Ohmigooooshhhhh. I'm super duper looking forward to the end of Week 5.
I would have cleared most of my heavier presentations by then and then I'm gonna be left with Stats paper, IEM papers, 2 IEM presentations and Week 9 Comm leadership presentation. I hope that's all and that teachers don't suddenly tell us that there's gonna be a new presentation. I'll die. LOL.

I'm clearing 3 presentations by Week 5 :D But it just means that I have to work harder now because I've got two presentations coming real soon, with all the Hak'13 stuffs, elections stuffs, SF stuffs, practising my violin for mass on 7th Sept and a social life (if this is still something that I can afford to spend my time on lol).

Week 3 just ended and the week has been a slightly relaxing week (compared to Week 2) after I finished up SF documentations on Tuesday. I finally had the time and choice to nap and relax a little throughout the week, work at the helpdesk and just do my normal routined work like reading readings :)

But oh no, week 4 wouldn't be like this anymore :O

Kill me.

Anyway, my mood hasn't been very good the past month. I need to manage my mood better than this. I think even though others can't tell that I'm irritated (or maybe they did realise), I can feel that I'm quite angsty inside. Sigh, I'm not handling my stress very well, am I? :(

Is this some kind of trial? That's why I'm so busy these days. To learn to manage my time and stress.

I've been enjoying my lessons by the way! I kinda like the modules that I'm taking! Especially Abnormal Psy, Developmental Psy and the Vampire mod. They are really awesome :D It's kinda seldom that I don't dread going for class. Haha!

&the pages keep turning.

It's only second week of school but I've been really busy the past 3-4 weeks.
I feel kinda overwhelmed by the amount of workload at the start of this semester.
I don't know. All I want is just a moment to not think about work.

And relax.

&the pages keep turning.

So, this very LOLOL thing happened to me a couple of days ago while I was at TPY.

As I was walking,

*Guy tapped on my shoulder*
*I turned back*
Guy: What is your name? I think you're beautiful.
*I looked left and looked right*
Guy: No, I'm talking about you.
Me: Is this some kind of a dare?
Guy: No. What is your name?
Me: Vivi.
Guy: I am Simon. *shook my hands*
Me: Uhm, I am attached by the way. Just saying.
*Guy rolled his eyes, turned away and walked off*

HAHHAHAHAHHAHAH. Seriously, he rolled his eyes. I remembered he was an average looking guy, wearing this plain white shirt which says "DEPRESSED". I bet it's some dare. But I never thought I would have this kind of prank played on me. Because I'm not pretty or cute at all. Or maybe that's the reason why I got pranked on :P It was a funny experience anyway. Haha!

Anyway, back to my reality.

I just came back from Angsana camp. I'm still sleep deprived until today. A total of 17-20 hours for 6D5N of camp, inclusive of Day 0. Not that they don't give us enough of sleep or the activities end crazily late but it's just that the OG will choose to htht, or I have admin stuff to settle etc. But I must say, it's one of the best experience that I ever had.

I vonlunteered to be the OGL, so what came with me in this role was the admin work. And I remembered during the meeting with the OGLs from black house with Chings, Chings asked us to think about what we're good at so that perhaps the other members can better complement us. And yes, I am very fortunate that in our team, the other councillors complement me very well, and I think that's how our OG got really bonded.

None of the freshman knew each other prior to the camp, but at the end of it, we're really bonded and I dare say even more than the other OGs. And it's all thanks to our councillors, some were good at cheering, some were good at playing ice breakers, some were good at talking nonsense and making people laugh. And I guess, I'm just good at admin work and hyping up the people with my camp energy level (even with lack of sleep) :)

I said "camp" energy level, because I'm seldom this high in my daily life. Haha one of our freshies said that I'm "rar rar." Hahahhaha. If she sees how I usually am, she'll never think that I'm rar rar. Cuz I'm usually kinda low energy (except when I get excited) and I don't cheer loudly or cheer much when asked to do cheers. It takes me a lot and a lot of effort to bring my own energy level up, what more to others, but I know I'm capable of doing so.

I used to wonder, if low energy is my real self, does making myself be in a higher state of energy make me less "me"? And this is what SF helped me realise. We're not being less of ourselves, we're just discovering new sides of ourselves and what we could be. For many of us, we're not born a facilitator, it takes us a lot of energy to stand in front to lead. So when we are really in the role where we have to lead, it makes us tired, but at the same time, at the end, when the fruits of the labour are borne, we know we can do it, and we can be a leader, and I guess that's my source of comfort.

Anyway anyway, I feel blessed that I have an awesome team to work with and that our freshies are a dynamic bunch as well :)




There's just so many things to be thankful for everyday :)

Oh! And I'm looking forward to checking in tomorrow :D I'm looking forward to a new semester in Angsana, reuniting with my level mates and knowing this new bunch of people even more :D *eggcited*

&the pages keep turning.