'm pissed off now though.
&the pages keep turning.
